Tentative

It was not too late, Qu Zhe looked at the lights passing by outside the car window, and it was difficult to relax.Jiang Yuzhao's car has a lot of space, but Qu Zhe feels cramped when he sits in it.As Guan Tian expected, her cousin and Qu Zhe really knew each other, but what she didn't expect was that there seemed to be some unhappiness between them.She took the initiative to open the co-pilot's door, then pushed Qu Zhe, and sat in the back by herself.

Qu Zhe wanted to sit back, but was greeted by Jiang Yuzhao: "If you are asked to take the co-pilot, you can take the co-pilot."

In fact, they hadn't seen each other for many years. Logically speaking, he shouldn't still have the cowardice of the past, but when Jiang Yuzhao spoke, Qu Zhe still subconsciously obeyed and got into the co-pilot.

The atmosphere in the car was very dull, except for Guan Tian, ​​who was still talking to Jiang Yuzhao as usual.

"Azhao, how are you doing at school?"

"good."

"You haven't come to see me in my shop for a long time."

"...Isn't it because I took the initiative to ask you to go up the mountain?" Jiang Yuzhao was driving the car with the windows open, holding the steering wheel with one hand and clamping the other hand on the window, with a relaxed expression, "Besides, aren't you return."

"Are you busy at school? Your sister and I have never gone to college, but I envy you." Guan Tian said, opened a bag of puffed snacks, ate them crisply, and finally put the things in her hand Passed it forward and asked, "Azhe, do you want to eat?"

"Thank you Tianjie, I don't need it." Qu Zhe said softly.

"Where's Ah Zhao?"

"Hey, don't eat or eat." Jiang Yuzhao frowned and refused.Qu Zhe glanced at him quietly. Through the light outside, he could vaguely see his expression, which seemed very unhappy.

Neither side was able to please, Guan Tian withdrew his hand, pulled down the car window a crack, lit a cigarette and said, "It's really boring not to eat snacks."

"Smoke to death..." Jiang Yuzhao complained in a low voice.

Guan Tian acted as if he hadn't heard it, and smoked on his own, and wanted to continue the chat: "Then what are you busy with all day, Ah Zhao?"

"Stuff in the store."

"Your dad insists you go to that store?" Guan Tian said, "He doesn't care?"

"It doesn't matter, I just have to stay there." Jiang Yuzhao said.

Qu Zhe listened to the two of them chatting about homework, and felt more and more that he was superfluous.But he couldn't get out of the car, so he could only lean on the seat motionless, trying to reduce his sense of existence.

After the car left the city and passed the toll booth, Jiang Yuzhao closed the car windows and turned on the music casually.Faint singing voices flowed in the car, and Guan Tian occasionally hummed along when he heard someone who could sing.Her voice is very hoarse and hoarse, to be honest, she has a very distinctive voice, but she really doesn't sing very well.

After Jiang Yuzhao heard a few words, he couldn't help laughing: "Sister, stop singing, your broken voice looks like you are about to hang yourself!"

"Did you say that about your sister? Really!" Guan Tian cursed and laughed himself.

After getting on the expressway, the outside of the car window was pitch black, and nothing could be seen except the vehicles passing by.In the sound of music, Qu Zhe gradually leaned against the car window, feeling the bumps, and his thoughts gradually drifted away.

The two-hour drive is neither fast nor slow.Qu Zhe almost sorted out all the memories about Jiang Yuzhao in his mind, and then the car stopped at the foot of the mountain.They got out of the car, just like them outside, there were a lot of people who came here on the first day of the new year, and cars were parked everywhere.

One in each hand, Guan Tian dragged the two boys towards a certain incense shop: "Come here, let's buy some incense first."

The owner of the incense shop warmly greeted them, taught them how to choose, and taught them to write their names on it.Qu Zhe didn't speak all the time, and was very quiet. After he silently wrote his name, Jiang Yuzhao suddenly said: "You can write it for me."

"Ah..." Qu Zhe looked up at him blankly.

When their eyes met, Qu Zhe lowered his head in panic.Hearing what they said, the owner of the incense shop hurried up and said, "This is not acceptable. Burning incense must be sincere, and you have to write it yourself, young man."

"Exactly!" Guan Tian said, "You can't even write your own name, and you asked Ah Zhe to write it for you."

"……understood."

It was still early, after buying incense, Guan Tian led the two of them up the mountain.There is a winding road on the mountain, which is convenient for self-driving and tourist buses. It is also a famous mountain. Even if they do not come to burn incense, many tourists come to see the scenery every year.There are not many people who choose to walk up like them. Everyone walks along the side of the road spontaneously, laughing and laughing with their companions, the voice is not loud, and will not disturb the silence of the mountain.

"Qu Zhe, when did you come to my sister's place?"

Guan Tian took the lead, and Jiang Yuzhao and Qu Zhe walked behind her. Suddenly, Jiang Yuzhao asked.

He would ask such a question, and Qu Zhe also expected it. He lowered his head and answered truthfully: "Last month, it was also a coincidence."

"Why did you leave without saying a word?" He paused for a moment before asking again.

Qu Zhe found it difficult to answer this question.

If you want to say why, there may be many reasons, but they are all unexplainable reasons.Qu Zhe thought so, deliberately trying to hide his emotions, he raised his head, smiled at Jiang Yuzhao and said, "Go out to make money, so I left."

Jiang Yuzhao was looking at him, and just happened to see this smile in his eyes.He froze for a few seconds—the smile was too déjà vu, but it definitely shouldn't appear on Qu Zhe's face.A few years ago, every time he saw this kind of gentle and hypocritical smile, he felt sick. Compared with Qu Zhe's cowardly and useless appearance, that kind of smile made him feel more uncomfortable.

That was Shen Yizhuo's smile.

"...If you don't want to talk, I won't ask." Jiang Yuzhao realized that Qu Zhe probably didn't want to answer, so he said so.

Qu Zhe went on to say: "I don't want to answer, the truth is like this."

"You've changed a lot," Jiang Yuzhao sized him up and said, "You feel stronger too."

"You haven't changed much, you are still tall and handsome." Qu Zhe said.

This kind of dialogue is so unfamiliar that it doesn't look like old friends who haven't seen each other for many years, but like two strangers.Jiang Yuzhao couldn't tell where Qu Zhe had changed, but he was far from the person he remembered from before.

But this is not incomprehensible.

After Shen Yizhuo left, all the spurning and spearheads were directed at Qu Zhe. Even if he didn't leave, he would stay in the high school like hell.Everyone looked at him strangely, teased him from time to time, and was even afraid of touching the things Qu Zhe used, the table and chair where Qu Zhe was.

As if homosexuality is contagious, they are extremely afraid of contracting this "disease".

After Jiang Yuzhao had protected him a few times, he was also included in this rank—everyone dared not offend Jiang Yuzhao, they chewed their tongues in secret, and dared not say anything publicly.

This situation lasted for several months, and when the second year of high school started, Qu Zhe had disappeared.

"My sister... my sister is very good. It would be good if you look at the store at my sister's place." Jiang Yuzhao said, "Don't leave suddenly this time."

"No," Qu Zhe said softly, "Sister Tian is very kind to me, I am very grateful."

"Ah."

"I'm also very grateful to you, that's when..." "Needless to say these things." Jiang Yuzhao took a deep breath.Originally, when he saw Qu Zhe suddenly, he was a little annoyed, annoyed that he had defended him like that, but he left without saying a word; but now, Jiang Yuzhao didn't feel angry at all, but felt a sense of relief, "Anyway, you just Stay with my sister, I can help you if there is anything you need."

"Thank you."

As if knowing that their topic had come to an end, Guan Tian suddenly turned around, with a cigarette in her mouth, and said, "Azhe, did you bring a lighter, my lighter is out of gas."

"Yes." He quickly took out the lighter from his pocket, and stepped forward to help Guan Tian light it.

Guan Tian hid without a trace, and took the lighter again: "No, no, I will do it myself."

Hearing the smell of smoke, Qu Zhe also suddenly wanted to smoke.He took out the Qixing in his pocket and put it into his mouth, Guan Tian returned the lighter to him, and he lit it up.

To say that smoke has any good taste, it really doesn't have any, at least he hasn't felt any "good" taste until now.Only occasionally, when he is particularly difficult to calm down, especially when he can't control himself to recall the past, he will think about the feeling of smoking.Smoke with a bitter taste will make myself in that situation gradually calm down.

Jiang Yuzhao frowned helplessly, seeing his proficient appearance and the soothing expression when he exhaled the smoke.

Guan Tian seemed to be very familiar with the matter of burning incense. The three of them arrived at the gate of the temple a few minutes after twelve o'clock, and lined up with passers-by who had the same purpose.Although it is a large temple, it should be a quiet place, but because it has become a scenic spot, it is full of the atmosphere of the city.

While admonishing the two young men what to do, be sincere and so on, she introduced statues of gods to them.

When throwing the incense into the burning fire pool, Qu Zhe quietly took a look at Guan Tian's appearance.She is obviously the kind of person that everyone thinks is "bad" - for example, she has big flower tattoos on both arms, and she smokes, and she is quite addicted to smoking. These are the basis for ordinary people to think that she is bad.But at this moment, she looked solemn, like a pious believer, and seriously threw the thing in her hand into the fire.

Qu Zhe silently said "I hope my sister is going well", and imitated his appearance and threw the incense into it.

It was obviously noisy around, but he still seemed to hear the sound of burning incense with his name written on it, and he had other thoughts in an instant.

——Hope to see Shen Yizhuo again.

I don't know if the Bodhisattva will bless him.

Thanks to Guan Tian pulling him to exercise every day, and cooking meat dishes in different ways every meal, Qu Zhe didn't feel tired at all when he went up the mountain, and it was easier when he went down the mountain.

From this day on, Jiang Yuzhao would come to Guan Tian's shop to sit and have a meal when he was almost free.

"It's almost Chinese New Year, sister, are you going back to your hometown?" Jiang Yuzhao picked up a soft and waxy hoof flower from the pot and stuffed it into his mouth.

Qu Zhe picked up the spoon and poured himself a bowl of soup. When he heard this question, he paused suddenly, and then pretended to be nonchalant and continued to serve the soup.

Guan Tian held the soybeans in the bowl and put them into his mouth one by one. While eating, he said, "I don't want to go back. What's the point of going back? It just so happens that Ah Zhe will accompany me to celebrate the New Year this year." She said, He glanced at Qu Zhe mischievously, "Isn't it, Ah Zhe?"

"Hmm." He nodded.

Jiang Yuzhao's expression was slightly puzzled. After hesitating for a moment, he still couldn't hold back his curiosity, and asked, "That Qu Zhe... don't you need to accompany your sister?"

Qu Zhe lowered his head and raised the corners of his mouth, as if smiling: "No, I'll accompany Sister Tian."

"That would be great, let's celebrate the New Year together."

"Then... I'll come here for the New Year's Eve dinner too." Jiang Yuzhao said.

"Your father must not beat you!"

"Just beat it." Jiang Yuzhao said indifferently, "You tell me when you buy new year's goods, and I will drive with you."

I've been here for almost two months at Guan Tian, ​​and seeing that the Chinese New Year is almost here, Qu Zhe still doesn't have time to look for a new job.The more time we spent together, the more embarrassed he was to say he wanted to leave.

According to Guan Tian's personality, if she rashly said that she wanted to leave, she might think what she would think.

Thinking, the longer this matter drags on, the harder it will be to speak, Qu Zhe finally took this opportunity to say: "Sister Tian..."

"Ok?"

"Actually, I have something I want to tell you."

"Say it."

As soon as he opened his mouth, the eyes of the two people immediately turned to him.

Qu Zhe was a little nervous, and after taking a deep breath, he said, "I know Tianjie's shop doesn't need to recruit people. Tianjie saw that I was in trouble, so she took me in... I plan to find another job in the future. Thank you so much these days." is you."

"...What's the matter, okay, why did you suddenly say you want to leave?" Guan Tian said unhappily, "I'm just pointing at you to accompany me."

Jiang Yuzhao looked at Guan Tian, ​​then at Qu Zhe, and instantly understood what Qu Zhe was thinking: "You are right, my sister's shop does not need to recruit people."

"Well, so I..."

"Azhao, what are you talking about!"

"How about this, you come to work in my shop after the Chinese New Year, the salary is good, and then you stay with my sister, just stay with my sister." Jiang Yuzhao said, as if he was afraid that the atmosphere would be too tense, and he would grin in the next second. Opening his mouth and laughing, he deliberately embarrassed Guan Tian, ​​"Look at her, she's almost 25 at [-], and no one wants it, so stay with her."

"Stinky boy, who do you think no one wants!"

"I'm telling the truth!" Jiang Yuzhao said.

Qu Zhe cast a grateful look at him, not knowing what to say.The soup in the bowl is entangled with chopped green onion and fried oil, which makes people's index fingers move when they look at it.It is really comforting to drink a bowl of hot soup in this winter.Just like when Qu Zhe met Guan Tian when he was desperate, this was probably the luckiest thing in his life.