Zerg Rover

"September 9. The sky was cloudy, and the night turned to light rain

It's been a long time since that nightmare.Recently, I have been restless and would wake up in the dead of night, sweating profusely.

Only the light can calm me down, the light keeps the darkness out, just like his sunshine takes me out of the cloud.

He was lying next to me and had always been a sound sleeper, especially since he was pregnant. I didn't have to worry about waking them up.

Yes, I like to use "they" We are about to welcome a new member.Maybe this newcomer will sleep soundly at night like my lover.

This reminds me of last summer, the sweltering night, I came home late, forgot to bring the key, knocked on the door and window, even our neighbor woke up and came out to see what was going on, but he didn't know what was going on anyway. don't wake up.

The next day I asked him if he heard anything.He said that he slept well at night and heard no sound.

I made fun of him several times with this incident, but he was still careless.I'm afraid only a person like him can bear a sensitive and fragile person like me.

Let's talk about naming things today.He said he hoped to name his child Hai, and wished him to be as deep and broad as the sea.

No matter how vast the sea is, it is still bound by gravity.I hope that he is like the sky, free to go where he likes and do what he likes as he pleases. "

"November 11. The morning snow fell, the breeze

For half a month in a row, I had no desire to write, and felt restless. I didn't know if it was because of the cooling down.

When I learned that he was pregnant, I changed this diary and wanted to give it to him as a gift when the child was born.Now that I have opened the diary but only a few pages, I am really ashamed.

He said that he wanted to take part in the new mission of the army. He was afraid that I would object, so he made a deliberate cut first and then played. There was really nothing he could do about it.

This mission is a simple exploration of new stars, and it needs to pass through the Krobather Star Field, which is famous for its education. I guess he wants to use public favoritism to buy some things for his children. After all, his family’s financial ability is still not enough to support him. Star Trek.

For some reason, I was anxious and didn't want him to leave.Maybe it's because the birth of the child is approaching, I'm too nervous, and I always look like this on weekdays.

wish well. "

"1.3 He's gone, gone, never seen him again"

"May 2

The morning and evening are upside down, and I don't know what night it is when I wake up.

Dreamy, weak body, cold body, many tears.

He stood on the other side of the Styx River, no matter how he called, he never responded.

I should have thanked God for living so far, because I am not a person of this world.

Not only do I not appreciate it, but I resent God for punishing me.

But why did this punishment fall on him?

Why not take my life?

Just because of that ridiculous, ridiculous experimental project?

Ridiculous, ridiculous! "

"March 3. Sunny

The things that were lost in my teenage years were pulled out from the corner of my memory one by one. I thought I had forgotten it, but it suddenly seemed like yesterday.

I was born in a laboratory, where there are only two kinds of people, experimenters and subjects.

Experimenters, always wearing high hats, masks, gloves and white coats, always speaking commands.

The subjects, in the biological sense, are countless people who are exactly the same as me, with the same face, the same voice, and the same DNA.

They hold knives, we are fish.

Yes, I'm a clone, I was born as a lab guinea pig.

My original body is the male son of the new technology era, Song Huidan.

They firmly believed that Song Huidan's political success back then must be due to his ability to manipulate people's hearts and peep into people's hearts, which made all the Zerg people crazily believe in him, and this ability existed in his brain.

The experimenters didn't mind that we knew our origins, and Song Huidan's portrait hung in the corridor.After all, in their eyes, the existence of human cloning is only for brain experiments to explore how the most mysterious brain produces this ability.

Song Huidan's body was frozen in ice, and experimenters extracted genes from him to clone white mice for experiments.

The experimenters are all females, they look down on males, and do not think that males will have higher intelligence than females.They made me think for a while that the outside world was females higher than males.

The males lived and boarded in one place, and they called each other by number, and I was number 74.

According to the regularity of visits by the experimenters, each person will inevitably take away more than two male sons. As the experimental group and the control group, very few male sons can come back intact.

It is slightly different from other numbered male sons. I really like to ask why, even if I am reprimanded and punished for it, I still don’t change.

Every clone is a precious non-renewable resource. Good steel should be used wisely, and they can't hurt my body outside the laboratory.

I knew their bottom line a long time ago, so I acted recklessly.

Not long after, I was taken away by a high-ranking experimenter.

In the lab, he flipped through my test records and asked me, why are you more like Song Huidan than the clones outside?No, you're better than he is, and at your age he can't match what you've achieved.

He separated a small number of males to imitate my daily behavior, but there was no second person like me.

As the experiment progressed, the words I accidentally revealed made the senior experimenters more and more convinced that I was the unique candidate they needed.

A person with the ability to manipulate the mind.

Because I am too special, the experimenters who study the mysteries of the ability to "manipulate the mind" through anatomy dare not attack me lightly.

Only when I become an adult, the brain development stops, and then the next batch of "white mice" will be cloned through my cells.

In the area of ​​the laboratory building, I became the freest one. Every female can't hurt me, but also protects me.

The male sons with other numbers, that is, "Hassan Song", secretly slandered and excluded me.They think I'm different, but they don't know that we are all different.

The introductory text under Song Huidan's portrait is written in pinyin, and the females firmly call him in the way that females ruled 200 years ago: Hassan Song.

When I was frantically absorbing knowledge from the outside world like a sponge in the laboratory building, a male son escaped. It is said that he ran to the residential area outside the laboratory building, and was later shot dead by armed men, just like a dissected useless male son. It was put into the bottom incinerator for harmless treatment, and finally put into the sewer between buildings to discharge garbage.

My curiosity about the world of knowledge and my indifference towards clones have won the trust of senior experimenters.Occasionally he confides in me some useless whining.

After a few times, I got it, I reminded him of his kid.

The child, Kirsty Lane, was the posthumous son of his late husband, and he told the trivial things over and over, while I read my book as if nothing had happened.

Later, I met Kirsty, who was well protected and didn't know the dangers of the world.Naively thought that this institute only exists for scientific research.

With the tacit approval of the senior experimenter, I was smuggled out several times by Kirsty.

Kirsty, a silly boy, thought he had successfully slipped away, but he didn't know that there were more than a dozen well-hidden armed men equipped with high-end weapons behind him. If I had any intention of escaping, I would be killed on the spot.

But, the last time, Kirsty slipped me away without following the armed men.At first I thought it was a temptation, and observed carefully for a long time, until I saw the laboratory building burning in flames, and the sound of explosions resounded across the sky, and I didn't know that my chance had come.

I left Kirsty behind and kept running forward, not daring to stay where I was, not daring to call out loudly, for fear that they would come out of nowhere and catch me back, waiting for adulthood to become a fish on their chopping board, At the mercy of others.

I observed the place where the crowd gathered for three full days, and only dared to go in after confirming that there was no danger.

When they found out that I was a male, I thought I was going to be beaten to death by a tall female, but they sighed and said: How can a male boy be reduced to this level.

It took me a long time to realize that the outside world was different from the lab building.

At that time, I thought that there would be no more tragedies in my life, but in the end, it just came later.

Looking back on my life repeatedly, I hope to find out what mistake caused him to leave. The deeper I dig, the more I feel that my survival was a mistake.I caused him to die, and caused him to never see his family again while he was still young.

If we don't meet, we don't know each other.If you don't know each other, you don't want to love.If you don't love each other, you can...

I can not do it. "

"April 4. Heavy rain

I used to be afraid of nightmares at night, but now he no longer enters my dreams. Does God want to deprive me of my only chance to see him? "

"May 5. The sun is shining brightly

I saw him holding our baby and said to me, come on, our family is missing you. "

"May 5th. Overcast

The weather is bad, but the mood is extraordinarily relaxed. When I saw Kirsty, I almost lost my cooking skills after not cooking for a long time.

Kirsty told me that he was going to do a Ph.D. in biology, and that the new direction of research in the scientific community is cognitive science, by recruiting experimenters to study the working mechanism of the brain or mind in an experimental way, compared to the barbaric behavior of only doing craniotomy before Much better.

Listening to him talk about many new experimental instruments, such as X-rays, you can know which areas of the brain have which functions.

I can't remember much, today was very hyper.

When I give him the so-called "manipulation of people's heart" ability to record notes over the years, I will be completely free.

But never let Lake see it, he would be jealous.

Let me put this diary in it and give it to him, lest Lake think I have anything to do with him.

I miss you so much, Lake. "

"May 5. Sunny, 6°C-20°C

I stayed here for an extra two days before I learned of his death.

Such valuable information he gave me has become a lonely copy, and I can even hide it and sign it under my own name.

The person who was talking and joking with me the day before yesterday, how could he just go?

Emotions are really incomprehensible things that can make one person die for another.

Forget it, let me study the relationship between cognition and behavior.

In order not to smear his handwriting, I can only write this article on paper and put it in this book.

What exactly is the picture?

Kirsty Polley Turns 25 Books"