I'm just rotten

Ever since he agreed to be with Zhai Qixiao, Cheng Hao seemed to let go of some burden suddenly, his heart became brighter, and all the entanglements and hesitation before were gone.

He didn't expect that after agreeing to Zhai Qixiao, he would feel so at ease... It was as if, it should have been like this long ago.Soon, followed by a firm and strong determination.

He thought, since he agreed, he should cherish it and stay together.

So, with a firm heart, he took out a pen and paper, and wrote a reply to Xia Wei seriously.

He first expressed his views on Xia Wei sincerely, saying that she is really a wonderful person, he was very happy to share happiness with her, and hoped to continue to maintain this good friend relationship, and then told her tactfully that he had already There is someone she likes and is together, and I hope she can also find her own love in the future.

After Cheng Hao finished writing, he folded it, wrapped it in an envelope, held it in his hand, pushed open the bedroom door and went out.

On the way, he saw Zhai Qixiao who was going upstairs.

Zhai Qixiao's eyes fell on him, he paused slightly, his eyes softened slightly.

"Where are you going?" Zhai Qixiao asked, his eyes slid down his hand, and he saw the envelope in his hand.

Cheng Hao smiled: "Go and send a letter."

He didn't think much, walked around Zhai Qixiao and went downstairs, but he didn't see that Zhai Qixiao suddenly stopped at the moment when his back was facing down the stairs, and cast deep eyes on him...

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Xia Wei replied quickly, and Cheng Hao opened the letter. To his relief, Xia Wei replied naturally, and wished him and the person he likes happiness.

However, what surprised Cheng Hao and almost bit his tongue was that he saw Xia Wei add a sentence at the end of the envelope: "I want to ask... Is the person you like Zhai Qixiao?"

Cheng Hao was shocked, and his heart beat very fast because of this sentence, as if he was ashamed to see through his mind. Even though he was the only one in the bedroom, he still blushed unconsciously and looked around.

He didn't expect Xia Wei's eyes to be so poisonous.Could it be that she had already discovered that the aura of the two of them was wrong?

Cheng Hao thought of Xia Wei, and Mu Xu who reminded him earlier in the morning.

Was he the only one who was stupid enough not to notice?

Cheng Hao couldn't help being a little funny.

Can't see clearly in the game.Fortunately, he still reads and writes about Tanmei.

Although I thought so, but I don't know why, a little bit of sweetness gradually spread to my heart.

When Zhai Qixiao opened the door, he saw Cheng Hao sitting on the bed, holding an envelope in his hand, smiling with a blushing face.

Hearing the sound, Cheng Hao looked over suddenly. When meeting Zhai Qixiao's gaze, Cheng Hao's eyes flickered slightly, and his sitting posture became stiff, looking a little cramped.

Cheng Hao doesn't know what's wrong with him, he hasn't had this strange feeling for a long time, maybe it's because of what happened last time... When he sees Zhai Qixiao now, he can breathe unnaturally, and his eyes are a bit strange. I don't know where to put it, thinking that the other party is also looking at me, some lingering scenes from before will suddenly come to my mind, making his blood flow faster, and his body has some uncontrollable reactions...

However, Zhai Qixiao quickly looked away this time.

"It's for you." Zhai Qixiao put the meal in his hand on the table, then turned and walked out the door without looking back, leaving behind Cheng Hao who was dazed and unresponsive.

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Cheng Hao felt that Zhai Qixiao was a little strange recently.

He couldn't tell what was strange, it seemed that it started after he entered the hospital, and he found that Zhai Qixiao would sometimes sit alone on the balcony, motionless in a daze.

Cheng Hao called his name several times before Zhai Qixiao slowly looked back at him as if he had come to his senses.

Cheng Hao couldn't forget the look in his eyes at that time, it was deep, but it seemed like there was nothing, and there was a sense of emptiness.

Seeing that, Cheng Hao felt very uneasy.

Once Cheng Hao heard something crashing on the ground from Zhai Qixiao's room, and he was so frightened that he hurried over to have a look, only to find that it was Zhai Qixiao who accidentally put it on the table. The glass was dropped, the glass shattered, and the water in it poured out and spilled over the ground.

When Cheng Hao passed by, Di Qixiao had already gone to get the cleaning tools, and when they came back, the two looked at each other, and Cheng Hao saw annoyance and bewilderment in Di Qixiao's eyes.

Cheng Hao helped clean up the glass scum on the ground. Thinking of Zhai Qixiao's appearance these days, he felt more and more uneasy. He couldn't help asking: "What's wrong with you recently, how do you feel... you have something on your mind .”

Zhai Qixiao lowered his head, his thin lips were slightly pressed together, and after a long while, he said, "I haven't made up my mind yet."

"what?"

"I haven't figured out how to tell you." Zhai Qixiao suddenly raised his eyes and looked at Cheng Hao without blinking. His eyes were deep, and then he slowly turned his face away, looked at the ground, and looked down. "I'm afraid you'll be worried."

When Di Qixiao said this, Cheng Hao became more uneasy. He stared at Di Qixiao, his voice unconsciously raised a little: "Stop talking if you're worried? You have to speak out when you're worried!"

Zhai Qixiao was silent and lowered his eyes.

Seeing him like this, Cheng Hao seemed to have been suppressed for a long time, and he couldn't help but feel worried and distressed. Realizing that he was a little emotional, he resisted it, and slowly leaned over, leaning his shoulders against Zhai Qixiao's, He said in a low voice, "Seeing you like this these days makes me feel uncomfortable." He paused, "What else can't be said between us?"

As soon as he finished speaking, Cheng Hao suddenly felt a weight on his shoulders, and his heart trembled—Zhai Qixiao slowly leaned his head on his body, and then stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around him.

"I shouldn't still exist in this world."

In the ear, Zhai Qixiao's deep voice slowly rang.Hearing this sentence, Cheng Hao's heart felt like it was stabbed by something sharp, and it started to hurt.

"Have you ever thought about why I came back to life?" Zhai Qixiao looked at the place in front of him quietly, but there was nothing in his eyes, "How could such a good thing happen...I died a long time ago. Thinking about what brought me back to life.

"Have you ever thought about where the original owner of this body went?"

The more Cheng Hao listened, the more he frowned.

He couldn't answer either.

This was the first time that Zhai Qixiao put this question in front of the two of them nakedly, and Cheng Hao knew that they had to face it.

In the ear, Zhai Qixiao continued to speak——

"How long can I stay with this body?

"Is it possible that I... will disappear?"

Cheng Hao listened to the low-pitched words in his ear, and the tone sounded undisguisedly fragile, as if he was extremely disturbed. Hearing this, Cheng Hao finally couldn't bear it anymore. He hugged Zhai Qixiao tightly, and whispered He said in a loud voice, "how could it be? Aren't you still standing in front of me?"

Hearing this, Zhai Qixiao turned his head to look at Cheng Hao, his eyes became very deep at some point, like a pool of water.It reflected the latter's frowning look.

Zhai Qixiao's eyebrows gradually became very gentle, and he raised his hand, trying to smooth Cheng Hao's frowning eyebrows.

"I also thought at the beginning, don't think about anything, as long as you are by my side. But after you promised me to be with me, I realized that it is not like that at all.

"You originally liked girls, but I... made you like this.

"My future is full of unknowns, I can't risk you.

"I can not let it go……"

Cheng Hao opened his eyes wide and froze.

He thought to himself, what the hell is this? Normally, according to Zhai Qixiao's character of never letting go, Cheng Hao didn't believe that he would say such a thing. Something must have happened that he didn't know.

"What exactly happened!"

Cheng Hao interrupted him with a rough voice, stretched out his hand and grabbed his collar, looked at him with shortness of breath, gritted his teeth, and jumped out word by word: "What do you mean? After chasing Lao Tzu, let's play and let go Why didn’t I see you doing this before? I’ve already thought about it, I’ll be with you when I’m with you, I don’t look at other people, I just look at you! Let’s go with you, go to the end! Are you fucking saying these are useful now? !"

The only sound in the room was his panting.

Cheng Hao spoke very hard, his eye circles were red, Zhai Qixiao stared at him blankly for a while, then whispered: "I don't know...so you think so."

Cheng Hao stared at him.

"I saw that you replied to Xia Wei's letter, and she sent you a letter again... You two had a great chat," Zhai Qixiao said.

Cheng Hao was stunned for a moment when he heard the words, and then he came to his senses and quickly explained: "We have nothing, didn't she write a love letter to me before, and I wrote back to her to reject her... Tsk, I should have told you earlier." Here, Cheng Hao finally understood why Zhai Qixiao was stimulated, and he was a little annoyed. He didn't expect that Zhai Qixiao saw it and kept thinking about it.

Thinking of this, the anger in Cheng Hao's heart was instantly extinguished. He leaned up to kiss Zhai Qixiao, and whispered: "We really have nothing, really, I'll show you all the letters..."

Zhai Qixiao reached out and slowly wrapped his arms around him, pressed him into his arms, and gently licked and kissed his lips.

For some reason, although Zhai Qixiao kissed very gently, Cheng Hao always felt that he was still a little absent-minded, his eyes were heavy, as if he was hiding something, but he was still sober.

This is a kiss without passion.

The uneasiness that had been suppressed before surfaced again. After the kiss was over, Cheng Hao opened the distance between the two, looked into Zhai Qixiao's eyes, and said firmly, "You still have something to say."

Zhai Qixiao looked deeply at Cheng Hao, and after a while, he seemed to have made up his mind, and said, "I adjusted the alarm clock, and I used to get up at the same time every day."

Cheng Hao stared at him motionlessly: "And then?"

"But since I started a month ago, I have found that sometimes I can't hear its sound."

Cheng Hao said, "Maybe it's broken."

Zhai Qixiao said in a low voice: "I have done several experiments, and it will ring every time. I have turned its volume to the maximum, enough to be deafening, but when I fall asleep, I can't hear it. .”

Cheng Hao slowly touched Zhai Qixiao's hand and shook it.

He felt cold sweat on his hands, and his heart began to feel cold unconsciously.

"Do you know what this means?" Zhai Qixiao looked at Cheng Hao quietly.

Cheng Hao was stung by the despair in his eyes.

"I'm really afraid...when I close my eyes, I won't be able to see you again."

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Zhai Qixiao didn't know when she started to become more and more lethargic.

Sometimes Cheng Hao called him for a long time, but he couldn't wake up.

Just like this morning, Cheng Hao sat astride his body, lowered his head, pinched his face, and pulled him to both sides.

Zhai Qixiao's originally fair face was forcibly pinched with red marks, but he remained motionless, only the slightly rising and falling chest showed that he was still alive.

Cheng Hao frowned tightly. After Zhai Qixiao's reminder, they had encountered this situation for the fifth time. The first few times were better, and they would wake up slowly after a while. As the number of times increased, it took Zhai Qixiao more and more time to wake up.The last time Cheng Hao tossed on him for a long time, but no one woke up. He was so anxious that he covered his mouth and nose, but he was afraid that he would suffocate him, so he let go after a while.Later, Zhai Qixiao woke up by himself, and when he woke up, he rubbed his face and looked at Cheng Hao blankly. Gradually, he remembered something, and his eyes became very sad.At that time, Cheng Hao looked at him hard, his eyes were red, and then he hugged him suddenly.

Zhai Qixiao felt that the body close to her was trembling slightly, and the strength was getting tighter and tighter, so she slowly stretched out her hand and touched Cheng Hao's head, then leaned forward and kissed Cheng Hao tenderly, silently comforted him.

The hearts of both of them were a little cold, with an indescribable sadness.

They had been to the hospital and had a physical examination, but nothing was found. The doctor said that Zhai Qixiao was healthy and there was no need to worry.

However, both of them knew in their hearts that there are some things that cannot be explained by science, just like what happened to Zhai Qixiao before.

But today, Zhai Qixiao didn't wake up again, and even slept longer than last time.

"I'm really afraid...when I close my eyes, I won't be able to see you again."

Di Qixiao's low-pitched words came to Cheng Hao's mind. He looked at Di Qixiao who was sleeping motionless beside him, tightly pursed his lips, and clenched his hands into fists.

He didn't know how long this dreadful day would last, but every day counted.

Zhai Qixiao is still breathing, so he is alive.

As long as Zhai Qixiao wakes up, he can wait forever.

"I hope you, when you open your eyes, can see me."