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"You bought this again, why do you like Mangypsophila so much?"

Xu Hanyu put his hands on my shoulders again, deliberately to show that he is a head taller than me, I hugged the small potted plant in my hand, and moved forward abruptly.

"Xu Hanyu, if you dare to show off your height in front of me, give it a try!"

I said this in a slightly angry tone, and strode forward.

The person behind staggered, then trotted after me.

"Wen Tong, brother Youdong also hates your height, you never get angry with him."

I freed up a hand to pat off the salty pig's hand that had touched my waist.

"Can you be like him!"

Frowning, I glanced at his profile, which was glowing in the sunlight.

The idiot!How can you be like him.

I muttered in my heart, but didn't say this.

"Hey, how am I different from him, it's just that he knew you earlier..." He stopped talking nonsense, I ignored him and continued walking.

"Hey, wait for me!" "Who made you so slow!"

"Hey, Wen Tong, wait for me!" "Tongtong~wife~wait for me!"

"You are courting death!!"

"Wife~wife~"

"Stop calling!"

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Gypsophila Gypsophila grows at a high altitude, is resistant to cold, avoids hot and rainy days, has tenacious vitality, and blooms in late May.

The blue-green starry sky held in Wen Tong's arms, seeing the two flirting and flirting, felt the little hot breeze, and turned a little red.

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The picture is getting farther and farther away, and the people are gradually blurring.

Why don't you know how to cherish it?Times that will never be there again.

Can you forget about my little waywardness?Even... even if there is no intersection.

Those little tempers that I thought could be used to make fun of in the future have become years that I regretted.

Consciousness gradually returned, and I opened my eyes.

02:30? !

I flicked my watch and checked it again, it was not broken, and I wasn't taking a nap.Accompanying Youdong to watch the sunrise, I actually slept from ten o'clock until now.

I've been wanting to sleep lately, and I don't know what kind of energy that person got up early to drag me to watch the sunrise.

I got up and went downstairs, when Youdong just came out of the kitchen, put down the soup, smiled lightly,

"Are you awake? Come and eat something." After saying that, he wanted to scoop up soup for me.

I took the spoon from Youdong's hand and scooped up the soup myself.

Youdong still smiled and sat in front of me.

I took a sip of the soup, but before I finished the soup, my stomach convulsed, and I frowned slightly in pain.

It has been several days, and my stomach always hurts like this for a while.

"What's the matter? Doesn't it taste good..." Youdong lowered the corner of his mouth and asked me nervously.

I waited for the pain to subside, and took a big mouthful of soup.

"No, belch."

I kept my words short and maintained an attitude that I have never been more familiar with than this.

The corner of Youdong's mouth rose again, "Well, eat more."

"I'll go to the store later, you can see me off."

I picked up my phone and packed my backpack.Stomach feeling a little bloated, very uncomfortable.

"Going to the store? What are you going to do in the store?"

"Go get a cake, it's your birthday today."

"Do you remember?"

Wei Youdong walked up to me suddenly, his eyes were shining brightly.

"Ah."

"Did you do it yourself?" Youdong put his hand on my shoulder and said to me with a grin.

"No." I slapped his hand off, picked up my backpack and went out the door.

Wei Youdong raised his eyebrows resentfully, and hurriedly took the key and went out.

I put my hand out the car window and feel the wind.

My eyes were a little dry from the blowing, and I squinted slightly.Thinking about the dream just now, that daydream.

It is a daydream, people and things that have long been far away.Deep thoughts turned into obsessions, clinging to me stubbornly.

"You go first, I'll park the car."

As Youdong said, I got out of the car.There is no parking space in front of the door.

It seems that there are quite a lot of people in the store today. This store is far away from the downtown area and there are very few customers.

So I only set up three parking spaces, which are usually empty most of the time, but today even the handicapped parking spaces are occupied.

I took my backpack and walked into the store. I had asked the clerk to prepare Youdong's cake. I don't know how to make the meals needed in the coffee shop. I hired a boy who made delicious food.

"Is the cake I ordered ready?"

I asked the little girl at the order counter, she was just a student, working part time.

"Okay, boss!"

Before the girl could speak, a hearty voice came from the cash register.

He is the real owner of this shop.

I smiled and took it over, "Thanks, Yi Ning."

This boy named Yi Ning makes all kinds of delicious cakes and drinks, but he came to me because he didn’t have a degree. Of course, there are no requirements for these things, even most of the customers in the store now come for Yi Ning's craftsmanship.

"Will the boss give you a raise?"

"Plus, of course I will." I said to him with a smile.

When a customer pays the bill, Yi Ning starts to work.I glanced casually into the store.

Then the chest was hit defenselessly, unable to breathe.

What did I just... see?

I looked up again, this time with precision, and my eyes met.

The blood seemed to flow back to the heart, my strength was exhausted, I dropped the cake for Youdong, Yi Ning was startled by the sound, stopped what she was doing and looked up at me.

It's...it's my lingering stubbornness.

"How are you doing?"

I lowered my head and spoke first.I can't stand the person sitting in front of me staring at me and being silent.

"...that's pretty good." After a pause, he added, "Without parents, I'm free."

Unprepared, the words came out sharply and sarcasm pierced into my chest fiercely.

Many things I wanted to say to Xu Hanyu were choked up, and there was a long silence. Maybe even if he was not as mean as I am now, I would not have the courage to say it.

"And you, how are you doing?"

Xu Hanyu took a big sip of coffee, asked me this, and gave me the answer before I could speak.

"Have a good time with Wei Youdong." He leaned on the back of the chair and looked at me playfully.

The time to come finally came, I was like a child who was caught doing something wrong, I clenched the coffee in my hand, and looked at Youdong with a guilty conscience.He stood at the counter, and when he entered the store, he picked up the cake and told me to go, and stood there all the time.

The coffee was a little cold, and the cold felt in my palm, I took a deep breath, and said seriously, "Things are not what you think, I didn't..." I wasn't with him...

"Okay, I'm not interested in your present." He interrupted me, spread his hands on the table, and said seriously.

There was just such a big hole in the left chest, and I couldn't say anything anymore.

He lowered his eyes, afraid that something would climb into his eyes without realizing it.

Then, he asked again, "Your father, are you okay..."

Father?I looked at him in surprise, he didn't know that my father had... passed away?

He also looked up at me.

"Don't look at me like that. Although it's been so many years, my uncle and you took such good care of our family of three... I'll go and see my uncle when I have time."

Although the words are so, I can't understand the coldness in Xu Hanyu's eyes.

He got up to leave, but I began to clamor in my heart that I was not reconciled, not reconciled to meeting him for many years but not even having a word with him, what was not reconciled was... I spent a lot of effort, called him to stop, and asked.

"...Do you hate me?" Are you hating me?

What is not reconciled is that you no longer love me, but I can't figure out why it has risen to an emotion that makes me even more desperate.

He replied, "You should be self-aware."

You should be self-aware.

Should have self-knowledge...

Yes, Liao Wentong, you should be self-aware.

The soreness in my throat could not be suppressed for a long time, and I laughed wantonly at this broken self with tears, I bit my lips tightly, trying not to feel so sad.

Humans are really strange creatures. They know that the answers will not meet people's expectations, but they still ask the bottom line and try again and again.

I cut the cake and plated it.

"If you don't make it so troublesome, you will save candles, Yudong, happy birthday."

I pushed the cake in front of Youdong, propping up the corner of my mouth.

"Why do I make you so troublesome?" He looked at me without moving.

I sighed deeply, trying not to allow myself any emotion.

"You know I don't."

"But I think so. Wen Tong, you stay here and don't go to other places with me, just for this encounter."

is a declarative sentence.

I can't deny it.

"Wen Tong, what about now? So what if we meet..."

"I didn't think about it, I..." Today is really a helpless day.

"You can't go back!"

Wei Youdong stood up abruptly, looked at me condescendingly and said.

I couldn't hold back any longer, and said to Wei Youdong that I knew.

Then I picked up my backpack and walked out of the store. Even so, I couldn't go wherever I wanted like a child who ran away from home. I got into the car and stayed quietly in the car.

Where else can I go besides Wei Youdong.

"Wen Tong, I'm sorry, I'm afraid..."

Youdong got into the car and apologized too much.

I thought for a while and said, "Go home."

Sleepiness hit me again, and I closed my eyes.

I can't do anything, the pain is deep-seated.Memories cannot be forgotten or dared to think, I am not qualified to speak, to redeem my life for everything I have done.It's just missing, I've been spoiled by you for a long time, I can't control it anymore...

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