Forget about the past

Xu Chen covered his red face and was sent back to the dormitory. Changge stood in the snow and said goodbye to him: "Go back and rest early, see you tomorrow."

Xu Chen nodded, and ran back to the dormitory as fast as he could. When he stretched out his hand to open the dormitory door, the smile on his face froze.

Inside was Su Wen's voice, as gentle as ever: "I heard your roommate is gay?"

Xu Chen stopped walking, and his breathing also stopped.

The head of the room gave a surprised "Yeah", and then said affirmatively: "How is it possible, he is not."

Su Wen laughed and said, "How do you know he's not? Just now my roommate sent a message saying that he was kissing a man."

The head of the room walked back and forth irritably, and finally sat back on the bed: "So what if it is, Xu Chen is a better person. Besides, isn't it because of him that we can be together?"

Su Wen leaned over to comfort you carefully: "I understand what you mean. But now there are only the two of you in your dormitory, how dangerous it is, in case he wants to do something to you... why don't we move out together."

Xu Chen lowered his head and looked at his toes, like a child who has done something wrong, he listened to the dead silence inside.He wanted to leave very much, because he didn't want to hear the answer at all, but his feet seemed to have taken root, but the voice finally sounded abruptly.

"……it is good."

At this moment, he was like a deflated balloon, wishing that he could disappear into an unknown corner with those air currents.

But the reality is often unsatisfactory. A passing acquaintance greeted Xu Chen skillfully: "Xu Chen, what are you doing standing at the door? Isn't it cold?"

The voice was so loud that it was impossible for the people inside not to hear the movement, Xu Chen said awkwardly "Got it", and took another deep breath before walking in.

He tried his best to look calm and calm: "I heard what you just said, you don't have to move, I will leave."

The head of the room looked up at him, and his expression became very complicated after hearing these words. Su Wen was somewhat embarrassed, and told the head of the room to go back.

The moment she passed by Xu Chen, the half-smile on her face fell into Xu Chen's eyes exactly, which made him vaguely think of someone in his mind.A seemingly harmless person who should have been buried with the passing years.

Xu Chen didn't talk to the head of the room. He quietly took a shower and then got into the quilt. The bedroom was so quiet that the atmosphere was weird, but no one broke the suffocation.

Hearing the ticking of the clock, and the fluffy snow covering all the sound sources outside, Xu Chen felt cold and shrunk himself into a small ball.

"Xu Chen," the room chief called him softly.

Facing the whitewashed wall, Xu Chen's eyes were wide open, and he didn't respond in pain.

The head of the room called him a few more times, probably thinking that he was asleep, and sighed, his voice was so low that it was almost inaudible, and choked with sobs: "I'm sorry."

Xu Chen covered his eyes in pain, and a heavy liquid fell out little by little.

He didn't blame the room chief, he didn't blame him at all, it wasn't his fault in the first place.However, I was not wrong in the first place, but I should be regarded as a scourge.

In this regard, he can only be silent, silent, there is no other way.

Xu Chen got up very early the next day, looked at himself in the mirror with black eyes, and sighed.

After the meal, I sent a text message to my mother: "Mom, I want to move out."

Mom replied quickly: "What's the matter?"

Holding the phone, Xu Chen typed word by word: "Because I'm gay."

Looking at the name that kept flashing on the screen of the phone in horror, he took a deep breath and connected the phone: "Hello, Mom."

The voice on the other end asked hesitantly: "That... son... you really..."

"Well, I am." Xu Chen nodded cautiously, and he smiled: "This kind of thing should have been confessed to you earlier, but I was forced to tell you. Mom, I'm sorry."

"If you're sorry because you didn't tell me in time, you should, but if it's because of your sexual orientation, you don't have to apologize." The voice on the other end was gentle and slow, and she wiped away her tears and continued:

"My child, of course I know best. You have been obedient and timid since you were a child. It must have been hard to keep this matter in your heart. I am also really serious. Why have I never found out? If I knew earlier, I must I will not let you suffer this alone."

Xu Chen wiped his face and smiled, look, there is no mother who does not love her child, all they think about is what if their child suffers.

"Why did you move out?" My mother calmed down and asked again: "By the way, your dad has a bad temper. Don't tell your dad about this. I'll do psychological work for him."

"Okay," Xu Chen responded softly, feeling a little embarrassed: "Because my roommate has a girlfriend, and he said he was worried..."

After speaking, he showed an expression that he didn't know whether to cry or laugh, which made people feel pain in his heart.

"That girl is real too. Is my Xiaochen guilty of robbing him for a boyfriend? I'll pooh," my mother poohed a few times angrily, and when there was no response, she suddenly panicked: "No, You really like your boyfriend..."

"Nothing," said a bit dumbfounded, admiring his mother's imagination, then his expression darkened and his voice was hoarse: "But I have always regarded him as my best friend."

The mother was stunned for a moment, feeling sorry for her stupid son: "Okay, there's nothing to be sad about. If others don't regard you as a friend, it's nothing for you to post it upside down. If you want to open it up, my dear."

"Well," Xu Chen really wanted to defend the room chief, but he couldn't say anything, so he simply changed the subject: "Mom, then I moved out..."

"Move, move!" Mom said boldly, "I'll put the money on your card in the afternoon. If you have time, go and see if there is a suitable house. You can only be wronged for a few days before you move out." .”

Xu Chen could only say "thank you" in the end, and my mother was overjoyed until she smelled a strange smell in the kitchen, and jumped up yelling, "My stewed beef! Oh, I won't tell you, beef paste Already!"

Hearing his mother put down the phone in a panic, Xu Chen lowered his head and smiled.

It snowed all night last night, and the air today became extremely clean. He took a deep breath, letting the fresh and clean air fill his entire chest, and then spread to his limbs and blood vessels, so he felt comfortable.

He stepped on the soft snow step by step, thinking to himself, probably everything will be fine.

Changge couldn't get away because of the company's business, and Xu Chen didn't have class today, and didn't want to go back to the dormitory, so he simply strolled outside to a milk tea shop to drink something to warm his body.

There were very few people in the milk tea shop at this time, with soothing and soft music playing, Xu Chen sank comfortably on the soft sofa, thought for a while and sent a message to Zuo Meng: "Are you free? I'm at the coffee shop near the school, see you Come on, I have something to tell you~"

Holding the phone, Zuo Meng looked at two messages from almost her colleagues, one was from Xu Chen, and the other was from her boyfriend Yang Yunfan: "Are you free? We have a friendship match today, do you want to watch it?" ?”

Zuo Meng typed "no time" on the phone, pressed send, and the recipient was Yang Yunfan.

Zuo Meng put on her snow boots to go to the appointment. When she was approaching the school gate, she bumped into a fair-skinned tall girl. The girl smiled so cutely that her eyes curled up. They said at the same time, "I'm sorry."

Then pass by.

She looks familiar, but she's not from our school. Where have you seen her?Zuo Meng went far away and was still thinking about this matter over and over again.

Seeing Zuo Meng standing at the door of the milk tea shop, Xu Chen raised his eyes and smiled at her: "You are here, I ordered hot cocoa for you."

Zuo Meng took off the scarf wrapped around her neck, and sat down opposite him: "You still remember, how rare."

On the other side, Yang Yunfan, who received the news, put down his phone in disappointment. He played very well in the first half, almost crushing the opponent's score, but it was a pity that the person he most wanted to share with was not around.

When the tall girl handed Yang Yunfan the water, he didn't refuse for the first time, the girl laughed happily and whispered "Come on".

Xu Chen propped his chin and fiddled with a bunch of lavender for decoration, Zuo Meng drank hot drink to warm up, leaned forward a little, and smiled: "Don't you have something to say?"

Xu Chen nodded and lowered his head: "I'm out with my family."

"Huh?" Zuo Meng swallowed in disbelief, and suppressed the soreness in his heart: "You want to be with him? You already like him so much."

Xu Chen raised his head in surprise, and explained in a panic: "No...it's not because of him, ah, no, it's a little bit."

He was almost incoherent enough to make himself despair, and he simply gave up: "To be precise, he is the root cause, but the fuse is not him. Anyway, I have to tell my parents about this sooner or later."

Zuo Meng couldn't help laughing: "Okay, it's not that I don't know your feelings for him. Have you confirmed your relationship yet?"

Xu Chen shook his head, regretfully said: "Not yet, but it should be soon."

As he spoke, he became happy again, with a fresh and bright smile, like the sunshine that breaks through the clouds and mist in early spring.

"That's good." Zuo Meng lowered her head and sighed inaudibly.

Xu Chen secretly sent a message to Changge: "Are you still busy?"

Changge smiled when he saw the text message, and everyone in the conference room looked at him in horror. He didn't know anything, and replied wholeheartedly: "We are in a meeting, and I will pick you up in half an hour."

"Okay," Xu Chen thought for a while and added, "By the way, will you bring me chocolate today?"

Changge casually asked the assistant behind him: "What's the date today?"

The assistant answered cautiously: "NO.14."

Changge nodded expressionlessly to show he understood, replied "Yes", then got up, left the conference room in a hurry, leaving behind a group of people staring at each other, the meeting was only halfway through... …

Zuo Meng suddenly remembered something: "Xu Chen, I met a girl today, she looks familiar, I want to ask if you remember."

Probably because Xu Chen can draw, so he has a deep memory of human faces, so he put down his phone and smiled: "If I saw her, I should have an impression."

"Hmm..." Zuo Meng seriously recalled that girl's appearance: "Very fair and tall, with big eyes, and when she smiles, her eyes will bend."

Xu Chen searched carefully among the women he knew, even though he had come into contact with quite a few women, he still pronounced the name uncertainly: "Zhang Xiaomo?"

Wen Jiu'an's cousin, Wen Jiu'an was Xu Chen's crush back then, and then pushed him into the abyss, and Zhang Xiaomo also contributed to this.

Zuo Meng patted her thigh: "Oh, it's her. I said why she looks so familiar. But I remember that she is not from our school. I saw her come to our school today."

Xu Chen shook his head and suddenly realized: "Maybe I came to watch the basketball game. Hey, isn't Yang Yunfan from the basketball team? Why didn't you go?"

Zuo Meng shrugged guiltily: "He didn't ask me to go."

"You," Xu Chen sighed helplessly, "you have to cherish what is in front of you, I think he is not bad."

Zuo Meng murmured "Mmm" a few times, neither responding nor denying.

Xu Chen and Zuo Meng broke up, and stood alone at the door of the milk tea shop rubbing his hands. Because of the cold, he almost buried most of his face in the black scarf, only showing his eyebrows and eyes as clear as spring water.

Changge's car pulled over, he opened the door and walked over to someone standing on the steps, handed him the chocolate in his hand, and said, "Let's go."

Xu Chen didn't move, he concentrated on looking at the chocolate in his hand, then raised his face to Chang Ge and laughed non-stop: "Do you know that single dogs can't eat chocolate."

"That's it," Changge sighed in distress, and after careful consideration, he said softly, "Then I have to give you another boyfriend."

The author has something to say:

I think... the most abused one is me... Don't be too desperate for a single dog to write sweet articles... please collect it... get lost...