moon illusion

Qi Fengyao wanted to go up to say hello, but stopped when he got up——

Should I go up and say hello?But in what capacity am I?He doesn't even know me, so I'll be considered abrupt if I go there rashly!Or tell him that you are his future competitor? ... No, no, too high school!Said to have admired for a long time?Sounds like a perverted stalker...

"Hello, what's the matter?" In a trance, a clean and gentle voice came into his ears.Looking up, it was the more mature face of the boy in the newspaper.And I... didn't know what was going on in my mind, so I raised my hand and waved at the other party.

But his thinking was as quick as Qi Fengyao, and he immediately turned around and picked up the book on the table, while flipping through the page he had just read, he raised his head and said: "I heard that the senior has excellent grades and is approachable, and I happened to meet the senior today. , I have a few ideas that I would like to discuss with the senior."

Great, turned it over, and everything went well.So……

Yun Zaiye was slightly startled when he took the book, then smiled, "Did you really hear about my deeds? Have you ever heard that my major is psychology?" Qi Fengyao's heart trembled, and he The book I picked up just now seems to be called... "Selected Readings of Ancient Chinese Literature"? !

Probably because he realized that the frizzy boy in front of him was really unprepared and was about to fall into an embarrassing situation. "Maybe, do you want to discuss with me the author's psychological dynamics when writing this article?" Yun Zaye looked at the boy who was slightly shorter than himself in front of him, and asked in a good-tempered manner, "But this question should be more expensive. Time, I'm going to help the teacher find a piece of information, time is tight. If you don't mind, can we make another appointment? If there is no accident, you can find me in the library every day. "

"Okay, of course, thank you senior, you can go ahead and don't bother me." After speaking, Qi Fengyao ran away with his backpack.

Hmmm... the freshmen are so fun now!

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In the blink of an eye, time came to June 6th, three days before the college entrance examination.

The school holiday starts today, and students review or relax at home by themselves, and go to their own test centers to take the test on June 6.

There is an unwritten rule in Duhe No. [-] Middle School. Before the college entrance examination, the third-year students must release red-tailed carp in the lotus pond opposite the teaching building. They will definitely get good grades in the college entrance examination.But of course, it is impossible for each of the nearly [-] senior students in Duhe No. [-] Middle School to release one life. This task should be done by the top [-] students in the grade on behalf of everyone.

After releasing the carp, the school also held a farewell ceremony. The red carpet was laid from the front door to the back door of the school. All the students from the first and second grades gathered on both sides of the red carpet and sent the seniors and sisters out of the high school gate, wishing them success immediately. The future is bright.

Because it was a farewell ceremony, every student lined up from the back door close to the teaching building to the front door of the school, and there was no need to come back after leaving the school gate. I heard that if you go back, you will fail the college entrance examination.

Standing in the first place, Qi Fengyao, with his outstanding appearance and inhumane and cold attitude, caused quite a commotion among the students who had heard many rumors about him——

"Who is that boy in the first row? He's so handsome!!!" "Then you don't even know him, Qi Fengyao!" "Eh? That's Qi Fengyao. It's the first time I saw a real person today. He's more handsome than the photo There are too many..." A bold girl, when Qi Fengyao walked in front of her, shouted loudly: "Senior Qi Fengyao, work hard for the college entrance examination, the future is bright!" Qi Fengyao finally raised his head and said Glancing in the direction of the source of the sound, he nodded expressionlessly, then continued to walk forward with his head lowered.

Finally overcoming the difficult journey to the school gate, Qi Fengyao immediately walked out of the school gate, put his hands on his knees and took a deep breath for a while, finally getting rid of the discomfort of being watched by a crowd just now.That kind of feeling like a light on my back is really uncomfortable, what kind of moths do the school do all day long!Let the juniors join the lane to send off?It made Qi Fengyao, who was already difficult to get along with strangers, feel even more like a gorilla being laughed at by crowds in a zoo.

Losing the initiative and the safe distance is disgusting.Thinking of this, Qi Fengyao calmed down a little.Straightened up, looked up and saw girls in twos and threes by the school gate pulling their teacher and talking, their eyes were red when they were excited.

Why?Why is everyone acting so reluctant and sad?Are the three years of high school really worth making them so nostalgic?Why does everyone feel that they have flesh and blood and feelings, but I am like a walking dead, who hates intimacy, hates feelings and hates everything outside my world? !

Qi Fengyao couldn't figure it out, so he simply shook his head and stopped thinking about it.After tidying up the cuffs that were accidentally rolled up just now, he walked towards home.

"Hey, Fengyao, wait for me!" Turning around, Meng Yuan was pushing a mountain bike and coming from the direction of the parking shed. "Go home? Let's go together, anyway." Meng Yuan asked.

"Okay, let's go together then." Qi Fengyao nodded.

Meng Yuan was the only person he could call a "friend" in the three years of high school.It's not because of empathy, let alone similar interests, but because Meng Yuan can maintain his grades in the same class as himself every time, so Meng Yuan is the only classmate he has been with for three years in high school.Later, after getting acquainted with each other, I found that Meng Yuan was really suitable to be a friend, especially for someone with my personality.

There is no other reason, two words, knowledgeable.Meng Yuan has an outgoing personality, he can quickly get acquainted with other classmates and get along well with each other, and he can also delicately hairdo Qi Fengyao's little mood, and then decide his own performance according to the situation-it should be funny and amused to coax Qi Fengyao well , or should obediently shut up and pretend to be dead.

If things go on like this, Qi Fengyao is satisfied with his sense of wit.Such a person will not be too far away from you, but will not get very close to you, let alone any sudden intimacy.Just a good safe distance, so that Qi Fengyao can get a full sense of security and comfort when getting along with him.

"Feng Yao, have you made up your mind? Which university do you want to go to?"

"You haven't taken the college entrance examination yet, and you don't even know your grades. What do you want to do in college?"

"You are different from us! We choose colleges based on grades, and you choose how many exams you take based on which college you want to go to!" Meng Yuan seized the opportunity and quietly blew a wave of rainbow farts.

"Stop talking nonsense, I still plan to go to Nanchuan, it depends on whether I can go."

"Can you go?" Meng Yuan seemed to have heard something unbelievable, "Going to Nanchang University at your level should be an easy thing! Your words like this will hurt the self-esteem of ordinary people like us too much. Ah big brother!"

"I've never doubted my own grades, it's just..." Qi Fengyao thought of his parents and lost his voice.

Meng Yuan was just about to criticize these top students who were not so outstanding in everything, but he was immediately held back by this turning point.After a long time, I carefully asked: "What's the matter? Don't uncles and aunts agree?"

no answer.

That should be the default, Meng Yuan thought.Then try to word it, "I think it's actually understandable. Fengyao, with your grades and abilities, you are indeed at a disadvantage in Nanchuan. I remember that my aunt had always advocated that you go abroad, let alone the level of education abroad. At least the educational environment and the corresponding models abroad are very different from those in China. Go abroad to broaden your horizons, and as a creative person like you, it should be easy to find a path that suits you!"

"But I don't want to go abroad, I want to study in China."

"It's fine in China. With your grades, it shouldn't be a big problem to go to Qingbei if you work harder. Why do you have to go to Nanchuan? Of course, we are not saying that Nanchuan is not good. Nanchuan is also the third-ranked school in the country. , but aren’t there two more in front of it?”

"In my place, the top two are not as good as Nanchuan." Because there is no cloud in those places, Qi Fengyao thought silently in his heart.

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When I got home, there were large and small dishes on the table, exuding a tempting fragrance.

"Xiaoyao is back, wash your hands and prepare to eat!" Mother shouted to the door, then turned and walked to the kitchen.Walking into the bathroom, I happened to have a face-to-face meeting with my father who was about to come out. It seemed that he had just returned home not long ago.

"Dad." Qi Fengyao nodded and said hello.

"Well, I'm back, wash your hands and get ready to eat!" Father walked out sideways.

This is the home he lived in since he was a child - there will be greetings, caring, delicious meals, and steaming milk... It looks like an ordinary family, but Qi Fengyao always feels that it is a little less What, it makes him feel at home the same as school, he can't find the reason why other students like to stay at home, home to him is no different from a hotel used for boarding.

Until he hurried to Nanchuan University that day and met Yun Zaye.Although it was only on that side, he seemed to understand what he was looking for and what was missing—the greetings and greetings in his home seemed to be some programmed things. There is no other topic... everything is cold, without a trace of fireworks.

Therefore, he will never be able to learn the gentle, beautiful, undefended smile on Yun Zaiye's face; therefore, it is impossible for him to be considerate and decent when a stranger abruptly talks to him about a topic outside his professional scope. Let the other party not feel embarrassed; so he can't look at the world without hostility, can't take off his armor, and use his soft side to shake hands with the world.

The tenderness that made him hard to express was also the antidote he longed for most.