Unsatisfactory

Chen Dong hasn't been to Shen Yi's house for a while since the last car accident at Shen Yi's grandpa's house. He was excited and nervous at the thought of meeting someone he hadn't seen for a long time. .

The closer he got, the faster his heart beat. Chen Dong took the elevator upstairs and took a few deep breaths before calming down a little.He stared at himself in the mirror of the elevator, he could no longer lose face in front of Shen Yi, let him see his embarrassing appearance.

After ringing the doorbell and waiting for Shen Yi to open the door for a few seconds, Chen Dong tried his best to adjust his expression to look as normal as possible.

When the door really opened and Shen Yi's familiar face appeared within walking distance, Chen Dong realized that no matter how much mental construction he had done before, it was useless, and there was only one simple thought left in his mind.

Walking forward and opening his arms, Chen Dong hugged Shen Yi tightly in his arms.

"Shen Yi."

Chen Dong buried his head in Shen Yi's neck and breathed in the cold fragrance. Hearing his own violent heartbeat, the two of them got very close, and there was nowhere to hide the voice between their tight chests.

He doesn't care about anything now.

She doesn't care if she will be ashamed in front of Shen Yi, and doesn't care about all the things she cared about before.Having not seen her for many days, he just wanted to hold Shen Yi in his arms.

Compared to Chen Dong's excitement, Shen Yi looked calm.Except for his body trembling slightly when Chen Dong hugged him into his arms, he stood still and let Chen Dong hug him.

Chen Dong hugged him for more than ten seconds before Shen Yi patted him on the back and said, "Senior, let's go into the room."

"Ah."

Only then did Chen Dong realize that he was so excited that he hugged someone at the gate.He blushed handsomely and hurried into the room.He couldn't do the nasty behavior just now, let alone outdoors, but he couldn't control it at all.

Stepping into Shen Yi's house, Chen Dong looked around and found that there was not much change from the last time he left.Shen Yi also seemed to have just arrived, and the suitcase was placed by the side cabinet in the living room and he hadn't had time to pack it yet.

It seems that Shen Yi contacted himself first as soon as he came back.

Chen Dong felt relieved after hanging for a long time.He has become a habit of being Shen Yi's assistant, and now he kneels down reflexively and packs up things for Shen Yi.

Looking at the back of Chen Dong seriously arranging his luggage, Shen Yi stood beside him with flickering eyes and an unpredictable expression.

After a long time, he said slowly, "Senior, cook me a bowl of noodles."

Chen Dong just finished his work, turned around with a smile and said, "What kind of noodles do you want?"

"Anything." Shen Yi pursed her lips, looked into Chen Dong's eyes and said seriously: "It's all good."

Chen Dong walked to the kitchen, he was already familiar with cooking for Shen Yi.

Shen Yi doesn't talk about it, but he is actually very picky about food.Chen Dong lived with him for a period of time before he discovered this.

Shen Yi's taste, Shen Yi's preferences, what he likes to eat, what he doesn't like to eat, and the details that others don't understand, he knows all about it.

Chen Dong rolled the noodles earnestly, thinking of the past, the corners of his lips could not help but twitch.

After dinner, I can just sit down and have a chat with Shen Yi, return the things to Shen Yi first, and then tell him what I have been holding in my heart these days.

Chen Dong rubbed his nose in embarrassment, and from the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Shen Yi looking at him in a daze.

"What are you busy with these days? I didn't see you when I went to the company."

Shen Yi lowered her eyes, her slender eyelashes covering her emotions. "Stay with my uncle all the time and meet various people with him."

"Thank you for my dad's matter." Chen Dong put the noodles into the soup pot and stirred them carefully with chopsticks. "Verbal thanks are not serious enough. When you have time to come to my house for dinner, my father and grandpa hope to thank you well."

"You're welcome, it's just a matter of hand." Shen Yi said softly, "Even without you, I would still do this."

"I didn't mean that. I have to thank you anyway, after all, it's true to save my dad. It might be a bit nasty to say that, but you are my family's benefactor now." Chen Dong blushed a little, and he also felt that Shen Yi did it back then It is impossible for these things to be entirely for oneself, after all, when Guo Wei's company was acquired, he and Shen Yi were still at odds with each other.But no matter what purpose Shen Yi had, the fact that he helped his father clear his grievances was there. "By the way, after dinner, I have something to tell you."

"it is good."

Shen Yi leaned against the cabinet, silent.Chen Dong was almost busy with his work, and felt that something was wrong with him today.

Chen Dong took out the noodles, poured the soup, sprinkled green onions on the table, and looked up at Shen Yi who was sitting by the table.The usual out-of-shape guy was unusually quiet today. Chen Dong stuffed his chopsticks into his hand, thought for a while and said, "Guo Wei called me two days ago and said something."

"Huh?" Shen Yi raised the chopsticks, rolled up the dough and put it to his lips, and looked at Chen Dong to signal him to continue.

"He said you were going to get engaged to Tang Xinyan." Chen Dong also put the delicious noodles into his mouth, and said jokingly, "I don't know where he heard about it."

Today's noodles are full of strength, and the soup is fragrant. Just one bite, the taste buds will be captured by the deliciousness like an explosion.

Chen Dong was in a happy mood and had a good appetite, so he lowered his head and ate heartily.

"That's what happened."

Chen Dong was eating noodles with big gulps, he almost choked when he heard the words, he slowed down and raised his head after a long time.

I saw Shen Yi looking at him seriously, without any expression of joking.

"what?"

"What Guo Wei said is true." Shen Yi lowered his head and began to eat slowly.He didn't look at Chen Dong's expression, and continued: "I have a marriage contract with Tang Xinyan."

Chen Dong's throat choked, and the hot noodle soup that had slid into his belly turned into a bone-chilling hard stone in an instant, as if it was about to tear his internal organs to shreds.

It turned out that Shen Yi really wanted to get engaged to Tang Xinyan.

When Guo Wei told him crying, he still didn't believe it, so he even told Shen Yi as a joke.

In the end, he was the most fucking joke!

"I see."

Chen Dong smiled and continued to eat noodles.

For some reason, the fragrant noodles tasted chewy when he tasted them again, making it difficult for him to swallow.

Difficult to finish the noodle soup in the bowl, Chen Dong felt that it was difficult to breathe, and his chest was cramped.

What I had been planning to say to Shen Yi before, the emotions I had accumulated these days turned into wishful thinking and turned into the sharpest irony.

He no longer had the excitement and agitation he had when he came here, he forced an ugly smile out of the soreness and pain, took out a bank card from his backpack and pushed it in front of Shen Yi.

Chen Dong solemnly said: "Shen Yi, this is a debt owed to you. Thank you for your help. If you need me in the future, please feel free to ask. As long as I can help, I will do my best."

Shen Yi didn't look at the card, but looked up into Chen Dong's eyes.

"That... Congratulations on your engagement with Tang Xinyan, I, I..." Chen Dong opened his mouth, his throat seemed to be blocked.

He wanted to send his blessings generously, but when he really looked at the face that was so in love, he couldn't even say the simplest polite words.

What a fucking embarrassment.

Chen Dong got up in a hurry, and twitched the corner of his mouth at Shen Yi: "I still have something to do at home, so I'm leaving first."

After speaking, he rushed out without looking at Shen Yi's expression.

He felt that he really couldn't hold on in front of Shen Yi any longer.Every second he spent in that room was tormenting, and it made him feel like a knife was piercing his heart.

Apart from the physical relationship between him and Shen Yi, there is nothing else.

He was afraid of saying irreparable words to Shen Yi and doing irreparable things.

After leaving Shen Yi's house, Chen Dong didn't take a taxi home, but chose to walk aimlessly along the riverside path.

At this time, it has entered late autumn, and before you know it, winter will enter again.

The night view of City H is still bustling, with neon lights flashing and cars coming and going.

The Taotao River reflects the stars all over the sky, which is quiet and beautiful, making people forget their worries and immerse themselves in it.Chen Dong walked for a long time, his cheeks were icy cold from the night wind, and he didn't stop until his legs were numb, lying on the riverside guardrail and looking at the buildings lit by lights on the other side.

He thought that after his father was cleared of his grievances, the future would be bright, and he would get along with Shen Yi on an equal footing.

But he didn't expect that everything was just his delusion.

From the corners of his eyes to his cheeks were cold, Chen Dong silently took out the cigarette case from his pocket, lit a cigarette with shaking fingers and put it to his mouth.

Sitting on the stone steps by the river, he buried his face in his arms, closed his eyes, he couldn't control it at all, and all the shadows of Shen Yi appeared in his mind.

Sometimes it was the beautiful boy who was crying in the snowy night, sometimes it was Shen Yi who hugged him from behind and praised him for the delicious food, sometimes it was Shen Yi who seriously said "I know" to him in the moonlit night, and sometimes it was in the ambulance The Shen Yi who kissed his hand was the Shen Yi who was looking at each other from a distance in the court...

It wasn't until today that Chen Dong realized that Shen Yi had already taken root in his heart, penetrated into the deepest part of his heart, into his bones and blood.

If you want to pull it out, you must bear the pain of cutting out your heart.

But so what.

He couldn't even confess.

Chen Dong felt cold tears flow down the tip of his nose, soaking the smoke on his lips.

It was really worse than Guo Wei, in the end there was no one to confide in, knowing that Shen Yi was going to get engaged, but he was crying stupidly in the corner.

"Senior."

Chen Dong was shocked all over, and before he raised his head, he slowly sat down next to him, using his tall body to shield him from the cold autumn night wind.

The man put his warm palm on the back of Chen Dong's neck and stroked it gently.

"You ran too fast, I searched for a long time before I found it." Shen Yi's voice was panting after running fast: "I'm sorry."

"..." Chen Dong lowered his head, not wanting Shen Yi to see his distressed appearance.

Shen Yi took Chen Dong's hand, spread out his palm and clasped his fingers. "Senior, can I tell you the experience of these days?"

Chen Dong buried his tear-wet eyes in his palms, bit his cigarette and nodded.

Shen Yi touched the short hair on the back of his head distressedly, and said in a deep voice: "With my ability alone, I can't defeat Jiang Hanlin smoothly, or I can't compete with the power behind him. My uncle, that is, my father promised I support it, but the condition is that I must stay with him for a while."

"His purpose is to let me feel the charm of power and status, to experience the arbitrariness of being in a high position to control the overall situation, and to taste the pleasure of easily achieving success that others cannot achieve. He thinks that after I experience it personally, I will definitely choose the easy life he arranged Lu, married Tang Xinyan, worked hard in the business world under the protection of the family, and lived a smooth life."

Shen Yi paused, looked up at the distant sky and said softly: "I used to think that was my future, just like my parents decided my origin back then, I walked the path they arranged for me according to their expectations. These days Being with my dad, I enjoyed the feeling of being in control. It was a really good feeling, exciting, addictive, addictive. As a man, I longed for power and status in my bones."

Shen Yi held Chen Dong's hand tightly, put it on his lips and kissed it lightly: "But as your junior, what I want to have the most...is you."

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I confess, I'm about to have a heart attack! ! ! !