HistoryCrossing the border of both civil and military

Zhenwen came out with heavy steps, leaned against the corner, and calmed down his mood. Although he wanted to let go countless times, let's do this, brother, but hesitantly held a kind of tiny expectation.

What Zhenwu said today is very clear, he is just Zhenwu's younger brother, he is just the object of Zhenwu's care, that's all.

He likes Zhenwu's mood, and it will be forever hidden in the snow, with nowhere to release it. The stuffy feeling in Zhenwen's chest makes it difficult for him to breathe.

Still, let go of your unrealistic fantasies and just do it bro!

On the way back from the shower, I met Xia Yuhao. He was very happy today.

No wonder, in the training camp in the morning, when it was his turn, an A-style fast break made Chen Jiajun, who was watching his jokes, speechless, and Qiu Zixuan verbally affirmed that he never closed his mouth all day.

The two chatted for a few words and walked into the bustling temporary dormitory. Zhenwen stared blankly at Zhenwu who was lying on the mat between him and Xia Yuhao, fiddling with his mobile phone.

Here, Qiu Zixuan called Xia Yuhao to make up for the rules of the game for the upcoming warm-up match with Renhe.

Leaving Zhenwen alone to face Zhenwu, he has to say something, anything is fine, just don't be silent.

Walking to Zhenwu's side, Zhenwen looked at Zhenwu's cell phone with a pretended relaxed tone and gesture and asked.

"looking at what?"

It was just a common question, but Zhenwu suddenly sat up like a spring, nervously hid the phone behind his back, and said in a reproachful tone with some displeasure:

"Why, don't look!"

Zhenwen didn't expect Zhenwu to be angry because of such a thing. In his memory, the number of times Zhenwu got angry can be counted on five fingers.

Just now I saw the name on the dialog box, Liqi, it was the girl's name, so Zhenwu was angry because I accidentally peeped the private conversation between him and his girlfriend?

The heart that was thought to have been buried was hurt again, Zhenwu began to care about people other than him, maybe in the near future, he can really be independent, and he has to be independent.

Quickly putting away the hurt expression just now, Zhenwen smiled and said with the corners of his mouth:

"I thought you were watching a movie."

Zhenwu lowered his head and rubbed his ears, very annoyed by his exaggerated reaction just now, he looked up at Zhenwen and explained: "I didn't scold you just now."

Zhenwen smiled, knowing that he shouldn't, but he still couldn't help wondering what weight that girl had in Zhenwu's heart.

He tentatively asked, "So, your girlfriend's name is Liqi?"

Zhenwu frowned, avoiding Zhenwen's gaze, picked up the towels and clothes around him and started tidying up, tightly pursed his mouth and did not speak.

Looking at Zhenwu's expression, Zhenwen continued to ask: "You are so nervous, it should be because you like her very much."

Zhenwu frowned even tighter, even a little angry, a little nervous.

Looking at Zhenwu's expression, Zhenwen's smile became stiff.

Zhenwu probably cared about that girl, wanted to protect her, and didn't even want other boys to know her.

Zhenwen laughed at himself, patted Zhenwu on the shoulder, and pretended not to care: "Don't worry, we are good brothers, I won't rob you."

These words were obviously useless, Zhenwu's tense face did not ease, and he even threw away the clothes he had just folded in his hand a little anxiously, turned his head to look at Zhenwen, and swallowed the words back just as he was about to open his mouth.

Zhenwen clamored in his heart: "Quickly deny it, say she is not your girlfriend!"

But Zhenwu finally just said: "I didn't mean that." There was no more.

In Zhenwen's view, this answer was just a perfunctory remark to cover up his nervousness.

Zhenwen was disappointed for a moment, but felt that his disappointment was really funny.

He shouldn't have expected it in the first place, and the disappointment now seemed worthless.

Pretending to be generous, Zhenwen patted Zhenwu's chest, smiled and said, "I understand you!"

Zhenwen dragged his heavy body to his cushion, sat down with his back to Zhenwu, the smile on his face turned into loneliness.

Behind him was the sound of Zhenwu tidying his sleeping bag and lying down, whoever is beside the person he likes, he is destined to have no sleep this night.

After the lights were turned off, the surrounding teammates soon began to snore one after another.

Xia Yuhao and Qiu Zixuan just went out to explain the volleyball rules on the spot, and they haven't come back yet, leaving a lamp in the room for them.

Zhenwen tossed and turned, looked at his phone, it was already eleven o'clock, and he still didn't feel sleepy at all.

Zhenwu's eyes and expression just now, his smile and back view when he was with that Liqi, those absurd scenes in his dream bombarded his nerves in turn.

Obviously, he has already made an agreement with himself, and he will never be entangled in this relationship again, and he will only obediently be Zhenwu's younger brother, but this agreement is so fragile, and it fell apart just because of Zhenwu's caring expression.

He was jealous of that Liqi, jealous that she could justifiably like Zhenwu, could not hide her feelings, and could easily get Zhenwu's love.

But he can only hide his humble feelings for Zhenwu, hide it deeply, hide it in the bottom of his heart, become a part of the darkness, never see the light of day.

From the moment when Zhenwu was tense and hesitant to speak just now, Zhenwen's chest felt like a stone was pressed down, making it difficult to breathe.

Turning around, looking at Zhenwu whose back was facing him motionless, he called softly, "Brother."

This word stung him, at least he could secretly call his name: "Zhenwu."

But these were not enough, just calling his name was not enough, he got up and covered Zhenwu with a thin blanket, and lay down again at a place closer to Zhenwu.

Just once, he wants to tell Zhenwu his heart, even if he can't hear it, even if he can only confess to Zhenwu's back, that's enough.Just take it, he can hear it, take it as the only chance to confess to yourself.

Zhenwen spoke softly:

"Wang Zhenwu."

"I like you!" Zhenwen's voice trembled.

"It's not the kind of love I have for my brother."

"It's the kind of liking that is jealous of your girlfriend." His trembling voice became choked up.

"I've loved you for a long time, but you'll never know."

"Because I won't say it again."

Tears flowed across his face like a fountain, he didn't want to wipe it away, he let the hot tears burn himself.

"Sorry, I can't treat you as my brother, and I don't want to be just your brother."

"Sorry, I asked you to do so much for me, but there is so little I can do for you."

"I'm sorry, I just returned the volleyball you like to you now."

"I like you, so I hope you will be happy. As long as you are happy, I will obediently be your good brother."

A choked voice blocked Zhenwen's throat, looking at Zhenwu's back, he really wanted to reach out and hug him, even if it was just a light caress.

But his outstretched hand stopped in the air, and he withdrew it abruptly. He buried his head in the crook of his arm, his chest was so painful that it wanted to explode, but he could only cry silently.

This is enough, he can't ask for more, for fear that if he is too greedy, he will get nothing.

Tears blurred Zhenwen's eyes, he didn't notice that Zhenwu's body moved slightly, and then stopped still.

Zhenwu opened his eyes, listening to the sound of his heart beating wildly, his body was so stiff that he didn't dare to move.

Just now when Zhenwen said that he likes him, for a moment, his heart was beating wildly, thinking that it was going to burst from his chest.

He was more shocked than Zhenwen's confession, what made him care was Zhenwen's sad voice, the kind of words that seemed to be praying.

Hearing Zhenwen's suppressed choked voice behind him, Zhenwu bit his lip, resisting the urge to turn around.

He didn't know how to face Zhenwen like this.

It turns out that this is the reason why Zhenwen has been avoiding him, and it is this reason that makes Zhenwen a little strange.

Since when did the once unscrupulous boy become trembling?Since when did you stop laughing?Since when did you avoid him?

Zhenwu was annoyed at himself, he didn't realize it, and attributed all this to Zhenwen's puberty, Zhenwen's willfulness, and Zhenwen's rebellion.

How desperate Zhenwen must have been to confess his love in this way.

I must have hurt Zhenwen with my hesitant and unclear answer just now.

Behind Zhenwen's crying became lower and lower, and gradually disappeared, and then Zhenwu slowly moved his body to turn towards Zhenwen.

Zhenwen turned his back to him, and hugged his body tightly, looking so cold that way.

Zhenwu picked up Zhenwen's blanket and covered Zhenwen's body, looking at the remaining tears on Zhenwen's face, Zhenwu just felt heartbroken.

Zhenwen's body trembled suddenly, startled Zhenwu who was watching him intently.

Zhenwu slowly approached Zhenwen, wrapped his arms around him, and lay behind him, just like when he was a child.

Should he keep pretending not to know, or should he make it clear to Zhenwen?What can be explained clearly?Zhenwu's mind was in a mess.

Zhenwu himself couldn't explain why Zhenwen didn't tell the truth when he asked Liqi. He seemed to be covering it up instinctively, not wanting Zhenwen to know, but he didn't know why.

He only knew that even in the face of Zhenwen like this, he still didn't want to let him go.

Zhenwen, who was awakened by the noisy voice, rubbed his eyes that were a little swollen and sore.

He Chengen's voice above his head asked in surprise: "Wang Zhenwen, what's wrong with your eyes? Are you suffering from eye problems or were you kissed by mosquitoes?"

Zhenwen quickly turned over and sat up, rubbing his eyes with his hands, obviously the swollen eyes did not go away.

"He just recognizes the bed. It doesn't matter if he can't sleep well if he changes the place."

It was Zhenwu. Zhenwen thought of his impulsive confession yesterday, and really wanted to find a crack in the ground to sneak in.

Zhenwen picked up the toiletries and hurried to the bathroom.

In the bathroom, he unexpectedly ran into Xia Yuhao whose eyes were also somewhat swollen.

The two looked at each other, and neither of them asked much, but let out a long sigh at the same time.