alternate performance

Xu Chenhe's hands holding back on the cabinet were almost exhausted, his back was pressed against the edge of the cabinet, and his feet seemed to be unconscious due to his slanted standing posture.

It seems that only the brain is still functioning in the whole body, but facing Gu Congran's distrustful eyes, he can't find a reason to deny it.

"Yes." Xu Chenhe squeezed out a word from between his teeth.

Gu Congran's hand suddenly loosened, Xu Chenhe fell powerlessly to the ground, stretched his legs and wrapped his arms around his knees tightly.

"When did you know?" Gu Congran knelt down in front of him, pinched one of his shoulders and shook it.

Following this flash, Xu Chenhe felt the pain from various parts of his body, the scratches on the back of his neck from the necklace, the torn muscles and bones during the finishing process, the bruises from his father hitting his arms and chest with crutches, the seams on the inside of his forearms. The hole where the needle was passed, the bruise after hitting the piano horn in the waist, all of them screamed in pain.

"Last year, even earlier." Xu Chenhe buried his chin in his arms.

"So, when I asked you to help Jiang Hua find his family back, you just planned to lie to me like a joke, didn't you?" Gu Congran grabbed Xu Chenhe's jaw with his left hand, and put his thumb on the imitation mouth. There is a light fingernail mark on the tattoo of the beauty mark, "You know exactly what he is living for in this life."

Xu Chenhe turned his face away, but was pulled back by Gu Congran, his eyes were darkened, and his voice was very soft: "Do you think I'm selfish?"

"Otherwise, I would also like to thank you for constantly devising lies to deceive me?" Gu Congran found it ridiculous when he thought that he had unreservedly shown Jiang Hua's life journey in front of Xu Chenhe, "The family affection he desperately sought for , but in your eyes it is innocuous, and I still fall in love with you because of your resemblance to him, now that I think about it, it’s ironic. You are a selfish person at heart, how can you compare with him? "

His eye sockets were swollen, Xu Chenhe felt his eyes were blurred, his nasal cavity was so congested that he couldn't breathe, and the sentence overflowing from his mouth trembled so much that he couldn't hear clearly: "Aside from his filter, I didn't move your heart. The place?"

The tears rolling down from those empty eyes fell on Gu Congran's hands, so hot that he withdrew his hands abruptly, staring blankly at Xu Chenhe who was absent-minded, with an angry "no" stuck in his throat, But he couldn't say anything.

"I'm not going to attend the grand ceremony, you go by yourself." Gu Congran got up, just stepped out of the house, saw the mobile phone lying on the ground, bent over to pick it up and put it on the shoe cabinet, "There is no need to respond to the public opinion on the Internet, after a few days The company will explain it publicly."

His ears couldn't receive any sound, Xu Chenhe didn't know whether he answered or not, only the loud sound of closing the door that he could catch made him understand that the world between him and Gu Congran had been completely separated.

I don't know how long he sat on the ground until the vibration of the mobile phone on the counter woke him up. He got up with hands and feet, grabbed the mobile phone and pressed the answer button.

This time, Zhu Huiting didn't even need to address him, and immediately asked, "Gu Congran, is he gone?"

"He's not here." Xu Chenhe shuffled back to the bedroom, picked up the suit jacket that was trampled on the ground and patted on the shoe prints, it was fine if it wasn't clean, it just made him such a bad person who was slandered.

"Tsk, that group of media is really ruthless," Zhu Huiting said angrily, "Xu Chenhe, either you don't attend the grand ceremony tomorrow, and if you want to win an award, I will send someone to take the stage on your behalf. You really have to make such a big disturbance on the Internet." Not fit to be there."

Xu Chenhe doesn't know what hot spots the Internet has created for him, but Gu Congran even knows that he is Jiang Hua's younger brother, so the Internet probably won't be much better.

After the trance, Xu Chenhe began to calm down slowly. From the moment he stepped into this circle, he was prepared to bear the worst result, and now he is just performing the scene he preset, as the protagonist Participated in another scene.

"It's okay, brother." Xu Chenhe sat on the bed and rubbed his numb calf, "I can withstand it."

"Aren't you hitting yourself on the muzzle of a gun?" Zhu Huiting yelled, "He is irrational, and you follow him to be stupid?"

"I'm very awake, don't worry, I'm fine." Xu Chenhe reassured.

Chatting until the fuselage became hot, Xu Chenhe agreed to Zhu Huiting's request to accompany him to fly to City H, and the other party finally ended the call.

Xu Chenhe lay on his back on the bed staring at the ceiling, his thoughts diverged. He had not been in Chengcheng City for a long time, and what happened was like a big dream.He thought that his life would be rooted in the town of Rongjing, and he would be the "Teacher Xu" that the children called "Mr. Go out quickly.

He borrowed someone else's life, continued it briefly, and now he has to pay it back.

Resignedly, Xu Chenhe turned on his phone and logged on to Weibo, and clicked on the topic of "True and Fake Jianghua" in the headline.

Zhu Huiting really had the foresight. Yu Ji dug up more information than they thought—the real names of his family were all picked up, including Jiang Hua's original name.

It is said that the material was learned from his former neighbors. Baozheng, some people say that he is Jiang Hua’s younger brother. The real Jiang Hua Ru Xuanran said a few years ago disappeared, and he has not been found yet. This younger brother pretends to be his elder brother for money; some people say that Jiang Hua may have died a long time ago, and Xu Chenhe was specially recruited by Xuan Ran to fill in, capital wants to use illusions to deceive everyone's eyes; Maybe he is really Jiang Hua himself, but the voice of true fans is extremely weak in the crowd of opposing voices.

Later, a photo made this group of unconditional "Jiang Hua" people shut down. A blogger said that he had been to a certain place to participate in the "Three Going to the Countryside" activities, and accidentally ran into a teacher from another class in the office. very similar.I posted this photo on Chaohua at the time, and then deleted it in seconds when I felt it was inappropriate, but the person in the photo really resembled Jiang Hua's face ten to ten times.

Xu Chenhe found the blogger's homepage and flipped through it, lest the other party reveal the address of Rongjing Town. Fortunately, that person's homepage had already been cleared, leaving only the latest trending news.

There was nothing to salvage when things got to this point, Xu Chenhe quit Weibo, propped himself up and folded the suit and put it in the suitcase.

On the day before Christmas, the Grand Reputation Ceremony was grandly held in H City.In the hotel, Xu Chenhe put on a cool-colored starry sky shirt facing the mirror. It was probably cold, and his hands were shaking when he was buttoning up the buttons.Putting on a suit, tidying up every strand of silver tassels on it, and finally hanging the diamond-encrusted bird on a temporary cheap black string around his neck, Xu Chenhe took a deep breath.

Tonight, he represented himself.

Fang Rui urged outside: "Brother, are you done?"

"Okay." Xu Chenhe responded, and went to open the door.

He didn’t bring a makeup and hairdresser with him for this trip, he didn’t do his hairstyle specially, and his face was also plain.

Pushing the suitcase in front of Fang Rui, Xu Chenhe ordered: "Help me put this in the storage room and wait for me in the car. I will leave through the side door. There are too many reporters at the front door."

Fang Rui nodded, and made a phone call: "If you need anything, remember to call Brother Zhu and me."

She briskly pulled the suitcase and ran towards the elevator. Xu Chenhe watched her disappearing figure across a long corridor, and sighed softly.

After going to the bathroom and coming out, Xu Chenhe didn't take the elevator, and went down through the safe passage, avoiding the lobby and walking towards the deserted back door.The car that Zhu Huiting rented was parked there, Xu Chenhe got into the passenger driver, leaned on the seat and stroked his chest.

Fang Rui poked him on the shoulder in the back seat and handed him something: "Brother, the key to the locker."

"Thank you." Xu Chenhe took it and put it in his trouser pocket.

Zhu Huiting turned the steering wheel and drove onto the main road: "We have to stop outside the venue. Try to come out early after the awards ceremony is over at night. If it's later, those entertainment journalists and paparazzi may appear in groups."

"No problem." Xu Chenhe said.

His performance today was too straightforward, Zhu Huiting glanced at him in the rearview mirror strangely: "Are you too calm?"

Hearing this, Xu Chenhe clenched the pendant on his chest tightly.He avoided Zhu Huiting's gaze and looked out the window, and said with a smile, "It's just a fake, I just don't want to mess up this grand ceremony."

The commercial vehicles of various artists were parked outside the venue, the red carpet was spread outside the gate of the venue, people from all walks of life surrounded both sides of the road, the sound of the flashing lights crowded the scene, and the flickering white light and the warm-colored spotlights above the venue intersected.

The car stopped outside, Xu Chenhe wiped the cold sweat off with his fingertips on his palm.Pushing open the door, he turned his head and smiled at Zhu Huiting: "Brother Zhu, thank you."

Brushing the place where the sleeve of the suit was stepped on yesterday, to make sure that the shoe print was no longer visible, Xu Chenhe stepped out of the car.

For a while, all the cameras on and off the court were aimed at him. Xu Chenhe smiled warmly, skillfully looked for the seat set up by the organizer, waved naturally to the people outside the red carpet, and then took the pen handed by the Miss Etiquette in the The name of Jiang Hua was signed on the background board—a wavy line was drawn behind the last stroke, which was regarded as representing his own river water.

During the few steps towards the interview platform, he noticed that the host's facial expression had a fleeting stiffness, presumably because his undisclosed identity made the other party embarrassed.

Standing on the interview platform, Xu Chenhe nodded to the other party with a calm expression. He accepted the questions thrown by the other party and answered them rationally much more calmly than walking on the red carpet for the first time two years ago.

It was nothing more than a topic about film and television, but in the end it seemed that in order to respond to the voice of the masses, the host asked a digression: "There have been a lot of negative news about you on the Internet recently, and I don't see you defending yourself. Can you answer it, everyone?"

Xu Chenhe lowered his eyes and smiled, holding the microphone and looking at the crowd outside the red carpet: "If I win an award tonight, I will explain it to everyone."

The host spoke quickly: "What if unfortunately the flower falls to another family?"

Xu Chenhe thought to himself that this host is not good enough, but he still answered patiently: "Then tell everyone on Weibo."

Sitting in the guest seat at night, Xu Chenhe secretly sighed again.There was an empty seat on his left, and Gu Congran's name was pasted on the front of the chair, reminding him of the time when they were sitting next to each other's shoulders and whispering to each other.

At that time, he regarded Gu Congran as the only person he trusted.

Now that I think about it, I really trust people too easily. Gu Congran treats him better, and he is moved. The occasional scolding is taken as teaching, and the casual gentleness is taken as affection.

In fact, the other party had reminded him long ago - "If one day I see something wrong in your eyes, it means that I accidentally took you as him."

The group of boys sitting on the right is still the group of boys from last time, but after two years, this boy group has already become famous, and when you walk outside, you will be surrounded by a large group of fans. I don’t know if the boy who asked him to sign has also realized his dream. dream.

Thinking of this, Xu Chenhe looked to the right, and the boy with dyed blue-black hair immediately looked away.

Xu Chenhe withdrew his gaze.

This awards ceremony was too long and unbearably long. He watched artists he knew and didn't know take the stage to receive awards and perform. Occasionally, a second or two of the live broadcast of the whole network swept across his face. He thought distractedly, Gu Cong Did Ran see him?What will you think?

The moment the host on stage called Jiang Hua's name, he was stunned for a moment.When the camera was fixed on him, he realized that everyone - from far and near - were all looking at him, some were applauding, some were standing still.

Xu Chenhe stood up, wondering if Jiang Hua had ever experienced such a lonely moment.

He walked up to the stage, took the trophy presented by the presenter, nodded his thanks, and looked behind him in a daze.There are several large characters on the screen: Best Actor of the Year.

Looking back, he gripped the microphone tightly and bowed deeply to the audience.After straightening up, he held up the heavy trophy, allowing the ups and downs of emotions to calm down within a second limited by himself.

"Hi everybody, I'm--"

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