[Zhu Chaoyang X Zhang Dongsheng] If everything starts over again

The white lamp hung on the roof without any sense of presence, and the smell of disinfectant water permeated everywhere. Zhu Chaoyang carried a thermos kettle, held a porcelain basin in his arms, pushed down the doorknob with his elbow, and entered the ward.

There were people lying on the four beds, either with bandages on their heads or plaster casts on their legs. He nodded to the other family members of the patients who accompanied the beds, and he walked to the innermost bed.

The blackout cloth blocked the scorching sun by the window, and a sleeping figure appeared on the curtain. He put the basin lightly, poured half a pot of hot water, and went to pick up some cold water. The water temperature was just right, and he wrung out the wet towel , opened the curtain a crack, and Zhu Chaoyang squeezed in.

Zhang Dongsheng closed his eyes, lying there peacefully, his brows were naturally raised with an indescribable charm, his thin lips looked like a slit when closed, and there were several dark red bruises on his cheekbones and forehead, which looked miserable. Zhu Chaoyang wiped it carefully, and finished He pressed the towel into the basin and rubbed his face, and then continued to wipe. The pinch mark on his neck and the bite wound at the corner of his mouth clearly confirmed what he had experienced yesterday.

Zhu Chaoyang's face was not much better, it was blue and purple.Lift the quilt, avoid the gauze-wrapped wound on the leg, and rub it on the side of the thigh.

What happened yesterday was too insane and completely out of control. After he vented completely, he picked up Zhang Dongsheng, who was already unconscious, and took him to the hospital belatedly. He didn't have time to clean up afterward.

Gently lifted his thigh, spread the towel down, put his hand under his head, opened up the place that was still a little soft all night, pierced it with his fingers, dug the liquid he got in, and flowed onto the towel.

When he looked up again, he suddenly met a gloomy look.

——Zhang Dongsheng was looking at him coolly.

Suddenly his heart missed a beat, Zhu Chaoyang pulled out his hand in embarrassment, took the towel away, and put his leg down lightly.

It's really rare that people didn't rush up to kill him immediately, but it's also reasonable, tossing and lying down for half a night doesn't have extra strength.

"Wake up." Zhu Chaoyang twitched the corner of his mouth, "Are you hungry?"

After waiting for a long century, Zhang Dongsheng spoke out of compassion, with a hoarse voice, "What time is it?"

Zhu Chaoyang threw the towel into the basin in a panic, washed his hands, turned on his phone to check the time, and read clearly, "1:23 p.m. Beijing time."

Zhang Dongsheng raised his eyelids, "Help me up."

Zhu Chaoyang graciously leaned forward to help.

"hiss."

It's okay to not move, but when he moves, his elderly waist is clamoring for dissatisfaction, and the indescribable places are also hot and painful. Zhang Dongsheng's calm expression showed flaws, and he wrinkled into a ball in pain.

Zhu Chaoyang put the pillow under his waist thoughtfully, put his hands on the back of his waist and rubbed it gently, and Zhang Dongsheng pushed it back calmly.

The intention of not wanting physical contact was clearly revealed, Zhu Chaoyang didn't reach out rashly, his mouth moved, and he swallowed back what he wanted to say, "At least put it on your pillow, and feel better."

Zhang Dongsheng supported the handle of the bed with one hand, and sat up with his waist. "Where are the clothes?"

"It's dirty, I brought a new one." Zhu Chaoyang pulled out a luggage bag from under the bed, unzipped daily necessities, a change of clothes, a full range of hospital necessities, and thoughtfully packed a few books.

"I'm not hospitalized." Zhang Dongsheng expressed his attitude.

Putting the clothes beside the bed, Zhu Chaoyang persuaded softly, "Live here, take care of yourself, don't get infected again, I have paid the deposit."

"Then you live here."

Zhang Dongsheng was still neither salty nor bland, expressionless, and his voice was warm and moist as usual.

Zhu Chaoyang would have liked him to be furious, now that he was hanging tensely like this, his eyebrows furrowed and his voice raised, it was like the sound of a knife being sharpened before Ling Chi.

"If you don't want to live, then you can." Zhu Chaoyang smiled apologetically, and picked up the pitifully few oranges in the plastic bag on the table, "Do you want to eat fruit? Supermarkets are really expensive, and the stalls outside are much cheaper, so I bought some. .”

Zhang Dongsheng ignored him, picked up the clothes, shook off the shirt, but didn't continue to move, his eyes were sharp and contemptuous.

Enduring the discomfort in his heart, Zhu Chaoyang retreated and closed the curtain, "You wear it."

The curtain moved slightly with the movements of the people, Zhu Chaoyang stood aside silently, and then he seemed to remember something, "What do you want to eat."

Words slowly drifted out from inside, "I have no appetite."

It seems to be dressed, the curtains are silent, and people are not interested in talking. There are only other beds in the ward.

"Eat something, I'll go buy it." Zhu Chaoyang choked out a few words, as if trying to escape, he picked up the thermos and walked out. If he continued to suppress like this, he would go crazy.

There was the sound of high heels in the aisle, "Miss Nurse, which ward does Zhang Dongsheng live in?"

The nurse on duty raised her eyes and pointed forward, "Go from here, the third ward, 2032."

"Thank you." Xu Jing carried the fruit basket and walked into Ward 2032 according to the guidance. When she saw the person she was looking for, she walked silently to the last bed.

Zhang Dongsheng was half lying down holding a book, glanced at the person coming, and moved to the book again.

The beautifully packaged and various fruit baskets were placed on the table, crowding out Zhu Chaoyang's few poor oranges.

Xu Jing grabbed the bag with both hands, struggled and said, "...Dongsheng."

"Sit." Zhang Dongsheng turned a page of the book.

Xu Jing got closer and sat down on the stool next to her, her concerned expression hard to tell from the fake, "It's not hurt anywhere, is it?"

"It's not dead." Zhang Dongsheng smiled, as if he was still the gentle husband in marriage.

Xu Jing felt a little more self-blame in her heart, and said carefully, "I really don't know about this. The kid surnamed Zhu called me last night. I thought it was a lie to me. I didn't expect such a thing to happen. I I never thought of hurting you, Dongsheng, do you believe me?" She touched Zhang Dongsheng's wrist.

Zhang Dongsheng looked at the woman's fingers as white as jade, and raised his eyes, "Yes."

There seemed to be some tears in Xu Jing's eyes, and she took her hand away, "I didn't expect that my friend would find someone to block you, and I scolded him too, Dong Sheng, I really didn't know it would become like this."

Zhang Dongsheng had a comforting look on his face.

"To be honest, when you called me and said those things, I felt like the sky was falling. The Zhang Dongsheng I knew was gentle and understanding. You said that there is no one in this world who treats me better than you How could someone plot against me." Xu Jing pushed her hair behind her ears and began to use psychological tactics, "We have known each other for so many years, and I have never doubted your character."

Zhang Dongsheng didn't speak.

Xu Jing's eyes darkened, "After the kid surnamed Zhu gave me the USB flash drive, I didn't intend to bother with it anymore, but why is there only my dad's data in it..."

"He stole it, of course it's not complete." Zhang Dongsheng curled his lips, and his warm eyes showed a hint of cunning.

"Dongsheng, why don't you let me go? It's really impossible between us."

"I have already told you the terms of my offer."

"We've been married for so many years, and you know how much savings you have. How could you spend 30 yuan in such a short period of time? Do you really want me to go to jail?" Xu Jing broke down.

"I'm also very sorry." Zhang Dongsheng still looked like he had nothing to do with it, and turned the book again.

"You...!" Xu Jing finally showed anger on his face.

The door was slammed open with a fist, and there was a loud bang, which made the patient who was eating in the room tremble in fright, and the family members stared at him dissatisfied.

Zhu Chaoyang, who came back from shopping, had fire in his eyes, and rushed to Xu Jing in a few steps. He looked like a ghost, and Xu Jing trembled in fright. His bag was taken away, and he pinched his neck against the wall, " Do you still dare to come? Who gave you the courage?"

Xu Jing's face turned pale, her face turned purple, she struggled to hold his hand, but she couldn't break free, "Let... let go... you... misunderstood..."

"Misunderstanding? Are you fooling the ghost? I went a little later and everyone was beaten to death!" The tendons in Zhu Chaoyang's neck were bulging, and he really wanted to strangle him to death, "Who else is so ruthless except you?" ?”

Xu Jing couldn't even cough and rolled her eyes, Zhang Dongsheng finally shouted, "Zhu Chaoyang!"

Zhu Chaoyang turned a deaf ear to it, with a lot of energy in his hands. The family members in the ward didn't want to get involved and there was nothing to fight. The nurse rushed in, "What's the fuss? This is a hospital!"

The female nurse couldn't pull Zhu Chaoyang away at all. Seeing that Xu Jing rolled the whites of her eyes and soon died of suffocation, Zhang Dongsheng got up from the hospital bed and grabbed his arm.

When Zhu Chaoyang saw that he had succeeded in grabbing him, he pulled out the tip of the infusion needle out of anxiety, blood oozes from the disinfection sticker, and finally returned to his senses, the tense veins in his arms gradually stretched, and he slowly let go.

Xu Jing rubbed her chest and scrambled to swallow the air, leaving a few scary pinch marks on her neck, scanning Zhu Chaoyang and Zhang Dongsheng viciously back and forth.

He calmed down, grabbed his bag, and slapped Zhu Chaoyang on the face, "You guys wait." Then he walked out while leaning on the wall.

The nurse gave Zhang Dongsheng another injection, left a sentence of reproach after finishing, and walked out, "Your family members are too noisy, disturbing the rest of other patients, go out and talk about something later!"

The ward returned to silence.

It took Zhu Chaoyang a long time to regain his composure, and he picked up the oranges at his feet in a daze, and peeled them silently.

Zhang Dongsheng stared silently for a long while, and couldn't help asking, "You can't control your emotions so much now?"

Zhu Chaoyang picked off all the white silk from the orange like an obsessive-compulsive disorder, and then threw the whole thing into his mouth. After eating, he said, "Manic depression, I don't take medicine to attack from time to time."

Zhang Dongsheng snorted, "No wonder."

"No wonder?" Zhu Chaoyang asked back.

"Often messed up."

Facing the ridicule of Zhu Chaoyang, his face remained unchanged, and he looked straight at him, "The psychiatrist said that I became like this when I was stimulated when I was twelve or thirteen years old."

The abyss faced the abyss, and the two looked at each other across time and space, and finally no one continued to talk.

After finishing the bottle, Zhang Dongsheng insisted on leaving the hospital, but refused to ride his motorcycle. He took a taxi back to the eastern suburbs, and Zhu Chaoyang followed closely, so that his motorcycle could be exposed as much as possible in the rearview mirror of the taxi. Driving fast, he was left behind after a few intersections.

When they arrived at the house in the eastern suburbs, Zhang Dongsheng had already arrived first.

"Brother, I'm back." Zhu Chaoyang closed the door, smelling a smell of oily smoke, "Why don't you rest, and cook when you come back."

No one paid any attention to him, and sat down on the dining table with his helmet in his arms. This angle of view happened to be able to see his back. After sitting for a while, he got up to help, "Brother, I have something to tell you."

The oil in the pan was sizzling, and the meat and potatoes were frying.

"I got the money for your hospitalization when I dropped your piggy bank. I don't have any money now, and I don't earn much from a motorcycle. I will return it to you in the future."

"No need." Zhang Dongsheng pushed him away to get the soy sauce bottle behind him, "It's enough for you to be honest about everything."

Zhu Chaoyang moved his mouth, but finally remained silent.

After the fried dishes were brought to the table, Zhu Chaoyang stood up and helped to set the dishes. Zhang Dongsheng took off his apron and sat at the dining table. The two of them just kept silent, eating their own food.

Zhu Chaoyang's heart was on fire, so it's better to be so stalemate and say clearly, he couldn't help it, "Brother."

Zhang Dongsheng didn't even lift his eyelids, as if facing the air.

"I don't know why... I lost control... Then I didn't mean it to you, I'm sorry." Zhu Chaoyang showed embarrassment, "I don't want to hurt you."

Zhang Dongsheng paused with his chopsticks, and said with a half-smile, "Xu Jing said the same thing today. You all said you didn't want to hurt me, but you did things that make people sad."

"I'm different from her!" Zhu Chaoyang raised his voice.

"What's the difference?" Zhang Dongsheng sneered, his eyes refused to give even a little sarcasm.

"It's just different!" Zhu Chaoyang felt very uncomfortable. He didn't like this feeling, as if he was dispensable in Zhang Dongsheng's eyes. He hated himself for being stupid and unable to express his heart, "I won't be like Like her, leave you! I will stay with you until you die, no, I will stay by your grave even after you die. "

Zhang Dongsheng sighed after hearing this rather horrifying confession, "You are really sick."

"I'm sick, so don't ignore me." Zhu Chaoyang put down the bowl and chopsticks, leaned over, squatted down and looked up, "I won't betray you, I won't let you die like Descartes, I'm afraid If you hurt yourself by doing something, don’t worry, I have a backup on the USB drive, and you can do whatever you want.”

Zhang Dongsheng was pressed down on his leg, and said helplessly, "How can I eat like this?"

"Brother, I really want to treat you well, really, Zhang Dongsheng, I know you, you know me, we are made for each other."

Zhang Dongsheng didn't respond to him, Zhu Chaoyang grabbed his chopsticks and grabbed his attention back to himself, "Brother, do you agree?"

Zhang Dongsheng had no choice but to face him, "Promise what?"

"I, what I just said." Zhu Chaoyang was a little embarrassed.

"You said you wanted to accompany me beside my grave, how should I agree, thank you for burning the paper for me?"

"..." Zhu Chaoyang became anxious, grabbed his shoulders, and pressed against the wall behind him, "I like you, don't you understand?"

The face of a child who is just beginning to love and eagerly wants to get the same response from his sweetheart is in front of him. What is contrary to it is that the object of his confession is not a young girl of the same age, but an elderly man. The man's mouth is very close to him, with thin lips. There was a provocative arc that young girls don't have, no one else in the world, Zhang Dongsheng's unique, cold and lustful smile.

The child's eyes turned from worry to joy, because his teacher bowed his head and leaned closer.

That piece of lips, thin and light, tastes like a cut-off, but it can pull people's heartstrings to pieces.

Zhu Chaoyang fell into a huge dizziness, as if floating in the air. No one could separate them at this moment. This was the closest he was to his dream, and it couldn't even compare with last night.

"Teacher, you agreed?"

When he heard the man's bottom-to-bottom response, his heart fluttered, and a viscous atmosphere lingered around the two of them. He watched the man's eyes drooping and his lips parted. style.

Intertwined with strong desires, they were sucked into the lingering nets, and the melodious symphony stopped suddenly.

——Zhu Chaoyang frowned slightly, lowered his head slowly, a cold knife point pierced his abdomen, and the instigator was his beloved Teacher Zhang.

"No..." Zhu Chaoyang widened his eyes and exclaimed, watching Teacher Zhang insert the knife, "...It hurts...It hurts...Brother, don't, don't pull it out..."

"Do you like me?" Zhang Dongsheng twisted his smile, his eyes gleamed fiercely, and slowly pulled out the knife, "Then prove it to me."

Zhu Chaoyang pressed the wound tightly, supported the table, his face was pale and distorted.

The blood soaked their tablecloth, and the blood stained the door in a blur, and the air was bloody, and people stumbled and ran out.

Zhang Dongsheng lost the knife, as if he lost his focus all of a sudden, and fell to the ground in a daze, a tear flowed silently down his cheek to his chin, and merged with Zhu Chaoyang's blood on the floor.