Shanghai 29℃

Chi Yuwan is the kind of person who, even if she hates it in her heart, she still loves her in the bottom of her heart. She values ​​every person she meets, but her life cannot accommodate many people, so she accepts one person frankly. fact.

That is, people come and go, if they want to leave, they will not stay.

This made her focus on feelings on the one hand, but on the other hand she was indifferent and unfeeling. For her, the vitality found the brightest beam of light, and everything else could be moved aside.

The third year of junior high school was indeed a period of time that she didn't want to mention again, but she cherished the people she met and the things she experienced at that time.

She did not tell anyone that she had written letters to all the teachers who had taught her in the third grade of junior high school. Each of them had a letter with at least a thousand words. All the words were thanks and gratitude. She chooses to let go of avoiding far or near.

Chi Yuwan likes to write letters very much. When she was about to graduate and class ten was about to leave, she even thought about writing a letter to everyone in the class, but she only wrote to Xu Mianji and Zhong Yi.

There was only one letter for Zhong Yi, and half a book for Xu Mianji.

Occasionally waking up from a dream, she would still see herself who secretly lowered her head while writing a letter while weeping. How scared she was at that time. After crossing the hurdle of junior high school, Xu Mianji would disappear from her life. She could only write down what she had to say as best she could, in a frivolous and irreverent tone.

She once wrote that if I lose weight and look better in the future, Mengmeng, will you stay with me?Hahaha I can't get married at my height, can I?Don't laugh at me, I actually like you very much, really like you.

This is the most serious sentence she wrote out of the nonsense that she wrote after deliberating several lessons, but if she didn't have hahaha to modify her tone, she would never have written the seemingly joking "I I like you very much".

I saw these letters once after Chi Yuwan sent them out. In the photos posted by Xu Mianji Space, she spread out all the letters, filling the entire screen with text: Monitor, I am a little miss you.

Chi Yuwan couldn't tell what she felt when she saw that sentence, she only knew that the tears were falling down, as if she had won a battle, and her efforts for so long had finally seen a weak effect, maybe in the future because of those or serious problems they Or if you are joking, you can also have the opportunity to become an old friend who you haven't seen for several years and can still sit down and chat.

Looking at the screenshots on the phone, her eyes were firmly fixed on the words "I miss you a little bit", Chi Yuwan seemed to have wandered thousands of miles away, and when a hand fell heavily on her shoulder, she was so scared that she directly Throw the phone on the ground.

Before turning around, a hand passed her to pick up the phone, and then sat down beside her, with a bright tone and a clear smile, "Chi Yuwan, don't you? Still thinking about her?"

Chi Yuwan wiped off the dust on the phone, and glanced at the man, "You know?"

"Don't talk nonsense. I was shocked when I saw her posting this during the summer vacation, but she deleted it half an hour later. Hahaha, only you, a fool, still remember it."

Chi Yuwan asked, "Where's Xiaowen?"

"I've gone to the toilet. I've eaten too much barbecue recently, and I've had a stomachache." Li Ning opened a bottle of beer, held it up, and went to talk to other people on the table.

I haven't seen you for half a year, Li Ning's hair is shorter, and the letters "AIWEN" on the side of his head are clearer. Chi Yuwan already knows what those letters mean, so he can't help but laugh. It's really too much to be so high-profile.

Mo Zichen's dinner was big enough, and most of the tenth class came. Chi Yuwan, the former class leader, was still not the center of the crowd, except for a few girls who came to say hello to her. It was deserted.

Neither did Jiang Meng, nor did Zheng Yingying, nor did anyone she could talk to.

There were many boys who Chi Yuwan had met but didn't know their names at the banquet. They should all be Mo Zichen's friends. Everyone occupied half of the hotpot restaurant's facade in a lively manner. Chi Yuwan lay on the table and looked at everyone. There is a smile on the corner of the mouth.

Suddenly the rubber band that tied the ponytail was pulled off, and Chi Yuwan was about to turn his head when his chin was pinched again, and the person who met his gaze was Gu Xiaowen's clever and pretty oval face.

"Oh, Wanwan, why are you alone?" Gu Xiaowen looked around, "Xu Mianji hasn't come yet?"

Chi Yuwan tied her hair up again, biting the rubber band in her mouth, and frowned when she spoke, "You and Li Ning, why did you ask Xu Mianji when you came here?"

Gu Xiaowen propped her chin obediently, her big eyes fluttered, "Because when I saw you, I would think of the way you were dying for Xu Mianji before, and I couldn't help but want to ask."

"I'm fine. I don't want to die. I want to live." Chi Yuwan's fingers fluttered, and she tied up her hair with a few strokes.

“你变了变了，跟以前还真的不——卧槽！李宁你他妈在干嘛？你居然敢喝酒啊啊啊啊啊啊啊——”顾晓雯跳脚，气呼呼地就去把正在喝酒Li Ning tidied up.

"Fuck, why are you here so soon?" Li Ning called while hiding.

"You don't want to die! You have a stomach perforation at a young age, you really want to die and I will help you, okay?!"

Because when the two of them quarreled, half of the store became more lively. Chi Yuwan watched and giggled at the same place, and suddenly a sense of sadness welled up in her heart. She really... will be alone forever.

Xu Mianji came very late that day, and everyone was late after eating half of it. Ling Yue came with her, and Chi Yuwan looked up when they entered the door, and then continued to eat his food calmly. , completely want to melt themselves into the air.

Fortunately, Li Ning and Gu Xiaowen put her in the middle, and both sides were lively, so she didn't have to look too alone.

"Damn, Li Ning, if you pull her over, how can you go to someone else's table?" Gu Xiaowen lost her temper when she saw Xu Mianji sitting at the table opposite them, and insisted that Li Ning pull Xu Mianji to their table.

"Decree." Li Ning raised his hand, made a military salute at the temple, got up and passed.

The yellow throat in Chi Yuwan's mouth almost caused her to bite her tongue, and she groaned in pain. From the corner of her eye, she caught a glimpse of Xu Mian Jizheng being led to her side helplessly by Li Ning, and immediately got up and ran to the toilet.

What the hell, just like ex-boyfriend and ex-girlfriend when they meet, but they still have to be set up as an act?

Even Chi Yuwan, who was as thick-skinned as before, couldn't do it.

Xu Mianji called her from behind, but Chi Yuwan didn't look back, raised his right hand and waved it back, signaling her to eat first, and he was fine.

When he got to the toilet, Chi Yuwan saw himself in the mirror and couldn't help but curse, "Fuck."

Is that the person whose face turned red into a five-star national flag, is she?

The girl in the mirror has grown a lot longer than before, her face is finally a little smaller, and slowly she has contours, her eyes are still single and small as before, but it doesn't affect her cuteness, at least now that she sees her , Chi Yuwan would not describe it as ugly.

But I can't describe it as good-looking.

It was like a big drum was set in my heart, and someone took the drumstick and smashed it desperately. Chi Yuwan slapped his heart hard, wishing to smash it with both hands like a gorilla when he went crazy.

At the door of the toilet, a passerby was shocked by this scene.

The hot pot restaurant is full of public toilets. Chi Yuwan looked over vigilantly, and saw Jin Ze with one foot outside the door and the other on the floor of the toilet. His face was blank and stunned, and he dared not enter. look.

Chi Yuwan coughed unnaturally, looked away, washed his face, wiped Jinze and went out.

Quiet, didn't even say hello, as if they didn't know each other at all.

She didn't see, after she went out, the disappointment and heartbreak in the eyes of the big boy when he lowered his head, it was like a scar in his heart, which was severely uncovered, then sprinkled with salt and cumin, and removed from the fire Serve on the grill.

Baked out is the sour smell of "love".

Chi Yuwan himself has such a heart, even a little rotten and full of scars, but it will heal itself, whether it is injured or healed, the speed is very fast.

Sure enough, Xu Mianji was arranged by Gu Xiaowen and Li Ning next to Chi Yuwan's seat. Seeing that everyone was still eating, Chi Yuwan really had no face to say "I'll leave after eating", so he had to go back to his seat and silently He condemned Gu Xiaowen who was beside him with his eyes.

Gu Xiaowen and Li Ning's friends were having a good time. After sticking out their tongues, they took Li Ning's arm to chat with others. Chi Yuwan and Xu Mianji finally became quiet.

"Squad leader, why didn't I know that you have a good relationship with Li Ning and Gu Xiaowen?" Xu Mianji was not embarrassed, and even took the initiative to pick up the topic.

"I cooked it during the summer vacation." Chi Yuwan filled a bowl of rice and ate it bit by bit.

"I went on a trip during the summer vacation, and I thought you were going out to play too, but you've been here all this time." Xu Mianji said.

"I have always been here." Chi Yuwan spoke slowly, not as if he was answering, but more like saying a word of love or an oath.

"However, Li Ning is just a female hooligan. What do you guys have in common? Gu Xiaowen is okay, you can talk about girls, but I find it strange that Li Ning has something to say to you." Xu Mianji laughed. .

"It's nothing strange, it's just that there is a common topic, why do you always ask this?" Chi Yuwan's mouth was stiff, and his eyes had already dared not look at Xu Mianji.

She and Li Ning really have a deep common topic.

Xu Mianji kindly scooped up a spoonful of unknown meat and put it in Chi Yuwan's bowl. The white rice was immediately soaked in red oil, just like a bowl of specially cooked rice with oil. Yes, it still smells of coriander.

Chi Yuwan's eyes were about to pop out, "Do you think I'm not fat enough? Brother, it's all oil!"

"I just want to give you this meat. You didn't eat it when I brought you here last time. It's delicious." Xu Mianji knew that he had done something bad again with good intentions, so he threw the spoon back into the pot with his hand. inside.

Taking a few deep breaths, Chi Yuwan knew that her temper was going to be unbearable again, and she couldn't stay any longer, especially when Xu Mianji was talking. The eyes made her feel inexplicably flustered and angry.

"I……"

"Don't go to school at night, we probably won't be able to catch up with the evening self-study if we eat like this, so we simply don't go." Xu Mianji finally took a look at her and smiled, "OK?"

Chi Yuwan's anger was stuffed into her chest, all her emotions were turned into dust in that smile, her ten fingers shrank in astonishment as if she had been electrocuted, and her expression froze for a few moments.

"Damn, I have rice stuck to my face?" Xu Mianji's scalp was numb from her eyes, and he grabbed his face with his palm, but there was nothing.

Chi Yuwan looked away in a panic, but saw that at the table opposite him, Ling Yue was holding chopsticks in his mouth, looking at him with a half-smile.

The Ling Yue who knew at a glance that she liked Xu Mianji, and the Ling Yue who told Xu Mianji the secret that Chi Yuwan had tried so hard to hide, had contempt and sarcasm in their eyes.

Later, Chi Yuwan simply picked up his mobile phone to read the novel. After eating, everyone who was supposed to disperse was scattered. Gu Xiaowen and Li Ning had already started drinking together at some point, but after Gu Xiaowen had a drink, Li Ning not only wanted to follow Have a drink and get a slap in the face.

"...Pervert." Chi Yuwan commented like this.

The boys in the previous class gathered around the table again, talking loudly, all holding wine bottles, Mo Zichen was sitting in the crowd, with a boyish smile on his face, making Chi Yuwan dizzy for a moment.

In fact, whether it is Mo Zichen, or Jin Ze, or any good-looking boy, they are all attractive to Chi Yuwan, and she will want to take a closer look, and even want to get close to them .

But as soon as she was asked to give her heart to one of them, she would feel uncomfortable, resist, and die.

Li Ning once said that many people are bisexual. People who say they only like women or men are mostly sick. Love and gender are never relative.

Chi Yuwan hasn't figured out until now whether she is bisexual or gay. She knows how many sleeping seasons she has, even as Gu Xiaowen mentioned with a smile, if you like someone, you will want to kiss her There are so many things I want to do to touch her.

People's desires are inexhaustible for those they like.

Chi Yuwan wanted to kiss Xu Mianji and hug her. This feeling was never experienced by anyone. She glanced at Xu Mianji who was eating without image, and then at the table opposite. Boys, finally my head hurts.

"Are you going to drink? Damn, Xu Mianji, why are you still eating??" Song Zilei came over to pull people, pulling Chi Yuwan with one hand and Xu Mianji with the other, seeing that she was still gobbling, she couldn't help but raise her hands Thumbs up, "Nice|forceful."

"I can't drink..." Chi Yuwan said in a low voice, apologetic.

"Because you're underage? This monitor, can you stop being so funny?" Song Zilei didn't force her, she loosened her grip on Chi Yuwan's hand, and pulled Xu Mianji away, "Your class monitor, why don't you?" Still so funny?"

"she……"

What Xu Mianji said was cut off by the sudden cheers from the boys. Chi Yuwan didn't hear clearly. Looking up at the figure from behind, she started guessing again, what was the content after the word her?

She is like this?

She is allergic to alcohol?

Just leave her alone?

After deciding between going to school for evening self-study or staying here to waste time, Chi Yuwan decided to stay, even though the rest of the people gathered around a table, talking about topics Chi Yuwan didn't know, completely She was excluded, but she still didn't want to leave.

He raised his mobile phone and secretly took pictures of Xu Mianji's smiling side face. Looking through the photo albums, almost all of them were like this. There was never a full face, and they were all secretly taken from unbelievable angles.

Why do you want to leave if you can see her more?

It is estimated that Ling Yue is the only one in the audience who will pay attention to Chi Yuwan. Occasionally, the two girls will look at each other, and they will look away tacitly, and then they will meet again in a few minutes.

Who is Ling Yue, Xu Mianji?They are good friends who grew up together. For a while, Chi Yuwan saw that Xu Mianji's screen name was changed to "Ling Yue is my spiritual pillar", and their group photos can also be seen in the space. .

Such a shrewd girl, Chi Yuwan doesn't want her to stay by Xu Mianji's side all the time, among other things, just seeing that she likes Xu Mianji at a glance makes her want to kick Ling Yue out of Xu Mianji of the world.

Later, the stalemate and embarrassing atmosphere was finally broken. Ling Yue's boyfriend came to the hot pot restaurant, and after a few words with Ling Yue, he called her away.

Seeing the setting sun, Chi Yuwan sighed. Finally, he had time to read novels. It was like time was passing by. By the time he finished reading a romance novel, the hotpot restaurant was already full of people. There was a lot of noise.

It's already dinner time in the evening, and the atmosphere of eating hot pot in the small town is still very good. Gathering with friends, beer hot pot, beautiful scenery on a good day, it's a good taste in life.

Looking around blankly, the table was full of people, Chi Yuwan stood up, and then saw Xu Mianji and Li Ning who were lying crookedly on the sofa and fell asleep.

It's not right to say that he fell asleep, he should be drunk.

"Damn, you can't drink like this..." Song Zilei walked around the baffle from the outside, with an abnormal flush on her face, she walked straight in the direction of Li Ning and Xu Mianji as if she hadn't seen Chi Yuwan past.

Stretched out and kicked Xu Mianji, "I beat you to death, Li Ning, and you actually brought Xiaowen to drink..."

He raised his foot and kicked Li Ning again, "Rely on you bastard, Xu Mianji, you can actually get drunk hahaha..."

Chi Yuwan watched speechlessly, suddenly thankful that he was allergic to alcohol.

At this time, Mo Zichen walked to Chi Yuwan's side, wearing the waiter's clothes again, "Squad leader, um, why don't you send Xu Mianji back? Just send it to school, and Ling Yue will say to pick her up later."

"Aren't you going to study by yourself last night?" Chi Yuwan looked at Mo Zichen up and down in surprise, and then said ah, didn't she also not go...

"I usually don't go for evening self-study." Mo Zichen was a little embarrassed, and there was a slight maturity in his eyes.

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I really like to see everyone's comments, it's like being connected with people and me hahaha

Being in love secretly is a very tiring physical activity, but it is also a marathon that you don't want to give up no matter how tiring you are.

I'm going to the finish line, even if the result is not good, but if I don't work hard, I will never reach you.