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【Second Brother from Perspective】

Bai Zhou scooped out a ladle of water from the water tank, poured it into the basin, and soaked his whole face in the cold water.

Wow.Bai Zhou took a towel from the clothesline and wiped his face carelessly.

"Your sister is really capable. She just came back and had less than two quarrels in one day. The roof was almost toppled by her." Song Qiao, Bai Zhou's wife, said while chewing gum.

"Little Joe."

"I really don't like you, sister. You put your face up to the sky. What can you do if you are beaten to death!"

"She's my younger sister." Bai Zhou was upset and wiped his face.

"Don't you have a bad relationship with this younger sister? I didn't see you go out to stop her just now." Song Qiao's face darkened, and she assumed a quarrelsome posture.

"Little Qiao, do you know why Bai Xiao never came back for Chinese New Year?"

"why?"

——————Memories of Bai Zhou—————

Bai Zhou and Bai Xiao hadn't been close since they were young. They had been fighting for the TV remote control, for the closeness of their eldest brother, and for Bai Zhou's mother's favor.Bai Zhou never won any of these fights.

"Bai Zhou, hurry up and do your homework, learn from your sister, and get first in the exam."

"Bai Zhou, quickly give the remote control to my sister, the brother is even grabbing things from my sister."

"Bai Zhou, ask your sister to tutor you in English, and she won another award."

……

"Bai Zhou—"

"What's the matter?" Sitting on the sofa, Bai Zhou pulled off the earphones with an impatient expression on his face. Ever since Bai Xiao finished the college entrance examination, his mother's magic voice had never stopped.

"Isn't it just that I got into a good university, and when I come out in the future, it doesn't matter who will work for whom!" Bai Zhou muttered, but still looked at his mother.

Mom was holding a thermos bucket and taking a pair of shoes from the shoe rack. "Come and see your sister with me."

"No way, Mom, what are you doing? Bai Xiao won't support you in the future. Why do you care so much about her? She has been admitted to such a good university. Will my uncle give her food?"

Unexpectedly, my mother did not respond, but sighed.

"Xiao Zhou, do you know what major your sister has filled in?"

"If it's not finance, it's accounting." Bai Zhou joked with a big grin, but the curve of his mouth gradually retracted.

Not finance and certainly not accounting, an unbelievable idea rose in his mind.

Bai Zhou felt that it might take him many years to forget the scene of that day.

Bai Xiao's house is on the third floor. Bai Zhou parked his car and ran up in one breath. The door was wide open, the house was in a mess, the wall clock was crumbling, the family portrait was smashed to pieces, the TV was switched, and the coffee table was pushed aside. , leaving two dark brown marks on the floor.

The uncle was sitting on the sofa, rubbing his wrists, with a frayed leather belt in front of him, and the aunt was wiping tears.

"Uncle."

"Her aunt, Bai Xiao wants my life!" The aunt said hoarsely.

Bai Zhou saw his mother sitting next to the aunt, and comforted her softly.

Bai Zhou raised his legs and stepped over the landscape scrolls on the ground, and walked into Bai Xiao's room door. The curtains in the room were all drawn, and the lights were not turned on.Bai Xiao was sitting at the desk, facing the window, a few rays of light unexpectedly illuminated Bai Xiao's cheeks and a section of arm, as expected, Bai Xiao had wounds of different lengths on his body, and dirty blood flowed out from the corner of his mouth .

Bai Zhou didn't know whether he should approach Bai Xiao, but he did it anyway in the end.Bai Xiao was wearing a gray-blue nightdress. The nightdress was torn from the bottom, and the cotton thread was turned out from inside, which couldn't cover the bruises on her arms and calves.Her slender feet rested on the legs of the table, and blood oozed from her heels, dripping drop by drop onto the white floor.But even so, she still had the DSLR in her bosom. Bai Zhou knew that she didn't eat breakfast and dinner to do homework for others to earn money to buy the DSLR.

"Brother, do you know? My room has never been locked. They said it was for my safety. I have never kept a diary, because every entry will definitely be checked."

Bai Xiao's lips moved, and words without any weight flowed from the corners of her mouth. Bai Zhou wanted to poke his head to see what his sister's expression was, but in fact, he didn't have to do so. Bai Xiao's facial contours didn't fluctuate at all.

"They always say that everything they do is for my own good, but why don't they let me have the most sincere feelings and purest pursuits in the world?"

Bai Zhou struggled to digest these two words "sincerity" and "pureness" that are not often heard in daily life.

"They always say, 'Bai Xiao, you want to be a doctor, the doctor is decent, and it will be convenient for relatives to register later', they always say, 'Bai Xiao, you want to study finance, finance makes a lot of money, and is respected, we also look good, They always say, 'Bai Xiao, don't trust others too much, no one in this world is really good to you except your parents'."

Bai Zhou was speechless, stretched out his hand, and touched Bai Xiao's head through the air. He had always known that Bai Xiao was thin, but he didn't realize that she was so thin. She was a 17-year-old who was about to enter the adult world, and she was so thin. Like a child who hasn't grown up.

"Xiaoxiao, you know, each of us has responsibilities that we must shoulder. Although it's strange for me to say this sentence, but..." Bai Zhou was trying to express clumsily.

"Is it a responsibility or something they are unable to do? What right do they have to put their will in my life! What right do they have to force me to do what they can't achieve? I just want to shoot... …shooting the things that are important to me…that I don’t get…”

Bai Xiao suddenly turned his head and looked straight at Bai Zhou.

Bai Zhou grabbed the protrusion on the desk, "Bai Xiao, they are parents, they love you, you can't do this."

"Then I wish they didn't love me, love me not that much, and don't threaten me in the name of love. They can have their own values ​​and pursuits, and they don't have to endure this bad marriage, and they don't have to choose the meat from the dishes. You don't need to leave me the wedding candy at the wedding banquet every time, and don't keep saying that it's for the family, for me... I don't want to be like my sister, so casually spend my whole life..."

The softer Bai Xiao's voice was, the faster Bai Zhou's heartbeat was made by the sadness inside.

"No, Bai Xiao, it's not like this. You see, I have fantasized about traveling around the world on a motorcycle and playing guitar on the side of the road, but the truth is, this won't work. I still have to start a small business with my dad. We We all have to go back to the right path, like that, that fantasy is meaningless." Bai Zhou worked hard to organize a paragraph, and carefully peeped at his sister.

"Brother, if I were like you, disobedient from the very beginning, refused from the very beginning, wouldn't my choice seem less, less, less unacceptable to you?"

Bai Zhou turned around, trying to avoid Bai Xiao's gaze.He understood what Bai Xiao meant. After all those years of his wild life, choosing to start a business was a relief in the eyes of his parents, but Bai Xiao's pursuit was not allowed anyway.

"But, my parents, if I do that, I will die."

My sister's words penetrated through several thin layers of air and lingered in Bai Zhou's ears, making him unable to look directly into his sister's eyes for the next few years.

He once thought it was unfair, but it turned out that the target was never him.

【End of memory】

"But the photography of insects is too outrageous, isn't it possible to enter the Environmental Protection Bureau in the future?" Song Qiao's voice covered Bai Zhou's memories.

"If I had her grades back then, I might be in the top management of any company now, and I don't need to be angry with your aunt."

"Give me a paddle / where I want to paddle /

On the turbulent sea / I have my own ideals. "

"Hey, Bai Zhou, what do you mean? Are you still talking about poetry if you don't answer my words?" Song Qiao raised her fist angrily.

"Bai Xiao once left the remedial class, and I went to pick her up. She recited a modern poem on the back seat of the electric car. She recited this sentence very loudly. I thought she was laughing at me. After all, I was too stupid in those years. Yes, but now that I think about it, she said it to herself. Bai Xiao didn’t pass the second exam when she was in school, and half the wall of the ancestral hall was covered with awards from her and my brother, but in the end it was me who was the most promising. Fuck it! Let’s go Come on, Joe, let's go to breakfast."

The author has something to say:

This chapter is so hypocritical.

I have been looking for poems for a long time. I originally wanted to search and drag foreign long poems, but those are too long, and I am blind and I can’t find a suitable one. Let’s use this old Mo’s first.