my robot boyfriend

It's not that I haven't heard him make that sound before, but not to me.

I thought that if it was me, no matter what he did, he would never yell at me in such a fierce and merciless manner.

I really... overestimated myself.

You looked up anxiously, those gray eyes stained a little bloodshot, the eyes looking at me were cold and dead, not a little bit of the peaceful look before.

I, I thought... I thought he was a gentle person, but I didn't expect...

No.

It will become like this, all because I have done too much.

……

The body was cold and stiff and unable to move.He lowered his eyes, not knowing where to put them.

The time was stretched so long in an instant that I was at a loss for what to do.His throat was hard and he couldn't speak. Obviously, the grievance and confusion in his heart were spreading, but his eyes were completely dry.

After he roared, there was no trace of rage on his face.

Only those dark gray eyes stared at me calmly and unquestionably.

Under such gaze, there is nowhere to hide my meanness, vainness, and all my absurd little calculations and scheming.

I always feel that maybe he... knew it from the beginning.

Understand what kind of low-level tricks I am using, trying to manipulate him to get what he wants.

Just thinking about it like this, I can no longer bear the endless fear that almost engulfed me in an instant like a tide coming up in the dark.It was as if some precious treasure was broken by my own hands, scattered all over the ground, and could never be picked up again.

……

Why do I...why do such a thing?

The mirrors in all directions frantically reflected my ugly appearance, and there was no corner where I could escape from hiding.

He didn't speak again, didn't say another word to accuse me.But the cold eyes are more piercing than any vicious words in the world.

I finally panicked and stumbled out of bed, wanting to escape, but I didn't know where to escape.

Tears fell uselessly at this time, and I couldn't see anything clearly.

There was a rustling sound behind him, and he was quiet, buttoning his buttons one by one.

I turned my back to him, not daring to move, let alone make any sound.

Cannot make any sound.

Otherwise, he will definitely feel that I am plotting against him again and despise me even more.

"I said that I only intend to be nice to one person. So even if I take you home, I won't love you."

A deep voice sounded behind him, with an unusually cold and tough voice.

I trembled, and I could almost see with my own eyes a long hole in my heart that was slowly oozing blood.It doesn't hurt, but it looks scary.The feeling was both real and ridiculous.

"Do you really... want to be treated that way? Although it is said that as long as you have a home, you don't want anything else."

All afternoon, he was gentle, talking to me in a low voice and smiling.

But now... I finally see what a terrible existence I am, and I will never talk to me as gently as before.

"However, you also want to be loved and loved by the only master, and you also want to be pampered and protected by others, don't you?"

……

Yes.

Of course I also want to, of course I want to have the only master who loves me.

However, it's not like he doesn't know.Like me... who would be stupid enough to hold me in the palm of his hand, who would want to love me?

……

"I'm sorry, just now... I made the guests laugh."

There was nothing wrong with my voice, not a shred of undue tremor.I end with a relaxed smile, sure he won't notice anything unusual.

Fortunately, he didn't come over and didn't see my disfigured face.

"The joke was too much, please forgive me."

I really want to say sorry.

Ask him to forgive you nicely and seriously.It's all my fault that I'm so kind to me, but I plot against him.

But he couldn't say it.Afraid that the tone of voice would be mixed with tremors, and he didn't know what he would think.

I think I might really like him a little bit.

Just because I like it, so... I shouldn't do it.

I hope that when he goes back, he can really think that all this is just an inappropriate joke.

In the days to come, maybe one day, I can forgive the unbearable me.

****

After two o'clock in the morning, the drizzle has not stopped.

The burning speed of the incinerator did not slow down because of the rain, and the bright yellow dazzling fire still shone through the closed gate.

Shaking his head, he made up his mind to seal up the last bad memory.Only cut it off when he hugged me from behind and said he had bought me.

At that moment, the real temperature of being embraced made me only half a step away from the ultimate happiness.

Stretching out my arms towards the empty rain, I regretted my stupidity at that time—I should have hugged it back.The few times during the day when he held me tightly in his arms, I should have reached out and hugged him.

If you do that, there must be several more sweet hugs to savor now.

So, I really am a hopeless idiot.

……

Dilapidated trucks, home appliances that no one wanted, and completely deformed messy things that couldn't be seen for a long time, were slowly sent to the incinerator through the conveyor belt and disappeared in front of me.

As it got closer, the iron door of the incinerator was opened again, and the scorching fire wave rushed towards the face, scorching hot.

It's over...is it?

But at this moment, all the lights and fires around were suddenly annihilated.

……

The entire brightly lit abandoned station, together with the star-studded lights that can be seen in the nearby mountains and plains in the mountains and iron seas of the abandoned station, all fell into a catastrophic situation that can almost be described as "spectacular" at the same time. The overwhelming darkness and solemnity.

The torrential rain intensifies, and the world seems to be stored in a cardboard box that is precarious and sees no light.

"Blackout" is already a very ancient vocabulary.

In the past few hundred years, almost nothing like this has happened.What's more, is it still this kind of super-large-scale power outage that has no margin at first glance?

In the sentry post at the height of the abandoned station, a small spot of light appeared.That should be the only human guarding the small curtain light of the shadowless screen here.

He started to make a phone call, and the rough voice came through the rain, and he and the person on the other end of the phone came and went in the rainstorm, arguing endlessly.

The incinerator was still hot, and I waited foolishly in front of it for a while before turning around and climbing up the mountain of abandoned steel next to it.

From here, one can overlook the entire suburb of Dongcheng. The rain is getting heavier and heavier, and the huge area that can be seen is still completely dark.

I sat down slowly on the steel mountain.

Even though I adjusted my sight and adapted to the dark environment, but because there was no moonlight, there was still nothing in front of my eyes.

There is only an endless night, hidden between large and small copper mountains and iron seas.

I don't know when it will all light up again, maybe 10 minutes, maybe an hour.It seems a bit ironic - the moment when the whole world is restored to light is the moment when I meet the end.But the sarcasm is over, and I still don't know what else I can think or do in this last stolen moment, in the midst of this continuous torrential downpour.

Suddenly, he realized that until now, he had never missed his master.

Perhaps, to some extent, I also... in the long time of getting along, I have been contaminated with a little coldness of human beings.

I would rather chew the fresh sweetness during the day than call that person's name in vain again, recalling the vows he once said to me, and feel so miserable and desperate.

I don't want to think about him.

This time, I will keep thinking about the person I met today.

Thinking of the blush that secretly dyed his cheeks when he looked at me, thinking of the temperature of his body suddenly rising when he hugged me, thinking of all kinds of sweet and beautiful things that belonged to me or did not belong to me, and disappeared peacefully in the in this world.

……

Even now, I still have an inexplicable mystery of self-confidence.

I always feel that although Chen Wei is not willing to take me home, maybe when he wakes up in the morning and sees the bright sunlight filling the empty bed, he will feel regretful again.

You will find that you still like me and care about me, and you will go to AN-X to take me away.

Maybe, as long as I stay in the company for one more night, I can have a home from now on.

……

As the young master of the Lorraine family, I don't know what kind of place he will live in.

I always feel that maybe it will be a gorgeous castle in the forest, or a mansion with a deep courtyard in the downtown?He is the younger brother of the "God of Creation", and if he is by his side, he may have the opportunity to meet the "God".

Such an honor will definitely be envied by other artificial intelligences.

……

I think with Chen Wei's temperament, if he heard that I was sent to the waste station, he would definitely come here to find me again.

It's a pity that at that time, I probably had been dismantled into parts and scrap iron that he could no longer recognize.

If you think about it this way...it might be good if you can have a third life.

If that would give them a chance to meet again in a long time and space, maybe...it would be good too, wouldn't it?

……

The rain was so loud that it drowned out everything.

Between heaven and earth, I nestled in this endless abandoned station, dreaming unrealistic dreams, so small that I couldn't even be counted as dust.

The fairy tale clock struck the last midnight, and the miracle did not come.

I don't even have a match in my hand that can be polished in vain, so I can only live in a mess, waiting for the final darkness to engulf everything.

The world of delusions has an end.Tired, finally fell out of the dream and fell back to the cold reality.

Everything around him became extraordinarily clear again, like a flash of light, and huge raindrops hit his body, which was wet and depressing.

But suddenly there seemed to be something, an incomparably clear, incomprehensible thing that slowly ignited restlessness and uneasiness in my heart, pulling me diagonally behind.

It was like a long, slender and easily broken red thread, pulling my body up and down.

I raised my head and slowly looked behind me.

……

I think I'm mostly sleepwalking.

But robots don't dream, and it's hard to...have so-called "hallucinations."

So, so, it must not be a dream.Not a delusion, nor a hallucination.

……

Behind the supposedly empty space, a foot away, stood a man.

With a black windbreaker attached to his body, he was slender and drenched, with bangs attached to his forehead.If it weren't for the dim light projected by the shadowless screen, I might not be able to see him in this long night at all.

The author has something to say: They all say it's a weak attack! =w=. . .

Xiao Chen twitched his fingers slightly, and his fighting power was so weak that half a company was weak!

Pfft, let's be weak.

……

I feel that the "Qiangqiang" on my label is a slap in the face.

Acknowledgment of support @biscuit delicious