loop back

"Daddy, are you okay?"

I put flowers in front of the tomb and put the wine on the table.

"I brought you a bottle. Don't drink too much wine, otherwise, you will be scolded by your mother..."

No one, I said to myself.The only ones who know that Dad is lying here are Wei Youdong and me.

"Dad, I saw Hanyu yesterday...I think he's pretty good."

When I said it, I found that I was wrong, and it was sour.

How about him, he will live well... The past keeps dragging me, and everything is thanks to you.

I bowed my head, suppressing the sadness that was about to flow out again.

"Dad, I'm going to see my uncle and aunt."

Put the things on the table, the bag is empty.

"Uncle, I brought you food, but you don't have your share of wine. Auntie seems to be dreaming of me, and won't let you bring wine..."

It’s really like watching uncles and aunts a few years ago. You can chat with uncles and aunts. .

"Uncle, I met Hanyu yesterday..." I paused and tried to smile.

"Uncle, don't worry, I will definitely do what I promised you, but uncle..."

Can I just look at him from a distance, even if I can only see him once in two years...

I sniffed, "Uncle, I'm leaving."

But before I got down the stairs, I found the people who had already forced me up. I panicked and hid behind the stone tablet.

He had found the trace and came out shouting.

I glanced at those things with some resentment, and resigned myself to moving them out.

Just standing in front of him like this, I can't be upright, and I dare not look at him.His hands and feet froze in place as if they were bound, and he didn't dare to move again.

But I still kept taking a small chance in my heart, thinking too much, I was lucky to be able to look at him a few more times.

I know that the dodging eyes make me look more like I have done something wrong.

"What are you doing here?" Xu Hanyu grabbed my collar with both hands, his tone of disbelief couldn't be more obvious.

Hanyu... I'm here to accompany Dad, I'm going to see my uncles and aunts...

I want to answer, but I can't say anything.It wasn't me who lost my parents, it wasn't me who lost my family, it wasn't me who was betrayed by my lover.In your cognition, it is not me.Don't talk about any pain about me, it's too small to mention in front of your pain.

"Isn't torture enough while alive? Why don't you let them rest in peace after death? What did my parents do to you to make you so decisive!"

Before I could react, I was thrown to the ground by him.

...Hanyu, no...it's not like that.

I got up quickly, and I could only say meaningless no, but before I could stand still, a slap in the face took me down the stairs.

Are you dreaming?But the pain all over my body came one after another, reminding me that I was in reality.

I wiped my eyes, stood up slowly and walked out.

Yeah, it's sad.How did it become what it is today?

It turns out that there is no unwillingness, there should be no luck, and I don’t blame you and me.

We made one wrong step, one step at a time.It has been very different.

I came here by bus, and I limped on the way back to the station, thinking about something... I seemed to have sprained my foot, and it hurt a lot.

I speeded up, otherwise I would go on without pain, and I might not be able to catch the last bus.

It's a pity that God can't see me well, I just watched the bus whizzing past my shoulders, ah... what should I do?I was a little frustrated and slowed down my walking speed.The ankle was already numb, and even the calf was about to lose feeling.

It's getting dark, and the winding road ahead, I'm an agnostic, but this scene is too much like a horror movie.

I took out my mobile phone, the signal was not bad, I looked at the only number in my contacts, stared at it for a while, forget it.

I hated to put my phone in my pocket, blaming myself for not saving a few more numbers, even if it was the number for calling a car.

I continued to walk forward, going to the city to catch a car and go back.

But the delicate stomach also joined in the fun, I walked for a while frowning, the increasingly severe pain forced me to squat on the side of the road.

Then the vision went dark, and the consciousness was just like that.

For a long time, I thought every day that it would be good to close my eyes and never wake up again.

But there are still people who want to see each other again, and there are people who still want to see each other even if they bear the punishment of God, even if they go through the wind and sea, even if they surpass nature.