"Activities" You and the things around you

2018.1.1

This is the best New Years Eve I've had since I was born.

There is no scrutiny from the elders of the family, no parents who "respect each other as guests", and no gossip in the school...

I just lie on the bed very leisurely and brush my phone, and when I turn my head, I can see the person I like lying on one side, on the other half of the bed, sleeping on another white pillow...

The short-term alienation seems to have played a role. The day before yesterday, I happily "abducted" the big fool into the room, and happily drank a bottle of wine with a high alcohol content...

Thinking of the way the big fool woke up yesterday morning, I found it so funny.

This man is really...

Inexplicably simple.

He will believe what he says, and he will do what he is asked to do.

It's easy to believe the lie that he deliberately lied to his parents not to allow others to enter their room in order to sleep in the same bed with him.

Obviously, my parents haven't seen each other for almost 5 months.

We never even called each other to say hello...

At this time, I am very grateful to my biological clock for a long time, and getting up early habitually allows me to watch his sleeping face with peace of mind.

In the past, the boarding school stipulated that the wake-up time was 25:[-]. When I woke up half an hour earlier, I was embarrassed to get out of bed to wash and disturb my roommate who was still in a light sleep. I had to lie on the bed in a daze until the wake-up bell rang.

If you're lucky, you might even turn to the textbook novel that was inadvertently pressed under the pillow to pass the time by flipping through it...

At this time, I just hate that I can't get up earlier.

Although he is covered with his own quilt, he can vaguely see the protruding curvature of the quilt, which is the curvature of his body.

The black trousers she wore yesterday were still thrown aside, and the legs under the quilt were loose...

Thinking about it, he swallowed involuntarily.

The day before yesterday when I tricked him into drinking, the big fool did the same thing. I took off my dirty pants, lay on the bed, and got carried away.

Like a big stupid pig, it also left a lot of saliva on my shirt.

That's why my shirt hasn't been washed yet.

Still thinking about cutting out that piece of drool-soaked fabric and hiding it for safekeeping...

I also feel that since I met the big fool, my whole body has been broken, and I have gone further and further on an inexplicable and unknown road...

2018.2.13

Am I getting a little too carried away lately?So much so that I almost forgot that he is different from me...

We did it last night.

But it didn't reach the last step, maybe he had never tried to be with a man, and he was still drunk.

I forgot when I did it, anyway, I didn’t wake up until noon today, and I habitually touched the side, but found nothing.

The air was filled with a fishy smell that hadn't dissipated in the future, making me keep thinking of the vileness I showed in front of him last night.//jian...

Really

very disgusting.

Like when my father was away on a business trip and my mother was lying on the bed trying to flirt with a man I didn't know,

Just like my father's young and beautiful secretary who wears a //xiong skirt all day long...

I'm not like normal people, I've always known that.

Known from the time my father told me when I was just learning to read how to get a scoop from the family in the future...  

My background and my sexual orientation predestined me to live in a world full of mud and thorns.

I even hoped to pull him into this world.

I can't bear it, how can such a good person suffer this kind of suffering, I should suffer this kind of suffering alone.

I'm a little confused...

It wasn't until today that I realized that my confusion was a fart, the fucking man was straight//male, steel straight//male, straight, what the fuck...

How do you pull it?