"Activities" You and the things around you

2017.11.12

I have lived in the hotel for a long time, it is time to find a more stable place to live.

That day, I accidentally saw the monitor's class filling out the form, and found that the community where the big fool lived was recommended by an intermediary.

In vain, he even asked people in the family to help and moved to the opposite of the big fool's house.

Looking at the door of the big fool's house opposite, I felt a little weakly disgusted with myself--

What is this doing...

Do you still think you are not disgusting enough...

He was originally an alien, but he tried his best to squeeze into the lives of normal people...

But when I saw him at the door of his house, these negative emotions and thoughts gradually faded and disappeared, and were hidden at the bottom of my thinking.

There is only one inexplicable emotion called rejoicing welling up——

Fortunately, I chose to move here.

Fortunately, you are rather stupid and did not doubt my lie.

Fortunately, I came to this city...

2018.12.19

I make a girlfriend.

Because I found out that he might have noticed something.

Last month, I jumped on his back.

His back was very comfortable and flat, with his arms around his neck, he accidentally touched his Adam's apple, a small one, still moving up and down restlessly.

No wonder the squad leader always likes to jump on him...

"Let go!" He yelled at me viciously.

His temper has always been good in my opinion, never angry, never in such a tone.

This reminds me of my father, who yelled at my father who taught me the truth when I fell down and cried...

why?

Obviously the squad leader can do things, why can't I...

I bit my lip to prevent these words from slipping out accidentally...

Don't let your secrets be unfolded in front of him...

I carefully guard my little bit of dignity.

I forgot what happened after that, and I felt like I was in a daze.

Later, I felt his alienation from me.

Obviously, some of the more intimate things that we would do together before, can't be done now.

Even if he accidentally hooked his little finger, he would immediately shake it off and explain with a silent smile on the tip of his nose in embarrassment...

Obviously, the monitor and he will often do these things...

I think he may have noticed something, and I also think it's time to distance yourself, before seeing his completely disgusted expression...

It happened that a bold girl was pursuing me this month, and they said that she was the class flower of the next class.

It didn't take long for me to accept her advances.

Accept her pursuits like you accept other girls' pursuits in junior high...

In fact, it doesn't matter who it belongs to, as long as it belongs to a girl, it's good to be a girl who can prevent others from finding out that I'm a different kind...

2017.12.27

Sure enough, as expected, he quickly alienated me, then...

Without nostalgia.

Today, as usual, I walked out of the classroom numbly. The girl saw me and walked over quickly, but from the corner of my eye, I saw that he seemed to be looking in our direction.

Subconsciously, I pulled the girl who was about to come to me.

Under his gaze, hold tight.

I hate him a little bit, I hate him for his lack of nostalgia, I hate my self-deception, and I hate my lowliness...

People sometimes do things subconsciously without thinking...

That's what the idiot told me.

I don't know what the point of doing this is, did it make him jealous?

for me?

Ha, stop kidding.

How could such a thing happen...