HistoryCrossing the border of both civil and military

When Zhenwu woke up from the dream with a smile, the room was still pitch black.He moved his limbs, his whole body was sore from exhaustion and passion, and that particular part was so sore that he couldn't help frowning.Does Zhenwen feel the same after each time?Thinking of Zhenwen Zhenwu's unconscious smile, he turned over and raised his hand. When the hand fell, it didn't land on the expected familiar body, but landed on the empty, somewhat cold bed.

Zhenwu groped for a while, raised his hand, rubbed his eyes, and looked around carefully.

Zhenwu's habit of going to bed early and waking up early is something he can't get rid of. The biological clock in his body is so accurate that he doesn't need an alarm clock at all.Zhenwen always said that he is a "smart" alarm clock, and that he is humanized to wake him up. He is many times happier than other classmates and friends.

At this moment, his biological clock reminded him that it was definitely not night, and sure enough, the bedroom window was blocked by heavy floor-to-ceiling blackout curtains.

The blackout curtains are never drawn in their room. Zhenwen doesn't like the feeling of darkness, while Zhenwu likes to be woken up by the sun.

But today the window was drawn with this layer of curtains, Zhenwu smiled, Zhenwen probably hoped that he could sleep a little longer, even Zhenwen got up, it might be noon now.

Zhenwu moved his body and got off the bed. The surroundings of the bed were clean. The two sets of clothes he took off yesterday were gone. A black and white T-shirt and shorts were placed beside the bed, and even the underwear was neatly placed beside him.

Zhenwu quickly put on his clothes, opened the curtains, and the sunlight poured into the room, making Zhenwu unable to open his eyes for a moment.

He went out of the room, and it was as quiet outside as in the house, except for the occasional sound of walking.

When Zhenwu went downstairs, he saw several servants doing routine cleaning. They only cleaned from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-] every day, and they would not appear in the villa at other times.

Zhenwu frowned and looked at the grandfather clock in the living room, it was only 08:30.

He walked around on the first floor and came to the dining room. There was a breakfast on the table, which seemed to be reserved for him. Zhenwen was not there, not even his parents. Did they all go out?Why didn't you call him?

Zhenwuzhen was about to go back to the living room to call Zhenwen, when he turned around, the corner of his eyes glanced at the place where Zhenwen was usually sitting. There was an envelope on the table at that place. receive"

Zhenwu laughed, looking at the domineering font, it was Zhenwen's handwriting, why didn't he start leaving messages on his mobile phone, and thought of writing letters.

Zhenwu took a sip of the milk next to him, then sat down and opened the envelope, which contained a thick stack of letter paper.

Zhenwu opened the letter, and after reading two lines, the smile that was still on the corner of his mouth froze just now, his heart was beating violently in his chest, he stood up suddenly holding the letter, knocked over the chair behind him, and was almost caught Stumbled down, ran to the living room staggeringly, grabbed the phone and dialed Zhenwen.

A mechanical voice on the other side of the phone said, "Sorry, the number you dialed has been turned off."

He hurriedly hung up the phone and dialed his mother's phone. The phone rang from his parents' room. He took the extension and rushed to the bedroom to open the door. The room was empty, and Chen Jin's phone was placed on the bedside table.

Zhenwu called Wang Xunyang, but the phone was also turned off.

His face became ugly, and the servant who came over heard the sound and looked at him worriedly.

Zhenwu hurriedly grabbed the arm of one of them, and asked hurriedly as if grabbing the last straw: "Do you know when my mother left? When did Zhenwen leave?"

The servant shook his head and said: "When we arrived, we just saw that Madam was about to go out. Madam told the young master not to clean the bedroom and dining room, so she left in a hurry. Master Zhenwen, we didn't see it."

Zhenwu let go of the servant, and waved his hand feebly to signal the servant to go away.He leaned against the door, his body slid and sat on the ground, the feeling of panic made his hands and feet numb, and his brain completely stopped thinking as if he lacked oxygen.

He stared straight at the letter that had been pinched in his hand, and opened it again with trembling fingertips.

"Wang Zhenwu, I love you!

Before you read the following content, you have to remember, I love you!

But I have to leave you for a while, but only for a while, I promise!I don't have the courage to say goodbye to you face to face, I can only leave secretly like a coward.

Because I am afraid to see you sad, I am afraid that I will never have the courage to leave after seeing you.I know that you will be sad and sad if you leave without saying goodbye.But it's better than two people hugging and crying at the airport, reluctant to part, at least, you can't see me crying.

Similarly, I dare not say goodbye to you on the phone. Your voice is like addictive sex. I am afraid that I will go back to you desperately after listening to it.

So, finally decided to write a letter.

But writing a letter is really difficult. It took me a long time to finish writing this letter.As I write, I ask myself, must this be the case?Is this the only option?But every time I give myself the answer is yes.

You must be most wondering why, why should I leave?Speaking of it, you may find it ridiculous, but I left because, you are too good, and I don't think I am worthy of you.You are so good, so good that whenever others praise you, besides being proud, I also feel a little inferior.

It’s been almost seven years. For such a long time, I have relied on you for everything. You have always been behind me, helping me to clean up the mess I made. .You are like my brain, my hands, my soul.But what is the meaning of staying by your side for me who is so attached to you?

When I was a sophomore in high school, my dad asked me what I could be proud of. I once swore and said frankly: You are enough for me, and you once said that you can take care of me for the rest of my life.But one day, you have to face not only me, but also work, social circle, and many, many friends. Thinking of that day, I will still be the only one who can rely on you, and even always make trouble for you I am very afraid, I am afraid that I will not be your backing, but will become your burden instead.

During this period of time, I realized that as long as I am by your side, I can't help but rely on you, and you can't help but think about me everywhere and arrange everything for me.I stay by your side like a child who never grows up.

So, I have to leave you and force myself to learn to think, learn to do things, and learn to live. I want to make myself better. When I come back, I can be worthy of you, I can make you feel proud, and I can be with you Fighting side by side, sharing for you, can become someone worthy of your love.

So, I won't answer your calls again (I'm afraid I can't help but run back.), and I won't tell you where I am, I know you have Brother Zhang, you must want him to find me, I advise you No, because I don't want to hide, you know I'm lazy.

During my absence, you have to take good care of yourself, and I will take care of myself like you take care of me. It sounds like a mouthful, but this is my promise to you.

Also, you are about to go to the company for an internship, stay away from handsome people, you have a fiancé.

Don't work too hard, everything is so hard, it will be very tiring.

Finally, Zhenwu, I love you!Also, don't forget you are mine! "

Zhenwu looked at it carefully over and over again, he didn't understand why this happened, but now his caring with all his heart became the reason for Zhenwen to leave.

And this reason seems absurd to him, what is not worthy, how can it be considered worthy?Since when did Zhenwen care so much about what other people think?When did you think about it, and when did you start making this decision?

He recalled the moments with Zhenwen during this period, those blank eyes caught by him, his enthusiasm that suddenly became a little crazy, he would suddenly hug him without saying a word, and would start to avoid him Concerned eyes, are these signs?He felt it all, but never thought it would be so serious.

The end of the scenes of memories came down to the night when Zhenwen stayed in the detention center. It seemed that since that day, Zhenwen had become different.

He thought it was because of the impact of Gu Qian's incident, and he needed time to recover. He tried his best to make Zhenwen relax, but the result seemed to be counterproductive. What was going on in Zhenwen's head?Why didn't you ask him, why didn't you tell him?Does Zhenwen have no confidence in himself, or in him?

The words on the letter in front of Zhenwu's eyes became blurred, he reached out and wiped his face, which was already wet at some point.Zhenwu buried his head in his arms, the silent tears turned into sobs.

There was the sound of opening and closing the door and whispering conversations at the gate, Zhenwu raised his head suddenly, propped up his body, stood up while holding the door, and ran to the living room.

Standing at the door, Chen Jin looked at Zhenwu's eyes from hope to extreme disappointment. The child who was beaten to the ground and bruised and tried not to cry was looking at him with painful and flustered eyes, and his moist eyes were red. Red, lost the composure of the past.

Chen Jin yelled: "Zhenwu!" She hurried up to take Zhenwu's hand, and sat him on the sofa. Before she could speak, Zhenwu asked in a hurry: "Mom, are you going to send me off?" Zhenwen, right? Where did he go? Why didn't you tell me?"

Chen Jin sighed and nodded, turned her head and wiped the corners of her eyes, then looked back at Zhenwu: "Yes, I'll see him off, but I can't tell you, you know Zhenwen's temper, since he has made up his mind , let me tell you, it will only bring trouble to him. Being in a foreign country is already difficult, and hiding from us everywhere, isn’t it worse?

I only found out when I saw Xunyangding’s air ticket by accident.I'm sorry, I really don't know how to choose, you two are my sons, and I don't want to make any of you sad. "

"Then, where's dad? Dad's gone too?"

Chen Jin nodded: "After they settle down, Xunyang will come back. Don't worry, Xunyang will arrange it very well. Zhenwen has grown up and can take care of himself. It's you, don't embarrass yourself too much okay?"

Zhenwu supported his knees with his elbows, covered his face with his hands, and tried to calm himself down, but in vain.

He stood up without looking at Chen Jin: "Mom, I'm going back to my room, I need time to think clearly."

Chen Jin took his son's hand, squeezed it hard before letting go, and watched his son walk back to the room dejectedly.She opened her mouth several times to stop Zhenwu, but bit her lip again, just watching Zhenwu's figure disappear at the end of the corridor.