Forget about the past

1 minute seems to have passed a century, Xu Chen really wanted to confirm whether he was dreaming, or if this was simply a joke made by Changge, he stood there helplessly, the man who was 1.8 meters tall looked like a man at that moment Helpless children.

He moved his eyes from the cigarette butt that Changge had stubbed out to his face, that face that was calm and watertight, seemed to have returned to the original point after two years, as if time had never changed anything, and he himself had never changed. It didn't leave any marks on his body, not to mention, even his eyes that were full of affection when we first met had disappeared.

Although he was reluctant to believe it, Xu Chen really understood—he had already made up his mind, he pulled the muscles at the corners of his mouth forcefully, and wanted to smile at him, pretending that he didn't care, but unfortunately failed: "Why?"

When he heard that his voice was trembling, he felt that his dignity had been completely lost, which was obviously ugly enough.

Changge didn't answer his question, he remained silent, and Xu Chen was already standing there, waiting for him to speak.

The weather in early spring was not yet warm, and Xu Chen was still standing on the floor with bare feet. Changge finally couldn't stand it anymore: "I helped you find a new house, and I paid the rent until you graduated. You go Pack your things and I'll take you there."

Xu Chen wiped his face, and this time he grinned genuinely: "Don't bother you, since we broke up, it's better for us not to get involved."

Changge got up and approached step by step. When he wasn't smiling, he was so imposing: "Go and put on your shoes, and then go to pack your things."

With an unquestionable tone and expression, Xu Chen has never been able to really object to him. What's more, he doesn't really expect the two of them to have nothing to do with each other from now on. If they can owe him something, they can meet each other in the future. Reason.

Xu Chen did as he said, staring in a daze at the empty closet because more than half of his clothes were missing. If putting things in one at the beginning meant that their lives were intertwined, now it is like a very abrupt separation.

The back seat was full of his things. Xu Chen opened the door without moving. Changge glanced at him and said unbearably: "Sit in the co-pilot."

Xu Chen had no choice but to follow suit.

No one said a word along the way, Xu Chen turned his face and looked out the window, he just felt that what he saw was barren.

When he arrived at the residence, Changge helped him tidy up his things meticulously and patiently. Xu Chen watched from a distance, resisting the words "Let's stay" that he wanted to say.

Now that things are up to now, with Changge's temperament, there is no room for turning around what is determined.

Changge said to him habitually: "Don't you have class later? I'll see you off."

Xu Chen raised his head in astonishment, Changge had already seen through his intention before he could say the refusal, and said lightly, "Anyway, this is the last time."

Xu Chen pulled out a smile: "Then thank you."

The blunt and alienated expression would never have appeared on his face in the past. He used to be vivid and enthusiastic, as hot and warm as the sun. Changge walked out of the door first, and couldn't bear to look any longer.

After hesitating for a while, Xu Chen still opened the co-pilot's door. Since he also said that this is the last time, it's better not to leave any more regrets.

He sat in the position that had always belonged to him, thinking that one day someone would sit next to him, and that person would replace him, and from then on, his emotions had nothing to do with him.

He stared at his own face reflected on the glass window. The expression on the man's face was something he had never seen before. It made people feel extremely sad for no reason, but there was clearly no tear in his eyes.

"arrive."

This sentence was like a bomb, and Xu Chen's reason was suddenly blown to pieces. He threw himself at Changge recklessly, biting the other's lips fiercely like a wronged little beast. Changge didn't Resisting, Xu Chen could only faintly hear a sigh, and there was a bloody smell like rust between his lips and teeth, Xu Chen kissed hard, but also kissed hopelessly.

He seemed to want to keep something from this kiss or to confirm something, he couldn't say, he hugged each other tightly, his tongue relentlessly pursued, hoping to get some response or comfort.

Xu Chen finally licked and licked his bitten lips with pity, he got up, and said to him with the decent smile that always appeared on Changge's face: "Sorry, I'm sorry."

Changge looked at him expressionlessly: "Don't worry about it."

It was no different from usual. Changge sent Xu Chen all the way to the ginkgo forest that was falling leaves. Xu Chen couldn't stand it and said: "You go."

"En." Changge agreed, and stopped there without moving, intending to watch him leave.

Xu Chen stepped on the dry ginkgo leaves, and he couldn't tell where it came from every sound of breaking. His back was straight, strong and sad, and every step was heavy and firm. .

This time no one looked back, and no one chased after them.

Changge stood there and watched his back drift away from him, thinking that he really lost him this time.

Yes, no matter how reluctant you are, you can’t look back three times, you have to look forward and walk your own path.

Not knowing how far he had gone, Xu Chen covered his face with his hands, not caring what others thought, he raised his head and cried bitterly.

Chang Ge was still standing there. Suddenly, the indifferent mask on his face was broken, revealing an undeniable sadness, but no one could see it.

Zuo Meng was shocked when she met Xu Chen, she kept asking what was wrong, Xu Chen only said that she was not feeling well, and asked her to ask for leave on her behalf, and went back to sleep for a day.

He woke up early the next morning from hunger, the refrigerator was full of food, and he stood quietly for a while, his chest was empty.

Finally, I took a can of beer, opened the can, and drank half of the bottle without hesitation. The wine was not strong, but after all, Xu Chen was not good at drinking, and his stomach immediately felt like it was on fire, followed by overwhelming pain, Xu Chen curled up On the sofa, his face was pale, and there was not much pain showing on his face. This little pain was nothing compared to the pain in his heart.

Nothing is eternal, a person's life is a process of continuous gain and loss, but it is indeed worth pondering whether what is gained again can compare with what is lost.

Xu Chen took a long leave of absence, and he slept in a dark sleep in this terrifyingly large house. Once he woke up, the memories of Changge would flood him like a tide, and what he could do But all he could do was watch himself being drowned.

No one will hold himself in his arms when he is sleeping, he wakes up from a dream and only feels the coldness on his side, and no one will wake himself up in the morning just to ask for a good morning kiss, or to be lazy Let me help you tie the tie. Speaking of which, Xu Chen can already tie a perfect Windsor knot now.

No one will spend all their time cooking because of their picky eaters, no one will kiss themselves a few times when they have nothing to do, no one will hug themselves and say sweet words of love over and over again, no one will treat themselves when they are sick It's time to cook a pot of porridge.

Losing him, it was as if the stars in the sky were suddenly extinguished, and the night was only black from then on.

No matter what he does, his shadow is always in his mind.Xu Chen felt that he was going crazy from the torture of those memories and the past. On a sunny afternoon, he took off his clothes and lay down in the bathtub, with a sharp art knife in his right hand.

Of course, he gave up this idea in the end, the art knife only left a shallow wound on his wrist, as if he felt no pain, he slowly dipped his hand into the water, watching the bright red blood like a flower It's the same.

There were still people accusing him on Weibo, so Xu Chen simply turned off the comments, and tweeted to the artist named Wuwu of Aite, "I'm going to stop updating. Didn't you say that I copied your work? It's up to you next time." Performed."

Going back to school, these people will be imaginative whenever there is a little trouble. When they saw the bandages wrapped around his wrists, they immediately made up a big scene in their minds. , Xu Chen couldn't help but find it funny.

This matter was quickly posted on the post bar, and the people inside were discussing it in full swing, and rumors were flying, even Changge heard the wind.

Changge hesitated for a long time before calling Zuo Meng to inquire about Xu Chen's recent situation.

Zuo Meng smiled strangely: "Hey, isn't this our President Gu? If you really care about him, why don't you think about who the culprit is."

"You don't understand." Changge rubbed his eyebrows, feeling a little headache.

"Yes, I don't understand, I don't know why I gave him up to a fool like you without even fighting for it!"

Zuo Meng was so angry that it was too late when she realized what she had said.

"You...?" Changge frowned even tighter.

"Yeah, let me tell you, if he is really with me, you won't be able to find the grave even if you cry!"

Changge's brows were slowly and painfully stretched out, his tone was gentle, but his eyes were clearly filled with sadness: "If you can, please take good care of him for me."

Zuo Meng couldn't take it anymore and cursed, "I'm fucking you!" Then she hung up the phone with a "snap".

Listening to the beeping echo, Changge's eyes dimmed little by little, his palms were tightened hard, and finally loosened weakly.

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