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"What did she say?"

Xiao Heng's tone was very calm, and he said softly, "Don't listen to her, I have nothing to do, and I didn't hide it from you."

Chi Yange looked at him coldly, he tried to find a trace of panic or surprise in the man's eyes, but, no, what Xiao Heng showed was calm like stagnant water, all he could see was the man's sunken eye sockets and his increasingly thin and pale cheeks.But this strange calm shows that this matter is not that simple at all.

Chi Yange asked him, "What did those people you found do before?"

"..."

Xiao Heng was silent for a few seconds, then said, "It's nothing, I just think they resemble you."

Ren Shi knew the answer a long time ago, but when he heard Xiao Heng say it himself, Chi Yange still felt panicked and uncomfortable.Obviously, they have already broken up, and he is even dead, so why do these things?It is almost impossible to know early on.

But what Chi Yange wanted to ask was far more than that.

He asked again, "It's not just that. It's not just because you think those people look like me. There are other reasons behind this, right?"

"No. You don't need to ask any more." Xiao Heng stood up abruptly.

He was very taboo about this issue, and he seemed very reluctant to talk about it, and his voice was raised a few degrees.

Chi Yange was startled.

"Sorry." He didn't want to scare Chi Yange.The man's tone became lighter, as gentle as the drizzle of autumn rain, and said in a low voice, "Just treat it as respecting my secret, and don't ask, okay? I promise you that nothing will happen to me."

"But I don't need you to do this!"

The more he said that, and he acted like he didn't care about anything, the more upset Chi Yange became.

He originally thought that Xiao Heng owed him everything, he was cold-hearted towards Xiao Heng, no matter how indifferent he was to him, it was all his own fault, but now the inner guess is telling him that Xiao Heng no longer owes him anything, even for him. Do more, far more than can be made up.

Chi Yange couldn't bear such a heavy favor, and he was also afraid that one day he would hear something he didn't want to hear, leaving regrets in vain.

Chi Yange looked at him, pulled the corners of his mouth, and laughed self-deprecatingly, "You think you are great, don't you? Don't be moved by yourself there, I don't need you like this! Are you thinking about waiting for a day If you die for me, I will remember you forever? You just want to see me feel guilty, don’t you? Xiao Heng, your thoughts are so deep, you... cough cough!"

The young man's eyes were red and bloodshot, and his face was also unnaturally red. He couldn't stop coughing when he was emotionally excited, and his ribs were still not healed, causing the corners of his eyes to glisten with pain.

Xiao Heng couldn't see him like this. When he went to help him, he stretched out his hand to feel the scorching heat on Chi Yange's forehead, and asked anxiously, "Do you have a fever? Don't be angry, I'll find you some medicine."

"You don't need to pretend to be kind."

Chi Yange reached out and pushed him hard, almost making the man stagger.

"When I was young, stop making trouble." Xiao Heng stood firm and looked at him with regret, that gaze made Chi Yange feel even more uncomfortable.

"Tell me, what's going on? How...how did I come back?"

Even though he couldn't believe it, Chi Yange became more and more skeptical now. He thought it was a blessing from God that made him return with the unfinished regrets of his previous life, but now someone told him that all of this is There is a price, this fact made Chi Yange unable to accept it for a while.

In fact, what is free?There was no such thing as pie in the sky, and Chi Yange should have known it from the beginning.

Xiao Heng could only smile wryly, "Do you really want to know?"

"Yes." Chi Yange did not back down.

"I know I hurt you. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have died." Xiao Heng knew his temperament, Chi Yange would not give up if he didn't ask the end, and it would be useless for him to hide it.

The man's voice was a little hoarse, and it came into his ears faintly, with a kind of vicissitudes in the rings, "I won't say it, because I don't want to burden you, and I don't want to scare you. I..."

"Stop talking nonsense, speak quickly!"

Chi Yange stared at him with red eyes, but his voice trembled a little.

"After you left, at first, I actually wanted to go with you."

Xiao Heng calmly talked about those days, about the gloomy days that he didn't want to mention until now.

The differences between him and Yin Shi are too great to be tolerated by each other, and they cannot be ignored because of feelings.At that time, he was too conceited and paranoid, and he didn't want anyone to share the energy of his lover, and he didn't want him to squeeze out some time to get together with him every time he was between filming.He wanted to monopolize Yin Shi, and wanted him to stay in his family with him from now on, with him wholeheartedly. For this reason, he did not hesitate to break Yin Shi's wings and set up many barriers for him. He wanted Yin Shi to turn back.

However, Yin Shi never came back to look for him, even though he said tirelessly that no matter when Yin Shi came back, he would get what he wanted.

But he ignored how stubborn his lover was. He was so stubborn that he would rather die in poverty on a cold snowy night than turn around and give him a soft word. God knows when Xiao Heng has been waiting for him to come back to find him, but in the end he waited. But it was the news of Yin Shi's death.

He cut his wrists and took sleeping pills, but his strong mother stopped him abruptly.

"I think you must be very lonely. You are alone and don't know anyone. I wanted to accompany you that day, so I found a deserted building." Xiao Heng understated the process of his suicide, as if There was no pain, but Chi Yange was shocked when he heard it, and he gritted his teeth so as not to let himself call him the stupidest idiot in the world.

Xiao Heng said slowly, "Then, I met an old Taoist dressed in rags."

"He saved you?"

"That's right." Xiao Heng smiled wryly, "It's useless for him to scold me."

He is useless enough to drive his lover to a dead end because of his poor desire for monopoly. What Xiao Heng is most annoyed about is being judged by a stranger, and he is even more afraid of being seen through by others.

But the Taoist extinguished his anger lightly with one sentence. The man said that it is not impossible to bring the dead back to life, as long as you do it, there is always a little chance.

Xiao Heng found a lot of people who looked like Yin Shi. He never touched those people, and rarely communicated with them. The faces of his resemblance.

However, those are not Yin Shi.

Xiao Heng waited for two years, and within two years, he did what the old Taoist said, allowing Yin Shi's works to be used as much as possible, washing away the grievances he suffered before, and allowing him to accept people's grievances openly and squarely. His regrets and praises have found so many young people of suitable age and similar appearance, just for such a little bit of illusory hope.

People always have a little hope, otherwise they will not be able to survive.

Xiao Heng looked at him with a soft smile.He put his hand lightly on the back of Chi Yange's, feeling his warm skin, and his smile deepened, full of lost and found treasure.

The man said, "One life is exchanged for another life, and half life can be exchanged for half life. How fair is this world, isn't it?" So fair, when Xiao Heng knew that the young man in front of him was the soul of Yin Shi, at that time Instantly ecstatic to the point of crying.

Chi Yange's throat was choked up, he couldn't speak, he could only try his best to stop his trembling hands, and pull Xiao Heng's left hand that had been deliberately hidden all this time, maybe it was because of fear, maybe it was because of shock.

The man's hand was pale and slender, like a sculpture carved out of marble, with intertwined veins in the palm, and the horizontal line split the palm, but stopped abruptly in the middle.

Chi Yange's voice trembled, "You bastard."

The young man stretched out his left hand, only to see the lifeline that was exactly the same as that of the man, even the same length.He thought it was nothing at first, at least he had earned his life by picking it up, and he didn't care how long he lived.But now, the chest is unstoppable.

To exchange the rest of one's life for another's life, this choice will be considered extremely stupid no matter who it is placed on. Chi Yange wants to scold him, hate him, and ask him why he did this. He clearly knows There is almost no hope of getting myself back.He is rich and young, who will he not be able to get in the future?But now, he could only watch the two identical lifelines remain silent.

"I used to worry about what to do if you really walked behind me. At that time, you will be very sad. But now I don't need to worry, we will go to a new world together." Xiao Heng said, " It's all good. It's just..."

"Just what?" Chi Yange asked him.

"It's just that you have to pay attention to protecting yourself, and don't do such brave things in the future." Xiao Heng gently wiped the hazy water from the corners of his eyes for him, and said softly, "When you hurt, I will feel it too." Arrived. It’s just a matter of time.”

These days, he is very difficult to bear. While he has to take care of Chi Yange, he can't let Chi Yange see his strangeness. Xiao Heng is at his wits end, and almost wants to avoid him for a while and never come again, but Always reluctant to let him alone in the ward.

Chi Yange turned his face away.He wiped the corners of his eyes indiscriminately, raised his head and poked his neck and said, "Don't wipe it, don't wipe it, and there are no tears. My eyes were just sore."

"En." Xiao Heng looked at him quietly.

Chi Yange's heart almost melted at the sight of him, but his face still had a fierce expression.The young man glared at him, stretched out his hand to pull him closer, and said, "Come here, I have something very important to tell you."

Xiao Heng approached, those eyes as deep as lake water looked at him deeply, full of tenderness.

Chi Yange said, "I didn't freeze to death."

"..."

"It wasn't starvation either."

"..."

"In the future, don't look at those marketing accounts and talk nonsense. I just drank too much and became alcoholic. In the future, I will try to drink as little as possible, but this is not guaranteed. I don't mind if you want to hide the wine bottle for me. Just leave me a mouthful when Jiang Liu is watching."

"Chi, Yan, Ge!" With veins popping out of Xiao Heng's forehead, he tightly grasped his wrist.

"I'm still hurt. You can't touch me. If you yell at me again, I'll call the nurse."

Chi Yange shrugged and said meaninglessly.