Shanghai 29℃

What is loneliness?It is not growing up alone, walking home alone, eating in the cafeteria alone, writing and drawing in a notebook alone, nor watching a movie alone, a song suddenly hummed, Looking back at no one.

Loneliness is, I know you are hundreds of miles away, but in order to avoid you, I want to avoid the whole world.

Time can carry a lot of things. Chi Yuwan has a deep understanding of this. It seems that after getting to know that person, every memory is infinitely stretched and circulated repeatedly in her heart and mind.

With her, a day is like a year, without her, a day is like a lifetime.

At the age of 15, Chi Yuwan entered No. [-] Middle School. With a moderate grade, he seemed to have entered high school. The people around him grew up overnight, and the world changed.

Fang Yu finally withdrew from their gang of three, the reason Chi Yuwan couldn't understand for the rest of her life, she said - Chi Yuwan, you are too naive.

And Xiao Tantan chose not to go to high school, and went to a normal school in a big city. High school and university can be considered together. After five years, he can graduate and have a job and become a great people's teacher.

Chi Yuwan is going to face the strange world alone again, but this time, she will not be the same as before.

When she first entered high school, she was not used to it, but she endured it silently. She thought she was going to bear everything alone, but Xu Mo, the guy who escorted her to colleges in Beijing, would always call her, even if it was small talk, she would let her go. She felt much better.

"It's not a big deal in high school, it's just that you have to learn to deal with things that you think are troublesome."

"This time is the best time for you to grow up."

"So Chi Yuwan, no matter what stupid things you have done before, cheer up now and start over."

"It's all over again, don't you know?"

Xu Mo's words undoubtedly became Chi Yuwan's guiding light. Sometimes when he was upset, he would go to Xu Mo to complain and listen to him recall some interesting things that happened in No. [-] Middle School. Life was like a sweetener. Same.

After spending half a year, Chi Yuwan finally pulled himself out of the vortex of the past, even if that person was in the same school as him, even if she was upstairs, even...

It's like truth or dare, if someone asks Chi Yuwan, do you still like Xu Mianji?

Quick question and quick answer, Chi Yuwan would still blurt out: I like it.

But it really can't, too many things in the past have shown that Xu Mianji and her can't be together, they are like each other's natural nemesis, there will be no good results if they insist on being together.

What's more, Xu Mianji is not willing to "force to be together" with her.

In order to deeply implement the policy of "increasing the rate of admission to higher education", No. [-] Middle School announced the division of arts and sciences in the first semester of high school. Chi Yuwan thought carefully and had many talks with his parents, and finally decided to study arts.

In fact, the process is not that complicated. Spreading the transcripts of the final exams of the first semester of senior high school on the table, failing all physics and chemistry students is enough for them to make the most sensible decision.

As for class placement and even school transfer, Chi Yuwan can now be as calm as water, silently carrying his schoolbag to report to the new class, he pauses at the door when he enters the door, and takes a quick glance, it's fine, he doesn't know anyone.

Sometimes Chi Yuwan wonders, does God think that she has too few friends?Just always push the strangers in this world towards her so that she can get to know more people.

No matter how hard she pushes, it's useless, she is very calm and indifferent now.

The class was chattering, and both male and female students were taking the first step of making friends that excited them. Chi Yuwan pursed his lips and went to the back of the classroom to find an empty seat to sit down.

Throw the schoolbag into the empty seat, move the buttocks back, lie down and sleep first.

"You used to be in class 567? I'm in class 568! Why haven't I seen you before?!"

"Hey, one branch of subjects is almost a whole year of disruption and reorganization. I only have two classmates in the class."

"It's okay, make more new friends in the future, let's go to the toilet together?"

Chi Yuwan felt the two girls at the table in front of her get up and leave. Hearing them talk was part of the reason. The most intuitive reason was that the light that fell on her eyelids became warmer and brighter.

"Fuck! Where's my desk?!"

Among the hustle and bustle of voices in the classroom, some were gossiping and some were chatting about basketball. All the voices penetrated into the ears at once, but there was one that penetrated the eardrums and entered Chi Yuwan's heart very clearly.

Her heart stopped suddenly, and she opened her eyes in disbelief, but there was no doubt that the person standing at the door was really that person.

don't...don't...

Chi Yuwan suddenly thought of Sakyamuni, Jesus, Buddha and Guanyin Bodhisattva, all gods passing by, regardless of China or the West, should be blessed, Xu Mianji must not be in this class...

She had been away from Xu Mianji for half a year, and she finally got used to it, and finally convinced herself that no matter whether it was body or mind, she couldn't stand a little more trouble.

However, those gods who have been prayed to by her countless times seem to have taken care of her once in their busy schedule, but it was not her who was full of resistance now, but she who had been crying foolishly, saying that she hoped that high school would definitely return to her. She was in the same class as Xu Mianji.

Xu Mianji walked up to the podium, lost his temper inexplicably, and then suddenly swept his eyes towards the classroom. Chi Yuwan hurriedly got down, but found that his arms were not pillowed together, and his forehead was directly slammed on the table. for a moment.

This self-harming movement finally made the girls around her who were chatting excitedly about school grass stop for a while, and turned to look at her.

... Chi Yuwan silently put his arms back and buried his head in them.

Her ears moved, and she heard Xu Mianji walk out of the classroom, heaving a sigh of relief, the next second, she heard the sound of tables and chairs being pushed in, and they stopped after a while.

Chi Yuwan couldn't tell what mood she was in right now, her heart was sour, sweet and bitter, it was as complicated as if the seasoning bottle had been knocked over, and it all spilled on the clear soup in her heart.

"No, it's just divided into classes. I haven't left yet. As for pushing my desk outside?"

"The class is doing sanitation, all the seats have been moved out, everyone moved in by themselves, who made you come late."

"Fuck..." He scolded with a smile, "What did you say before to recognize me as the boss? Huh? Is that how you treat the boss?"

"Go to hell, you..."

The familiar teasing tone, Chi Yuwan knew even without looking up, the smile on Xu Mianji's face now must be that kind of helpless and doting, wanting to laugh but not wantonly laughing, even a little speechless, careless, very hook people.

As for why it is so familiar, after all, she has been lost in that smile for a long time.

What should I do?She had already run away desperately, but the hand of fate pushed them together again. With such an indistinct distance, the distance between her and Xu Mianji might be trapped by that magical Mobius ring. After turning a corner, they came to the origin again. .

She suddenly remembered the self who just found out that she was in the same high school as Xu Mianji, how should she describe that kind of happiness, as if all the good moods in the next three years were squandered by her, and all of them came when she saw Xu Mianji The moment it exploded.

Even though she was crying at that time, Fang Yu followed her helplessly, sighing while handing her the paper, his mind was full of confusion, what was there to cry about?

"Look, is that Xu Mianji?" Fang Yu suddenly bumped Chi Yuwan with his arm.

"Who?" Chi Yuwan sobbed and raised his head, his two rabbit eyes were swollen.

She squinted her eyes, and saw the thin figure in a black T-shirt walking towards her slowly, with her hands in her pockets, never looking at the road when she walked, and there was a girl beside her.

Xu Mianji's head turned to her side when she was laughing, and when she saw Chi Yuwan, she suddenly raised her arms and shouted, "Squad leader!"

At that moment, Chi Yuwan really felt that the sun had exploded on Xu Mianji's body.

After the third year of junior high school, the word qingbijinjian could already be used to describe their relationship, no, friendship, Xu Mianji strode over and gave Chi Yuwan a big hug.

Let go of your hand, "Why are you crying? Don't you? See how excited I am? Is this letter in your hand addressed to me again? Damn, instructor... this can't be you writing to your instructor love letter?"

The thin piece of paper in Chi Yuwan's hand was the farewell letter she wrote to the instructor, but it was what the instructor asked everyone to write. After she picked up the pen, her thoughts flowed like a spring, and she was serious about it. I wrote slowly one page.

When it was time to hand it over to the instructor, Chi Yuwan searched her pockets but couldn't find the letter, thinking that the instructor was about to leave, but she didn't even send out a letter to thank the instructor, so she couldn't help but feel aggrieved.

After everyone sent the letter to the instructor, the black and short soldier walked up to Chi Yuwan and spread his palms towards her. Chi Yuwan could only lower his head and say, "I'm sorry..."

The instructor didn't say anything, just patted her on the shoulder and left.

But immediately, a girl came to the team, said that she had picked up a letter written by a girl named Chi Yuwan, and asked if there was anyone named Chi Yuwan.

Chi Yuwan immediately raised his hand to receive the lost and recovered letter, thinking that he finally didn't have to regret it anymore, but when he handed it over to the instructor, the other party snorted coldly and said something that Chi Yuwan had remembered all his life.

"How do I know, did that girl write it for you?"

To say that the biggest blow to people is that when she came with a heart, she disliked the fishy smell of that heart.

That's why Chi Yuwan cried like this now. Xu Mianji's temper was not as good as Fang Yu's, so he tore the letter into pieces in front of Chi Yuwan, and then sprinkled it on the trash can next to him, snow white The confetti floated all over the ground.

"Wow..." Chi Yuwan cried even more wantonly.

"You like to write letters so much, write to me in the future, anyway, I still keep the ones you wrote before." Xu Mianji vowed at that time, as if he would really accept all the letters Chi Yuwan wrote to her.

But later, even though Chi Yuwan filled the letter paper with her Xu Mianji's name over and over again, Xu Mianji was no longer willing to take it.

The class bell rang, and the people around him pushed Chi Yuwan's shoulder to wake her up.

Chi Yuwan didn't even know if she really fell asleep just now, and those images that came to her mind were dreams or she was deliberately recalling them?

Straightening up, she sensitively noticed a line of sight cast from far away from the crowd, looked around in surprise, but only saw the back of Xu Mianji's head.

Her seat is next to the podium, she has no deskmate, and she is still under the eyes of the teacher. It is considered a place of geomantic omen that everyone in the class wants. No matter who is sitting there, there is no distance from the teacher in class, and she also worries about poor grades. ?

Chi Yuwan fell back on the table in frustration, resting his chin on the edge of the table, with ten fingers on the table bit by bit, the whole body was folded into a sixty-degree angle, he was still bored and distracted corner.

This kind of perspective is very strange, as if she suddenly became a little guy in Lilliputian, and everything seemed taller, and in such a hidden sense of hiding, she finally dared to boldly stare at a direction.

Admit it, anyway, the fire in her heart was burning again.

Even if she suffered the greatest grievance in her life because of Xu Mianji, even if her heart ached again and again because of Xu Mianji, but there was no way, as long as she looked at her, Chi Yuwan felt that the future was promising and everything was possible. hope.

The control of high school is much looser than that of junior high school. It's not because the teachers are not responsible anymore, but because most high school teachers can't do the kind of thing that sneaks on tiptoe outside the classroom window.

Chi Yuwan just used the money he saved to secretly buy a mobile phone, and he didn't even dare to take it out at home, for fear that his mother, who is more savvy than an agent, would find any clues. The only time he used it was when it was dark at night The quilt is up.

She put the mobile phone in the pocket of the denim jacket in the school uniform, plugged in the earphones, pulled them out from the neckline, put them on both ears, and then pulled her hair down to block them.

The songs in the playlist don't have a precise style, they are all kinds of miscellaneous, but in the favorite playlist, there are only a few songs, all of which were sung by Xu Mianji in the black band before.

After that time, Chi Yuwan never saw Xu Mianji appearing in public with that black band again. It was like a sudden adventure, and there was nothing left to say after the excitement.

There is one song that is not in her playlist. It is probably the original song of the black band, or the lyrics written by Xu Mianji. Until now, Chi Yuwan still remembers the lyrics of that song firmly.

She had never had such great interest and such a good memory when reciting ancient prose.

She closed her eyes and was intoxicated for a while. What Chi Yuwan was listening to was a rock music, an unknown foreign singer, an unknown song, but the melody and vocals immediately hit her heart.

Suddenly someone knocked on the table a few times, but Chi Yuwan pretended not to hear it. She knew that it must not be the teacher who came at this time.

When the earphone was pulled by someone, Chi Yuwan couldn't bear the anger and was about to explode. He opened his eyes and looked at it, and immediately his teeth itched with anger.

"Come out?" Xu Mianji tilted his head outward, with no expression on his face.

Chi Yuwan deliberately didn't look at her face, as if he didn't hear anything, pulled the earphones back, continued to put them on, and lay down again.

Xu Mianji gave a strange laugh, and stood still.

The two of them seemed to have been feuded for several lifetimes, and they were not in a stalemate, but everyone around them could see that something was wrong, but because they were afraid of Xu Mianji, none of them dared to look this way.

Xu Mianji suddenly stretched out his hand, Chi Yuwan thought she was going to hit him, so he closed his eyes subconsciously, but felt the back of his neck warm, Xu Mianji's palm covered it, and his fingertips rubbed Chi Yuwan's sensitive skin. skin.

It was on purpose, damn it, bastard.

This was the first time that Xu Mianji teased her so blatantly, Chi Yuwan froze and didn't understand, but goosebumps already appeared on her body, she didn't want to admit that she felt such a comfortable touch.

Even if the body is clamoring, come here, get closer.

There is an obvious difference between them. They are no longer children than before. Chi Yuwan has already learned a lot. Li Ning told her everything she should know during the summer vacation when she graduated from the third year of junior high school.

Therefore, Chi Yuwan had to secretly bite the tip of his tongue in order to calm himself down.

"Let's go?" Xu Mianji bent down, talking in her ear on purpose, snorting, so warm that Chi Yuwan was about to scream.

"Take your hands away!" Chi Yuwan growled, gritted his teeth, and glared at Xu Mianji with the eyes of an enemy.

Xu Mianji withdrew that hand naturally, scraped the tip of his nose, turned around and opened the back door to leave the classroom. Chi Yuwan put his phone away and threw it into the seat, and couldn't help touching his neck.

It was completely different from what Xu Mianji touched. Xu Mianji's hand seemed to be electrified, every inch of movement was magnified countless times and transmitted to her nerves, and it was obviously the same body temperature, but she felt Xu Mianji His fingers were burning.

Walking out of the classroom, just in time to see Xu Mianji's figure disappearing at the end of the corridor, Chi Yuwan looked at the silent teaching building, and followed up.

What are you afraid of, you have to face it sooner or later, she just doesn't admit her heart, she just wants to force herself to follow the path she has made, no matter how Xu Mianji is, she can only sink along with her feelings for her into the bottom of my heart.

She has been disappointed many times, don't do it again.

The area of ​​the No. [-] middle school is much larger than that of the junior high school. In the past, if you skipped classes, you would be doomed if you were seen. Because the school is small, there is nowhere to hide, and you can't escape.

But it's different when you go to No. [-] Middle School. It's very convenient to skip classes here, because the school has several gates, and the location of the crime is very optional, and even if you are seen, as long as you don't get caught, you are safe.

After Chi Yuwan arrived in high school, she had changed a lot before she even realized it. She learned to skip classes, and even did things like saving up money to secretly buy a mobile phone, which she thought was outrageous.

It seemed that her rebellious period that she thought had disappeared had finally come long overdue.

The author has something to say:

In this great and happy moment, I am very grateful that the plot has finally developed to the high school stage.

This pile of full and rising plots will make the time seem a bit procrastinated, everyone can relax, because the rest is like this (manually beautiful smiling face)

Heck, everything is going to be a memory, everything is now.