alternate performance

There is no clock hanging in the ward, after all, no patient wants to face such a thing while lying in the hospital bed.

But Gu Congran can hear the ticking of the second hand in a trance. Every time Xu Chenhe avoids his eyes, every time he takes out his heart and Xu Chenhe no longer needs it, he feels that the thread that implicates the two of them fades with the passage of time. On the verge of breaking.

It took him a long time to realize that the slow ticking sound was not the sound of the clock, but that the bottle of needle water hanging by Xu Chenhe was almost empty.Gu Congran rang the bell to call the nurse to close the needle. After finishing the treatment, he dragged the chair and sat down by the wall, keeping a distance of one meter away from Xu Chenhe: "If I don't worry about you, I won't swim more than ten The city is looking for you."

More than ten cities.

Xu Chenhe chewed and chewed these words in his mouth.

He should ask Gu Congran how many kilometers he has traveled, how many people he has searched for and whether he knows his whereabouts, and whether he will regret or feel sad when thinking about him during this period.But when he thought of Gu Congran's method of coaxing him after so many conflicts between them, he flinched. Once he asked, it only meant that he wanted to get in touch with the two again.

"So you have found me now, and seeing that I have a job and friends, and I don't have to worry about food and housing, you should be relieved." Xu Chenhe let go of the hand holding the needle, and reached for a water glass, but it was empty .

"I'll help you." Gu Congran quickly got up and took away the cup, went to the water dispenser to get a cup of warm water for Xu Chenhe, and put it in Xu Chenhe's hand, "I'm relieved, but I'm not reconciled... I'm not reconciled... That’s all for the time.”

When receiving the water cup, Xu Chenhe touched Gu Congran's hand, as if afraid of his disgust, Gu Congran shrunk faster than him, but the touch in less than half a second made Xu Chenhe feel the coldness of the other's fingertips.

Just as he was wondering, Gu Congran put his hands in his pockets, took out Xu Chenhe's cell phone and ID card and put them on the bedside table: "I brought these for you, I didn't rummage through your things, but..."

Before he finished speaking, Xu Chenhe looked at him suddenly: "How did you get in?! You...do you know how to respect my privacy?"

The misunderstanding came suddenly, Gu Congran's words were cut off, and he finally tasted the unspeakable taste: "...you forgot?"

"Forgot what? Forgot that you love to follow me and try to ruin my life again?" Xu Chenhe's pale face showed a slightly angry blush, "Gu Congran, can you stop bothering me?"

It was the first time after the reunion that Xu Chenhe called out his name, Gu Congran was not happy at all, and even his ability to argue had deteriorated at this time.What can he refute, from the beginning to the end, Xu Chenhe called Tang Sui's name, and in Xu Chenhe's view, his own name ruined the other party's past taboo.

In the end, all he can complain about is himself who has treated Xu Chenhe like this. When has he ever given Xu Chenhe a chance?When is it not to block the other party's mouth with resentment?

"I'm sorry." Gu Congran hooked the key in his pocket, "If I really disturb your life, I will..."

He stopped.

He couldn't bear it, even though he knew that Xu Chenhe would live a more stable life without him, he still couldn't make the decision to completely withdraw from the other party's life.

The determination to save is always greater than letting go. Thinking of Xu Chenhe's future life without him, he feels as uncomfortable as ten thousand ants bite his bones.

At the stairs in the corridor outside the ward, Tang Sui was leaning on the handrail of the stairs and playing mahjong with his mobile phone. He caught sight of Gu Congran approaching from afar, and he hurriedly messed up, exited the game interface and turned off his mobile phone: "You look so bad, you were caught Are you driven out?"

Gu Congran didn't bother to analyze whether Tang Sui was eccentric or really sloppy, so he checked his pockets and looked away: "Where did he get hurt?"

Tang Sui flicked his mobile phone and asked back: "Go in for a few minutes, and you didn't ask anything?"

"...I'll ask the doctor in charge." Gu Congran made a gesture to leave, but Tang Sui pressed his shoulder: "Don't, brother."

Standing up straight, Tang Sui tossed a candy and threw it into his mouth. His leisurely demeanor was in stark contrast to Gu Congran's seriousness and indifference: "The elbow and knee were slightly scratched, and the ankle joint was dislocated, but it has been repositioned under anesthesia. Anyway, thank you for showing up in time, the situation is not too bad."

Gu Congran nodded, took out a bunch of keys in his pocket and threw them at the other party, who was caught deftly by Tang Sui.

"What is this?" Tang Sui asked.

"The key," Gu Congran said, "I broke the door lock of Xu Chenhe's house, and I replaced it with a new one just now, please hand over the key to him for me." After a pause, he added, "Let you Helping does not mean that I give him to you because of my reasons, but because he trusts you and regards you as a friend."

Tang Sui waited in the corridor until the sugar was dissolved before returning to the ward. Xu Chenhe, who was about to get out of bed and washroom, was supported by him: "Be careful."

"Why did it take so long to throw out the trash?" Xu Chenhe said with a smile, "Did you help the cleaning staff mop up the corridor?"

"Yeah, I also chatted with your Mr. Gu for a while." Tang Sui helped Xu Chenhe into the bathroom and stopped outside the door. "Don't tell me, he is really interesting."

Xu Chenhe didn't reply, and the sound of pattering water resounded in the silence, which didn't stop for seven or eight seconds.

"How much water did you drink?" Tang Sui asked.

Xu Chenhe was ashamed: "Isn't this a normal situation after the infusion, I've been holding back and waiting for you to come back and help me."

"Then why don't you let him help you?" Hearing the sound of clothes rubbing against each other, Tang Sui waited for Xu Chenhe to wash his hands before helping him back up.

Leaning on the bed, Xu Chenhe pulled up the quilt: "Don't count on him."

Seeing the tiredness on Xu Chenhe's face, Tang Sui stopped chatting with him, took out the key from his pocket and put it on the counter: "This is the new key he gave you, don't forget to take it with you when you leave the hospital."

Xu Chenhe was stunned: "Which key?"

"Still pretending to be ignorant with me!" Tang Sui helped Xu Chenhe shake the bed down, "He kicked the lock on your door before he broke into the house and brought you out, you have to get a new one, right?"

The operation of the brain seemed to be rusted all of a sudden, and a certain part of the missing memory was disordered. Xu Chenhe propped up on the bed with his elbows, and accidentally got scratches. Does the wound ooze blood: "Didn't you bring me out?"

Tang Sui was also stunned: "Let's say it first, I won't claim it if it's not mine. He was the one who carried you downstairs, and he was the one who took you to the hospital. I arrived later."

The anxiety of misunderstanding others expanded in Xu Chenhe's heart. He misdefined Gu Congran based on his own experience of being hurt, so how is he essentially different from Gu Congran who misunderstood himself at that time?

They cut each other's hearts in the same way, but the time they stood on each other's side never overlapped.

During the few days in the hospital, before Xu Chenhe woke up, Gu Congran bought breakfast early and brought it to the hospital to keep it on the bedside table to replace Tang Sui who accompanied him to work after bed.There was a lesson from the past that Xu Chenhe didn't like being touched by him, so he bought a walker and asked him to help him walk, and the rest of the time he went to the bench outside the corridor to work with his laptop.

A chatty aunt was admitted to the hospital. After realizing that Gu Congran had bought sumptuous meals and bone soup for Xu Chenhe from outside several times, but the two hadn't communicated at all, she asked the aunt lying on the bed who was bored in a daze. Xu Chenhe: "Young man, is that tall man outside your relative?"

"No." Xu Chenhe still had that warm expression towards everyone except Gu Congran, "We're just...ordinary friends."

In the corridor, Gu Congran stopped typing on the keyboard, staring at the crowded words on the screen, listening to the conversation on the other side of the wall.

"You are a good friend. You bought breakfast and came here just after dawn, and you did everything properly," the aunt said, "It's just that you two don't like to communicate, as if you were having an awkward fight."

"I have few topics in common with him. It belongs to..." Xu Chenhe hesitated, "It belongs to the kind of tacit understanding in action, and the way of getting along is different from others."

Gu Congran slowly leaned his back against the wall.

On the day of discharge from the hospital, Tang Sui had work and was unable to come, so Gu Congran ran up and down to help Xu Chenhe complete the discharge procedures, packed up the odds and ends of daily necessities, picked up the walker and ran downstairs to put it in the trunk of the car.

When he returned to the ward, Xu Chenhe was bending over and awkwardly putting on his shoes, probably because his dislocated ankle didn't dare to move too much.Gu Congran knelt down on one knee in front of him, carefully held up the soles of his feet, and helped him put on the shoes as gently as possible.

"The pants will be dirty." Xu Chenhe reminded in a low voice.

Without raising his head, Gu Congran tied Xu Chenhe's shoelaces: "It's okay."

After putting on the shoes and turning his back, Gu Congran still squatted: "Come up, I'll carry you downstairs." In case Shen He refused, he added, "Go downstairs and try to walk by yourself. It's sunny today. The ground is dry, so you are not afraid of falling."

The aunt in the next bed watched them, Xu Chenhe didn't want to lose Gu Congran's face in front of outsiders, so he obediently lay down on the bed, and said in Gu Congran's ear, "Thank you."

There are many people in the elevator, anyway, the floor is not high, so Gu Congran walked up the stairs with Xu Chenhe on his back. After climbing the eighth floor, he didn't feel that the third floor was too strenuous.

"Slow down." Xu Chenhe worriedly grabbed his shoulder.

Gu Congran responded, and since the other party didn't mind, he deliberately slowed down his pace: "Do we really have very few topics in common?"

The person on the back was silent again, Gu Congran wanted to give himself a scratch, they don't have a topic to talk about now, Tang Sui came to take over every night, Xu Chenhe's indifferent face would be stained with a smile, and he talked more unconsciously, And he became the redundant one.Just like on the way to KTV that day, they hooked their shoulders and laughed and shouted. He looked at Xu Chenhe who was surrounded by them, but he was powerless to drag them to his side.

At the bottom of the building, Gu Congran lowered Xu Chenhe down the steps according to the agreement, put his hand on the back of the other person, and followed Xu Chenhe to slow down, watching the shadows of the two of them side by side under the scorching sun of midsummer, the subtle feelings in his heart were like water in a glass jar. The little goldfish spit out a bunch of bubbles.

"Go to the store, or go home?" Gu Congran took out the car key and opened the lock.

Xu Chenhe wiped the sweaty clothes on his back: "Stay home for the next few days to recuperate, and go back to the store after the foot injury is healed." After finishing speaking, he thought that he might have to trouble Gu Congran to go up by him. Wanting to change his words, Gu Congran opened the car door for him: "Get in the car and let the sun shine outside."

"Wait..." Xu Chenhe pressed Gu Congran's arm, and during the contact, he vaguely remembered that dark rainy night, someone wiped away the sweat and tears from his face, and called his name to tell him not to leave. Afraid.

"Did you forget anything?" Gu Congran turned his body to help Xu Chenhe cover the fierce light behind him.

Xu Chenhe pointed to the trunk: "Did you stuff my phone in your bag, can you help me get it?"

Gu Congran had no objection, he pushed up the trunk lid and leaned over to search for the bag of daily necessities, his storage skills were poor, and the items in the bag were in a mess.After finally finding Xu Chenhe's cell phone, when he turned around, he saw the other party staring blankly at the trunk, and asked, "Why... so many petals?"