Rebirth of the Abandoned Son Without Regrets

Lie Bang has been a little restless recently. The Hai Gang in City A made frequent moves and seemed to want to do something.None of this has much to do with me.I just need to be with Yin Chuan when he needs it, and struggle to survive the countless kidnappings and spies.

Yin Chuan is going to City A to annex Hai Gang, the largest gang entrenched in City A.I was left at the Lie Gang headquarters.When the sky was getting dark, there was a strange movement in my ear.I was vigilant, and I saw a person out of the corner of my eye.That person passed through numerous guards as if he had entered no one's land, and gradually approached my residence.I tense up, ready to escape at any moment.However, my eyes gradually darkened, and the uneasiness in my heart gradually increased while my consciousness was blurred.It's him! ! !After seeing the person coming, my heart was shocked, but I couldn't resist the effect of the medicine and fell into a coma.

The real black night finally came.

When I woke up, I was tied to a stake.My limbs were bound in a humiliating posture, and I said in a hoarse voice, "What do you want to do?" The man in the dark smiled coldly, looked at me, and sighed, "As expected of the person Yin Chuan has taken a fancy to, He looks good!" Suddenly, his expression changed, and he slapped him, "Yin Chuan took the revenge of my territory, and I will take it back from you!"

There was a burning pain on my face, and I didn't say a word.This kind of pain, I have suffered so much in the past four years, and now only numbness remains.And when I touched Sun Haoyin's crazy eyes, I felt a chill in my heart.The flexible silver whip lashed the body, leaving trails of bloodstains.I pursed my lips tightly, not making a muffled grunt.The welt marks on his body quickly became red and swollen, full of ferociousness.

Seeing that I didn't show any sign of fear, Sun Hao suddenly smiled.He laughed wildly, kept approaching me, and said slowly: "Don't worry, Yin Chuan won't come to rescue you, he is busy annexing the Hai Gang." I didn't understand why, but I saw his actions When the whole body stiffened.He roughly tore off the clothes on his body and covered me with a distorted face.

It turns out that there are more painful things in this world than a bullet piercing.His body was roughly bent, and I couldn't see the cruel smile on his face.There were bursts of thunder in my ears, burying all the sobs and screams in the night.Something in my heart fell apart, and I couldn't put it together again.Really, it hurts...Yin Chuan...

Sun Hao was still venting his desire to abuse, my eyes became hollow.Why is this so?Obviously I got out of that swamp and touched the sun, but I fell into a darker place than before...Why, I am so dirty...Why do I work so hard to live, to find and catch the sun, but I still have to Less than a sliver of redemption?Is the humble life destined to only stay in a dark corner?Why, destroy my last tiny extravagant wish...

He didn't leave this bloody place until I could no longer make a sound.In the dark house, I was the only one left.Blood oozes from the pores, and the once fair body is covered with scars from abuse.I looked out of the window through the high window, listening to the bursts of thunder, my heart was empty.It turned out that I was really just a chess piece, a chess piece that could be discarded at any time... The cold liquid finally fell without any scruples, and slowly swallowed it with a mouth full of blood.The long-lost tears turned out to be so bitter.

No one will come to rescue me.No one would care about the struggle of a humble life... It's really cold here, so cold that there is no warmth.The heart wall collapsed silently, and even the heart was corroded by endless darkness, leaving only a void.My sunshine, I finally no longer have the right to look for it... I, abandoned in this corner, no one cares about me.

Three days is very short, but it seems to have gone through half of my life.When the door was pushed open, I raised my head and squinted at the long-lost sunshine.The light was so bright and warm that I could only feel the endless cold.Now, there is no difference between darkness and light.My world is finally gray, and there is no trace of color anymore.I looked at the person who came, his brows were wrinkled, and his face was familiar.It's Yin Chuan... There was no ups and downs in my heart, I quietly closed my eyes, and the corners of my lips slowly curled up, only mockery remained.Endless darkness hit me.

The people on the stake were covered in scars, and the room was bloody.Yin Chuan's eyes sank.Strange emotions rose, and he put the boy down from the stake and held him in his arms.That body is very light.The black coat covered the boy's body, but it couldn't hide the bloody breath.He hugged him and left the room step by step. The red flames swept the house, but the gray memories could not be burned away.The torrential rain that had accumulated for a long time finally fell, extinguishing the last gleam of fire.The fire only burned for two hours; the rain fell for three days.

I'm sunk in darkness, I don't want to wake up.And that voice, as strong as ever, erased my chance of choosing to perish.Opening my eyes with difficulty, I saw Yin Chuan beside the bed.He gave me a deep look, but I smiled.Nothing matters anymore...

At the age of 20, I gave up the sunshine, leaving only a lingering life in darkness.No longer, life without a trace of temperature will eventually pass away.Hey, Mom, the sunshine you mentioned, Yangyang doesn't want it anymore... Yangyang will be with you soon...

Four years passed quickly.I stroked my chest, which was so stuffy and painful.This body is dying, and the accumulation of countless injuries is finally reaching its peak.I'm tired of this life.Only obedience, irresistible life, makes me tired.When I found out that Yin Chuan had annexed that gang, I thought I'd finally become an abandoned child.Abandoned son, is it free... Can I also make a choice?

I obediently let Brother Jin and Xiangzi be kidnapped, even if I was kicked hard afterwards, I didn't regret it.This is the only chance.As an abandoned child, he shouldn't care about it.When Yin Chuan appeared at the door of the basement, I was only puzzled.Why, even my right to make the last choice should be deprived... Is it possible that my whole life is only obedience...

He asked: "Yuanyang, why don't you hide?" How can I still have strength, Yin Chuan, I'm too tired to struggle anymore.My voice was hoarse, "Yin Chuan, I have no strength..." The pain in my abdomen suddenly increased sharply, and I suddenly wanted to take another serious look at his face.The fishy sweetness in the throat could no longer be restrained, and it spewed out from the mouth.When I fell into a deep sleep, I saw his furrowed brows.Abandoned son, do you want to take it back...

When I was conscious again, my eyes were white, and I knew that I survived.Why do you still want to save me, obviously I have become an abandoned child... Why do you want to control everything about me, not even leaving me a choice... He said: "Yuanyang, take a good rest." That said In, full of strength.Yin Chuan, never changed, became only me.I sighed softly in my heart and watched him walk out of the intensive care unit.

The sound of heavy rain came from my ears, as if it coincided with that day many years ago.My heart has already dried up, and I have fallen into an inescapable darkness.The uncle's words echoed in my ears again: If you can't resist, then obey... This sentence, like a curse, runs through my life.However, even the humblest ants have the power to choose.My life is helpless, but I can still make a choice.

Pressing that switch with all my strength, I can no longer hear the sound of the machine working.My heart was calm, but my breathing became rapid.The lack of oxygen made my consciousness start to drowsy, and my body seemed to be too tired to move.Everything in front of me seemed to be distorted, and all the good, suffering, light and darkness in my memory were mixed together, swallowing my consciousness.

The eyelids are getting heavier, and every breath seems to exhaust the strength of the whole body.However, I will finally be freed.Everything in this world will have nothing to do with me.I used to be the wind, but lost all my freedom; I once bathed in the sun, but fell into the dark world.Those feelings that once jumped for joy, hazy paranoia, and everything that has never disappeared in the depths of my heart will be annihilated.The end of life is nothing but eternal darkness.And I have already fallen into the endless darkness. In order to seize the only freedom, why not die?Yin Chuan, this time, I can finally be completely free...

Mom, can I really see the sunshine you mentioned?

I turned my head sideways and looked out the window, as if I wanted to see the last sunshine in my life.That is really, beautiful, the warmth that I will never be able to touch... A tear fell from the corner of my eye, but it dried up in an instant like a flash in the pan.The last tears melted away all the feelings, leaving nothing but blankness.My life ended in the first rainstorm in the summer when I was 24 years old.

(soul perspective)

My body was light and floating, I looked at everything blankly, am I not dead?When I saw the body was transparent, I knew that I should be dead.Looking to the ground, the gray-faced person lying on the pale hospital bed was familiar with strangeness.Yes, that's my face.And I haven't seen it for many years.

My heart was full of shock when the man who was full of grief and grief stood beside the hospital bed.Is this still the strong and ruthless Yin Chuan?Why is he so sad, like a lost wolf?Something fell from his eyes, dripping on the ground with wetness, was it tears?It turns out that he can cry too... But, why did he cry for me?I'm just an abandoned child...

I floated quietly in the air, watching him scare everyone away, watching his bewildered expression, as if I understood something.Yin Chuan, so he loves me... It turns out that he can be so gentle.It's just that I don't feel it anymore.My heart has long been empty, without a trace of waves.Why bother... People who have been abandoned by the sun have long forgotten the warmth of the sun.

The bright fire swept my body, and I saw the endless despair and silence in his eyes.And my transparent body is gradually dissipating, annihilated along with the fire.When I was parting, I saw the urn he was holding tightly in his hand, and I finally sighed.

I have never been a submissive person, and the heart that was exposed to world affairs prematurely was full of paranoia and determination.All obedience is just a foreshadowing for the final decision.In the ups and downs, I yearn for sunshine and redemption.When I was desperately looking for it, I didn't get it; when I couldn't have it anymore, it wanted to illuminate the soul of this past life.Maybe, it's really unlucky...

Walking on the quaint bridge, the mother-in-law on the side smiled and handed me a bowl of soup.I drank it without hesitation.Mom, you said that you can see the sunshine when you look back, but I have never really had it in my life.But I will not regret it.I only hope that if there is an afterlife, I can no longer be bound, no longer helpless, and live freely...

In the next life, I will live a good life, right?

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