Rebirth of the Abandoned Son Without Regrets

Enron, I think we're all spoiled for choice.

This quote came to mind as I sat on London Bridge.

Between us, why did we come to this point?

We've been through high school, college, and decades together; we've come out, we've fought, we've had hardships, but we've never given up.We persistently believe in this love and believe that we will be together after all.And in the end, we succeeded.

We have gone through such a long time and loved for so long, and finally we can be together happily.I think we cherished it at first.

You once learned to cook for me, and never gave up even if you failed many times.When you looked at me with the bowl of mushy porridge, I smiled and drank it. The light in your eyes was scorching, and my heart was full of sweetness.That is, the first happy life.

I have also read boring reports one after another in order to help you reduce the burden. Even though my brain is filled with various technical terms, when I see your gentle and focused expression, I feel that everything is no longer distressed.At that time, we believed in each other wholeheartedly and loved so purely.

And this love, without knowing when, changed its nature, silently, and pushed us into an irreparable situation when we were not aware of it.

I don't know exactly when you started to lose your temper.Your tenderness seems to have been obliterated, and you became indifferent to me.

You said you were tired, so I handed over the just warmed milk, but you looked at me coldly and didn't take it.You said, Su Yuan, why are you still like this.I don't understand, I can only stand there blankly, looking up at you.Your eyes became strange, and you went back to the house without saying a word.I stood alone on the cold floor, dazed in a daze.

At that time, I thought you might just have something that didn't go your way, and that's why it happened.I naively thought that everything would continue to be happy.

You started to ignore me again and again, even if you live in the same room, you rarely speak, but I don't know it.I am still with you as before, taking care of our home.Yes, our home.But everything is getting worse.

When you started to deliberately leave bruises on my body, when you stabbed me with cold and sharp words again and again, I finally noticed something.You start to get tired of such an ordinary life.The seven-year itch, after we have been in love for more than 20 years, finally broke out in the most unexpected degree.And I can't change it.

An Ran, your gentleness begins to belong to anyone else except me.Only, without me.

In front of me, you became more and more unscrupulous, and that indifference turned into another terrible thing - tyranny.Your temper is getting worse and worse, and every bit of unpleasantness at work seems to have an outlet.You start smoking and the butt lands on me.It really hurts when you get burned.

I embrace you, stubbornly want to go back to the beginning, but make this an indulgence.You no longer care about my little changes, and only tyrannical emotions are left for me.

Later, when I was clutching my stomach alone and hopeless, you went out to socialize.You made new friends and stopped introducing them to me.To you, I seem to be an accessory.An Ran, you have gradually forgotten what love is.In your eyes, the definition of a lover has gone awry without you noticing it.

That night, I was in pain all night, unable to make a phone call, I could only grit my teeth and struggle to the death.As I am to the love between us, dying.It's just that it's useless after all.

In the early hours of the morning, you returned to our home.You looked at me with a pale face, and fear and worry finally appeared in your eyes.You hugged me and ran to the hospital like crazy.I look at you and feel tired.This kind of love is out of control, and I can no longer bring it back on track.

After hanging up the IV, I looked at your haggard face and said quietly, "An Ran, let's do it this way." That's it, let's separate, don't entangle any more.

You looked at me, the light in your eyes suddenly dimmed.You hugged me with a hoarse voice: "Su Yuan, I'm sorry." The long-lost words are extremely strange, but I seem to have been waiting for a long time.

Packing my belongings, I left the place I once called home.It's no longer home there.Without looking at the look on your face again, I turned and left.So be it, An Ran, let's be so.

After moving out, I gradually understood the reasons for your change.It was just a few words of intentional guidance from your friend, and you separated me.I don't know when exactly our love became so fragile.Perhaps, even that whole-hearted trust is already as thin as paper.

Between us, there was no derailment, no fierce quarrel, but it came to an end in a flat way.All the happiness and sweetness collapsed in an instant.

Back in London, back to the place where we lived for three years, I can finally calm down and think about the reasons why we have come to this point.

Enron, I think we're all spoiled for choice.You pamper me and treat me tenderly, making me gradually forget the pride in your heart.Forget that I fell in love with you first, forget that I took the initiative to attack.I enjoy your tenderness, don't make any changes, forget the changes in the world, and forget that you will be bored one day.So, I was spoiled by you.

An Ran, and you are also spoiled by me.When you were indifferent, I was still docile, thinking it was a short process.Until the time when indifference turned into tyranny, I was still standing still, tolerant of you, and believed that everything would be happy.So, my love turned into indulgence, your emotions got out of control, and everything became irreparable.

Both of us have been spoiled by time, and we can never return to the original sweetness and initial trust.The end became the only ending.

Sitting on London Bridge, passing couples around, I suddenly realized that today is Valentine's Day.I haven't had a good night's sleep for a long time.

Looking at the calm water under the bridge, a thought suddenly came to my mind: jump down!

I know that my emotions are not right. I had a psychological problem a long time ago, but I deliberately didn't pay attention.When your behavior is out of control, my heart is also out of control.I know, this mood is called depression.

Love has always been the focus of my life, An Ran, you are my focus.When I'm tired enough to let you go, I'm not whole anymore.My heart is empty.I love you very much, An Ran, and I love you very much now, but when this love has changed, I am unable to continue.

An Ran, maybe we are all wrong.Or maybe this love has become a mistake.And now, I can't correct the error, I can only roll back.In this way, I can be free.

Goodbye, Enron.Maybe, never see you again.

When the body fell, I heard noisy voices around me.I smiled slowly.This is the ending I chose.

I vaguely heard your voice, I closed my eyes and didn't care about anything else.

That's it, Enron.This love, so be it.

Water poured into my nostrils, and the feeling of suffocation forced me.I saw your desperate actions, you are good at swimming, you jumped into the river and ran towards me.But I smiled and brushed your hand away, falling deeper.

An Ran, I have never regretted loving you.

If I can have a next life, I hope that I can have a love that is no longer spoiled, and that I can have a love that gives me a sense of security.

So, An Ran, in the next life, we will never see each other again, okay?

The author has something to say:

An Ran x Su Yuan, the pair of CP Mo An □□ In the article, note: An Ran who will appear later is also reborn~~ Well, how could Mo have the heart to abuse you?