home soon

When Bai Xiao woke up, the sky was pale, and grandma was not on the bed.Bai Xiao stroked her long hair and turned on the phone.

"Good night." 01:31

She sighed, put her phone on the table to charge it, and took out a disposable toothbrush from her satchel, then put on her coat, put on grandma's cotton slippers, and walked out of the house.

The yard was deserted, with snow piled up on the bare tree roots, Bai Xiao scooped a ladle of water from the water tank and poured it into a glass teacup she found.His teeth were chattering with the cold, and Bai Xiao spit out his last mouthful of water expressionlessly.

The door rang, and Bai Xiao turned around, it was Dad.He held a bag in his left hand (based on Bai Xiao's experience, there should be a piece of tea cake inside), and a box of beautifully packaged wine in his right hand.He swayed towards the water tank, the chaotic smell of alcohol was pungent even in this winter when the breath was foggy.He put the wine on the ground and blew his nose with one free hand.

His skills are very good. He can't get his hands dirty even without a tissue. By pressing one nostril, he can blow his nose out with a force in the nasal cavity. He is as flexible as spitting. When Bai Xiao was ignorant or even 7 or 8 years old It would also be nice to see Dad perform this skill.

After the age of 9, I just feel sick.

Dad lifted the lid of the big vat and found that the ladle was not inside. He squinted his eyes and searched around, and saw it was placed next to Bai Xiao's tea lid.

"Where did you go this morning?" Bai Xiao moved a few steps to the side.

He reached for the scoop.

"What did you do last night?"

"Gone with relatives!"

"Did you get anything back from visiting relatives to give gifts?" The scene on the white wall kept flashing back in Bai Xiao's mind, and she couldn't help raising her voice.

"Bai Xiao, you were raised by me, why are you yelling at me?" His father was still incoherent, his eyes were wide open, and his voice was extremely low.

"Let me ask you, are you taking money from others again?" Bai Xiao asked feebly.

"If you collect the money, they have to give it to you. Your father and I are now a janitor, and the bastards can spit on me when they see me!"

Bai Xiao was very surprised. She hadn't talked to her parents normally for too long, so she couldn't understand what her father said. "What do you mean?"

At this time, another voice chased after him: "Bai Xiao, you are going to make your father angry in the morning, aren't you? You little bastard, your wings are stiff, aren't you? Dare to talk back to your father, see if I don't beat you to death today!" you!"

The mother's voice made Bai Xiao's scalp tingle, and the long memory revived in his body, making Bai Xiao tremble all over.

"You son of a bitch, bitch, it took me eight lifetimes of misfortune to give birth to you, an unfilial girl!" Mom ran out holding a shovel, and more and more unbearable abuse rolled out of her mouth.

Bai Xiao stared at her mother in a daze. The experience of being beaten countless times made her freeze in place, not daring to dodge.

(remember)

"Why did you hit me? I did nothing wrong." Bai Xiao knelt on the ground, raised her face and asked her mother.

"Because you were born to me."

"Big sister!" The elder brother's shout made Bai Xiao find a glimmer of clarity in his collapsed memory.Bai Xiao looked at her mother who was being held back by her eldest brother, she was as angry as a bullfighting bull, and roared wildly with red eyes.

"Go away, I don't have a girl like you!"

The sound hit the frosty branches and echoed in Bai Xiao's ears.

(remember)

"I'll beat you to death, I'll tell you to talk back to your father! I'll beat you to death, you liar!"

"I didn't lie, I saw it, I saw my father and my aunt..." Bai Xiao knelt on the cold floor, weeping and refuting, blurred words were squeezed out from the cracks in her red and swollen lips, and her nose and saliva were stained with blood. dripping down.

Mom picked up another stack of textbooks and threw them on Bai Xiao's head.

Outside the door, the marble table top was overturned to the ground, and Dad slumped on the sofa and gasped.

(remember)

In a dark room, 11-year-old Bai Xiao huddled in the corner of the bed: "I didn't lie, I didn't lie, what I saw was true..."

With a click, the light came on.Bai Xiao looked at her mother in horror, "Don't kill me...I'm sorry, don't kill me..."

"Xiaoxiao, it's my mother's fault."

"Xiaoxiao, I know about your father and your aunt."

"Then you, why..." Bai Xiao's parched throat almost crushed every word.

"Xiaoxiao, when you grow up, you will understand that marriage is not what you think. In this world, there is nothing, nothing is pure."

(memory ends)

"Is it because nothing is pure, or because you simply refuse to accept its existence!"

Bai Xiao focused his eyes on his mother and elder brother.The shovel was thrown on the ground, and my mother kicked and bit my elder brother angrily.Dad was pushed into the house by the uncle and aunt who drove over.

"Xiaoxiao." Wen Jing came to Bai Xiao's side at some point, her big eyes were full of pleading, as if to say, "Xiaoxiao, be soft."

Bai Xiao felt dizzy and dizzy, she could hardly stand up.

"Xiaoxiao, the phone is ringing."

Bai Xiao pulled himself together and took the phone from his aunt.

It's Su Mei.

Bai Xiao looked around, everyone was looking at her, Bai Xiao sniffled, desperately holding back her tears, and clicked to answer.

The author has something to say:

Was it an accident? Mother's forbearance and violence, forbearance towards father, violence towards Bai Xiao, is this out of love for her husband?Maybe, but more likely, mom wants to maintain the form of the home, the surface of the home, so what about the substance?

Su Mei is about to appear.