Fragmented

People around me, those so-called relatives told me that I represent the new expectations and hopes of my parents, and no one except my parents understands why this family should be burdened.Together with my young brother who started to take care of me, I don't know if he resents this new life for taking away half of the parents' care, but I can really feel that feeling, that love.Just like my name—Yu, my name is Ye Yu. "玙" is often used to refer to a virtuous or virtuous person or a beautiful woman, but I have nothing to do with either.

"Are you okay by yourself? Dad and I may not be able to come back this month."

"Oh, it's okay, I'm fine, don't worry," I put down the mouse and reached for the phone.

"Be careful by yourself. Don't lie in bed all day long without eating. Your stomach will be starved. We are no longer by your side. You should pay attention to your studies."

"Understood, you can rest assured."

"Well, then we hang up."

"Oh" finished, I put down the phone, and picked up the mouse.

I can't remember when I rarely saw my parents, but my brother was moving in what he called his ideal direction.Everyone is working hard, only me, I don't know when to stop, and start to stay alone in the same place, people's shadows pass by me, I look at the busy faces, maybe it's a hallucination, at a certain moment, there is Eyes of a clear blue that I've been attracted to and chased, leaving a lingering gray.Now that my high school career has begun, I began to yearn for the complicated crowd, the life full of laughter and fights, but loneliness is like a drug, I was deeply poisoned by this poison, and I couldn't get rid of it.Hypocrisy is my mask, silence is my disguise, crying is my cowardice, everything is to fill a certain blank in my heart.

The moment I first came to school, I was always tired. I squinted my eyes, just looked at my deskmate doing homework, and looked at her strands of soft and clear hair. Through the dark brown hair, the warm sunshine Reflected into her eyes, there was another light.At this moment, my heartbeat became deep and fast, she turned her head to look at me, her shallow smile hid the sweetness in her deep dimples, I was so drunk that I forgot the rhythm of breathing.

I want to throw away all the past.

"Ye Yu, let me go." Gu Nianyu said softly and patted my back.

"Oh" I stood up, my eyes stayed on her, she looked at me with a smirk, and read a few words, but I didn't hear clearly, my ears always have problems at critical moments, she seemed to be Say 'excuse me' or something.I haven't slept since she left, she should be back soon, I looked in the direction of the classroom door.Through the window, there was a boy who looked tall and a girl who looked smaller. Gu Nianyu stood between the two, smiling happily, laughing loudly, like a child seeing candy.I stood up curiously, stared at her, and walked towards the back door.

"Sorry." I said softly, not sure if the person in front of me heard it. "This should be yours." I interjected.

"Why did you give it back to her?" Gu Nianyu said to me in a reproachful tone.I stared blankly at her expression, it was really a good expression.

Suddenly, a piece of sushi was stuffed into my mouth.

"Thank you, I was sorry just now, my friend looked at you like that, would you feel uncomfortable?"

"Fortunately, maybe I'm used to it."

"Really, my eyesight is better, I can see it at a glance." She seemed to be announcing something proudly.I smiled and just looked at her.This is the first time we have had such a long chat since we became new tablemates.