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Han Zhi ran all the way in the city, although he felt sorry for Su Lang in his heart, but he thought that if he really wanted to leave, he would have to see An He again before leaving.After running for an unknown amount of time, he finally reached the front of Shen's residence.The door of Shen's residence was closed tightly, if he knocked on the door, even if the door was opened, he might not be able to see An He.

Just climb in!

Although Han Zhi was thin and small, he was nimble, and he climbed up the courtyard wall in a short while.It was late at night, and the mansion was almost dark, Han Zhi came to An He's door based on his memory.A faint light came out through the curtains. It seemed that An He was still asleep. Han Zhi stretched out his hand and pushed the door, but the door was unlocked.

Although they just met each other a day ago, Han Zhi felt that centuries had passed.Now that An He was right in front of him, his voice trembled with excitement.

"Anhe!"

An He also noticed the person behind him, and he turned around in disbelief.

"Hanzhi? Aren't you already on the way?"

Han Zhi stood there blankly, unable to remember a word he had prepared.An He suddenly walked over and hugged Han Zhi, as if to use the touch of his body to confirm whether this was his hallucination.His chest was hot, and Han Zhi could hear his heart beating violently.Smelling the warm breath emanating from An He's body, Han Zhi's anxiety, boredom, and pain gradually disappeared. He hugged An He tightly, enjoying the sudden happiness.

"An He, I miss you so much!"

"I miss you too." It was the first time An He expressed his feelings so bluntly, "How many times, I almost went to you uncontrollably. Only after you left Shen's residence did I realize how much I needed you , how I can’t live without you. You are like a ray of bright sunshine, shining into my dull life. Without you, my life is just a pool of stagnant water. I managed to convince myself to let you go, but why do you want to To shake me?"

"I'm not leaving, I want to stay, and I don't want you to bear it alone. An He, don't drive me away."

"No, you have to go with Su Lang immediately, I can't let those people slander you."

"Then you come with me, let's go to a place where no one knows us, and start over."

Han Zhi looked up at An He, An He felt that he was about to fall into these affectionate eyes, as long as he could be with him, so what if he left everything behind?But eventually he regained his sanity.

"No, I am the head of the Shen family. At this time, I can't just walk away. I have my responsibility."

"We're just living in another place, it's not that we won't come back. The Shen family has a housekeeper and a small boat, so you don't have to worry about it. Besides, your brother Shen Cheng has also returned, so he can also be the head of the house."

An He shook his head, "You don't understand the situation of the Shen family, now I am the only one who can manage the Shen family well."

"But as long as we're here, we can never be together."

"That's right, we couldn't be together." An He endured the heartache and said cruelly, "Even without these hurtful rumors, we couldn't be together."

"But, but, don't you love me too? Didn't you say that life would be meaningless without me? Why can't you be with me?"

"Because our relationship will not be tolerated by the society. Once we are together, you and I will be destroyed, and my family's reputation will be destroyed. This is the price of love I told you. Han Zhi, for Me, and for your own sake, go, don't come back."

"So, you would rather want your fame and status than me?" Han Zhi said in disbelief.

An He didn't speak, Han Zhi pushed him away.

"Don't touch me! You're hypocritical, you're cowardly! While saying you can't live without me, you push me away in order to protect yourself. You would rather stand alone in the garden all your life, and dare not face up to your feelings." Han Zhizhi smiled wryly, "I'm just a little toy for you to fill the emptiness. When you're lonely, you want to hug me. If you're in danger, you throw me away. Unexpectedly, I've loved you for so long, but I still love you wrong. Don't worry, Chairman Shen, I will leave and I will never bother you again."

After coming out of Shen's residence, Han Zhi walked down the street in a daze, he didn't know where he was going, he didn't know where he could go.He walked aimlessly in the dark night, and came to the studio unknowingly.This studio is next to Su's house, but it is self-contained, it was specially set aside by Su Lang for Han Zhi to use alone.

Han Zhi opened the door and entered, the studio was full of portraits of An He, recording every bit of An He like a diary, and hanging in the center of the room was the "First Encounter Picture".On the screen, An He is still smiling gently, but looking at it now, how ironic this smile is, everything is nothing more than Han Zhi's self-indulgence.

Han Zhi stood in front of the painting for a long time, thought for a long time, and finally lit the scroll.The flames are like crazily growing vines, extending from the center to all directions, burning everything it touches. In the sky full of flames, Han Zhi felt that he had returned to the past, the day when he first met An He.

"What's your name? I've never met you."