Shanghai 29℃

The past is beautiful because the dead cannot be traced back, and memories will beautify all bad things.

But the reason why the past is ugly is because it really existed and will not be erased by anyone.

Chi Yuwan's first reaction when she heard that sentence was to laugh, but tears fell down and flowed into her mouth, which tasted very salty and bitter, and the corner of her mouth finally did not open a mocking arc.

"Do you fucking think I'm you? Forget it if you say so? Do you see everything the same in this world? All unimportant, all calm, all... can you be so free and easy?"

Chi Yuwan hadn't cried for more than half a year, and this crying came for no reason, it was just stimulated by Xu Mianji, she shouldn't lose her composure like this now, but she still couldn't stop.

Probably... There are a lot of things in my heart, and I have been holding back for too long.

Xu Mianji knew this very well, watching Chi Yuwan squatting down crying and crying, watching her from uncontrollable wailing to gentle sobbing later, all she could do was to stand quietly by the side and accompany her.

As before, wiping her tears, stroking her head and pouring chicken soup into her, I can't do it anymore.

Chi Yuwan said all the swearing words she knew. Swearing can't solve the trouble, nor can it relieve the negative emotions in her heart, but when she said it, her mouth seemed to have the upper hand, so she wanted to feel better .

Cursing and crying for half of the class, Chi Yuwan calmed down, secretly scolding herself for being so worthless, how could she hide her embarrassment in this situation?

Crying in front of others was something she had sworn not to do again, but she never expected to be in front of Xu Mianji again.

Crying inexplicably, the crying sound is also terrible, the other girls are pear blossoms with rain, she is crying ghosts and howling, but Xu Mianji watched the whole process quietly.

"Go back to the classroom?" She sniffed, pretending to be casual, stood up and looked at Xu Mianji naturally.

"Let's go." Xu Mianji rubbed her nose. Forget it. It's meaningless to explain some things clearly. There will be plenty of time in the future. She can either hope that the years will polish those memories, so that Chi Yuwan will not feel as uncomfortable as before. Enough.

Or use the later time to make up for it, but this...it depends on her mood.

"By the way, didn't you say...would you accept all the letters I wrote to you? Why then...you started avoiding me when I was delivering letters?" Chi Yuwan changed his appearance as he walked and mentioned it casually.

She wanted to use that tone of indifference, but she really cared too much in her heart, and when she said it, there was a touch of temptation. She prayed that Xu Mianji didn't understand the meaning of that tone.

"Ling Yue said, those letters of yours... are tricky to hide. If I'm really doing your best, I should avoid you and not accept those letters." Xu Mianji seemed to remember that Chi Yuwan came over every few days. When I was looking for myself, I smiled, "To be honest, your letters are like keeping a diary, with no nutritional value. I still remember that there was one letter with my name on it. What were you thinking at that time?"

I am thinking of you.

Chi Yuwan's lips moved, but she still didn't say anything, because of Xu Mianji's evasion and deliberate alienation, she was in a panic at that time, and she couldn't get up to do anything, thinking about whether there was any chance every day If you can go upstairs for a walk, maybe you can meet Xu Mianji, at least you can detect clues from her reaction when she sees herself.

If Xu Mianji found out about her unidentified but extremely clear feelings, Chi Yuwan would be in conflict. While pervertedly feeling that his deeply buried thoughts could finally surface, he would worry about Xu Mian at the same time. Will Ji go away from him from now on?

Facts have proved that Xu Mianji has already taken a step ahead before making it clear.

"I just... don't want to live two unrelated lives with you. I don't know what you are doing, but I can report to you what I am doing, so at least in my heart, we may still be together... ...One class." At the end of Chi Yuwan's speech, he pinched himself before turning back to his normal words.

In fact, they were no longer at the same table in the second semester of the third year of junior high school. At that time, Wu Lingping was still very afraid that Chi Yuwan would be influenced by Xu Mianji, so he separated them, which was the furthest distance in the classroom - one at the front, one At the end, it's still diagonal.

Chi Yuwan's new tablemate turned out to be Jinze, and there were a few girls who were more familiar with her in the same group. It is not completely strange to move there. When moving the seat and leaving, Chi Yuwan still cried helplessly.

She is a very emotional person. She used to change seats in the group in the first class of junior high school, and the girl on her left moved to the opposite side, which would make her cry, not to mention Xu Mianji, let alone just leave. so far.

Xu Mianji died helplessly at that time. The whole class who changed seats stopped and looked at Chi Yuwan. They kept hooking Xu Mianji's table legs with their legs and resting their fingers on the edge of her table, trying to guard against letting her Walk.

The most lethal thing is the tearful face, which looks like a child abandoned by his mother.

Xu Mianji didn't know what to think at that time, but he took out 20 yuan from his pocket and stuffed it in Chi Yuwan's hand. When she was stunned and didn't know why, he pushed the table and slipped away, and waved his hand to let Chi Yuwan Tonight to buy some candy to eat.

The closest and most ambiguous tablemate relationship immediately turned into a polite and distant relationship with classmates.

When you grow up, you may be able to use the same school relationship, even if you are separated by several classes, it will be useful, but when you were a student, the relationship that was originally at the same table was separated, which really symbolized the end of a relationship.

At that time, Chi Yuwan didn't think wrong, she didn't sit together, she didn't know Xu Mianji's whereabouts at all, and she didn't have anything to say to her, Xu Mianji originally estimated that "there is still half a year", and in the blink of an eye even half a year was gone. there is none left.

This is why, she is more and more afraid of losing Xu Mianji.

Because I can't figure it out at all, but I care so much about it.

After thinking a lot, Xu Mianji's voice at this moment seemed to come from the distant past. She heard her say, "Ling Yue said——you might like me, huh..."

With that last sound, I don't know if he was laughing at himself or Chi Yuwan.

As if struck by lightning, Chi Yuwan stopped in place. She went through all the Chinese characters she had learned in her head, and wanted to choose a few as the best answer to Xu Mianji's sentence, but within 1 minute After it passed, she was like a mute, unable to speak a word.

"Squad leader, I half-believe what Ling Yue said. Anything is possible between us, but that is impossible, what do you think?" Xu Mianji has already stabbed Chi Yuwan's heart to the point of being riddled with holes. In the end, he added a lot, "We are obviously very good friends."

Friend and lover are two incompatible words.

"Go and dream your dreams, I will like you?" Chi Yuwan said to the person he likes the most in his life's most disgusting tone, "I won't fall in love with you even if I'm blind, okay? Let's talk , I'm normal."

Xu Mianji didn't know if he believed it, but he took a few steps forward and hooked Chi Yuwan's shoulders, pulled her into his arms, and began to fuss and scream, "Do you think I've grown taller? Is it much taller than before?"

Chi Yuwan went to break free from her, "Dwarf, get out!"

Is this... a reconciliation and a return to the past?

Chi Yuwan decided not to think about it anymore. It was because of her amazing imagination that she and Xu Mianji had a love-hate relationship with Xu Mianji in the fictional world. It is comparable to a prime-time high-quality TV series. It is exciting and intriguing. .

But in reality, nothing happened.

It's true that the defeat is also in his own hands. Chi Yuwan knows what the consequences of letting his wild thoughts go. Anyway, Xu Mianji is still willing to talk to her now, and the two of them still maintain the mask of friendship. For Chi Yuwan , this is enough.

……

Because No. 10 Middle School is too close to Chi Yuwan’s home, it can be said that it is right in front of the house, so students who live a little far away may have to get up an hour earlier, but Chi Yuwan can take it easy [-] minutes before the class bell rings Get up, wash up quickly, and then buy a breakfast on the way to school, and secretly bury your head behind the book to eat during morning self-study.

She is really used to living alone now. She thought that when she first entered high school, she would be afraid to walk home alone for a short distance. Seeing other people as companions, she was in her own Under the psychological pressure, I was so nervous that I didn't know how to move my hands and feet.

When she entered the school gate, it was usually the time when the students on duty were getting ready to leave. If she was unlucky, she might ring the bell as soon as she arrived at the school gate, and she would run wildly with other latecomers, laughing as she ran.

One day before, when she and Xu Mo were at a certain milk tea shop in front of No. [-] Middle School, and saw a few boys running into No. [-] Middle School with long shadows of the setting sun through the window, she would inexplicably feel that the scene was very strange. warmth.

Now that she has become a person running in the same place, Chi Yuwan feels that warmth is even stronger, at least it makes her feel that this school has other advantages besides Xu Mianji.

She entered the classroom with a piece of biscuit, just when the bell rang, her seat was at the back, and she squeezed in through the back door with her waist down. The classroom was reading early, but only in the first half, and the back Half of the people are almost eating breakfast.

In high school, the distinction between good kids and bad kids became clearer, but this time Chi Yuwan chose not to stand in the camp. She disdained both good and bad, and it would be over if she lived well.

A piece of bread exudes a tempting aroma. The uncle who spread the bread is still very face-saving. He put a lot of meat floss and cucumbers, a piece of roasted ham is sandwiched in it, and salad dressing is spread on it. Chi Yuwan can't wait to have a bite Swallow it.

After taking a bite, it was as delicious as I imagined, even more delicious. The cake is baked, crisp and raw, and there will be crumbs when I bite it off. Chi Yuwan wiped himself with the back of his hand corner of his mouth, eyes narrowed in satisfaction.

Life still has to go on, there are a lot of bad things, but there are also delicious breakfasts, so I have to get up earlier in the morning, and I heard that there is a new Taiwanese rice ball.

The remaining pancake in her hand was snatched away. Chi Yuwan raised her head, and it turned out that it was Xu Mianji, who came all the way from the podium. She frowned, "Why?"

Although the front half of the classroom seats are full of good students, Xu Mianji is definitely the saboteur that the organization does not recognize, because today's podiums are all intelligent, and when the computer is turned on, the podium will be pushed away from the left and right. A perfect hiding place for Xu Mianji.

Playing mobile phones, sleeping, most of the teacher's eyes are long-range, but they don't notice what's under the eyelids.

"I didn't eat breakfast. I got up late today and I'm starving to death. Is this delicious?"

Before Chi Yuwan could say "it's not delicious", Xu Mianji lowered his head and took a bite where Chi Yuwan had just bitten. Seeing her dumbfounded and her heart beating faster, she had no choice but to scold said a word.

"Fuck, are you sick? I didn't eat breakfast, bro!"

"How much? I'll give it to you." Xu Mianji took another bite, making gestures to take money out of his pocket.

"Are you crazy? I'm hungry, how much money can solve this?" Chi Yuwan didn't want to snatch the bread back, so with a sullen face, he took out an English book and spread it on the table to read up.

"Let's go, let's sneak out for breakfast, this cake is not enough for me." Xu Mianji tugged at Chi Yuwan's sleeve.

Chi Yuwan didn't move at night, it's raining outside, please, big brother, can you pay attention to the right time, place and machine?Sneaking out of the school with an umbrella, afraid it's not eye-catching enough?

"Let's go, I'm really hungry, monitor..." Acting coquettishly and shamelessly is Xu Mianji's unique skill, with a soft tone, Chi Yuwan couldn't hold on anymore.

On the way from the teaching building to the school gate, Chi Yuwan held an umbrella and listened to Xu Mianji's delicious food while enduring his hunger. He really wanted to find a place to strangle her to death.

Because the new class had just been formed, Chi Yuwan didn't have time to call any friends, and because she didn't have the willingness to take the initiative, so she was still alone in the class for a while.

But the more this happened, the more Xu Mianji liked to provoke her.

Or the uninvited kind.

In the last year of junior high school, when the weather turns warm in spring and the night is breezy and the stars are bright, everyone likes to go out and lie on the railing, even if they just stand for a while, they will feel refreshed and feel much more comfortable.

Chi Yuwan saw Xu Mianji standing outside more than once, still in her exclusive uninhibited standing posture, but occasionally there are people around her, and whenever she is alone, Chi Yuwan likes to be silent for tens of seconds .

Within ten seconds, if no one came to her, Chi Yuwan would get up and walk over.

She couldn't explain why, but she couldn't see Xu Mianji's lonely and thin back, and wanted to go over and give her some warmth, even if it was just to stand with her.

Now, it's Chi Yuwan's turn to bear the real loneliness. Xu Mianji doesn't know if it's because of the flood of sympathy. When he circles around her, it's obviously much more, but it's not so much that Chi Yuwan thinks they are The point of friends.

When Xu Mianji mentioned their relationship, he always said that they were friends, or good friends, but are there any good friends who don't go to the toilet together arm in arm after class?Do you have good friends who never go out shopping and watch movies together?Do you have a good friend who feels uncomfortable after spending less than 10 minutes with them?

Yes, Chi Yuwan can't stand Xu Mianji staying by her side for too long. 10 minutes is the limit. If it exceeds 10 minutes, she will lose control of herself. Touching, eyes colliding, her palms within reach, her smile visible when looking up, her breathing clearly audible...

Everything is magnified by the space, Chi Yuwan can't keep her heart as calm as water, she has a lake in her heart, just for Xu Mianji to rippling.

This was the first time they had breakfast together. It was a small breakfast shop in front of the school. The food was not as delicious as the stalls, but fortunately there were tables and chairs for people to sit down.

Xu Mianji ordered some things late for Chi Yu at the breakfast shop, in exchange for the right to sit in the shop for breakfast, and then she ran out, swept around the famous snack street in front of No. [-] Middle School, and brought I bought several bags and returned with a full load.

Chi Yuwan chewed the tasteless fritters, took another bite, and coughed a few more times due to the salty taste in her mouth. She silently put down the things in her hands, and the desire to eat breakfast completely disappeared.

The proprietress at the side was still watching her secretly with starry eyes, but seeing her disappointment in this action, Chi Yuwan couldn't bear it, and picked up the two palm-sized buns again.

Chi Yuwan doesn't like to eat buns, and he doesn't like buns that can remind people of a bun's face at first glance. He caught a glimpse of the hot and sour noodles, seafood chaos, hand pancakes, fried dumplings, and soy milk lined up in front of him. In Mianji, it was the first time that he sighed for his own poverty.

Rich people, they have to have a full meal like this for breakfast.

Angrily, he broke off the thick skin and broke it several times before he saw the pitiful fillings inside. Chi Yuwan ate and glanced at the proprietress, who finally had no face to look at her anymore.

"Look, do you want to eat? The uncle who made the bread is gone, otherwise I'll bring you one." Xu Mianji handed a pair of disposable chopsticks to Chi Yuwan, raised his chin, his eyes It says "take your pick".

Chi Yuwan served that night chaos, instead of taking her chopsticks, he took a spoon from the table.

It still looks like she still does a full set. She said she wouldn't like it, so she can't see any signs.

Xu Mianji withdrew his hand, and started to eat with those chopsticks. Several breakfasts were eaten in rotation. Chi Yuwan thought that she would not be able to eat any more after trying each one. After all, there was already a piece of bread wrapped in her stomach. But Xu Mianji ate everything quietly and slowly.

Chi Yuwan's face was full of admiration, and at the same time, he felt unbalanced. Xu Mianji is so good at eating, why...isn't he fat? !

In the summer before, everyone wore summer school uniforms. Chi Yuwan didn't wear them because the school uniforms were too slim and would make her breasts look plump. Xu Mianji put on short-sleeved clothes when the weather was still warm.

Chi Yu saw Xu Mianji's arm at that time late, and it was a little more sensual than the first time he saw it, but it could never be described as fat.

Thinking of this, Chi Yuwan suddenly raised his hand and pinched Xu Mianji's arm through his clothes, and he grabbed a lot of soft flesh.

"Why?" Xu Mianji didn't dodge, tilting his head while eating while looking at Chi Yuwan's hands, "You're obscene, the inside of a person's arm is very sensitive."

"Go away." Now it's full of indecency.

The author has something to say:

The development of technology will really degrade people...

I wrote 3000 words by hand today, and my thumb is numb until now...

Thinking back to when I was a liberal arts student, I didn't have any problems doing more than a dozen major liberal arts questions every day!

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