alternate performance

The exterior wall of the villa is decorated with imitation marble wall lamps. Gu Congran knew that Xu Chenhe was unlikely to run to a place without a light source, so he searched along the path with lights, and found Xu Chenhe kneeling on the ground in front of the small living room on the side.

The soft light spread on Xu Chenhe's face, and Gu Congran could read a bit of melancholy in his expression.

"What's the matter?" Gu Congran pulled his arm, "Why are you kneeling? Doesn't your knee hurt?"

Only then did Xu Chenhe react a bit, and looked back from the sea: "I accidentally fell, my knee hurts."

He frowned slightly, and his expression seemed really uncomfortable. Gu Congran scolded "stupid", and hugged Xu Chenhe by the waist shortly, ignoring the unbalanced man's hands and feet fluttering around his neck in panic, and walked away Walked over to a small machine next to the glass door in the living room.

The glass door opened automatically, Xu Chenhe's thoughts were pulled back, and he asked strangely: "What is that?"

"Face sensor." Gu Congran put Xu Chenhe on the sofa in the center, and the light on the top turned on in response.

He lifted Xu Chenhe's ankle and was about to lift the other's trouser legs, but Xu Chenhe blocked his hand: "I'm fine."

"Don't be stubborn." Gu Congran slapped his hand away, but was kicked on the thigh again by the other party, leaving half a shoe print on his trousers.

"It's okay." Xu Chenhe retracted his legs and changed the subject, "I'm thirsty."

It is true that no water has been in since getting off the plane. Gu Congran just remembered this, patted the shoe prints on his pants, and said, "I'll get you water."

As soon as he got up, Xu Chenhe grabbed the corner of his clothes, pointed to the wine cabinet and said: "Isn't there wine?"

Gu Congran didn't allow it: "Do you still want to drink?"

"I don't make trouble after drinking it." Xu Chenhe said.

It was rare for Xu Chenhe to be willful for a while, but Gu Congran changed his mind: "Then don't talk nonsense to me when you're drunk."

He took two chilled goblets and poured some newly opened white wine. This wine has a high alcohol content, so he didn't dare to let Xu Chenhe drink too much.

"Thank you." Xu Chenhe took it, first licked it a bit and tasted it with the tip of his tongue, his brows that had not been stretched for a long time immediately frowned again.

"Is it a little sour?" Gu Congran sat down beside him, "If you can't drink it, tell me, and I'll replace it with water."

"No need." Xu Chenhe pressed Gu Congran's leg to prevent him from getting up, and just wanted to get to the point quickly.

Compared to Xu Chenhe, Gu Congran tasted wine much more freely, so many days and nights, he came here like this.

"Before I brought you here, I did a lot of mental construction." Gu Congran changed the wine glass to his left hand, and then held Xu Chenhe tightly with his right hand, "During the two months or so you went abroad to film, I brewed There are so many things I want to confess to you."

Sweat oozes from the piece of skin touching Gu Congran's palm, Xu Chenhe can't tell whether the thin sweat is the other party's or his own. If it's his own, it's because of the heat generated by his body after drinking, or his own sweat. Inner tension.

He hopes that Gu Congran can recognize his feelings clearly during the time he spends with him, and he can only like a little bit, but as long as that tiny bit does not bear the imprint of Jiang Hua, he is confident that the other party will look at him from less to more. Gather on yourself.

He hoped that Gu Congran brought him here because he wanted to say goodbye to Jiang Hua, at least Gu Congran was willing to let him get closer to the past, instead of burying the past stories in his heart and forcing himself not to forget.

"You say." Xu Chenhe pinched the stem of the cup, scraping it back and forth with his nails, trying to ease his messy mood.

Under the moonlight, a layer of light waves was pushed from afar by the sea breeze, as if someone was responding.Gu Congran rubbed Xu Chenhe's tiger's mouth, and said, "In fact, Jiang Hua had his original intention to enter the showbiz..."

Xu Chenhe quietly relived the story of Jiang Hua. He had heard it from Zhu Huiting, but it was far less detailed than what Gu Congran himself narrated.

Xu Chenhe secretly loosened Gu Congran's hand, raised his head to drink up the wine in the glass, handed the glass to Gu Congran, and motioned for another drink.

The other party had no choice but to let go of his hand first to find time to drink. Xu Chenhe got the chance, holding the glass with both hands, and stopped holding hands with Gu Congran.

"Jiang Hua traveled to many cities in those years, doing road shows, doing public welfare or meeting, etc., all with the purpose of finding his family back. He always thinks that there is a sense of blood relationship. He doesn't remember the faces of his parents, but he remembers himself. The cry of his mother chasing after him when he was taken away by human traffickers." Gu Congran held the wine glass, and the face reflected on the surface of the wine in the glass was full of regret and loneliness, "After seven years of groping in the circle, he not only I didn’t find it, and I even felt that I was living a very hard life with the avatar.”

Xu Chenhe seems to understand Jiang Hua's feelings. In this circle, some people are willing to create unrivaled classic characters because of love;Jiang Hua is not the former, nor is it the latter, but he has obtained what both of them want to pursue at the same time. However, he wears an empty soul, so he has worked harder than anyone else.

"Then why don't you give up?" Xu Chenhe asked confused, "If it were me, I would rather not be so persistent, how tired I am."

Gu Congran turned his head to look at the people beside him: "By the time he realized it, it was already too late."

Severely depressed people are most likely to develop a pessimistic and world-weary attitude towards life. At the age of 26, it was the most difficult year in Jiang Hua’s life. The death of his mother-in-law brought him a big blow, and his strong self-blame made him unable to make a good movie. Fortunately, the filming started only two weeks ago. , it was produced by Xuan Ran again, Gu Congran simply asked the director to change roles, and brought Jiang Hua home to recuperate.

The comprehensive treatment plan did not make Jiang Hua's condition better. He threw away the medicine, refused to do MECT, and locked himself at home, not wanting to see anyone.

The reason for Gu Congran to relax his vigilance is that Jiang Hua had no suicidal tendencies during the six months of his illness, and occasionally he would be very cheerful when doing interviews. How could he think that he buried himself too deeply.

Traveling for relaxation was proposed by Gu Congran, but where to go was decided by Jiang Hua.Jiang Huaxuan left at [-] o'clock in the morning. He woke up naturally that day and did not leave a suicide note. He only left a kiss between the eyebrows for the sleeping person beside him.

Many people say that people with depression are not sober at all when they commit suicide, and the end of life is not their own will.But Jiang Hua was very conscious of what he was doing at that time. The sea water came up inch by inch. He tasted the salty taste and felt very relaxed. In the turbulent blue, he couldn't hear the heart-piercing call behind him. The phantom of the mother-in-law waving to him.

"I..." Gu Congran couldn't continue, he leaned over and hugged Xu Chenhe into his arms, and murmured, "Fortunately, you showed up."

The unsteady wine glass slipped from his hand, and the wine poured on the trousers and shoe, and more was absorbed by the carpet.The wine glass rolled down under the coffee table, Xu Chenhe's hand was stuck in the air, he didn't hug him back Gu Congran: "What do you mean?"

Gu Congran tightened his grip on his waist, and he could feel the beating of Xu Chenhe's chest when the bodies were leaning on each other, so he stroked the other person's back with his palm: "I want to confess to you, when I first found you, I didn't just want you to replace him. live in showbiz."

Xu Chenhe already had the answer in his heart: "I still need to help him find his family, right?"

"This is the regret of his life," Gu Congran rubbed the back of Xu Chenhe's neck, "I want him to..."

"What do you think of me?" Xu Chenhe pushed the opponent away with all his strength, his eyes hurt, "A tool?"

"No," Gu Congran wanted to grab Xu Chenhe's hand, "We are not using our relationship, as long as we find Jiang Hua's family, the eight-year contract you signed will be void, and we—"

"Why do you say everything so grandly?" Xu Chenhe stood up holding the armrest of the sofa, "Haven't you figured it out yet? It's not his regret, it's your regret. In Jiang Hua's last days, he What I want is no longer looking for his family, but feeling guilty towards his mother-in-law."

"Are you questioning my knowledge of him, or do you not want to help?" Gu Congran asked.

Up to this moment, both of them remained calm. Gu Congran wanted to confess his feelings to Xu Chenhe after the past, so he would never let the conflict happen again, and Xu Chenhe saw Gu Congran's most fundamental truth again and again. idea.

"Then if I helped and found it, then what? Tell them the news of Jiang Hua's death?" Xu Chenhe's heart turned cold, "Or let me play Jiang Hua in front of them, then what am I, Xu Chenhe? It makes sense ?"

"It's meaningful," Gu Congran said firmly, "Jiang Hua has been working on this matter all his life, I just hope you can help him finish this performance, and if you want to quit the entertainment industry, I won't stop you, okay? "

The sea breeze blows into the room from the outside, blowing away Xu Chenhe's joy and anger.His face was indifferent, and he stood outside the sofa with one wet trouser leg, and asked: "Although I have the same face as him, because I am not him, you will never care about my feelings, will you?"

He didn't really need Gu Congran's answer, he walked away after asking, his mind was still calculating clearly, he drank two glasses of wine this time, but he wasn't drunk, the amount of alcohol was really practiced.

He thought he had taken many steps forward, but when Gu Congran hugged him from behind, he realized that he hadn't stepped out of the living room yet.

Gu Congran wrapped his arms tightly around his body, like every time before, put his chin on his shoulder, and said, "Xu Chenhe, I like you."

The person in his arms didn't struggle, but Gu Congran was afraid that he would escape, so he closed his arms without leaving any gaps: "Let's tear up that eight-year contract, I want to spend more eight years with you. You don't like that contract?" I will re-order the ring for you, engraved with the sentence you like. If you are afraid that I will break my promise, I can take you to get the certificate right away. Where the wedding is held is up to you, and everything is up to you, okay? "

He chose to say these words to Xu Chenhe after he figured it out.On the day when Zhu returned to the court to break his absurd thinking, he pondered for a long time, and never dared to admit it, using the ridiculous remark of "substitute" as an excuse, but he had long been entangled in the lies he had woven.

Afraid of betrayal but unable to extricate himself, he is only deceiving himself and others in this relationship, once he admits it, it seems that his mood suddenly brightens.

After waiting for Xu Chenhe's reply for a long time, Gu Congran turned his eyes away, but saw Xu Chenhe's side face was cold and cold.

"If you said these words to me first, maybe I would be happier. But you said a lot of hurtful things, and then you give me this sweet date. I just think you have ulterior motives." Xu Chenhe lowered his head, with the back of his hand He wiped the "beauty mole" under the corner of his mouth. He was always used to doing this, but the fake mole couldn't be wiped off, "Tonight, I thought I would wait until you told me that you were going to let him go. Just treat me well. In the end, I was just being sentimental again."

Both hands pulled Gu Congran's arm vigorously, but without pulling it away, Xu Chenhe cruelly scratched it with his nails, like an unreasonable wild cat.

The waist was loosened a little, Xu Chenhe saw the opportunity to break the shackles and ran, just two steps away, Gu Congran grabbed his wrist: "Xu Chenhe, it may take a long time for me to forget him, but I really want to forget him." I like you."

This sentence is undoubtedly the most fatal blow. Xu Chenhe's tears rolled down without warning all night. He clenched his fist and smashed Gu Congran's forearm. His hands and his knuckles are also numb: "Then you like it."

He turned around and ran out, regardless of whether there were lights in front of him or how long the road was, the reason in his feelings had given him a bright direction——

Like is easy, love is easy.

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