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"Have you ever seen an angel? It's not in a dream, but in reality." Xu Mianji held the microphone and looked at the camera, "I was lucky enough to see an angel when I was 15 years old. The first time I saw it, I knew that she would be by my side and protect me for the rest of my life."

"When I bullied her, she thought it was a sign that I liked her. Even if she was wronged, she would not be angry with me. I have never seen such a good-tempered person. I caused her to be scolded by the teacher. She will cry and comfort me instead." Xu Mianji slowly said: "Actually, I should have known at that time that she is the person I should care about and protect most."

"It's just that I have been pushing her away and walking forward, no matter whether she is running after me, or chasing me while stumbling and wrestling all the way. I am just very sure, no matter what, I will definitely turn around when I turn around." can see her."

"I thought I would lose her forever, but I didn't expect that one day she would catch up with me and walk in front of me. Although she was very beautiful when she appeared that day, I can still see that after running hard all these years, How many scars were left on her body."

"Our story is very long and short. If you let me tell it, it can go on for three days and three nights. But now here, I suddenly feel that there is nothing to say. Those memories, those us The things we experienced together seem to have passed away, and it is funny to mention it, and there is nothing to say about it.”

"I just want to tell you that I will keep you in my heart for the rest of my life, just like what you did all those years ago. You said that when you saw me under the willow tree, you seemed to see an angel. I want to say, you Every day by my side, I have angels to accompany me." Xu Mianji faced the camera, eyes reddened, "Baby, I'm sorry. Then, I love you."

Xu Mianji originally prepared a story about the setbacks she encountered on the way to becoming famous, but before going on stage, she changed her clothes again, then threw away the manuscript, and changed to improvising, and she wanted to tell a different story.

The audience froze for a long time, wondering whether what Xu Mianji was telling was a real story or just hype. When the sparse applause rang out, Xu Mianji bowed to the audience, and then walked down the stage.

"Is this the story in "A Crazy Day to Xu Ji" or did you experience it yourself!" Suddenly, an audience member shouted at Xu Mianji.

Xu Mianji's voice came out clearly from the microphone, "What do you think?"

Others don't need to know that much, just let them think that Xu Mianji is hyping up for "Crazy Yu Xiang Xu Ji".She just took this opportunity to express her love to Chi Yuwan in a high-profile manner, but she was really embarrassed.

Back in the lounge, Xu Mianji asked a staff member to call Chi Yuwan for her. He wanted to hear if she was so moved that she was about to cry and fainted. She stretched her ears to listen, but only heard a beep Beep busy tone.

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Even if she really got together with Xu Mianji later, Chi Yuwan was still very scared, she never could catch Xu Mianji, it was a dream, it was better to say it was a self-satisfied fantasy .

Between them, apart from the distance of identity and occupation, there is an additional layer of things that cannot be explained or solved. From a distance, even if they hold hands, even if they do all the intimate things, Chi Yuwan will still talk to each other from time to time. tremble with fear.

In front of Xu Mianji, she has always had low self-esteem and no sense of security.

Every time Chi Yuwan woke up in Xu Mianji's arms, he would feel like he was dreaming.

"Wanwan! Wake up! Wanwan, hold on!"

"Send it to the emergency room!"

"Chi Yuwan! You fucking wake up!"

"How long has the patient been in shock?"

"10 minutes... woo woo..."

"No! No electric shocks! Give her medicine, this is not physiological shock, and electric shocks cannot be used!"

"Doctor Xu, if you delay, the patient's life will be in danger!"

"..."

There was a lot of noise around, Chi Yuwan felt as if his chest was about to explode, and he felt a sense of suffocation in his head, his nose was blocked, and his mouth couldn't open, as if he had sunk into the bottom of the sea, unable to see the light, With no oxygen to breathe, she knew very well that death seemed to be coming.

She is not afraid of death, she is only afraid that she will not be able to see Xu Mianji after death, that person said that he loves her in front of everyone, she passed out before she could be happy, Xu Mianji probably knew Will laugh at her.

But Xu Mianji, I am getting more and more panicked, why does the more you love me, the more unreal I feel?I was afraid, afraid of waking up and someone would tell me that this was a dream.

This cannot be a dream.

"Transfer to the general ward. After taking the medicine, the patient's condition is much better. She will be fine when she wakes up." Someone said so.

Only then did Chi Yuwan heave a sigh of relief. Oxygen slowly poured into her lungs. She wanted to open her eyes and look around, but her whole body seemed to be frozen, and she couldn't move anywhere.She had no choice but to fall into a deep sleep first.

It's just that Xu Mianji must come back soon, she really wants to see her.

After being in a coma on the hospital bed for a day and a night, Chi Yuwan finally had the strength to open her eyes. Unlike the sunshine she expected, she saw a figure standing by the window with her back to her, and there was heavy rain outside the window .

Because her mind was not very clear yet, Chi Yuwan only felt familiar when she saw that figure from the back, and she was a little flustered. She was relieved when the man turned around.

"What? Isn't Xu Mianji waiting for you to wake up by the bed, disappointed?" Xu Mo walked over and stood in front of Chi Yuwan.

"I'm glad it's not her, otherwise I don't know how to explain it." The sky was a bit dark, and Chi Yuwan had always disliked rainy days. Just hearing the sound of rain made her feel bored and unable to cheer up.

Xu Mo went over to close the window and the curtains, and the ward became quiet.

"What's wrong with me this time?" Chi Yuwan took a glass of water by the bedside and gulped it down. After not drinking for a long time, his mouth was dry.

"I don't know the reason, but it must be caused by your psychological problems." Xu Mo frowned, wearing a white coat made him look a lot more serious, and he wouldn't usually wear it when he saw Chi Yuwan, "Chi Yuwan , you really have to persevere, you can't be defeated again, you know better than anyone how much Xu Mianji loves you now, you persevered for her before, why can't you hold on now?"

"I..." Chi Yuwan was a little weak, and smiled, "Of course I will persevere, but it seems... I am getting weaker and weaker, my heart... I can't control it."

Xu Mo's heart sank. This situation already belongs to the scope of physiological depression. Chi Yuwan had pinched her neck in her sleep before, but that was because she couldn't get rid of her extreme depression. When the body reacts, it is not the heart.But now, the situation is even more serious, and the part of her nerve mechanism used to regulate emotions has gradually lost its function.

In other words, the current Chi Yuwan is like an emotional balloon that will explode at any time, and her main consciousness is weakening, and it is very likely that she will be replaced by a second personality.

Xu Mo is really out of luck, as long as there is the uncertain factor of Xu Mianji, Chi Yuwan's illness will never recover.

There were footsteps at the door, two people looked up at the same time, the footsteps of the person who came in stopped, "Wanwan, are you awake?"

Disappointment flashed across Chi Yuwan's eyes, and he raised a smiley face, "Yeah, did I frighten you? The doctor said, I was just too excited and couldn't control my emotions."

Wan Wan said hello to Xu Mo, then sat down by the bed, and took out a bowl of porridge in his hand, "You don't think your husband is confessing his love to you, do you? She won the championship! Full marks for feelings, and then At the end of the competition, there was a lot of noise on the Internet, some said that her husband was hyping up, and another said that her husband used the show to promote the new drama too much, but no one knew whether what she said was true or not."

"Come on, have the porridge first." Wanwan stuffed the bowl and spoon into Chi Yuwan's hands.

Xu Mo then stood up, "I'll go back first, come and see me when you feel better."

After finishing speaking, he went out with his handwritten copy in his pocket, and his back was quite uninhibited.

Wanwan teased: "Wanwan, you have a lot of top quality products around you, why did you bend?"

Chi Yuwan silently drank porridge with a bowl, and didn't really want to pick up the topic. Wanwan saw that she was wrong, and turned the subject again, "Well, the tutor didn't get in touch with you, so he came to me in a hurry, saying that the team Invited by Peking University to do exchange and sharing, the instructor appointed you to be the team leader and take the group members with you.”

Peking University, Beijing.

Chi Yuwan smiled wryly, "Got it."

Xu Mianji's programs have all been recorded, and the opportunity for her to go to Beijing just came. What's the point of passing by like this?After wandering around in the hospital in a daze, and being dragged around by Wan Wan, Chi Yuwan's numb limbs gradually gained strength.

"Wanwan, I'll go up and find Dr. Xu." After greeting Wanwan, Chi Yuwan changed his clothes and went upstairs to Xu Mo's treatment room.

Xu Mo was hypnotizing a patient, so Chi Yuwan quietly entered the inner lounge first, and when he opened the door, he saw a mirror facing her, so scared that Chi Yuwan almost screamed.

Chi Yuwan suddenly became frightened. The black hole in the mirror that had been lingering in her dream was like an abyss that would bury her. She opened the door and wanted to run outside, but bumped into a person. chest.

Xu Mo turned on the light and signaled Chi Yuwan to go in.

Chi Yuwan looked at Xu Mo nervously, her limbs began to weaken again, she didn't have the guts to face those things, she was very scared, tears welled up in her eyes looking at Xu Mo.

"Hey, don't be afraid." Xu Mo said softly, pressing Chi Yuwan's shoulders, forcing her to turn around and look at the mirror again, "Look, it's just a mirror, there's nothing to be afraid of."

"I'm leaving, Xu Mo..." Chi Yuwan still wanted to hide, so he broke away from Xu Mo's hand and walked away.

"You look like this, aren't you afraid that Xu Mianji will know about your illness?" After Xu Mo said a word, Chi Yuwan didn't dare to go forward, then gritted his teeth and turned around, walked back to the original place in a few steps, drooling Tears stared at himself in the mirror.

"Persist for one minute." Xu Mo said while going to get the medicine he had prepared for Chi Yuwan.

If he didn't use Xu Mianji to force her, Xu Mo even suspected that Chi Yuwan was really going to give up.

But for Chi Yuwan, this is tantamount to allowing her to visit those dreams once. In the black hole of the mirror, there are countless her, crying or laughing, accompanying different people at different ages, it is like spending her whole life in a movie. It's like countless frames of playing out, how terrifying it is, it's all her, and it's not her.

Yes, Chi Yuwan has already begun to be unable to find himself in the black hole of the mirror when he was with Xu Mianji.

Those things are normal for her, she has a child, became a mother, has many friends, is very dignified in her career, and always smiles when she sees everyone, but those normal things are extremely resisted in her heart, and she doesn't want them.

The second personality controls the black hole of the mirror, and often shows her such pictures to stimulate her psychological defense line that is on the verge of collapse.

Chi Yuwan watched and began to sob uncontrollably. If a person came in suddenly, he would not understand why someone would cry when looking in the mirror.

"Okay, stop." Xu Mo finally couldn't bear it, and put the medicine in Chi Yuwan's hands, seeing her quickly raise her eyes to glance at him, with fear in her teary eyes, she left quickly.

After being sent to the door of the apartment by Wanwan, Chi Yuwan was still smiling and comforting Wanwan that she was fine, she had already hidden the medicine that Xu Mo gave her in her bag, and Wanwan only thought that she fainted because of being too excited .

"Then I'm leaving. Remember my husband's official publicity event at the end of June, don't forget it again." After Wan Wan instructed, he left.

Chi Yuwan stood at the door for a long time, and suddenly he didn't even have the strength to press the password to open the door. She lost contact all day and night, and her phone was hit by Xu Mianji and Jin Shan to the point of exploding.

I don't know if Xu Mianji is at home now, and Chi Yuwan couldn't lie to Xu Mianji frankly when he just recovered from the illness.

Across the door, Xu Mianji stood at the door with his arms folded, looking down at Chi Yuwan's hesitation again and again on the screen, took a deep breath, and took a long time to let it out.

She couldn't describe how flustered she was when she couldn't find Chi Yuwan. She was in a daze even when receiving the award. When she was able to return to Shanghai, Jin Shan told her that Chi Yuwan really couldn't be reached. .

At that moment, Xu Mianji suddenly realized that she didn't even know who Chi Yuwan's friends were, and she didn't know who to call when she took out her mobile phone. In the end, she called Xu Mo, and she could only call Xu Mo.

Xu Mo said that Chi Yuwan knew that she was too excited to win the championship and passed out. Xu Mianji didn't believe this excuse, and vaguely felt that Chi Yuwan had something to hide from her, but she didn't want to force Chi Yuwan to say it, so she After pushing all the work and waiting for her at home, I don't know how long it took before I finally heard a voice outside the door.

However, Chi Yuwan didn't dare to come in.

Xu Mianji put his hand on the doorknob, trying to open the door for Chi Yuwan, but saw Chi Yuwan turned around, holding back his tears and about to leave.

"You fucking stop!" Xu Mianji yelled violently, pushed open the door, ignored Chi Yuwan's astonished expression, bent over and carried Chi Yuwan inside.

"Stomach... Stomach pain..." Chi Yuwan was hung on Xu Mianji's shoulders like a rice bag, she grabbed Xu Mianji's clothes tightly, and frowned uncomfortably, almost vomiting the bowl of porridge she just drank Out.

Holding back his anger, Xu Mianji gently put Chi Yuwan down on the sofa, and was about to speak, when he saw Chi Yuwan shrink back into the corner, looking terrified.

Xu Mianji's breathing became heavier, and the anger in her stomach could blow up her internal organs at any time. According to her usual temperament, it's time to clean up Chi Yuwan by now.

She confessed to her in front of the national audience that this bastard still lost contact with her!

But seeing Chi Yuwan's collarbone protruding abruptly, Xu Mianji's anger was overwhelmed by the pain at that moment. She took a deep breath, forced herself to calm down, then half-kneeled on the sofa, and opened her eyes slightly. embrace.

"come over."

The emotion in Chi Yuwan's eyes slowly turned to surprise again, and he was stunned. Finally, with a groan, he crawled over and hugged Xu Mianji's waist, sobbing and arching into her arms.

Xu Mianji thinks that Chi Yuwan is a person who can always make people feel powerless, because she always has any worries and grievances in her heart, and this is a kind of kindness for people who really care about her. Great torture.

"Stop crying, tell me, what's wrong with you?" Xu Mianji picked up Chi Yuwan, then sat down on the sofa by himself, put Chi Yuwan on his lap, and supported her on the bed himself.

Chi Yuwan couldn't remember how far away it was when she was with Xu Mianji last time. Now that she was hugged in her arms like this, she even became cautious and kept trying to sit up, so that she could crawl Go to the side sofa.

"Don't move." Xu Mianji's tone became cold, and he sounded a little harsh.

Chi Yuwan's tears were still in the corner of his eyes, and he looked at Xu Mianji tremblingly, but a fiery breath enveloped him, Xu Mianji put his hands on her waist, and lifted her into his arms .

Chi Yuwan just curled up in Xu Mianji's arms, his whole body was wrapped by her.

The kiss came a little suddenly, perhaps because Chi Yuwan hadn't gotten so close for a long time, and Chi Yuwan even blushed.

Xu Mianji chuckled, "Why are you blushing?"

Chi Yuwan shook his head lightly, and rushed over to hug Xu Mianji's neck, tears streaming down his face again, "I'm sorry, Mengmeng..."

"It's fine if you don't want to say it, but in the future, don't let me not find you again." Xu Mianji touched Chi Yuwan's head with his hand, "You know?"

Chi Yuwan nodded hurriedly.

Xu Mianji also knew that he had neglected Chi Yuwan a lot recently because of work, so he delayed work for another day and stayed at home with Chi Yuwan for a day.

She cooked for Chi Yuwan, although it was just the simplest fried rice with eggs, but Chi Yuwan still cried after eating it.

She sat on the floor watching movies with Chi Yuwan in her arms, and the two of them chose to watch old movies from the past, to see the love of the previous era, and when they looked back at themselves, they felt that time was actually kind to them.

"I want to have our home in the future, not an apartment, not a villa, not too big, not too small, preferably with two floors, far away from the city, we wake up upstairs every day, covered by the sun , there is a disobedient cat downstairs, and outside, there is a yard full of flowers..."

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