diseased bone

After recuperating for three full months, Chu Shao was barely able to get out of bed until the begonias in Lingmu Garden began to bloom again.During these three months, his subordinates, soldiers, as well as court officials and nobles from Zhongyang all came to visit him.

Chu Shao couldn't bear the loneliness, so he lay on the bed for three months, almost going crazy.There was no one in the room that day. After waking up, he tried to get out of bed and walked a few steps. After finding that nothing happened, he went out enthusiastically, intending to find a rest.

In the early morning, the Tang flowers in Lingmu Garden were in full bloom, and he walked slowly through the flowery garden to the study room where he usually goes most often.

However, the study room was not closed. The rules in the prince's mansion are strict, no one dares to break into Feng Xie's study room without permission, so he did not defend himself, the door was open, Chu Shao knew his habit, and he could deal with it with the door open. During political affairs, I look up at the begonias outside the house to make myself feel better.

He thought to himself, and looked around, and found that Feng Xie was standing in front of the desk writing.

He tiptoed in, intending to startle him, but he didn't expect Feng Xie to raise his head before he approached the desk.

"You...why did you get out of bed?" Feng Xie seemed a little flustered, he quickly crumpled up the piece of rice paper he was writing on, and threw it into the ink basket under the table, "On... gone?"

"Excellent." Chu Shao secretly paid attention, he approached a little closer as if nothing had happened, and said with a smile, "I've been lying on the bed all day, but I'm so annoying, I'm here to find you...Brother, what did you just do?" What are you writing?"

"It's nothing, it's nothing serious." Feng Xie coughed twice and said, "Although it's spring, it's still cold, you'd better stay in bed for a few more days, and when you get better, I will You go out for a walk together..."

"Okay..." Chu Shao replied, but suddenly got down, picked up the rice paper he had just thrown in from the ink basket, and ran out of the house grinning, "What are you writing secretly? What happened early in the morning is definitely not a political matter, I want to see..."

"You..." Feng Xie didn't realize it for a while, and when he regained his senses, he hurriedly chased after him, but it was too late.

Chu Shao had already run to the door, unfolded the crumpled rice paper carelessly, and said with a poor mouth: "What time is this evening, the boat is in the middle of the boat. What day is it today, I have to be with..."

Feng Xie suddenly stopped in his tracks.

Chu Shao couldn't read anymore.

At least he won Zhongyang's literary champion, how could he not know the meaning of this poem.

He Xixi tonight, rushing in the boat.

What day is today, I have to be in the same boat with the prince.

To be ashamed and disgusting, not to be ashamed.

I was so upset that I learned of the prince.

There are trees in the mountains, and the trees have branches, and the heart is pleasing to the king... You don't know.

Vulgar and vulgar love poems, even when he was talking poorly with a beautiful girl, he would not use such a vulgar line.

But what kind of emotion in the world is not vulgar?

With trembling hands, Chu Shao looked at the rice paper in his hand again and again. He didn't know how long he had been writing it. The whole paper was densely packed with small letters, with almost no gaps. In the lower left corner of the rice paper, he found He wrote his own name.

His eyes were full of verses, almost engulfing him in an instant.

There was a bang in his mind, he looked at his smiling face, his red eyes after he was seriously injured, and the tears poured back into his heart salty, bringing a strange sense of dampness and coolness.

Feng Xie felt that he was a little unconscious. He collected himself, and it took him a long time to say the first sentence, his voice was a little hoarse: "I've finished reading? After reading it... just give it back to me."

"Give it back to you?" Chu Shao raised his eyes to look at him, with an inexplicable emotion in his eyes, "Brother... has nothing to say, do you want to tell me?"

Feng Xie lowered his head, avoiding his gaze, his voice was a little trembling, but he still pretended to be calm: "I have nothing to say, you go out."

Chu Shao stood on the spot staring at him, but didn't move a step, her tone was stubborn, like a child: "I don't!"

"Then what are you doing here?" Feng Xie pressed his eyebrows, feeling his head throbbing, "What else do you have to say to me?"

He felt that he had reached the point where he had said, and if the other party could understand his embarrassment a little bit, he would immediately turn around and leave.Unexpectedly, Chu Shao took another step closer, and sat down at the desk like a fool: "Yes."

Feng Xie closed his eyes, feeling a sharp pain in his heart.

His feelings for him... were too vague. In the dark, when he first met him since he was a child, he felt that fate had bound the two of them together miraculously.Later, this feeling brewed into guilt, concern, connivance, and gave birth to other things, which gradually grew into a towering tree with luxuriant branches and leaves.

I feel heart-beating every moment—the young man hugged his waist, crying with tears in his eyes; reunited after a long absence, he gave a hug more charming than his lover; Fascinated, he felt that he would really kiss her regardless.

It's not unreasonable, but he himself really didn't understand what kind of emotion it was at first, he thought about it over and over again, until that chaotic night on Chunzhou Terrace, he finally figured it out thoroughly.

That kind of feeling... I want to protect him all my life, so that he can show a bright smile all the time; I want to always be like now, with no barriers between my hearts, be honest with each other, and never separate from each other; I want his eyes Li can only see himself, only showing a gentle look for himself... He doesn't only like men, it's just because the other party is him, as long as it's him, it doesn't matter whether it's a man or a woman.

But people's desires are endless, as long as there is a beginning, it will be hard to stop.

So this is just a thought.

He is the crown prince of the great seal, carrying the hope of thousands of people and the foundation for thousands of years, and he is the only bloodline left by the Lie Wang, a young and promising young general... Such shady emotions are too dangerous. Careful will pull both of them into the abyss.

Chu Shao had already walked behind him, he even heard the other party's rapid breathing, Feng Xie took a step forward in a daze, and said to himself: "If you don't want to go, then I'll go... ..."

Before he finished speaking, he felt the boy behind him hug him.

The slender arms wrapped around him, and the smell belonging to the other party overwhelmed him instantly, Feng Xie froze immediately, and didn't even dare to move for a while.After a long while, he turned his head sideways, just in time to bump into the face of Chu Shao, who was lying on his shoulder and close at hand.

With those long and narrow eyes that were always deep and affectionate, he whispered in his ear: "Brother... Where are you going? I don't want to go, and I don't want you to go. Don't you want to know what I think? ?"

Feng Xi froze in place, even when he was hosting the Shuanghua Festival and standing in front of the world, he had never been so nervous.

Chu Shao leaned against his neck to smell the sandalwood fragrance on his body, her voice was low and sounded affectionate: "Brother Prince said before that he would always protect me...but I have heard that His Majesty will protect me for you... , I’m going to give you a marriage, and when you and I get married, have a family, and stop being together every day, will you still stay by my side?”

Feng Xie struggled twice, but the other party's arms hugged him tightly like iron, and he couldn't even break free: "Let me go..."

"Don't let go." Chu Shao didn't allow him to struggle, lowered his head resolutely, and planted a light kiss on his lips.

Feng Xie was stunned for a moment.

After a long time, he turned his head away in embarrassment, his voice was painful and hoarse: "Do you know what you are doing?"

"Of course I know." Chu Shao buried her head on his shoulder and said aggrievedly, "I know, my brother likes me, and I like my brother. I just want to keep you and let you not leave."

"You are the only bloodline of King Lie. I am the crown prince of Great Seal. I bear such a fate. What right do I have to say, say..." Feng Xie was a little out of breath, he lowered his head and muttered dully, " Besides, what kind of feelings do you have for me? You were just too lonely when you were young, but after being with me..."

"If you say that, why didn't my brother used to be too lonely?" Chu Shao interrupted him angrily, and said stubbornly, "I only know that I like my brother and want to be with him... I was afraid of offending you before. , dare not say it, since my brother has the same thoughts about me, why not? I am also worried recently... worried that I will be one step late, worried that you will be given a marriage and let me move out. Great, I finally know your thoughts, I will never leave you for the rest of my life."

Feng Xie was knocked dizzy by these words, and stammered: "Don't you like...you like girls? General Xiao Chu's reputation as a romantic is known to everyone in the world, so why bother to be with me? Make up such a lie?"

"This matter has nothing to do with men and women." Chu Shao let go of his hand slightly, grabbed his shoulders and turned around, staring straight into his eyes, and said seriously, "I just like my brother, I like you—whether you Whether it's a man or a woman, whether it's poor or poor or rich, I'm happy with it."

Feng Xie took a few deep breaths, still avoided his gaze, and left the study in chaotic steps.He stumbled back to his room, locked the door, leaned against the cold carved door frame, and sat down slowly.

After thinking about it for so long...it turned out that he had the same thoughts as himself.

For a moment, he didn't know whether to be happy or sad, and he didn't know what kind of attitude he should put on when we meet next time. The "I like you too" that he said easily from his mouth just now was like a mantra, filling his mind over and over again. .

He frowned and hugged his head in pain. He didn't know how long it was before he heard someone carefully knocking on the door: "Brother...you can come out."

Did not hear the answer, Chu Shao was silent outside the door for a while, and then said in a low tone: "Then I will go first, so that my brother will not see me, just remember to come out for lunch."

What should I do...?

Let him go, and since then they have been strangers, never seeing each other.

Or... keep him, even if the road ahead is bleak, and never regret today's decision?

The fate he has to bear is too heavy, how can such a decision be made overnight, no one knows better than himself what he will face after opening this door—not to mention, when he In his eyes, Chu Shao is just a child who has just reached his full age, young and passionate, whether he can survive the unknown thorns is still unknown.

But... after so many years of living by the rules, can't you ask for something for yourself?

Chu Shao pursed her lips, turned around and walked a few steps when she heard the door behind her suddenly open.He looked back in some surprise, only to see the prince standing in front of the door, wearing only a dark purple jacket, his long hair was not tied, scattered around his side, his face was solemn, but his voice trembled.

He said, "Ah Shao, come here."

Due to the assassination of the major general, the early stage of Qingyuan's reform was not smooth, and the nobles, big and small, refused to cooperate, so Feng Xie suppressed all the dissatisfaction forcefully with the momentum of thunder, and was so busy that his feet never touched the ground.

But even so, everyone in the prince's mansion could still see that even with all the clues, when the prince came in and out, there was still a little smile in his eyes.

The Zhanlu Army's reforms had initially achieved results, and they had no foreign enemies, so there was no need to let them out for the time being, so Chu Shao also stayed in Zhongyang City, and only occasionally went to the Xuanjian camp once in a while.This day was night again, when Feng Xie returned home from the palace, it rained heavily, knocking down a lot of begonias in the garden.

Holding an umbrella, he walked through Lingmu Garden with some regrets, and just as he opened the door of his room, he fell into an embrace.Chu Shao seemed a little sleepy, and his voice sounded dazed: "Why is it so late today, I'm going to be sleepy to death."

Feng Xie gave a low laugh, and said: "Go to sleep first at night, what are you doing when I come back?"

"Then how can it work?" Chu Shao shook his head, and he came to his senses almost instantly, "Day by day, it's only so little time to see you, so don't let it go to waste."

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Note:

He Xixi tonight, rushing in the boat.

What day is today, I have to be in the same boat with the prince.

To be ashamed and disgusting, not to be ashamed.

I was so upset that I learned of the prince.

There are wood in the mountains and branches in the wood, and the heart is happy and the king does not know.

——Anonymous "Yueren Song"