Shanghai 29℃

The two huddled inside the tent with empty stomachs, and left a small door, just enough light to allow the projection of the scene from the sky.

Hungry is not hungry, after all, it is the first time to do such an abnormal thing, and it is a lie to say that I am not excited.

"Tell me, if we fall asleep at night, will this clock fall? If it falls, we will be covered in it, and no one will come up for a short time, will we die?"

Chi Yu was thinking about the bell hanging above his head all the time at night, Xu Mianji just happened to put up the tent under the bell, which happened to be the center where the quilt could be tightly covered.

Xu Mianji frowned, "It's not so unlucky."

"... Oh." The topic that was brought up with great difficulty ended like this, and Chi Yuwan still had something to say.

There are not a few stars in the sky, it seems that the clouds and fog are heavy. Chi Yuwan heard from the old man at home that if the sky is full of stars at night, then the next day must be sunny. Looking at the sky at night now, it is unlikely that the sun will rise tomorrow ah.

"There is still ten hours before sunrise. I must be the first person to see the sun tomorrow."

After being silent for a long while, Xu Mianji suddenly made a sound, accompanied by a slight movement - she moved her legs, which seemed to be a little numb.

"I'm not sleepy, let's chat, okay?" Chi Yuwan suggested.

"What do you want to know?" Xu Mianji changed his posture again, putting his legs together, wrapping his arms around them, resting his chin, looking relaxed.

Chi Yuwan pouted, "Didn't you agree to chat? Of course we asked each other and then answered each other. Why is it that I want to know something?"

Although she does have this purpose...

"Ask, I'm not curious about you." Xu Mianji laughed.

"Hmm..." Chi Yuwan began to recall what questions he hadn't solved in the past six months since he and Xu Mianji met, but the first thing that came to his mind was, "What happened to the girl who wrote you the love letter?" gone?"

"Who?" Xu Mianji seemed to be struggling to recall for a while before he remembered which one Chi Yuwan was talking about, "Later she chased me for a while, and then one of my classmates fell in love with her, so she gave up." After finishing speaking, he added, "Male classmate."

"Why don't you insist? You obviously like you very much..." For some reason, Chi Yuwan felt a little regretful, and even seemed to see her own ending.

"next."

"Have you... ever had a girlfriend?" Chi Yuwan closed his mouth after asking, a little nervous.

"Have."

"several?"

"Three? Four?"

"Is it you... chasing them?"

"They all chased me, I never chased anyone."

"Then...why did you break up?"

"They are all older than me, all high school students, and one is my cousin's friend, and they all treat me like a child."

"..." Chi Yuwan choked in his heart, Xu Mianji's entire relationship history was tricked out by her just like that, but why wasn't she very happy to know the answer?

She has read a lot of romance novels, and she probably can feel that feeling, the feeling that it's not true love but just liking, because she likes it, she wants to give Xu Mianji what she thinks is good, and she wants to take care of her like a child , but where is love?

"Which one have you ever been tempted by?" Chi Yuwan seemed to be whispering.

As the moonlight gradually rises, the clouds and mists seem to have dispersed a little, and the sky is slowly getting brighter, with stars popping up, and the wind is even mixed with the fragrance of pine trees, which inexplicably soothes the nerves into the nose.

Xu Mianji was silent for a long time before answering, "I don't know what it feels like to be tempted, maybe maybe not."

Chi Yuwan's heart ached more and more, she turned her head, no longer looked at Xu Mianji's side face, but turned her gaze to the far horizon, biting her lower lip with her teeth, very hard, but it didn't hurt.

The air froze like death, but Xu Mianji didn't notice it, and suddenly played a piece of music on her mobile phone, which was the accompaniment of a song, and she said, "Squad leader, do you want to listen to my singing?"

Chi Yuwan nodded his head buried in the blanket, Xu Mianji adjusted the voice of the accompaniment to a moderate level, and then began to sing. Her voice was very low when she spoke, but it was higher when she sang, her voice seemed to be carrying electric current. , suddenly exploded in Chi Yuwan's heart.

It was a love song that became popular recently. The singer sang this song a few years ago, but at that time this style of music was not popular, and people didn't understand it. Now the times seem to have changed, and everyone needs new songs. Something to fill his empty soul.

As the stars approached, Chi Yuwan closed his eyes.

"At this moment when the night is approaching, I want to ask if you are also lonely..."

"Where have you been? Did you not see the scenery when you were on your way..."

"Wandering in the world, where do I go to find a home..."

A brilliant scene appeared in front of Chi Yuwan's eyes. Xu Mianji was holding a guitar, sitting on a chair, the surroundings were dark, only she was shining, she was playing the guitar, she was singing, everything , all in front of her eyes alone.

I don't know how many songs I sang, Xu Mianji was addicted to it, Chi Yuwan heard her heart gradually go numb, and when Xu Mianji sang the last note, she opened her eyes and saw stars everywhere, and Xu Mianji Sleeping season is the brightest one.

"Does it sound good?" Xu Mianji nodded after asking, "Of course the song I sang is good."

The wind and snow are getting lighter, no, the wind and snow have disappeared a long time ago, if there is anything else that can make Chi Yuwan wake up, only...

She couldn't sit still anymore, stood up and ran out, and suddenly shouted to the ground, "Ah—"

Dashan was responding, "Ah——"

Her heart was lost step by step, and it hurt a lot, "Ah—"

Xu Mianji was so far away from her, so close, but she couldn't see clearly, "Ah—"

She really likes her so much that she doesn't even feel qualified to try it once, "Ah——"

I don't know if it's an illusion, Chi Yuwan heard the bell, she raised her throat, and looked back, Xu Mianji was hugging the thick pillar, while the body of the old clock was trembling slightly, she became conscious After a while, the echoing bells finally rang in my ears.

"Squad leader, I hope you will be happy every day in the future, and don't be like today again." Xu Mianji only thought that she was in a bad mood, let go of her and walked closer, hugging Chi Yuwan.

"..." It was a very gentle hug, but Chi Yuwan felt that she had touched Xu Mianji's skin. She didn't dare to push her away, nor did she dare to hug her back.

"Be happy, I brought you here to wait for the sunrise, not to block you."

"...Mengmeng, I feel very relaxed now, and I seem to suddenly understand why you want to be the first person to watch the sunrise." Chi Yuwan turned his head and smiled suddenly, but a tear fell from his right eye.

……

Chi Yuwan couldn't remember clearly what happened afterwards, she only felt that she seemed to be crying all the time, in a chaotic state, the picture in front of her was far and near, and there seemed to be a dazzling light in front of her eyes, very warm, but she It was as if she was in an ice cellar, and the light and heat couldn't warm her at all.

When she really woke up, she was already in her room, and there was no one guarding her. Chi Yuwan had a splitting headache, and when she opened her mouth, it seemed that she moved too much, and she tore the skin on her lips, and blood flowed into her mouth.

Sweet.

Chi Yuwan frowned, wondering if he had a dream, wasn't he watching the sunrise with Xu Mianji?Why did she go home?

But she didn't want to think about the specifics anymore, that kind of feeling made her feel uncomfortable.

After changing her clothes, her head was still dizzy. Chi Yuwan wanted to go to the store to ask her mother for clarification, but she caught a glimpse of a black and white checkered scarf at the corner of the bed. She picked it up and put it on the tip of her nose to smell it. I have a headache.

Or Xu Mianji's scarf.

When I went out, I put my hand into my pocket, found the key and at the same time found a note, spread it out, and it was written by Xu Mianji again: "Squad leader, are you too weak?"It was so cold that I had a high fever. Fortunately, I met two uncles who opened a shop on the mountainside. They sent us down the mountain. I remember to go to the mountain to take care of their business in the future.Oh, by the way, your mother knew why you were sick, she scolded me, and said that you are finished when you wake up, haha~

Xu Mianji's handwriting is very soft and cute. Except for the domineering signature, her handwriting is like a cute child's handwriting. After reading it, Chi Yuwan pursed his lips and put it away carefully. It was not easy stand up.

She's been really preoccupied recently, and it's almost crushing her.

After being scolded by her mother, Chi Yuwan lied calmly and promised that there would be no exceptions. Then she applied to the organization to live with her grandmother in the country for a period of time. She had to think about some things carefully.

The Naihe organization didn't give her this chance, and first forced her to get an injection, and then locked her at home for a few days, saying that it was to let her face the wall and think about her mistakes. Chi Yuwan could only roll her eyes, unable to refute her, You are obviously afraid of being bored at home alone.

The end of the new year is approaching, and the store is finally busy. My mother alone is not enough to greet all the buyers who come in. Chi Yuwan also bites the bullet and goes in. He is dizzy. Either he has taken the wrong thing, or he has not received money from others. After finding the price difference, she turned around and left, and her mother was so angry that the flesh on her face was almost crushed.

At this time, Xu Mo, who fell from the sky, saved a life and was better than building a seven-level pagoda.

"Auntie, take the shelf below..."

"Chi Yuwan, 32 yuan for change."

Xu Mo's winter camp was over. After he came back, he told his family and ran to find Chi Yuwan, but he didn't expect to catch up with such an unlucky time when he came. He was regarded as a human computer. I have thoroughly used the two-digit addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division I learned in elementary school.

"Should we eat here at noon? Auntie doesn't have time to cook, so I can only order takeaway. I've wronged you, Xu Mo."

Seeing his mother's posture of offering Xu Mo as an ancestor, Chi Yuwan snorted disdainfully, but was slapped heavily on the head by her mother's backhand, "Have you hung up your salt water today?!"

"Are you catching a cold?" Xu Mo reacted quickly, reaching out his hand to touch Chi Yuwan's forehead, and got a speechless roll of her eyes, "Your brain can't withstand a serious illness like a cold, it will become dementia, Ha ha ha ha……"

"Get out!" Chi Yuwan slapped his hands away, and continued to stare at his fingers.

Someone came into the store again, and her mother hurried away after ordering takeaway, Xu Mo took the opportunity to lower her head and get closer to Chi Yuwan, as if she was trying to do something to Chi Yuwan.

Chi Yuwan was very annoyed, so he slapped him directly.

"..." Xu Mo said viciously, "I curse you, you will be troubled by feelings all your life."

He saw her fate and problems clearly, except who the person who caused her to become what she is now, he knew everything.

But I didn't expect that one sentence made Chi Yuwan's eyes turn red.

Xu Mo raised his hands, "I was wrong, grandma."

"..."

"Grandma?"

"Xu Mo, I really want to infect you with all my viruses." She sniffled, but she didn't cry.

Xu Mo saw that she was in a better mood, so he didn't call out that stinky and shameless name in vain. He hugged Chi Yuwan's shoulders, and brought up the past as if he was settling accounts after autumn, with a fierce face, "Last time I sent you a News, why did you disappear when you kept going back and forth?"

As if Chi Yuwan's shoulders were scalded by boiling water, she immediately broke away from Xu Mo and cried out in a low voice, "Don't touch me!"

This was an overreaction, both Xu Mo and Chi Yuwan were stunned for a while, and finally Xu Mo came to his senses first, and deliberately hammered Chi Yuwan's shoulder again, "What's wrong with touching you? Like a woman from a good family? Have you changed your gender?"

Chi Yuwan bit her lips, a bad thought came to her mind, and suddenly said, "Xu Mo, touch my head."

Xu Mo thought it was a test of himself, he couldn't hide his hand wherever he dared to touch it, Chi Yuwan's eyes were red with anxiety, he grabbed his hand and put it on his head, in the end it didn't work, just touch it.

I rubbed it, uh, my hands are a little greasy.

"How long has it been since you washed your hair?"

"...Three or four days."

"Fuck me."

On top of his head was Xu Mo's hand. Chi Yuwan felt it carefully, and found that he was not as resistant as before, so he was relieved.

"You go to hang salt water in the afternoon, shall I accompany you?" Xu Mo blinked, "I have something to tell you."

Xu Mo is not serious, what he wants to say seriously must not be serious, Chi Yuwan immediately shook his head and refused, but this time a trace of disappointment flashed across Xu Mo's face, but he didn't insist.

Every day after that, Xu Mo would come to the store to help. In his own words, it was considered as an exercise in mathematics and calculation. Chi Yuwan was begging that he could not find someone to replace him, but Xu Mo delivered the lamb to the door by himself. of.

So she took advantage of the warmer weather, packed up and changed clothes, secretly bought a few novels, packed up and went to grandma's house, she needed a new environment to clear her mind, she was full of thoughts, she had to avoid some people first It takes a while to learn not to think about her.

In a small village in the countryside, with beautiful mountains and clear waters, Chi Yuwan felt like he was running towards nature with open arms, even seeing the sows in the pig pen of his grandmother's house felt warmer.

In the countryside, when it’s Chinese New Year, there is a custom of sweeping the lawn. Every household has to clean up the lawn in front of their own house. If you say that the countryside is incomparable with the cities where every inch of land is expensive, who doesn’t have a nearly [-]-square-meter house? Wuqianping is ashamed to say that he is a countryman.

Chi Yuwan was thrown into her arms with a broom by her grandmother, "Go, sweep the lawn today."

The lawn is huge, extending as big as the entire orchard. Chi Yuwan spent the whole day sweeping. From morning to night, she turned on the TV in the living room, tuned to the music channel, and at the same time listened to the [-]s all day long. old love song.

Several times, her gaze passed the fruit trees in the orchard to the green hills in the distance, and she thought of the heavy snow that day, the group of mighty trees, and the person who wanted to be the first to see the sunrise.

He retracted his gaze, bent over, lowered his head, and continued to sweep the floor, but after a few seconds, tears dripped on the concrete floor, submerged in the dust, and quickly evaporated.

Chi Yuwan slowly retracted her body, her teeth were chattering, she squatted down in slow motion, the broom in her hand was pinched with a "click" sound, she buried her head in the crook of her elbow Among them, suddenly choked up.

The breeze brushed past her ears intimately, and a voice was speaking.

If you are so sad, just give up.

If you are so sad, don't continue.

The heart that has been moved is a sin, so let it go.

give up...

During the Chinese New Year, my mother bought Chi Yuwan a new red dress, even the socks were red. She spent the New Year in the countryside, and because it is relatively remote, there is no mobile phone signal here.

Chi Yuwan has never logged on to QQ. She was afraid that Xu Mianji didn't send any news to her, but she was even more afraid that she would send her something, even if it was a tentative question mark.

Thousands of houses were lit up, Chi Yuwan watched the fireworks along the road, the sky was full of "bang" and "pop", each one was in the shape of flowers, how many people were making wishes with their eyes closed?

Pray for a better year ahead, and pray that you will not be alone in the future.

Chi Yuwan glanced at her father who was concentrating on driving in front of her, and her mother who was chatting with her father, and suddenly made up her mind. She quietly clenched her hands, put them together on her chest, and made a pious wish.

I don't want to continue, even if the first glance is amazing, I still like it, and I don't want to continue.

Opening her eyes again, there was a night wind rushing past her ears. Chi Yuwan looked at the dark night, and finally broke into a smile. She reached out to her mother for her mobile phone, logged into QQ, and asked for countless messages to pop up Come out, the stereotyped Happy New Year, and the chat box that she pinned to the top went to be quiet.

Chi Yuwan quickly sent a few words with her fingers.

Mengmeng, happy new year.

……

Do you know that it takes a lot of effort for me to be so natural in front of you?

This is my love, but Xu Mianji, you don't know anything. During the time of incomparable suffering, I pierced my heart with thousands of arrows, and finally completed the only heartbeat in my life alone. For the rest of my life, it was just repeated countless times That's all.

I love you from the beginning to the end.

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The end of the first volume.

Book Two: The Way Back