[Net King] Letter from Sanyuan

"Yukimura-kun, for the outcome of a game, the important thing is the result. But the question I asked you, the result is not important. If you just want an answer, I can tell you anytime."

"So, do you want to choose this outcome?"

Yukimura Seiichi looked down at the water in the kettle sprinkled on the budding flowers, recalling what Yui Takei said yesterday in his mind.At that time, although Qing Xia's eyes fell on him, what he saw was not him, the eyes were so deep that he had never seen before, and the emotions contained in them were beyond his comprehension.

Almost subconsciously, he rejected the answer he'd been wanting to know.Perhaps it was Qing Xia's performance that made him keenly perceive that if his answer was yes, all the efforts he had made before would be in vain, and it would be impossible to take any further steps forward.

What exactly does Qing Xia care about...

Yukimura Seichi went to the nearby wicker chair and sat down, put down the watering can, took a book on the table and put it on his lap to read.However, after reading it for a long time, I couldn't see a word. The words in the book can always turn into the picture of the question at that time in the end.

After a while, Yukimura Seiichi took out his mobile phone and opened the mailbox, and looked at the saved emails again.Different from the anticipation and warmth of the first time, and also different from the urgency to find out the truth the second time, Seiichi Yukimura reads slowly and carefully, even if it is an email with few words, it will take several minutes Take time to sort out the information conveyed inside.

Seiichi Yukimura has actually memorized the content of the email, but every time he reads it again, he always has a different feeling in it.In the past, he would have the feeling that he was getting closer to Qingxia, but now he only has the feeling that the distance is getting farther and farther away.

Yukimura Seichi stretched out his hand and rubbed his forehead, Qingxia refused him to bring up those emails representing the past, that is, she stripped off the past, does it mean that he should forget these emails together?But, no matter the past or the present, don't they all belong to Qing Xia herself?Then he put the past together and wanted to see a complete Qingxia, what's wrong?Why must he give up the past that was very important to him?

"Seiichi, why did you sit under the sun for so long? Be careful to damage your eyes." Yukimura's mother originally brought desserts to her son, but she saw her son reading a book under the sun. Thinking about the time when her son came out, she couldn't help telling him road.

Hearing his mother's voice, Seiichi Yukimura felt a little relieved, and smiled, raised his head and turned to Yukimura's mother, saying, "I haven't read a book for a long time. I'm thinking about something, but I can't figure it out."

Yukimura's mother understood her son's invitation, she put down the dessert and sat next door, "What's the matter? Tell me and let mom help you refer to it." Obviously she was in a good mood when she went out yesterday, but she was depressed when she came back.

Yukimura Seichi closed the book on his lap, looked sideways at his mother, and said in a confused tone: "It's about the pen pal I mentioned last time, I thought I met her, and she would be very happy to accept it." We re-acquainted and became friends in reality, after all she gave me a lot of encouragement in the email."

"She denied being a pen pal?"

Yukimura Seichi shook his head and continued: "She admitted it, and she didn't deliberately avoid me at school, but she just refused me to get close to her, and even rejected the past when I mentioned the email. I asked her why, and she Tell me to make me think about who to be friends with. Mom, she is the person who wrote me the email, and the person I am with now is also the person, is this question really necessary?"

Yukimura's mother didn't give an answer right away. She felt from her son's reaction that the boy attached great importance to this matter, and naturally also felt how much he cared about that pen pal.When she heard her son talk about a pen pal before, Yukimura’s mother only helped her son analyze his avoidance in dealing with things from a bystander’s perspective, and didn’t think about what kind of person this pen pal that his son valued was.Seeing her son worrying about the same girl over and over again, she felt a little curious about this girl.

Although her children still have many deficiencies in the eyes of adults like them, she is very clear that her son is trusted and relied on among her peers. Many ideas and methods of doing things are relatively mature, but now There was a girl who completely ignored Jingshi's advantages over her peers, and it seemed that Jingshi suffered a lot of setbacks.

Yukimura's mother went over these thoughts and asked, "Seiki, what kind of girl is your pen pal?"

"Calm down and be self-reliant." Yukimura Seiichi replied without any hesitation, and the next moment, he added to his mother, "Before I met her, I read her emails, and I thought she was passionate and passionate about things she liked. Longing for a girl with a warm heart. After meeting, I can no longer feel these things in her, only her strangeness to me.”

"So, this is the reason why you didn't want to admit that she was a pen pal?" Yukimura Seichi nodded, and Yukimura's mother glanced at the book put on the table by her son. It was a French book signed by Cyrel Gazo collection of poetry. "Jingshi, you are a smart kid, but sometimes your smartness can lead you into misunderstandings."

Yukimura Seichi looked at his mother incomprehensibly. Yukimura's mother smiled gently at him and explained: "You think that the person who writes the email and the person who gets along with you is her, so the question asked by the other party is yours." I think there is no difference. But do you know, Jingshi? With the existence of pen pals, you can use your truest self to face the person on the other end of the email, or you can only take out a fraction of yourself, or use Completely fake yourself to communicate with a stranger."

"You don't want to distinguish, because you can't let go of the memories brought to you by email exchanges. If this is the case, wouldn't you care more about a pseudonym that only communicated in text, rather than the real person who lived in front of you? Then, Facing a person who wants to go back to the past, that girl's non-response is the best choice for you and her."

"But, it's obviously her..."

"Jingshi, if you can't think clearly about the difference and want to get an equal response from the other party, that is irresponsible to her and to yourself."

After saying this, Yukimura's mother got up and left, and Yukimura Seichi, who was left behind, stared at the poetry collection beside him in a daze.

If he wants to get Qing Xia's response, he must give up Qing Xia's part, but Qing Xia's emails are not fake, they are all part of this person.

"Yukimura-kun, I did what I did."

"Yukimura-kun, staying in the past will only burden yourself."

Suddenly, two sentences that Yukimura Seiichi once thought he understood flashed through his mind, and then it was as if something exploded inside, and some things that were ignorant before gradually became clear.

"I have done what I did" is not what he thought he was showing, it should be that when the other party was still Qing Xia, he had already done everything he could express his love for or could do. "Staying in the past will only burden yourself" is not what he thought, he became a burden that the other party wanted to get rid of the past, but the other party abandoned Qing Xia's past, and took the identity of Yui Takei to live in this strange world. live in the world.

Yukimura Seiichi pulled the corner of his mouth and smiled bitterly, and opened the title page of the poetry collection with one hand.He has been unilaterally confining Takei to Qingxia's world, thinking that he can see clearly, that both of them are part of this person, so no matter which part he wants to miss, it won't affect him. The person's approach.

The fact is that Qing Xia is only a small part of Takei, and what he is nostalgic for and unwilling to accept is the part that this person expressed in the email to let him know, and Takei Yui is everything to this person.If he can't get rid of Qingxia's shackles and see a complete bamboo well, the part he is obsessed with is just an illusion.

Yukimura Seiichi, who straightened out all the key points, only now truly understands what Yui Takei's question represents.If Qing Xia was still his attachment, he would not go to Zhujing to pester him after he found the answer.If not, he shouldn't take Qing Xia's past to ask Zhujing to respond to his past Qing Xia.

Takei, Takei Yui...

Yukimura Seiichi stood up and gently closed the poetry collection, the smile on his face faded away the haze that was hidden.

He has found the answer.

The author has something to say: So, Yukimura’s mother made another get with a divine assist. In other words, when I wrote this chapter, I almost got myself into Qingxia and Zhujing and couldn’t get out 233333333

Then I saw that the column was closed, I love you guys, you are all little angels in the healing department~(≧▽≦)/~

PS: If you feel a bit dizzy after reading it, you can read this chapter for a second week and try it out