If you eat lalang, will you run out of food?

Although Free was a smash hit back then, the quadathlon was almost the pinnacle of the idol team.But when one of the members has been out of business for so many years, it is still a bit overwhelming to ask them to sing and dance all of a sudden to prepare for a concert.For Liu Ahu, who is still a full-time singer, it's okay to say that Chen Rusheng, who has basically been abandoned at home for five years, is almost dying.

The training room is still the same one, and even the manager is the same one.However, Wen Shangke didn't know why he was very busy these days, except that he had arranged everything for them on the first day and made a rehearsal plan and then disappeared.This also made the atmosphere in the training room with only the four of them extremely awkward.

Free, who used to be famous in the CP circle for being the two CPs of Shao Chen and Hu Lun, is still two pairs now, but has become Hu Chen and Shao Lun.They are still separated in twos and twos, and they are even more distinct.In fact, the reason is very simple, Shao Jingjie would never talk to Chen Rusheng unless necessary, while Xiao Yulun only talked to Shao Jingjie, and Liu Ahu didn't want to talk to Xiao Yulun, so Chen Rusheng and Liu Ahu could only talk to each other.Going around, even Chen Rusheng felt a little pain in his brain. Everyone felt very pitiful for the team that had worked hard together to support each other, and he felt a little sympathetic to himself.

The team practiced a little late that day, Liu Ahu left early due to something, and Xiao Yulun disappeared at some point.After Chen Rusheng was sweating profusely and finally finished the dance, he realized that he and Shao Jingjie were the only ones left in the room.

He watched Shao Jingjie standing indifferently in the corner packing his things from a distance, and suddenly felt a little unbearable.It's his fault to think about this matter, and it's really a bit too much for someone who used to hold it on top of his heart for fear of neglecting him suddenly.So I thought about apologizing first to break the ice or something, but as soon as I said "Shao", the other party simply picked up the bag and left.Shao Jingjie's family education and self-cultivation have always been very good, no matter how annoying he is, he will show face.During this period of time, Chen Rusheng had eaten through all the cold faces since he met him.After a long time, he had to wonder whether this was the Shao Jingjie he liked at the beginning, that gentle, reliable, noble, and elegant man who was perfect in his heart like a god.He will comfort him when he is down and encourage him when he is frustrated.I would care about such small things as whether the tea coaster is insulated or not, I would stick post-it notes on my head when I really couldn’t write a song, and I would get up early in the morning to queue up for a little snack.How much he liked this person at that time, so much that he liked all of his advantages and disadvantages, whether it was his motorcycle or his cock.But the person he likes will never look at him with such disgusting eyes, let alone leave him where he is without a word.Even if he suddenly learned the news of the other party's marriage back then, it was not as hurtful as it is now.

Chen Rusheng shook his head, even though he felt uncomfortable, he forcibly suppressed the sourness.He walked calmly to the wall to pick up the clothes on the ground, but when he stood up, he felt his eyes go dark, he shook and fell down again.He originally thought it was just orthostatic hypotension, so he subconsciously supported the wall next to him, but felt a pain in his hand.It turned out that a small piece of the mirror on the wall was broken, and he just pressed it on the crack.The hand that was retracted was blood red, Chen Rusheng stared at the bright red and suddenly felt the surroundings went dark, and everything around him quickly disappeared into nothingness.His consciousness is also getting weaker and weaker.

When Shao Jingjie walked out of the building, he happened to run into Xiao Yulun who came from nowhere, and the other party saw him raised his eyebrows and greeted him: "Let's have a meal together?"

Shao Jingjie thought about it and didn't reject him.So the two found a small restaurant together and ordered a few dishes.While waiting for the food, the TV in the restaurant was on, and it happened to be "Goodbye Xiaocao" on it.

Shao Jingjie, who was abroad, had never seen this movie, so he glanced at it casually, and happened to see the scene of Yuuki standing on the rooftop.He looked at Chen Rusheng's face with red eyes on the screen, and was stunned.Xiao Yulun on the opposite side watched him staring at the person on the screen, until his expression slowly became tense with the development of the plot, and even stood up suddenly at the moment the person jumped off.The person who had a panoramic view of all this laughed sarcastically, and said, "Sure enough, once you get to him, you can no longer hide your feelings for him. You have really worked hard these few days."

Only then did Shao Jingjie realize what he had done, and sat down with an ugly face.

Xiao Yulun also ignored how embarrassed his face was now, and continued to speak: "I didn't expect him to make dramas, did I?"

Shao Jingjie still didn't say a word, it's wrong to say too much at this time.It wasn't until Xiao Yulun appeared on the screen that he couldn't hold back and said, "He will make a drama with you?"

"That's right, I threatened him." Xiao Yulun didn't hide anything: "No matter when you threaten him, I will try everything."

"I?"

"Don't look so scary." The younger man chuckled, his expression still innocent: "It's just a photo, why doesn't he think about it, if I dare to expose it, I will be punished by Wen Shangke. Obviously that There is him up there, and he only thinks about you." Seeing Shao Jingjie's expression change after hearing these words, he suddenly figured out something, and suddenly said in disbelief: "Impossible...I said why did you come here."

"Don't blame me, people in the entertainment industry can't help themselves most of the time." Xiao Yulun leaned back on the chair leisurely, looking out the window with a little emptiness in his eyes: "Besides, he has nothing to lose, because this role Not only did she become popular, but she even won an award, it's just..."

Shao Jingjie waited for a long time but didn't wait for the second half of his sentence. Just as he was about to ask a question, he saw the other party suddenly looked over, and said worriedly: "I'll tell you this, don't get excited."

No matter how hard he tried to open his eyes wide, the darkness in his field of vision still spread out in large chunks, eroding the entire space in a short while.All the senses went on collective strike as if they had made an appointment, even the ground under their feet became soft and unreal.A sense of fear kept overflowing, like a terrifying ghost hand strangling the entire heart at once.Breathing, heartbeat, and even the pulsation of the blood vessels were instantly deprived, and all of them could not be felt at all.

Chen Rusheng once called this feeling "death".Like the soul leaving the body, like being abolished by the whole world.He used to struggle hysterically in this void under the control of fear to vent, but every time he did so, the result was that when he woke up, the surroundings were already in a mess, and the people in the distance looked at him with terrified expressions. looked at him as if he were some terrible monster.

However, since he was pinched awake by Wen Shangke, he never did this again, except for the time when Xiao Yulun came to look for him.He had learned early on to control, to tell himself it was just an illusion, even if the fear was still with him.He didn't know what caused the attack this time, whether it was because of too much rehearsal pressure or Shao Jingjie's long-term disgust, but it didn't matter.Don't think about it, it will make yourself feel better.

I don't know how long this feeling lasted, it seemed to extend to the end of the world.Until a familiar voice came over: "Don't worry, I'm here."

Jia Wener? !Chen Rusheng's eyes widened suddenly, and even though he couldn't see it, he still leaned towards the source of the sound.

"Believe in yourself, it's nothing. Big deal, I'll accompany you until dawn."

"Yes, he is the best in the world. You like him, and he likes you too. You two are in love! But he has already given up on you, what's the use of standing here?!"

"I've been looking forward to it for so long, and I'm sure I'll be tired if I keep my neck up all the time."

"Come here, I'll let you lean on."

Wait, what kind of god unfolding is this? !The vision in front of him slowly recovered, and Chen Rusheng realized that Han Jiawen was not here at all, but he accidentally pressed and pressed the phone and clicked on the previously downloaded video.I didn't know what stimulated the shaking before, so I cut another four or five Wenchen videos in one breath.Not only did it complete the series of "Prince's Disease Hit the Knight's Fate", but it also really cut out the past and present.

Looking at him and Han Jiawen, who had been softened and toned on the screen of the phone and looked so tender, Chen Rusheng couldn't help chuckling.Laughing and laughing and suddenly want to cry.Originally, he just watched this kind of video for fun, but now he can't help thinking that it would be great if these stories were true.He is just a proud young master who has never experienced anything, and Han Jiawen is just a stunned young man who never knows what a blow is, but only knows how to rush forward cheerfully.If only they weren't so complicated, didn't hurt as much.Just one attribute can replace it, and it would be great if the dog blood walks on the silly and sweet road that will definitely have a perfect ending.It's a pity that life is not a romance drama, the protagonist can still be as pure and sweet as before after going through everything.But the fact is: people will always grow up.And he is not a prince who is guarded by others, he is the existence who has been looking up to and following others.And his prince, even if he turns his head to look at him, the ending must be to live a happy life with his princess ever since.

When Shao Jingjie hurried back, he didn't expect Chen Rusheng to stay there, so he was a little surprised when he saw that the lights in the training room were still on.He learned about depression from Xiao Yulun, just three words seemed to explain everything as it should.Why did Chen Rusheng disappear suddenly five years ago, why no one answered his phone calls at that time, and why his smile felt so unreal when I saw him again.Shao Jingjie had waited for Chen Rusheng. On the eve of his marriage, even the second before he said I would, he hoped that this person would appear to break his calmness and reason again.But he didn't, not only didn't appear, but disappeared completely.Even the indifferent look in his eyes when we met again later made him feel how ridiculous his expectations were.He even suspected that those eager followers were the same as Free's sloppy establishment, but it was just a joke of the young master when he was bored.At that time, he was not by Chen Rusheng's side, and now he can only feel his pain at that time from the role he played-the pain of wishing to die every minute and every second.

When the door of the training room was pushed open, Chen Rusheng was looking for the medicine box in a panic. He was startled by this big movement, and a few more drops of blood dripped from his hands without paying attention, the bright red was dazzling.He and Shao Jingjie at the door looked at each other for a few seconds, gritted his teeth and turned his head with the grievance and sobriety brought about by the pain in his hand, and decided not to make fun of himself.Today, the frequency of posting cold faces has reached the upper limit. It is because he has cultivated well that he didn't yell.Who would have thought that Shao Jingjie strode over and grabbed his hand, his eyes terrified as if that little wound would kill him.

Until later when someone forced him to wrap his hands into rice dumplings, Chen Rusheng was still a little dazed: Did this guy take counterfeit medicine? !

When the air finally calmed down, neither of them looked directly at each other.Shao Jingjie looked down at Chen Rusheng's injured hand, while Chen Rusheng watched his hair whirl.The one who stared at the person's hair twirling went from "Speaking of which, we used to have half-length Shamat hairstyles, although it's not ugly, but it's still normal" to "I heard that men's hairlines will recede after marriage, this guy's hair twirls so much. Could it be that he was dragged by his niece?"Then he found that at some point he was no longer afraid of the silence between him and the other party.

Perhaps from the moment when this reorganization started, none of them expected that when the two finally sat down to have a good talk, the one who had been keeping a cold face would speak first: "I'm sorry." Just three words, but they carry a lot. many.

Chen Rusheng is not stupid, of course he knows what these three words contain and mean.These three words, like those concealed feelings and truths, were five years late.It may have been longer, since Shao Jingjie found out that he liked Chen Rusheng but refused to admit it.Those who are against their will are indifferent, those who impose hatred and hatred, and those who deliberately turn a blind eye.This sentence of apology is not only for the other party, but also for himself - for him to reject the lover who is at his fingertips so easily, and to lose all the opportunities and ties that will accompany him in this life.

Chen Rusheng thought he had waited for this sentence for a long time, but after thinking about it carefully, he realized that he never thought of asking Shao Jingjie for an apology.Just like those who like it, they never expect a response.Just like when he ran away from home and entered the entertainment industry, under the guise of being for Shao Jingjie, maybe he did all this for himself.Just like those changes, saying that in order to be more worthy of the other party, they just don't want more people to be disappointed in themselves.From the very beginning, the reason why he fell in love with Shao Jingjie was only because he wanted to be like him.And the reason why he refuses to admit his feelings for Han Jiawen is also because he is afraid that these two completely opposite existences will make him realize this fact and turn his liking and obsession for nearly ten years into a joke.

Thinking of this, Chen Rusheng smiled wryly, looked at the man he had been looking up to and said slowly, "Jingjie, can you hug me?"

If Shao Jingjie hadn't misunderstood the self-doubt in Chen Rusheng's words as an emotional embankment, and hadn't interpreted the weak tone as a prayer, he might not have felt so uncomfortable after going through everything after that.It's a pity that at this time, his suppressed feelings were finally relieved, and he was so dazed that he hugged the other person into his arms without thinking about it.

If the touch and temperature in his arms were placed many years ago, Chen Rusheng would have been overjoyed and his heart beating like a drum. At that time, even a little closer distance would have made him so excited that he couldn't control himself.But at this moment, when all the emotions in his fantasies finally came true, he was calm and terrifying.Not the same, not the same as that person's hug.There is no palpitation, no peace of mind, no sense of belonging that makes his eyes burn.He could finally be sure of what he really wanted.

But he might never have thought that his self-examination-like verification would fall into Han Jiawen's eyes.The young man standing at the door turned his body sideways and looked at the couple who were so well-matched in the mouths of netizens from an angle that would never be discovered. Nothing.He thought that if one day he didn't like Chen Rusheng, he might knock on the door and go in to make fun of him under such circumstances, but selfishly, he didn't want this day to happen.

His whole life has been spent together.Signed a company with a good agent but angered the senior film star, took the first film and gained some fame but was designed to be a scandal, won the first award but was framed, even met The first person I like and sincerely treats me is hard to come by.Whenever he sees Hope making up his mind to fight for something, reality will slap him mercilessly.How good, there are gains and losses, this is life.