[Tutor] The Heart of Dwelling Myself

"Ugh……"

"Miss Qianqiu, you have sighed 27 times since just now. What are you worrying about?" Cao Bi finally raised his head, looking wistfully at Qianqiu who was scribbling on the document.The recent atmosphere is indeed a little strange, presumably there are some problems between Mr. Gong and Miss Qianqiu, but it is not easy for him to intervene in such matters.

"Mr. Kusakabe, why do you think Mr. Skylark is angry?" Qianqiu threw the pen and lay down on the table helplessly, "He unexpectedly transferred Minister Anna to the branch... Now that Minister Anna is gone, There is no one to direct the work of the intelligence department, and the documents sent have become messy..."

She sat up, flipped through the messy documents, and couldn't help muttering, "Compared to those things, I should pay more attention to efficiency... Now even Mr. Skylark has gone out to deal with information..."

Although Qianqiu didn't like Anna's tone of voice and domineering behavior to herself, she had to admit that Anna was a competent minister.At least in the days before, all work was done in an orderly manner, and no one dared to be lazy under her supervision.But now it seems that an important hub is missing, and the documents sent have become disturbing.

Qianqiu glanced at Sobe, who was here to approve the documents instead of Yunque, and sighed again.

"So did you guys quarrel because of this?" Cao Bi also asked helplessly.

"It's noisy, it's better to say that I am protesting unilaterally..."

——Because Hibari-san completely ignored her protests, as a result, he hasn't said anything for several days.Qianqiu twitched the corners of his mouth in embarrassment, and his eyes became dazed again, "Isn't this situation making things more troublesome? Originally, Mr. Skylark's work might not be so busy..."

"Miss Qianqiu, let me say something more." Cao Bi put down the pen in his hand, and his eyes became serious, "What should happen will always happen, even if the person sitting here today is not you, Anna will If you do the same thing, you cannot avoid the situation of being transferred."

"Sometimes Miss Qianqiu is too gentle in dealing with people. She thinks that she just needs to bear with it. Just thinking about others is not enough. This kind of gentleness comes from wronging yourself. In all fairness, would you feel happy? In other words , Mr. Gong will not be happy with the peace gained by hurting himself like this."

"This..." Qian Qiu buried her head in shame, but didn't know how to respond to what Cao Bi said.

"However, I also heard a little bit what Miss Qianqiu said when she faced Anna alone. To be honest, it really surprised me." As soon as the voice fell, Cao Bi brought up another topic, "Listen Said that Anna was very angry at the time."

The unbearable smile finally poured out, and as the laughter sounded softly, Qianqiu's ears became more and more red, "...you all know why..."

"In order to find out the truth, it is inevitable. Mr. Gong is a very defensive person. He actually hopes that you can rely on him more, instead of ignoring yourself because you are so concerned about others...Here, you can only be tough." Protect what you cherish, in fact, Miss Qianqiu obviously cares about it, right?"

Qian Qiu pursed her lips again in embarrassment, ready to bury herself in the pile of documents, ignoring her already cooked red cheeks.But the lingering knot in her heart was slowly being healed. She couldn't understand Mr. Skylark any more. He was actually a clumsy and gentle person.

Find a time to apologize to Mr. Skylark.

Qian Qiu was thinking like this while sorting out the documents in his hand.

The vibrating sound of the mobile phone broke the peace at the moment. When he took out the mobile phone from his pocket, Ling's name was displayed on the screen.Qian Qiu was stunned for a moment, and answered the phone with some doubts.

"sister……"

The voice on the other end of the phone was trembling rarely, with the refreshing cry of a teenager.

"Grandma Sophia... No... The doctor said maybe... What should I do..." The incoherent sentences couldn't even piece together the complete meaning. The boy stood alone in the corner of the hospital, looking at the emergency light that was on, And the doctor frequently looked helpless.

But Qianqiu understood what Ling meant.

After hastily comforting him a few words, Qian Qiu immediately stood up from his seat, his eyelids twitched.Feeling very bad, Ling's mood was transmitted through the receiver, and even her heart was captured, and she became restless.

"Mr. Kusakabe...I think I might have to go back now..."

"It's okay, don't wait for Mr. Skylark. He has his mission to perform..."

……

From Venice, Sicily, it takes half a day.Qian Qiu spent this difficult time almost in a daze.She saw the scenery outside the window as the dusk set in the west, and the night fell, and then slowly revealed the fish-belly.It seems that such a change has only been seen not long ago, but this time it has become a pinch.

"The doctor said that Grandma Sophia's body can no longer withstand the stimulation of multiple first aid..."

"The hospital issued a critical illness notice..."

"Grandma Sophia hasn't come out yet..."

"sister……"

The knuckles holding the mobile phone were pale due to the force, and the lines of the knuckles could be seen faintly.She got out of the car almost numbly, and walked through the streets, hoping that the gondola could go faster.The gurgling water in the water town is flowing, but it can't calm the heart that is clenched at the moment.

Since I became sensible, all the people passed by like a revolving lantern, and very few stayed.She doesn't want to look back at the passers-by who passed by in every possible way in the past, and now only the smiling faces of the neighbors in Venice settle down.

While maintaining the call with Ling, he rushed to the hospital.The smell of formalin made Qianqiu feel a wave of panic. Even if she was more familiar with this smell on weekdays, she still felt a sense of uneasiness in an abyss.The rolling hospital beds that passed by, the painful appearance of the patients struggling, and the cold and pale white coat all made her feel deeply uneasy.

When rushing to the door of the emergency room, Qianqiu only saw Ling sitting slumped on a chair, but those equally clear eyes were covered with mist at the moment.This young man who always grinned big and grinning is now wilting like a wilted flower.

Although they didn't know each other for a long time, Ling understood why her sister liked such an old lady so much.Not as withdrawn as the old man who lives alone, on the contrary, she smiles tolerantly all the time during her waking hours, just like a real family member.

It doesn't matter if the conversation is stuttering, and the dancing looks don't mind either. Grandma Sophia slowly told many interesting things about the past, as if feeling emotional about the past.She always reached out and patted Ling's head, forgiving the boy's guilt about the past.

But now, such a lively and kind old man has been covered by a white cloth.Pale cloth covers the slightly stiff, skinny lines.

This is the last side, no goodbyes.

Qianqiu walked to Ling's side step by step, looked at the tears that were about to fall in his eyes, and then patted his head.

She smiled, the arc of her mouth trembling, but she was still smiling.

"Ling, don't be sad...Grandma Sophia certainly doesn't want to see you sad."

This almost formulaic arc lasted for a long time, maybe it was numb because of it, anyway, Qianqiu kept smiling like this, but in Ling's view, it was uglier than crying.However, Qianqiu's heart kept shouting, if even she couldn't hold back crying, what should Ling do.

Therefore, she could only hug Ling gently like a parent, while stroking his junior, as if comforting a small animal that was out of control.

The frustrated young man's salty tears ran across Qianqiu's neck, and the cool arc reached to the collarbone.

Being together day and night is enough for one person to have an inseparable affection for another.Although it is not long, it does not lose any important feelings.What makes people even more sad is that he can only watch Grandma Sophia gradually lose weight, but he can't save what happened now.

Qian Qiu opened his sour eyes and blinked hard, but suddenly there were no tears.

She mechanically comforted Ling over and over again, but in her mind was the scene of having a happy conversation with Grandma Sophia under the afternoon sun.Xiaoxue lay quietly on Grandma Sophia's lap, her fluffy white fur was like a cute little snowball.When the old man laughed, the gully of wisdom trembled like mischievous dust.

"It's time for Xiao Qianqiu to find someone to accompany her."

"I like seeing Xiao Qianqiu happy and happy the most... so I am waiting for Xiao Qianqiu to bring that gentleman back... just show me a smile."

So, smile.

Qianqiu lowered his eyelids little by little, swallowing all his emotions.

Grandma Sophia's funeral was very simple, and an old lady who lived alone could not find any family members at all.The only lively people in front of the cold tombstone are the neighbors in the surrounding shopping streets.Only these people are the only connection between Grandma Sophia and this world.

Qianqiu was wearing a black dress, but the Xiaoxue she was holding in her arms was dazzlingly white.The fluffy cat seemed to be aware of the unusual situation at this moment, so it just shook its ears and stopped moving.

She smiled, smiled lightly, and greeted every old friend who came to send flowers.

Xiaoxue's body trembled slightly, staring at the direction of the tombstone.And Qianqiu can only absorb the only warmth from Xiaoxue.

She walked through the crowd and looked at the few numbers on the tombstone.

There is not even an epitaph, only the name of the old man is engraved, not even the names of relatives.The small chrysanthemums blooming in front of the tomb swayed gently, sending a piece of fragrance to the old man on his way home.

No matter how advanced medical equipment is, it is impossible to restore the aging of human beings.

"Little Qianqiu, are you really okay?... I remember that you and Grandma Sophia have the best relationship..."

"It's okay." Qianqiu lowered his head and smiled, and touched Xiaoxue's back, "Because Grandma Sophia wants me to be able to smile."

Ling tugged on Qianqiu's sleeve corner, as if to comfort him, he showed a hesitant expression, but turned around to see off the guest ruthlessly.

After a period of time, people will gradually forget this corner where wild flowers are blooming, and the name Sophia will slowly disappear between words—but Qianqiu will never forget that whenever she sees something that belongs to her own memory, she will revisit it. Reminds me of the days I spent with Grandma Sofia.

So distinct, never to be forgotten.

There were not many people who could care about it, but now there is one less.

A large bouquet of lilies was placed in front of the grave, followed by the scent of mint that Qianqiu felt very familiar with.She didn't need to look back, she could know who it was.After a flash of surprise in his heart, Qianqiu's heart really warmed up.

"Mr. Skylark...you are here..."

Qianqiu just hugged Xiaoxue tightly in her arms again, and the cat meowed, but the atmosphere became more and more dull.

No one spoke.

On such an occasion, Qianqiu suddenly didn't know what to say.Out of the corner of her eye, she felt the man's travels and dust at the moment, and he must have rushed here against time, even the hair that had been docile all the time seemed a little messy.But even so, the proud and cold appearance did not waver at all.

... Mr. Skylark, who came to worship, should say something to Grandma Sophia.

Qianqiu hesitated, and quietly glanced at the people around him.

Out of the corner of the eye, this slender man who never bowed his head bent down to express his condolences to the deceased.The sharpness in his eyes was also hidden at this moment, full of devotion to the old man.This expression was fleeting, and after he straightened his waist, those long and narrow eyes were full of coldness and aloofness again.

"I've always had such an expression, didn't anyone tell you that it's ugly?" The side face that was clean and neat, like a meticulous painting, said quietly like this, still irresistible majesty and coldness.

"...Really. But I don't want to show a sad expression here, because Grandma Sophia is always smiling no matter what happens." Qianqiu lowered her head, her long hair covering her face.

"And what about yourself?"

"... Me?" Qianqiu grinned slightly bitterly, "I regard Grandma Sophia as my dearest family member, and now that the family has left, I can only hope that Sophia can leave without regret... So at this time, I want Grandma Sophia to see me smiling, I promised her."

After that, she seemed to have remembered something, moved closer to Skylark, and then showed a regretful expression to the tombstone, "By the way, Grandma Sophia, have you seen it? This is Mr. Skylark... standing here now By my side. Although I promised to bring him to see you, in the end it still failed to come true..."

Having said that, Qianqiu's voice finally began to show a tendency to collapse. She remembered the way Grandma Sophia smiled and recalled her past, encouraging herself to look back to Mr. Skylark...but now this scene can only become the past.

She choked with sobs, her nose began to turn red with soreness, but she tried her best to show a gratified smile.

"Either cry or laugh, what do you want to do with such an expression, huh?" The eyes on the side showed a icy coldness that is usually usual, and then softened again, "It's really ugly, Skylark Qianqiu."

"...!" Qianqiu hastily moved a step away, his eyes like a pool of stagnant water finally had violent waves, "Mr. Skylark, you..."

"I mean, marry me." The unwavering voice was still so calm, like those indifferent eyes that never wavered.

"From now on, there will only be Skylark Qianqiu."

"I came here just to say this to this old man."

Strange words were uttered in such a logical manner, it seemed that for Hibari Kyouya, it didn't matter where he said what he said.And Qianqiu didn't find it abrupt, after hearing such words, she didn't intend to refute, but just felt that the heart was hit by the electric current, and she stayed where she was.

"Mr. Skylark... what are you talking about..." she murmured in a low voice, but the tears she was holding back burst out of the embankment.Parry's tears hit Xiaoxue's fur, the cat's body twisted, but it still lay obediently in its arms, "It was so sudden..."

The face that had been pretending to smile was suddenly cracked at this moment, the soft facial features were mixed together sadly, weeping wantonly, big tears kept falling down the cheeks.

"... What Mr. Skylark said...it's really strange..." The hand holding the cat couldn't wipe away the tears, and the face was crying pear blossoms with rain, and the face was sticky and full of tears. Embarrassed, but sincerely venting the backlog of emotions.

The slightly cool palm touched Qianqiu's shoulder, and gently leaned her into his arms.

"Skylark Qianqiu, only this moment allows you to lose your composure."

After speaking, Yunque didn't say anything, just let the people around him cry with tears in their eyes.

——It doesn’t matter that the dearest person is gone, I can be your family.

So don't show such an expression that you want to cry but hold back, and you want to laugh but are so sad.This should be what the old man who left before him most wanted to hear.

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