sleep in your heart

You Zeyi suddenly wondered whether discriminating against minorities is considered a human inferiority.

Just like homosexuality, it's obviously not something harmful or unethical, but every time it is mentioned, it always seems to be ridiculed.

He didn't know if Ning Lu was gay, and he didn't think there was anything special about homosexuality, but he felt very uncomfortable when everyone mentioned the word "gay" or contemptuously or unintentionally when talking about Ning Lu. .

"How do you know he's gay?" You Zeyi lowered his head and looked at his toes.

"They all said that." Zhou Tong bumped into him, "What are you thinking about? Come here!"

You Ze raised his head and followed Zhou to stand inside the team.

In the first physical education class of this semester, when standing in line, everyone naturally lined up according to their height. Zheng Zhi was tall and stood on the far side. Grabbed and stood together.

The physical education teacher also knew that they were not in the mood for any physical education class, so they simply said hello, took a roll call, and then let them run around the basketball court twice before disbanding.

You Zeyi didn't like sports, and after running these two laps, he was so tired that he was panting. As soon as the teacher announced his dismissal, he immediately ran to sit in the auditorium on the side.

There are two basketball courts in the activity space on the third floor, that is, four baskets. When the boys play together, basically a class will only occupy one basket. You choose to sit near the auditorium of his class , was surprised to find that Zhou Tong and Zheng Zhi were present at the same time, and he thought that the two of them were so incompatible that they would never play together.

He sat there and sighed, feeling a little bored. He turned his head and found that those who didn't play basketball either went downstairs to play table tennis or found an open space to play badminton. Study in the corner.

He didn't bring any practice questions, and he didn't have anything to play with. Apart from Zheng Zhi and Zhou Tong, he didn't have any other acquaintances, so he really didn't know how to pass the time.

"Are you also from Class 13?"

You Zeyi was drowsy, when someone suddenly spoke beside him, he woke up with a jerk.

When I looked up, I met a pair of eyes that were a little red. Those eyes were pretty, but they looked like a little rabbit at the moment.

"Ah... yes." You Zeyi stuttered a bit in surprise, because the person who came to talk to him turned out to be Ning Lu.

Ning Lu smiled at him, showing a pair of sharp little canine teeth: "Then can I sit here with you for a while?"

You Ze nodded, and watched the other party happily sit down as if he had gotten some advantage.

"I don't think I've seen you before." Ning Lu stepped on the back of the unoccupied chair in the front row, leaned forward to tie his shoes, and asked You Zeyi with his head tilted, "Or are you too low-key? "

"I just transferred here this semester." You Zeyi hesitated for a moment, but said frankly, "I'm repeating my studies."

Ning Lu puffed his cheeks and nodded: "That's pretty tiring."

"It's okay." In fact, he was very tired, but You Zeyi felt that he had no right to complain.

Ning Lu finished tying his shoelaces, sat obediently on the chair, and then kept his eyes on the direction of the boys in class 13 who were playing.

You Zeyi didn't pay attention to it at first, but then he felt that something was wrong. He suddenly remembered the rumors about Ning Lu being gay, and thought that this guy might be a boy from his class, right?

You Zeyi also looked towards the basketball court. There were so many people, the most conspicuous one was Zheng Zhi, who was tall and handsome. He took off his school uniform shirt and changed into the one they wore when they met outside on the basketball court. jersey.

If Ning Lu had someone he liked, probably there would be no one else except Zheng Zhi.

Thinking of this, You Zeyi suddenly felt a little awkward, but he couldn't tell why, who liked whom, who was gay or straight, in the final analysis had nothing to do with him, but when he thought of others secretly Focusing on Zheng Zhi, he seemed to be a farmer whose vegetables were being targeted by others.

But then again, Zheng Zhicai is not his family's food.

"That," You Zeyi felt awkward sitting like this, trying to find a topic, "Have your eyes...were you crying?"

"Ah?" Ning Lu was a little surprised, as if he didn't know the condition of his eyes at all, "What's wrong with my eyes?"

"That's right, it's a bit red." You Zeyi realized that he really liked this Ning Lu, although his behavior was indeed a bit feminine, but who said that a boy must be strong and brave?

Or, his "liking" for Ning Lu is entirely out of pity, but a good-looking boy is always being talked about behind his back, poking his spine and saying things that can't be put on the table, can he let people Do you feel bad?

But after feeling sorry for others, You Zeyi will also think about himself, he himself is still struggling in this almost vacuum life, what right does he have to feel sorry for others?

Hearing You Zeyi's words, Ning Lu took out a small mirror from the pocket of his school uniform pants in a daze, looked at his eyes and said, "Oh, I have to take off my glasses!"

Only then did You Zeyi realize that his red eyes were not from crying, but from contact lenses.

"Wait for me!" Ning Lu stood up and ran down like a rabbit, then went straight to the bathroom.

You Zeyi leaned against the back of the chair and looked at him quietly, thinking that this boy is really cute.

He looked at Zheng Zhi again, and a thought popped into his mind, if Zheng Zhi was gay, what kind of boy would he like?

Of course You Zeyi knew that Zheng Zhi could not be gay. He still remembered the girl he saw at the school gate that night. He was just curious, and suddenly wanted to know what kind of person Zheng Zhi would like.

You Zeyi didn't wait for Ning Lu to come back, but instead waited for Zheng Zhi.

Zheng Zhi, who played happily for a while, was covered in sweat, holding a tissue that someone gave him in his hand, and walked to You Zeyi while wiping his sweat.

You Zeyi was a little nervous watching him sit down, after all, he was still imagining that he was gay a minute ago.

"Why don't you play anymore?"

"Take a break." Zheng Zhi said, "get out of class is over soon. If you are too tired, you will be sleepy later in the self-study class."

You Ze nodded in understanding, took out a pack of tissues from his pocket and handed it to Zheng Zhi.

Knowing this, Zheng took out a piece of paper, opened it, and covered his face directly.

"By the way, I saw you were with the boy from the liberal arts class just now, do you know each other?"

You Zeyi felt that this Ning Lu was really a god-man, even Zheng Zhi knew him.

"It doesn't count, he just came to ask me if I was in class 13, and then sat for a while." When You Zeyi answered, he remembered the look in Ning Lu's eyes when he looked at the basketball court just now, that was clearly looking at what he liked people.

"You know him?" You Zeyi was inexplicably nervous when he asked the question, but he couldn't explain the reason for the tension.

"I know him," Zheng Zhi said, "he is my classmate's cousin."

Zheng Zhi's answer did not make You Zeyi feel at ease, because no matter what, Zheng Zhi still knew Ning Lu.

Zheng Zhi is a person who seldom cares about others, and being able to remember Ning Lu shows that Ning Lu is special to him.

You Ze lowered his eyes and began to think wildly, the more he thought about it, the more he felt that something happened between Ning Lu and Zheng Zhi that he didn't know about.

"By the way, I wanted to tell you just now." Zheng Zhi took the tissue off his face and turned to look at You Zeyi, "The test results this time don't mean anything, but they sounded good to you. A wake-up call, let you know where your shortcomings are, so even if your grades are not ideal, it is still good."

You Zeyi didn't expect him to mention this suddenly, and his mood, which had finally relaxed a little, became depressed again.

As soon as he mentioned his grades, he felt like his heart was being grabbed by someone, he was out of oxygen, and he was going to die.

"I know," You Zeyi's voice was deep, obviously lacking energy, "but... I just feel..."

He paused for a moment, hesitating whether he should be too frank with Zheng Zhi.

"It's good to have a little pressure." Zheng Zhi said, "It's better than mispositioning yourself and eventually leading to failure, just like me more than a month ago."

"Ah?" You Zeyi turned to look at him.

Zheng Zhi smiled indifferently and said: "It is just an excuse to say that you are not performing well. Only those who are truly capable and confident will not happen. Experience the beatings of life a few more times, understand yourself correctly, and then step by step This is the right way in the world!"

You Zeyi seldom heard Zheng Zhi talk so much, except that this person talked a little more when he was giving him a lecture, he hardly ever saw him like this, and he didn't know what this self-mockery meant, but You Zeyi Zheyi still interpreted it as comfort from Zheng Zhi for his own selfishness.

"I just feel sorry for my...family members." You Zeyi still had some reservations in the end, instead of saying "aunt and uncle", he replaced it with "family members".

"This is the first monthly exam, and the battle has just started." The bell rang suddenly, and a physical education class passed so quickly. Zheng Zhi stood up and stretched, and said to You Zeyi, "Actually, you As long as you are worthy of yourself every time.”

After Zheng Zhi finished speaking, he took his school uniform shirt and left, leaving You Zeyi to ponder over his words over and over again.

"Old You! Let's go!" Zhou Tong, who was covered in sweat, stood under the auditorium and called him, "I'm going to buy water, are you going?"

You Zeyi stood up, walked down and said, "I'm not going, you're sweating all over, stay away from me!"

Zhou Tong and You Ze fought and went out, and Ning Lu, who didn't come back after taking off his contact lenses before, saw that his place was taken and didn't go there, looked at them not far away.

There was a text in the previous textbook, Zhu Ziqing wrote "The excitement is theirs, I have nothing", Ning Lu looked at the two people who were fighting and leaving, and suddenly felt very pitiful and lost, like a piece of paper that was abandoned candy wrappers.