Tentative

After sending Qu Xiaoyu home, Shen Yizhuo was still thinking about meeting Jiang Yuzhao.That kind of inferior method can be seen as an excuse at a glance-the most important thing is that Jiang Yuzhao likes Qu Zhe, and he has already seen this.Such eagerness to cover up, on the contrary, explained the problem even more.

Speaking of which, I haven't seen Qu Zhe for a few days.

He almost always called Qu Zhe to come over at night when he was free. Since the first night, Qu Zhe would leave before he woke up the next day in a very sensible way, and he would also tidy up the house they had tossed about.

I can't tell if he likes this distance, but Qu Zhe's well-behaved makes him very satisfied.

Thinking of this, Shen Yizhuo called Qu Zhe.

"Hello...?" The voice on the other end of the phone was tired, and he had never asked Qu Zhe what he was doing now.

Shen Yizhuo paused: "What are you doing?"

"Ah?" The other party obviously didn't expect him to ask this question - most of the usual contacts are just a few short words, just ask him to come over.

He repeated it patiently: "I ask what are you doing?"

"...just getting ready to take a bath and rest."

"come on."

"……it is good."

No question, no rejection, no even hesitation, this is Qu Zhe's attitude when dealing with him.Shen Yizhuo hung up the phone, ordered a hearty takeaway by himself, and then went back to his home.

Qu Zhe arrived before the takeaway, and he looked tired. Most of the time when he came to find Shen Yizhuo late at night, he was in this state, and today was no exception.He entered the room silently, walked up to Shen Yizhuo with bare feet and sat down without saying a word.

"I haven't asked you yet, what do you usually do." Shen Yizhuo lit a cigarette and asked.

Qu Zhe was silent for a while, then said, "Working at..."

"What job?"

"...Milk tea shop." He said casually.

Shen Yizhuo didn't want to get to the bottom of it, he leaned on the sofa and said indifferently: "What time do you go to work?"

"Four in the afternoon to eleven in the evening."

"So you just got off work?"

"……Yep."

Shen Yizhuo stared at him with interest, then suddenly took a deep breath of the cigarette and put it in his mouth.He pulled Qu Zhe's shoulders, forcing him to face himself, and then brought his mouth together.Qu Zhe opened his mouth stupidly and let him touch it.Smoke escaped from between Shen Yizhuo's lips, and he inhaled it knowingly into his lungs.There was a lot of smoke in that puff, and it was very thick. After inhaling it into his lungs, Qu Zhe felt dizzy, as if a little drunk in a haze.

Shen Yizhuo watched him drowsily away with satisfaction, smoke drifting out of his mouth.

In fact, Qu Zhe is very good-looking, but he always lowers his head in low self-esteem, and with his thin body, he always looks submissive, which makes it easy for people to overlook his originally beautiful facial features.

Thinking of this, Shen Yizhuo suddenly reached out and touched his face.Qu Zhe backed away a little in fright, and soon stopped there again, allowing Shen Yizhuo to touch him.

At this moment, the doorbell rang suddenly, and Shen Yizhuo withdrew his hand and said, "Go and open the door, it's takeaway."

"it is good."

Qu Zhe got up obediently to open the door, and Shen Yizhuo also got up, took a cigarette and ran to the wall-mounted TV that was rarely turned on, rummaged through the cabinet for a while, and took out a disc.This house was arranged by Shen Guyu, but the family members asked Shen Yizhuo's opinion and arranged it according to his habits.Just like DVDs, and a cabinet full of movies, Shen Yizhuo likes them all.

He randomly pulled out a disc and put it in the DVD.

Qu Zhe came in with the takeaway and put it on the coffee table, wondering what Shen Yizhuo wanted to do.The movie started on TV, Shen Yizhuo curled up on the sofa relaxedly, and said lightly: "Watch a movie."

"it is good."

"Take apart the takeaway and watch it while eating."

"it is good."

Qu Zhe carefully opened those plastic bags, and Shen Yizhuo reached out to help for the first time after smoking the cigarette in his hand.Qu Zhe was a little surprised and said: "...I'll do it right away."

"It's okay." Shen Yizhuo said.

Qu Zhe was not used to Shen Yizhuo like this - in the past, all his good things were for others to see.He carefully unpacked Shen Yizhuo's large pile of takeaways, and placed them on the coffee table one by one.He ordered some Japanese ingredients, including sushi and sashimi. After Qu Zhe finished, Shen Yizhuo made wasabi and soy sauce. He tasted it with chopsticks: "It tastes good."

The movie also started, Shen Yizhuo looked at the TV and said softly: "You don't have to be so nervous, take it easy."

"……it is good."

That's what he said, but as long as he was by Shen Yizhuo's side, he couldn't feel at ease no matter what.He just sat aside without moving his chopsticks, watching the picture on the screen.But movies can't attract Qu Zhe, he always unconsciously looks at Shen Yizhuo's serious profile.

"Why keep looking at me." Shen Yizhuo said suddenly.

"I..." Qu Zhe thought he was watching seriously, but he didn't look back, and was taken aback by this sudden question.

When the movie came to an intense scene, Shen Yizhuo turned his head to look at him: "I don't quite understand it all the time, can you tell me?"

"……what."

"You are so afraid of me, why do you still stay by my side." He looked calm, as if he was just asking an unimportant question.

Qu Zhe lowered his head, avoided his gaze, and dared not answer.

"say."

"……say what."

"Why do you still treat me here...to be tortured." Shen Yizhuo said, laughing mockingly, "I know that I am very fickle, so I don't need anyone to be by my side...so I don't understand why Someone must be tortured by my side."

"..."

"Or are you really mean? Do you like others to treat you like this?"

"Do not……"

Shen Yizhuo asked seriously, and the sarcasm in his tone didn't know whether he was mocking Qu Zhe or himself.It was difficult for Qu Zhe to answer this question, even though he knew the answer in his heart.He still didn't speak, and Shen Yizhuo continued to press: "Speak."

"……because I……"

"Ok?"

"Because I can't live without you..."

"Why can't you leave?"

"Because I... like you." Qu Zhe's voice was so low that it was almost covered by the sound of the movie.But Shen Yizhuo still heard it. He ate, turned his eyes back to the screen, and said softly: "You are not."

"I'm……"

"You want me to like you too." Shen Yizhuo said, "Feelings are such selfish things, but they have to be described as very selfless. You like me, so whether I like it or not, you just care about your own comfort and do things I hate. things, to satisfy yourself as so-called 'likes'."

He said, put down his chopsticks, lit another cigarette, took a deep puff and continued: "Is it?"

"……Yes."

The movie continued to play, and Shen Yizhuo suddenly raised his hand to hook Qu Zhe's neck, leaned over, and looked at him very closely: "Then do you think I like you?"

"...No, I don't like it."

"I don't like you, you want to stay with me?"

"...If you want me to leave, I will." Qu Zhe whispered.

"Maybe you just like to do it with me," Shen Yizhuo smiled with the corners of his mouth curled up, "The last technique was not good?"

These words made Qu Zhe very uncomfortable, he pushed Shen Yizhuo's hand away uncomfortably, and opened the distance again: "...I didn't have the last one."

"That's not what you said that time."

"I..." "Okay, I don't want to know who you've been with, and don't let me know." Shen Yizhuo leaned back on the sofa, "I'm not the only one, so I don't care."

Shen Yizhuo was referring to the past, but it didn't mean that to Qu Zhe's ears - he knew that Shen Yizhuo had a girlfriend who was more legitimate than him.

The depression that has been going on for a long time, was provoked by Shen Yizhuo's inexplicable words today, Qu Zhemou mustered up the courage, and finally asked: "Do you have a girlfriend?"

"Oh?" Shen Yizhuo looked at him, and immediately understood who he was referring to, and smiled even more, "So what?"

"I mean..." Qu Zhe hesitated, "If you love her very much, I will disappear."

"If I don't love her, will you continue to stay by my side?"

"That was not what I meant."

Shen Yizhuo flicked off a piece of cigarette ash and said, "Then if, I love her very much, but I want you to stay with me by my side, will you still go?"

"..."

"Will it be?"

"No." Qu Zhe's face burned badly, not because of embarrassment, but because he felt ashamed.

The answer is yes, he can't fool Shen Yizhuo, let alone himself.It is because I know that I like Shen Yizhuo so much that I have no principles and no bottom line, which makes me feel even more uncomfortable.Even though no one would like to be a third party, or beg for nothing to be someone else's third party.

Satisfied, Shen Yizhuo put his shoulder on his shoulder again, while watching the movie, he played with his hair and said: "Then move here and stay by my side obediently."

"……what?"

"Move here."

Qu Zhe never expected that Shen Yizhuo would bring this up at the end of the topic.He looked at Shen Yizhuo hesitantly, but didn't know how to answer.Whether these words meant to make him concentrate on being a captive lover, or meant that he wanted to be with him a little bit, Qu Zhe couldn't figure it out.

He has been living at Guan Tian's place and has been taken care of, but now that he suddenly wants to leave, it is not so easy to say so.In the final analysis, whether it is Guan Tian or Jiang Yuzhao, Qu Zhe has no way to repay their kindness. He can only follow Guan Tian's words "stay with me" and give himself some psychological comfort.

So is he really going to move here?

Seeing that Qu Zhe didn't reply, Shen Yizhuo said: "If you don't want to, don't force it."

"……it is good."

Shen Yizhuo's urging made him unable to refuse.

More than half of the movie was played, but Qu Zhe didn't pay attention to it at all. After responding, he stared at the screen in a daze, his mind was in chaos.Shen Yizhuo had been fiddling with the end of his hair, but suddenly stopped, and instead pressed his head, gently pressing it to his shoulder.

Qu Zhe heard his deep and charming voice very close: "Stay by my side and suffer."

"……Um."

Shen Yizhuo put the cigarette into his mouth, Qu Zhe opened his mouth obediently, held the wet cigarette holder in his mouth, and took half a cigarette from his hand.The smoke was clear and astringent, but it seemed to be sweet - as long as it was given to him by Shen Yizhuo, whether it was good or bad, humiliating or gentle, he would be happy to follow it.

Leaning on Shen Yizhuo's shoulder, he had the illusion of being in love with Shen Yizhuo for the first time, as if he was drunk by this half cigarette, and said boldly: "You are right, I want you to like me... just a little .”

I thought there would be no response to these words, and even if there was a response, I would not get any good words.Who knew that Shen Yizhuo continued to fiddle with his hair, and said calmly, "Okay, just a little bit."

Qu Zhe's heart tightened, and his eyes were wet instantly.