moon illusion

"I like...can you tell me, what kind of person do you like?"

"He is an excellent, sunny, and gentle person."

"Xiaoyao, what you said is too broad, please tell me more specifically."

"He majored in psychology at Nanchuan University, and he studied very well. All the teachers and classmates affirmed his grades; he is usually present in campus hosts, competitions, debates... and he is also very good at dealing with people. Everyone is very gentle and tolerant; and also..."

"Is she older than you?" Aunt suddenly interrupted Qi Fengyao.

"Well, two grades older."

"You insist on going to Nanchuan University... for her?"

"... part of the reason."

"Then why do you think you're in love with her?"

"At first it was because of his excellence that attracted me, and then I kept trying to get close to him. Later, with my parents..." Qi Fengyao suddenly paused, and after a while, he said, "...to travel with my parents When I was there, I saw a lot of scenery that I had never seen before. While being shocked, I was thinking that I would come with him again in the future and see these scenery again..."

"Xiaoyao, my aunt wants to ask you something. You told me earlier that you regretted that you didn't cherish the time with your parents, and regretted that your waywardness and ignorance made them angry. Then...you The conflict at the time is whether you go to Nanchuan or go abroad, will you regret disobeying your parents because this person chooses Nanchuan?"

A silence answered her.Just when she thought that Qi Fengyao was not going to answer this question, Qi Fengyao suddenly spoke.

"I don't regret it, and I won't blame him for it. It was my wishful thinking to go to Nanchuan to meet him, and he didn't know it. He just didn't do anything, and he was chased by me innocently for a long time. My choice of Nanchuan is not all Because of him, even if he didn't show up, I don't want to go abroad, I just go to other schools." Qi Fengyao said calmly, looking up at his aunt.

"Auntie? What are you thinking?" Qi Fengyao looked at the auntie who was suddenly in a daze, and shook his hands in front of her.

"Ah, it's nothing, I just thought... Maybe he didn't do anything, or maybe he accidentally did something too much, so he was innocently loved by me..." She muttered to herself.

"What? Auntie, I didn't hear what you just said." Qi Feng moved closer.

"Ah, it's okay. Then why didn't you tell your parents about it? Maybe they will be shaken after they understand the whole story?"

"Because, because...he is a boy." After Qi Fengyao said quickly, the whole living room fell into an eerie silence.

After a while, my aunt's voice sounded, "Is it a boy? It's okay, the boy is also very good. From your description, he is also a very good boy, isn't he?"

"Auntie...do you think I'm abnormal?"

"No." She suddenly said firmly, "The definition of normal is not absolutely fair and just. It's just the position that the party that occupies more in a certain concept gives itself. In my opinion, heterosexuality and homosexuality There is no difference, there is no distinction between normal and non-normal. The only important thing about them is love. Since the beginning of human beings in this world, there is no law that stipulates that two people who love each other must be a man and a woman. Just as two girls can love each other, so can two boys."

"But auntie, we're not in love, it's my wishful thinking. He doesn't like me, and he doesn't even know me."

"That's okay. Now that you have gone to Nanchuan, you will have more time and opportunities to get in touch with him. Our Xiaoyao is also very good. I think you can make him have a different feeling for you." Auntie patted Qi Fengyao's head, "Alright kid, it's time to go to bed, it's getting late."

The next day, Qi Fengyao got up very early, and the police station called, asking the family members to retrieve the body.Auntie has already taken a good look at the cemetery, and if she is with Fengyao's grandparents, she won't be too lonely if she thinks about it.

On the way to the police station, Qi Fengyao was very quiet and didn't say a word.Even though he had prepared himself mentally over and over again, when he saw the mutilated remains of his parents, Qi Fengyao's whole body still trembled uncontrollably, his eye sockets turned red in an instant, and the veins on the back of his hands burst out , betrayed the emotions and tears he had been holding back.

Before reaching this step, Qi Fengyao thought that he was strong enough to resist all self-blame, regret, grief and sadness without saying a word, but when he really reached this step, he realized that he didn't need a single step. A little push from the outside world is enough to make him crumble.

The constant trembling turned into choking and tears, and finally mixed with sadness and reluctance, it turned into the suppressed roar and cry of the teenager.Seeing this situation, the policewoman who was doing family comfort work couldn't help but her eyes were red, she wiped her tears with the back of her hand, walked out of the forensic examination room, and gave the poor boy a place to vent.

After my aunt signed and completed all the formalities, Qi Fengyao had sorted out all her emotions and fragility.Except for the red eyes, the whole person looks like an outsider who has nothing to do with this matter, cold and silent.

After setting up his parents, Qi Fengyao said to his aunt: "Auntie, you go back first, I want to talk to them, I will go back to my house tonight, and I won't go to your place."

"Can you be alone? How about I pick you up later?"

"I can. I have to face it alone. Don't worry, Auntie."

She knew that she would never be as stubborn as Qi Fengyao, so she could only compromise, "Then you go home early, and when you get back, send me a message and call me if you have anything to do."

"Okay, goodbye, aunt." Without any intention of holding back, Qi Fengyao turned around and faced the tombstone, and put the little daisy in his hand in front of the tombstone, without saying a word.

After a long time, after all the worshipers in the cemetery had left, Qi Fengyao said, "Mom and Dad, I'm sorry. It seems that I didn't become sensible until the day you left. Probably because I seldom talk to you Sit down quietly and talk about each other's hearts seriously, so I always realize belatedly that my mother was also a little fairy who did not touch the spring water, and my father was also a young boy who bravely ventured into the world , you probably didn’t know how to take care of a little life that broke into your life at first, and you didn’t know how to prepare for the arrival of a life. Only later, when you grew up with me, did you slowly figure out how to be a mother , How to be a father, in fact, we grew up together, after all, you are also parents for the first time. These days I have always suffered from insomnia, and in the nights when I couldn't sleep, I would think that you were in a hurry, and you also collapsed and helpless. It is the youth of your generation that passed away in exchange for the bright life of another generation, after all, everyone along the way has spent summer nights hiding on the roof and watching the stars as a teenager."

"Thank you for bringing me into this world. I have seen the beauty and magnificence of the world. Everything in the past was my fault. If I can stay with you for a few more days, I will definitely not use cold wars and bickering to fight against you." Spend these days...but it's too late to say this now. Mom and Dad, I hope you can forgive me. If possible...don't meet me again in your next life."

After finishing speaking, Qi Fengyao got up abruptly, then left the cemetery without looking back, and walked towards his home.

He pushed open the door, but didn't go in for a long time. Although it was the same deserted before, he knew that no one would prepare a hot meal when he came home, and no one would study late at night. It's time to bring in a glass of milk... He is the only one left in this house.

After a long time, he still walked in, and the heavy door closed slowly behind him, the light gradually disappeared, and finally he was completely isolated from the outside.

Qi Fengyao didn't turn on the light, went straight upstairs and walked back to his bedroom. After lying on the bed, there was no more movement.He was thinking, how this house looks like a gorgeous tomb at this time, his father is here, his mother is here, and he is also here, everything is silent, everyone died quietly.

After Yun Zaiye contacted the teacher, he learned that the school would start on September [-]st.Because he was not familiar with the place of life, Yun Zaiye thought about going there two weeks in advance, so that he could familiarize himself with the surrounding environment and buy some daily necessities in time.

"Looks like we can book air tickets now..." Yun Zaiye turned to his phone and muttered to himself, when suddenly a call came in, it was his father.

"Hello? Dad, do you finally think of me?" Yun Zaiye asked with a smile.

"Hahaha kid, your mother and I are getting ready to board the plane, and we will arrive in Nanchuan in three hours. Please watch the time and come to the airport to pick us up!"

"Oh, how about using me as a special car driver?" Yun Zaiye sighed, "That's fine, I'll be there later, you guys get off the plane and contact me."

In the remaining two hours, Yun Zaiye booked the air ticket for August [-]th, then went to the supermarket to make a big purchase, and bought a fish for today's dinner.

After returning home, Yun Zaye washed and cut vegetables, tofu, fish and other ingredients, checked the time, changed his clothes and drove to the airport.

Fortunately, the flight was on time. Yun Zaiye waited in the parking lot for about 10 minutes, and saw the exquisite and beautiful Mrs. Yun carrying Mr. Yun Gang. Mr. Yun Gang was dragging a huge suitcase without complaint. The two looked affectionate. come to yourself--

"I'm a bit redundant..." Yun Zaiye thought, but he still hurried forward to give his parents, whom he hadn't seen for a long time, a big hug.

"Xiao Ye, alas, your father didn't tell you clearly on the phone just now, and asked you to book a restaurant in advance. I'm not used to eating at the airport, and I haven't eaten well during my time abroad..." Yun Madam said coquettishly like a little girl.

"Mom, it's all right, I won't book a restaurant for this meeting, I bought the ingredients, and my son cooks for himself." Yun Zaiye said while taking his mother into the car.

On the way home, there was a lot of noise in the car, maybe there was a burst of laughter... After about an hour's drive, Mrs. Yun rushed back to her long-lost home, and Mr. Yun looked at his wife with a look of doting , only Yun Zaiye was left... Lonely and alone, he carried a huge suitcase and slowly dragged it home.