Little Merman's Doomsday Cultivation Manual

This time it's not the alarm, but the phone's ringtone.

The phone rang for a long time before Ding Xinjie walked in with a toothbrush in his mouth.

Ding Xinjie came to his bed, took out his mobile phone from under the pillow, and muttered vaguely: "Who called me so early..."

Ding Xinjie glanced at the caller ID on the phone, then at Gao Shixi on the bed next to him.In order not to disturb Gao Shixi's rest, he temporarily turned his phone to silent mode, then took the phone and quietly left the room.

"..."

Hearing the subtle footsteps slowly go away, Gao Shixi, who was lying on his back on the bed, slowly opened his eyes, which were dark and dull.

If death is a nightmare for other people, then the ringtone of the mobile phone has become his nightmare.

[Yesterday, a female college student fainted while walking, and died of cardiac arrest.

Nowadays, the chance of sudden death is high. Judging from the data in recent years, people who die unexpectedly suddenly are getting younger. According to expert analysis, the sudden death of young people is mostly related to irregular work and rest...]

This is the sound from the TV in the living room outside, and he is the only one who hasn't started it yet.

Gao Shixi closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and got out of bed.

He came to Yu Shengxian, who was watching the TV, and clenched his fists tightly, with a dark fire in his eyes: "You are playing tricks, aren't you?"

Yu Shengxian, whose sight was blocked, raised his head, looked at Gao Shixi who was standing in front of him, and asked doubtfully, "En? What do you mean by that?"

"You know what you did yourself." Gao Shixi gritted his teeth a bit.

Yu Shengxian raised his eyebrows and said innocently: "So tell me clearly, what did I do?"

"You..." Gao Shixi probably didn't know how to start it because it was too ridiculous.

"What's the matter?" Ding Xinjie, who had finished washing, couldn't help being taken aback when he saw the two people fighting each other.

Yu Shengxian looked away from Gao Shixi, looked at Ding Xinjie and shook his head, "I don't know either."

Gao Shixi looked back at Ding Xinjie, and strode towards the door without saying anything, as if he was about to leave.

Ding Xinjie was startled, and hurried up to stop Gao Shixi: "Shixi, where are you going?"

"I want to leave." Gao Shixi said coldly.

Ding Xinjie resolutely objected: "No, you must stay with us."

Gao Shixi didn't listen to Ding Xinjie's words, as soon as he lifted his foot, he wanted to miss Ding Xinjie and walked out of the suite.

Yu Shengxian watched, but didn't go forward to stop him, and continued to listen to the news.

After all, it is quicker to learn about some seemingly ordinary but weird things from the news.

Moreover, with Ding Xinjie around during the day, he will naturally take good care of his nephew, so he doesn't need to worry about it.

Ding Xinjie came to the door before Gao Shixi, pressed the door with his palm, and said to Gao Shixi who was holding the doorknob: "You can go out, but you have to change your clothes, don't you just wear pajamas?" Go? And without shoes."

"..." Gao Shixi looked down at his pajamas.

All he could think about was leaving, no longer staying in the same room with them, how could he notice what he was wearing.

"Go and change clothes, I'll go out with you." How could he let Gao Shixi go out alone now.

Gao Shixi turned around and took a deep look at Yu Shengxian.

If he believed that he was dreaming yesterday, but he has been dreaming for three consecutive days, he would not believe it anyway, and all this started after he and this man left home, so all of this must be inseparable from him relationship.

Sensing Gao Shixi's strong gaze, Yu Shengxian couldn't help turning his head to look.

Seeing the fighting spirit in Gao Shixi's eyes, he couldn't help raising his eyebrows and smiling, not paying attention.

Gao Shixi's heart sank, feeling a little bored.

He avoided Yu Shengxian's gaze and strode towards the room.

Gao Shixi only thought of one explanation for his three-day failure, and that was hypnosis.

It's not that there were no psychiatrists who wanted to hypnotize him before, but none of them succeeded. As for why they didn't succeed, according to their explanation, his heart door was too heavily guarded, that is, the guard was too strong, and they couldn't find a breakthrough.

Gao Shixi scoffed at this statement, because he didn't feel that he had done anything.

Although he didn't believe them, he would sometimes cooperate with them. If it didn't work, it was because of their own professionalism, and those explanations were just excuses they made.

So Gao Shixi, who has never been successfully hypnotized, doesn't know what kind of state he is after being hypnotized, and what makes him even more confused is how the other party managed to put him in a state without his knowledge. For hypnotists, you must know that when the psychiatrists he has seen are going to hypnotize him, they will all need auxiliary tools.

And these days when he was with Yu Shengxian, the other party didn't seem to treat him, let alone hypnotize him.

In other words, he had no idea how the opponent brought him into the game.

This is where Gao Shixi feels terrible and extremely depressed.

Ding Xinjie took advantage of Gao Shixi to change clothes, went to sit down next to Yu Shengxian, and asked, "When will you start treating this nephew of mine?"

If Yu Shengxian doesn't act next, he can't help but suspect that the other party is a liar, and at the same time feel that his trust has been betrayed, and he has been fed to the dog sincerity.

"It's already being treated." Yu Shengxian replied.

Hearing this, Ding Xinjie asked in confusion, "Why don't I know?"

"Isn't it the best proof that your nephew is still alive and standing in front of you?"

Ding Xinjie was taken aback.

It’s true that his nephew hasn’t tried to die these days. I think he was afraid that his nephew had already run away when he was surprised in the morning when he fell asleep on the first night, but the moment he saw his nephew was still on the bed I just let go of my heart and didn't think much about it.

In the past few days, he felt that his nephew was a lot more well-behaved, and he didn't escape when they were unprepared. He just thought that Yu Shengxian had hit the mark before, and his nephew changed his mentality in a different environment.

So these days, even if Yu Shengxian didn't act, he didn't urge him. After all, Yu Shengxian boldly proposed the environment before leaving. If his nephew really changes because of this, it can be regarded as the credit of the other party.

But when he saw the look in his nephew's eyes just now, he knew clearly that his nephew Gao Shixi did not give up suicide.

He was anxious, that's why he came to ask Yu Shengxian, but he didn't expect the other party to give such a reply.

"Isn't it because he left home and changed his environment?" Ding Xinjie frowned.

Yu Shengxian laughed lowly: "You wouldn't be so naive as to think that your nephew just gave up his plan to commit suicide just by changing the environment, would you?"

Ding Xinjie: "..." It's hard to say that he expected this before.

Yu Shengxian patted Ding Xinjie on the shoulder: "Just wait."

"Then can you tell you what the treatment method is? I can also cooperate with you."

Yu Shengxian looked at Ding Xinjie and said, "There is nothing in particular that requires your cooperation, just do as usual."

Ding Xinjie was silent.

"Let's go." Gao Shixi changed his clothes and came out of it.

"Then Shixi and I will go out for a walk."

Yu Shengxian glanced at Gao Shixi, smiled and nodded.

Gao Shixi looked at Yu Shengxian's smile and couldn't help but look away. The other party's smile seemed to understand his thoughts, which made him very uncomfortable.

After that, Ding Xinjie and Gao Shixi went out together.

"Is it okay to let them go out?" Gu Yixiu raised his eyes and looked at Yu Shengxian.

"why not?"

"What if Gao Shixi suddenly gets into trouble?"

"Gao Shixi is not cruel enough now." Yu Shengxian shook his head: "If something happens to him when he goes out with his little uncle, then the responsibility will be on his little uncle, so he won't do this."

Gu Yixiu was silent for a moment, and asked, "You know him well?"

"Not much, just a little." Yu Shengxian looked at Gu Yixiu with squinted eyes and smiled: "Why don't we make a bet, will Gao Shixi come back with Ding Xinjie well?"

"can."

About an hour later, Ding Xinjie and Gao Shixi came back together.

Yu Shengxian smiled at Gu Yixiu, and said silently: "I won."

Gu Yixiu looked at Gao Shixi and nodded to Yu Shengxian.

After Gao Shixi came back, he went straight back to the bedroom without even looking at Yu Shengxian.

Ding Xinjie took off his coat, sat down beside Yu Shengxian and the others, and poured a glass of water to drink.

"Where did you go this trip?" Yu Shengxian looked at Ding Xinjie and asked.

"We just strolled around the hotel for a while." After drinking the water, Ding Xinjie put down the glass and sighed, "I wanted to have a heart-to-heart talk with him, but it failed."

"Isn't this obvious?" Yu Shengxian asked.

"I just wanted to try it, but I didn't expect it to be my perception of life in the end..." Ding Xinjie wiped his face sadly.

"..." Yu Shengxian patted his shoulder lightly.

On this day, Gao Shixi obviously avoided Yu Shengxian on purpose, kept a distance from Yu Shengxian, and even avoided his eyes on purpose.

Yu Shengxian found out and didn't care.

At night, everyone went to bed, and Gao Shixi was no exception.

Gao Shixi, who never liked to play with mobile phones, took out his mobile phone from the suitcase. The notifications were all messages sent to him by his mother. He deleted them after looking at them. Then he downloaded a reading software and found The book looked up.

He didn't even dare to close his eyes for too long now, because he woke up from a dream a few times before, which showed that he was indeed asleep at night.

So he can't let himself fall asleep, the best way is not to close his eyes.

Involuntarily, Gao Shixi thought of the news of sudden death that he accidentally heard this morning, and wondered if he could die suddenly after staying up for several nights without sleep.

In the dark, Gao Shixi smiled mockingly.

People who clearly wanted to die couldn't die here, but people who didn't want to die suddenly lost their lives.

Gao Shixi opened his eyes until dawn. After reading a small part of the novel, he was still in good spirits.

It wasn't until someone woke up that Gao Shixi turned off the phone, put his hands back under the quilt, and pretended to be sleeping, but his ears were always paying attention to the movement next to him, and when he felt that the time was almost up, Just opened my eyes and got up.

Gao Shixi stayed up for several consecutive nights without sleeping for an hour, and the novel has caught up with the latest chapter.

Suddenly, he felt palpitations and his breathing became difficult.

Gao Shixi held down his uncomfortable heart, his head began to dizzy, and his eyes began to blur...

When he completely lost consciousness, Gao Shixi raised the corners of his mouth.

***

"Shixi is still sleeping now, I'm pointing the camera at him, just watch." Ding Xinjie was in a video call with someone.

Gao Shixi who has woken up but did not open his eyes: "..."

At this moment, Gao Shixi, who knew that he was still alive, sank to the bottom of his heart.

"Well, I will take good care of him, brother and sister-in-law, don't worry too much, Shixi is fine now,"

Gao Shixi opened his eyes abruptly, and looked straight at the camera, his eyes were like black pools, inexplicably frightening.

Ding Xinjie, who noticed that Gao Shixi woke up, immediately turned off the phone.A little awkwardly said: "Did I disturb your rest?"

Gao Shixi looked straight at Ding Xinjie without saying a word or blinking.

Under such eyes, Ding Xinjie felt more and more guilty, "Your parents miss you so much, they just want to see you, there is no other meaning, so don't be angry."

Gao Shixi sat up, raised the corners of his mouth, and smiled sarcastically.

Ding Xinjie panicked even more, raised his hands and swore: "I was wrong this time, I promise there will be no next time."

"What's wrong?" Yu Shengxian, who was playing a game, came over and looked up at Gao Shixi and the others.

This glance made Yu Shengxian's eyes freeze suddenly, and they met Gao Shixi's eyes quietly, neither of them moved away.

"Dead." Gu Yixiu tapped his finger on Yu Shengxian's screen.

"Ah!" Yu Shengxian quickly withdrew his gaze and focused on the game again.

Gu Yixiu glanced at Gao Shixi, Gao Shixi no longer looked at them, he took out the MP3 that he had been wearing all the time and stuffed it into his ears.

Yu Shengxian, who was manipulating the characters in the game, slowly curled up a playful arc at the corner of his mouth.

midnight.

Gao Shixi stood behind the curtain, looking at the moon outside the window, turning an ordinary lighter in his hand, and at his feet were a pile of flammable toilet paper and magazines for hotel promotion.

This lighter was the one he asked for from the front desk when Zeng Ding Xinjie wasn't paying attention.

He pressed the lighter, and the flame instantly jumped into his pupils.Gao Shixi raised the corners of his mouth and lit the toilet paper and magazines.

The fire that could have been easily extinguished gradually spread and burned more and more fiercely. The fire quickly drove away the darkness and broke the tranquility of the night, like a menacing monster. This monster not only gnawed at the curtain, but also devoured Gao Shixi's soul.

Seeing the flames of the curtain burning more and more, his face grew more and more anticipation and excitement, looking forward to the panic of Yu Shengxian and the others after waking up, and trembling with excitement.

The flames danced on his face, making his expression look extra weird.

Burn it, burn it...

Burn more violently!

Anyway, isn't it impossible to die? ,

As Gao Shixi hoped, the fire grew bigger and bigger, and began to spread into the house.

"Shi Xi, what are you doing?!" A startled and angry voice sounded.

Gao Shixi turned his head and glanced at Ding Xinjie who was rushing to put out the flames. His eyes turned to Yu Shengxian who was frowning tightly, and the smile at the corner of his mouth deepened.

The fire that had already been on the road spread quickly, and more than half of the houses had been invaded by the fire, which could not be extinguished so easily.

Ding Xinjie desperately slapped the fire source twice with the clothes he grabbed at hand, the fire did not diminish at all, but intensified, billowing thick smoke kept coming out, sparks crackled in the air, Ding Xinjie was so smoked that he coughed a few times, After all, he couldn't help but swear, rushed into the bathroom, wet his body and all the towels hanging in the bathroom, and then covered his mouth and nose with the wet towel.

"Let's go out first."

Ding Xinjie divided the towels, grabbed Gao Shixi's hand and was about to rush out, but Gao Shixi pushed back and refused to leave.

"Now is not the time for you to make trouble, hurry up and leave with me." Ding Xinjie said sternly.

Apart from mocking them, Gao Shixi's face was full of indifference to life, and he refused to cooperate when Ding Xinjie procrastinated him.

Ding Xinjie coughed violently, and the thick smoke in the room was already a bit dazzling.

This house cannot stay any longer.

Yu Shengxian who had been watching suddenly said, "Is this what you want?"

Gao Shixi nodded: "Yes."

That's what he wants, to die in flames!

"Let us all accompany you to the flames."

"You can leave." Gao Shixi said.

Veins popped up on Ding Xinjie's forehead, and he couldn't bear to beat him up. Gao Shixi immediately dodged and jumped straight into the area where the fire was raging.

Ding Xinjie's pupils tightened, he followed in without hesitation, and quickly grabbed Gao Shixi.

Gao Shixi looked at Ding Xinjie in shock, Ding Xinjie dragged him out forcefully, extinguished the sparks on Gao Shixi's body with a wet towel, then grabbed his collar and shouted: "Bastard, it's easy to say, How can I explain to your sister when I leave you! How can I explain to your parents! Did you ever think about your family when you were thinking about dying!"

Gao Shixi looked at Ding Xinjie in a daze, as if he couldn't understand why Ding Xinjie rushed into the fire without any fear.

Shouldn't he shrink back in fear of the swallowing fiery snake?

Ding Xinjie was already very angry.

At this moment, the outside suddenly became noisy.

"It's on fire!"

"It's on fire! Run!"

Gu Yixiu came to Gao Shixi's side, exchanged glances with Ding Xinjie, and then the two shot together to hold Gao Shixi up.

"Let me go!" Gao Shixi twisted.

Ding Xinjie turned a deaf ear to it, and only carried him out with Gu Yixiu.

Yu Shengxian opened the door, and the corridor was already full of people. Panicked people crowded and sought a way out. The screams of terror kept the building in boundless fear.

This scene hit Gao Shixi's eyeballs, and Gao Shixi's eyes finally accommodated others again.

"Isn't that what you want?"

Yu Shengxian's voice came into his ears, Gao Shixi's heart tightened, and he denied it: "This is not true!"

Yu Shengxian glanced at Gao Shixi and said no more.

Gao Shixi was forced to follow them into the crowd.

His body does not need to have independent will, and the panic-swarming people will push you to the exit in a hurry, even if the process is extremely uncomfortable or even hurt.

Even if some people tried to maintain order, the panic of the crowd had obviously blocked the voice.

It all seems to be out of control.

Is this what you want?

Gao Shixi stood in the open space outside the building. Although the surroundings were full of people, they were no longer as crowded as in the building. There was a distance between people, but the depression and panic in the air caused Chaos did not go away.

"Where are you, daughter?"

A woman bumped into Gao Shixi's shoulder and ran quickly, looking for her lost daughter.

"Wow wow wow..."

The child cried out in fear.

The people who were injured by the stampede were carried into the ambulance, lying on the stretcher, groaning in pain...

The firefighters rushed to the fire scene desperately against the fire-fighting equipment, leaving people with indomitable and heroic backs.

Gao Shixi's face was blank.

Is this what he wants?

Suddenly, the people on the ground screamed.

"There is no escape there!"

Gao Shixi's heart was shocked, and he suddenly raised his head and looked upstairs.

The fast-spreading fire in the dark night is deadly. The people living in the room next to them got into trouble because they didn’t escape in time. They had already been forced to the edge of the window, and half of their bodies came out of the window, as if they wanted to escape. I want to jump down like this, but I am afraid of the height of the floor.

Gao Shixi saw a face full of tears, looked at him and said, "Help me, I don't want to die..."

Gao Shixi was shocked again, his pupils tightened suddenly, and he stepped out involuntarily.

Yu Shengxian pressed Gao Shixi's shoulder to prevent him from leaving. Gao Shixi couldn't help shouting, "Let go of me!"

"Is this what you want?" Yu Shengxian looked at Gao Shixi and said.

Gao Shixi felt a stabbing pain in his heart, he waved away Yu Shengxian's hand clamping his shoulder, and shouted with red eyes: "This is not what I want!"

"But..." Yu Shengxian paused, turned his head to look at the carnival-like fire, and said, "You set this fire for suicide."

Gao Shixi has nothing to refute, he set the fire, but the current situation is something he doesn't want, it's fine if he dies, but why is he standing here, while the lives of innocent people are threatened by the fire?

It shouldn't be like this, it's not right.

"It didn't occur to you that it would cause the situation now, or did you simply not consider that the fire would cause panic?"

Gao Shixi slowly squatted down, covered his head, and neighed in pain.

It was the cry of regret that I had crossed the bottom line in my heart when I finally realized it...

did not think of?No, no, it was not considered at all.

He didn't think about the consequences of the fire, only the excitement of being about to die in the sea of ​​fire was in his mind, and he was crazy about it.

When did he become such an ugly person only for his own joy and disregarding the lives of others?

He used to clearly adhere to the principle of committing suicide as his own business and trying not to implicate others as much as possible, but when did he violate it.

Should he have turned into an inhuman devil?

Gao Shixi tried hard to think back, but his chaotic brain seemed to be rusted, unable to function at all, and every cell in his body was trapped in boundless remorse, unable to extricate himself.

"Ah! She can't hold on any longer!"

Gao Shixi's eyes widened and he looked over, and saw that the little girl's body that had been out of the window had already hung down, half in the air, unconscious, as if...

There is no life.

Gao Shixi's face was as white as paper in an instant, and his body couldn't help shaking violently.

He closed his eyes tightly, and his lips kept moving...

No... this is a dream... just like the previous few suicides, he will wake up.

"Saved, saved!"

Gao Shixi opened his eyes suddenly. The little girl had been rescued by the firemen. He stumbled through the crowd and ran towards the little girl. He finally came to her and saw her.

Her face and body were covered with soot, and the burns were so black that it was impossible to imagine how she would face a changed self when she woke up.

The age that was supposed to be like a flower and a jade, suddenly suffered an indiscriminate disaster, and it was no longer the splendor it used to be.

And he is the chief culprit of this disaster.

At this moment, Gao Shixi felt that his body became very heavy, as if he was carrying something on his back.

that's sin...

"The wounded needs first aid. Please let everyone out of the way." The medical staff carried the stretcher into the ambulance and drove away.

Gao Shixi watched the ambulance leave.

"I heard from the hotel staff that after their investigation, they found that there was still a room on the sixth floor where the person had not come out. There was an adult and two children in it, and one of the children was not yet one year old."

"The fire is so big, I don't know if I can hold on."

"I'm overwhelmed. Such a small child has suffered such a big fire."

The threads in Gao Shixi's head finally broke. He almost collapsed and rushed to Yu Shengxian, grabbed his hands and buried his head, begging with sobs: "I beg you, let me wake up!" Come on, okay? I can't take it anymore!"

Yu Shengxian didn't answer, nor did he pull his hand away.

Gao Shixi slid down slowly, knelt down on the ground, resting his head on Yu Shengxian's thigh: "Please, let me wake up, I swear I will never commit suicide again... I was wrong... I regret……"

Yu Shengxian lowered his eyes slightly, and looked down at Gao Shixi who was kneeling in front of him indifferently, without the slightest pity, "Who told you that all this is fake?"

Gao Shixi froze immediately, slowly raised his head, looked at Yu Shengxian with tears in his eyes, the next moment he slapped himself several times, then knelt down on the ground, staring blankly at himself with red hair up hands.

really didn't wake up...

So is it really true?Is the crime he bears real?

Arsonist... murderer... arsonist... murderer...

"what……!"

Gao Shixi let out a roar, pushed aside the crowd vigorously, and rushed out of the hotel quickly.

Gao Shixi didn't know how long he had been running, nor where he had gone. He didn't stop until his strength was exhausted, panting heavily, and staring at the front with dim eyes.

Go surrender.

The law will let him get the punishment he deserves.

Gao Shixi wiped off the sweat from his face and cheered up a little.

At this moment, a man with a knife hijacked a seven or eight-year-old boy and appeared from around the corner, running towards him.

Gao Shixi couldn't help but stop, looking at the robber who was getting closer and closer to him.

"Get out of the way for me, or I will kill you!" The robber yelled viciously at Gao Shixi, wielding a knife.

Gao Shixi silently lowered his eyes, took a step to the side, and got out of the way.

"You're a smart kid." The robber said when he passed by Gao Shixi.

Gao Shixi suddenly reached out and grabbed the robber's hand holding the knife, then raised his eyes to look at the robber.

"Don't meddle in your own business, kid, I will kill you if you stop me from getting rich!"

The little boy in the robber's arms, who had been trying not to cry or make trouble, suddenly beat and kicked the robber, "You villain, let me go!"

The robber didn't notice for a while, but the little boy broke free.

Naturally, the robber didn't want to see a lot of banknotes flying away like this. He reached out his hand to catch him back, but Gao Shixi blocked the hand he just stretched out, and the little boy took the opportunity to run away.

The robber immediately vented his anger on the person who hindered his good deeds, and turned around and wrestled with Gao Shixi.

The robber held the knife tightly, and Gao Shixi couldn't grab it. He fought the robber with his bare hands. In addition, the robber was not a good person, and he was a desperate person, so even if he tried to avoid it The knife in the robber's hand was still inevitably stabbed.

The sound of the siren came from a distance, and the robbers dared to stay here for a second when they heard the sound of the siren, and ran away immediately.

As soon as the robber ran away, Gao Shixi couldn't hold it anymore and fell to the ground. His consciousness began to blur and he watched the police car parked on the side of the street. The little boy got out of the police car and ran towards him quickly.

The little boy cried when he saw his appearance: "Little brother, you have lost a lot of blood, you will be fine."

Gao Shixi looked at the little girl and couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth, and slowly closed her eyes.

Will the crime he bears be lighter in this way?

When Gao Shixi became conscious again, he thought, as expected, all of this is still a dream...

It's just that his mood has not been relaxed at all, and it is still as heavy as in a dream.Because he knew very well that he had indeed committed an unforgivable sin, because everything he did in the dream was based on his own true inner thoughts.

If he kept looking for death, sooner or later he would become so insane.

He regretted it so he wouldn't kill himself again.

Let's live, live in this unsatisfactory world.

This is the punishment for having evil thoughts on him!

He will tell his parents about his decision later, he thinks they should be happy.

Suddenly, bursts of sad cries drifted into his ears, and this voice was familiar to him, it was his mother's voice.

Gao Shixi opened his eyes with difficulty, trying to tell them that he was fine.But when he opened his eyes, he realized something was wrong.

He was actually in the mourning hall!

whose funeral?

He hurriedly searched for his parents in this mourning hall. He saw all his living relatives, and finally found his parents on the coffin. His mother was crying on the coffin, and his father accompanied him. Beside her, taking a deep breath, her eyes were slightly red.

Gao Shixi's heart skipped a beat, and a bad guess emerged.

He came to the coffin with difficulty, and couldn't help but gasped when he saw the face of the person lying inside.

This is his funeral!

How could this be?

Gao Shixi became confused for a moment, just now he decided to live well in the future, but he died?

By the way, he was stabbed to death by a robber who happened to meet on the road.

Gao Shixi felt that God had made a joke for him.

He looked at his sad and difficult parents, and suddenly felt a little unbearable. Although he had fantasized about this scene countless times when he wanted to commit suicide, he never thought that he would see this scene with his own eyes.

It doesn't matter, it will be better after a while, no one in this world is irreplaceable, if he leaves, someone will fill this position, it's just a matter of time, time will heal everything.

Gao Shixi thought, he also thought the same way when he committed suicide before.

The funeral was held for three days, and Mr. Onmyouji who was invited calculated the time to be buried in the ground, and his ashes were put into the tomb just like that. His birth date was extra young compared with those engraved on other tombstones in the cemetery .

Gao Shixi couldn't help feeling a little dazed.

His life ended like this?Isn't this what he always wanted?But he was not particularly happy.

His mother couldn't restrain her emotions again and cried bitterly. Gao Shixi looked a little uncomfortable. He stepped forward and hugged his mother, although his mother couldn't feel his temperature and didn't know his exist.

He really wanted to tell her that it wasn't worth it, that it wasn't worth crying and hurting his body for his unfilial son, but his voice was destined to be unable to convey.

Gao Shixi spent his first seven days with his parents, spent his hundred days, and spent a new year without him.

Although his mother would often go to his room to miss him with his photos, he still firmly believed that time would heal everything, but an opportunity was missing.

Until one day, his aunt came to his home and mentioned to his mother about asking his parents to have another child.He knew this opportunity had come.

His place will be replaced, and their wounds will be healed because of this child.

This is what Gao Shixi has been looking forward to, but for some reason, he feels a little inexplicable regret in his heart.

But Gao Shixi never expected that his mother would reject it outright.

"Why?!" Gao Shixi almost asked his aunt together.

"Because we only have one child, and that is Shixi."

Gao Shixi stared blankly at his mother's soft but sad face, and suddenly found that her mother had crow's feet at the corners of her eyes, and her skin was no longer as bright as before.

"Then brother-in-law also agrees?"

"Yes, this is a decision after we discussed it." His mother stroked his photo and said, "Love is selfish, we gave all the love of our parents to Shi Xi, so there is no more It’s not fair to that child to share his love with other children.”

His aunt couldn't understand, and Gao Shixi couldn't understand either.

He has passed away, hasn't he?Why continue to love him?

But what's the use of reserving the position for him, it's already too late, isn't it?He is no longer qualified, and he can't even do the filial piety that a man's son should do.

This is so sad.

He obviously didn't have a heart, but he felt a pain in the position of his heart.

From that day on, he followed them together, persuading them to have another child, even though they couldn't hear them at all.

The traces of time climbed up their faces day by day, and Gao Shixi became more and more anxious. Once they passed the age of having children, they would really not have children anymore!

If only he was still alive so that he could tell him that they wanted another baby.

As soon as this thought came to Gao Shixi, he was startled.

If he is still alive...

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Gao Shixi, who chased after the novel: It is impossible to commit suicide, the novel is still being serialized, and it is impossible to commit suicide until the end of the chase...

Happy Dragon Boat Festival, little angels~ I love you~ I love you~