Forget about the past

We went to a flower shop together, and the owner of the flower shop praised a pot of ordinary-looking asparagus bamboo, it will bloom if it is well maintained, and it will not die like bamboo when it blooms, and the flowers are definitely not as beautiful as you have ever seen. Any flower difference is actually a must-have gift for festivals and so on.

Changge bought a pot dubiously, thinking that Xu Chen's birthday was approaching, so he simply gave it to him as a birthday present.Xu Chen happily picked it up, and took it to grow with a few pots of succulents on the balcony. The photos I found on the Internet were not as exaggerated as the shop owner said, but they were indeed pleasing to the eye. Neither of them held out much hope.

Xu Chen bought a little golden retriever for Changge.With fluffy paws, wet eyes, and an innocent face lying in the huge gift box, it was rare to see a bit of surprise on Chang Ge's face.

Taking the little golden retriever out of the gift box covered with fur mats and handing it to Changge, Xu Chen smiled brightly: "Hey, birthday present, how about a name?"

The little golden retriever wagged its tail and rubbed against Changge, its slender fingers scratched its chin like a cat teasingly, and it licked all the hands that touched it with excessive enthusiasm.Changge pinched the two small meaty claws that it wanted to pounce on, and stared at it with its head down, showing a bit of tenderness:

"Just call Duoduo."

A lot, all the good things can be more and stay longer.

Xu Chen's eyes sparkled, like a big dog begging for praise: "How about it...do you like it?"

"Well, I have a heart." Changge leaned over and kissed him.

In the blink of an eye, I saw Kuro walking slowly towards his footsteps, wagging his tail leisurely, and amused Duoduo scrambling left and right to catch the tail, but he fell to the ground with his fat belly turned over unsteadily. With a naive look.

Kuro walked up to Dodo unhurriedly, picked it up by biting the back of its neck, Dodo barked twice and followed Kuro and began to roll and act coquettishly.It seems that Kuro has just been stalked by this over-enthusiastic dog.

The two looked at each other, and the corners of their lips raised into a smile with the same curvature almost at the same time.

See, people are always easily influenced by the outside world. After two people have been together for a long time, there will be traces left by each other unconsciously.Perhaps, this is the most concrete and impressive expression of love from something intangible.When you look at your own face in the mirror, the corners of your eyes and brows look exactly like the other person, I think you understand what it means.

Time passed day and night, and it was another winter in a blink of an eye. Xu Chen shivered from the cold, and then caught a glorious cold.

He was lying on the bed with toilet paper stuffed in his nostrils, with a splitting headache. He felt that he was dying. Changge took time off to take care of him. Seeing his loveless expression, he found it funny, and asked, "Apart from headaches?" Is there anything else that makes you uncomfortable?"

"I might be dying...I don't feel well anywhere." Xu Chen's eyes were dull.

"That's it, then just treat it as if you are going to die, do you have any last words?" Changge sat on the edge of the bed and tucked his sweaty hair behind his head, and said softly, "Take out the thermometer."

Xu Chen whimpered and took out the thermometer and gave it to him. Changge looked at it and found that the thermometer finally came down. He breathed a sigh of relief and asked casually, "Have you thought about your last words?"

"Ah..." Xu Chen sighed, "Let me think about it." His mind was in a mess, saying that he didn't know anything, and he said nonsense: "It's a pity that Changge hasn't married me yet. When I'm dead, let Changge find another one, it's so pitiful to be alone."

Changge covered the opponent's mouth with a spoonful of white porridge, and couldn't help laughing: "Shut up, you."

The white porridge was simmered for more than an hour, and it was soft and sticky. Xu Chen smacked his lips, half-opened his eyes and smiled: "More."

Fortunately, the illness was not serious, and Xu Chen was in good health, so he was alive and kicking the next day.

Xu Chen rarely caught free time, and asked Changge to act as a model to draw a few more pictures. Looking at the Changge that had almost filled the entire album, Xu Chen had a sudden idea: "Changge, I want to draw manga!"

Changge touched his forehead and said, "What? Got a fever again?"

"What a fever!" Xu Chen pushed his hand away, his eyes warm: "I'm serious, I want to present the story between us in the form of comics. I don't want many people to see it, or to get something out of it." interests, but hope to affect some people, even if it is a very small number.

Comrades are a huge and secretive group, and not everyone dares to hold the hands of their lovers with secular eyes. With them, I hope that our love can give them a little bit of encouragement, warmth and strength.

Maybe the future is difficult and dark, but as long as you are willing to move forward, you will always see the light, and hope will always be there. "

Looking at him, Chang Ge suddenly felt that his ignorant boy had grown up, and had grown into a brave, sunny and fearless man. He heard himself smile, and said with a smile: "I understand, what do you want to do?" Just do it, I support you."

Xu Chen smiled brightly and raised his hands high. Changge walked over to give him a high-five. Finally, he hugged him and whispered in his ear: "It may be difficult at first, but as you said, persevere It will get better if you go down.”

"I have confidence!"

The person who made such a bold statement was defeated before he even started to write, because many real information in the manga need to be hidden or changed, so on this day, Xu Chen said with a tangled face: "Do you think I should write at the beginning of the manga?" Write, 'This comic is based on real life, and the characters are all pseudonyms'?"

"Pseudonym?" Changge frowned disapprovingly.

Xu Chen suddenly remembered something, and laughed loudly: "Pseudonym... ouch, what am I thinking about, hahaha... It seems like a criminal, Xu Mou and Gu Ge... ah ha ha ha..."

Admittedly, everything is difficult at the beginning.Xu Chen stayed up for several days and nights, and finally drew Chapter 1, but as soon as he put it up, there was a lot of scolding, something like "You used to draw men before and thought it was wrong." What? I only have one exclusive model, "Come out so high-profile Does your mother know?" Coincidentally, my mother did know, "Gay? Hey." None of your business?

Xu Chen felt tired, so he simply turned off the computer, and when he turned around, he saw Changge looking at him behind him.

"Do you regret it?" Changge asked.

"I don't regret it," Xu Chen smiled, "Come on, give me a hug, you are the source of my creation~"

Changge bent down to pick him up, Xu Chen hugged him, and whispered: "I'm just upset, this world is really unfair. But it doesn't matter, I have something I want to do my best, and I can't change myself no matter what others do The original idea. The road is long and the road is long."

"I'll be with you." Changge kissed him lightly, it was a very comforting kiss, "It's up to people."

"Yes, that's why I will work hard!" Xu Chen pushed back a few more times, revived with full blood and continued to fight.

After a long time, I entrusted Kuro and Duoduo to Zhou Tingdong, and both of them were preparing to pack up and go home for the New Year, and the comments on the Internet gradually improved, "This is the first time I read this kind of subject matter... But the painting style is so small and fresh, follow it decisively!" "It's great, please keep this update speed!" Xu Chen rubbed his chest, feeling relieved.

Because they missed the flowering period last time, this time the two began to discuss going again when the spring opened.

This time during the Spring Festival, the two went together as usual, first went to Changge's house, Xu Chen got a big red envelope, even Gu's father gave it, and was dragged by Gu's mother to have a cordial "mother-in-law and daughter-in-law dialogue" that lasted for an hour and a half (?)

Xu Chen was scared out of his wits by Gu's mother's words "When are you going to get married?" He had no choice but to turn to Changge, but someone added fuel to the side: "Mom, don't scare him. He proposed to me a long time ago, no need You urge."

Gu's mother was immediately in awe, Gu's father shook the newspaper and pretended not to care, and glanced here, Xu Chen covered his face and wanted to cry, what is it, is that a serious marriage proposal? , Gu Changge, you are too easy to deceive!

Of course, except for this small episode, Xu Chen really lived very comfortably in Changge's house. The flowers in the flower garden were blooming, and the large white roses were too beautiful to behold. As Changge said, he is a gentle person, and the biscuits he makes are super delicious. Although Papa Gu is serious, he is also very easy to get along with.

Xu Chen thought, it would be nice to marry here, wait...why do I use "marry"?

After staying for a week, the two went back to Xu Chen's house together. Seeing Chang Ge this time, Xu's father frowned even tighter, which made Xu Chen tremble with fear. Chang Ge didn't care, and smiled at him decently. Say hello, in Xu's mother's eyes, I think this young man is calm and good-tempered, and the more he looks at him, the more pleasing he is.

Xu's father endured it for a long time, but he still broke out. The reason was that an aunt who was a guest said to him half-jokingly: "I think Xiaochen also brought this boy home last year. What's the matter, are you going to marry him into our house? Hey, I didn't say that, but it's pretty good, I have two sons at once."

"It's not bad, look at what you said in a mess." At that time, Dad Xu felt that she was laughing at him, and he held back his anger.

When Xu Chen and Changge came back, they saw him sitting alone in the living room, with the ashtray full of unburned cigarette butts.

"Dad?" Xu Chen's temples twitched, feeling that something would happen.

"Xu Chen, what is your relationship with him?"

Xu's father spoke harshly, reminding Xu Chen of how angry his father was when he signed the failed paper in elementary school, so he was unable to speak.

"We are together." Changge took the words gracefully, Xu Chen quickly glanced at him in panic, Changge squeezed his hand tightly to signal him to calm down.

Dad Xu snorted and said, "You answered very lightly. I checked your information on the Internet. Of course you don't care if you are a famous entrepreneur, but rumors can kill us ordinary people. Weapons!" After a pause, he continued: "And you, Xu Chen, how did I teach you when I was young, and now you are leading me to this path of no return? Didn't I teach you right and wrong? I spoke!"

"Dad! What's wrong with me just wanting to be with him?"

"What's wrong? I'll tell you everything is wrong! You don't feel disgusted by two big men hugging you, but it's an eyesore for others! Think about how you will be seen by others when you leave the society, and how will the neighbors look at you?" How do you look at me and your mother, wherever we go, people will poke our backs and scold you, is this the life you want?"

"Xu Chen, isn't it good to be a normal person?"

"But I... have always only liked the same sex, and I have no other choice!" Xu Chen took a breath and sighed, "What do you want me to do? You say you are thinking of me, do you want me to give up what I love and go to nothing Happiness is the combination of people without feelings? This is my life, Dad, I have to walk the rest of the way, you can't make decisions for my life, and you can't define my life casually!"

"Okay... okay, I can't say no to you. It's good for you to have your own ideas when you grow up, but I will never compromise on this matter." Dad Xu wiped his face and pointed to the door: "Now, get out of here." Go out, don't break up with him for a day, and don't enter my house for a day."

"Uncle, you are too emotional now. If I really take Xu Chen away, you will regret it in the future." Looking at the father and son who were also furious, Changge rubbed his brows.

"When did you tell me to teach me a lesson? What does it have to do with you if I don't regret it later? Xu Chen, you'd better take him out now!"

Changge wanted to say something more, but was grabbed by Xu Chen, who looked at him with red eyes: "Stop talking, let's go."

Changge had never seen him who always smiled brightly, with such a complex expression on his face, although he was smiling, but there was pain in his eyes that couldn't be concealed, and suddenly something in his heart seemed to be caught by something. Tie it up.

The two found a hotel temporarily, and after putting away their things, Xu Chen sat by the bed like a wandering soul, like a lifeless plant, babbling.

Changge saw it, felt sorry for him, sat down next to him, straightened his bangs, and asked in a questioning tone: "Do you regret it?"

"I don't regret it, Changge. No matter what it is, I don't regret it. Even if you leave me one day, you won't regret it." Xu Chen put his head on Changge's shoulder and said calmly: "Regret is the most useless emotion."

"What nonsense, I will never leave you." Changge hugged him a little tighter, and brushed his fingertips across each other's ears, and the two stared at each other quietly.

Xu Chen smiled, and gently tugged at his collar: "Come and kiss."

Changge lowered his head and kissed him firmly and gently, leaving his own marks on every part of the other's mouth. His tongues were entangled, and the kiss was inseparable and lingering.

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Quack quack quack, the May Fourth performance was really fun~