moon illusion

Qi Fengyao hasn't spoken to his parents for two days.The two sides insisted on each other, and neither party was willing to bow its head and make concessions.

This morning, Qi Fengyao got up early, because today is very important to him, and today is the day to volunteer.Logically speaking, his parents should pay more attention than him, but they were obviously determined to let Qi Fengyao go abroad, so they didn't pay much attention to this day at all.

"Meng Yuan? What are you doing?"

"Ah, I'm idle, let's see my parents book a hotel! Fengyao, when the place is fixed, you must come to my school entrance banquet!"

"Okay, I'll go."

"That, that... what are you looking for from me?"

"Well... can you come out and stay with me for a while?"

"Now? I'll ask my mother if she's okay... It's okay, then where shall we meet?"

"Is it okay to still be in Bear?"

"Okay, then I'll go out now, see you later!"

Qi Fengyao stood up, put the computer into his backpack, and went out.

Ten minutes later, Meng Yuan saw Qi Fengyao sitting at the door of Bear, with his head down, fiddling with his computer.

"Feng Yao, you came so fast!"

"Sit down, milk tea is ready for you, it's the same as before."

"Okay! Tell me, what's wrong with calling me out?"

"Today I'm going to start filling out the application form, I..."

"What!!! Are you filling out your volunteer application today? Isn't it tomorrow?"

"Starting today, it will last for three days. It's okay, and there's still time to go back...Why can't you remember such an important day?"

"Hey, haven't I been looking at some hotels with my parents for the past few days, and there is also a strategy for a graduation trip, so I forgot about it!"

"Oh, that's it, that's pretty good."

"Yeah, my parents and I made an appointment for this graduation trip when we were in the first year of high school! Come on, come on, what did you just say?"

"It's nothing serious. I want to hear what you think about studying abroad and going to Nanchuan?"

"I... Me? Fengyao, did you have a conflict with your uncle and aunt because of this matter?"

"Don't worry about them, what do you think, I want to hear it."

"Me, I still unswervingly support your choice. Although I can understand my uncle and aunt, after all, you have been so outstanding since childhood. Every time my mother comes home from the parent meeting, she will use you to scold me and praise you for how great you are." Excellent. So I think uncles and aunts actually want you to have a better future, and feel that you may be at a disadvantage in Nanchuan." Meng Yuan picked up the milk tea and took a sip, "Although you never told me about the one in Nanchuan. Who is the person, but I think it should be someone who is very important to you. After all, during the period before the college entrance examination, everyone is under a lot of pressure, and so are you. During that time, seeing a slightly It is difficult to have a vivid expression, but I remember the few times you smiled when you mentioned that person. So I think that person must be very important to you, at least it can make you feel happy when you are unhappy. Find some happiness in your life. Fengyao, to a certain extent, I think happiness is more important than a great future."

Meng Yuan knew very well that people like Qi Fengyao had already made a choice between going abroad and Nanchuan.Asking for other people's opinions at this time is actually just adding a heavy weight to the already tilted balance, so that everything is settled, and there is no longer any chance of hesitation and entanglement.

"Fengyao, we have been classmates since the first year of high school. But in that year, we had very little conversation. After the second year of high school, I became the same table with you. At that time, you sat next to me and didn't talk to me very much. Talking, even when class was over, I was reading with a straight face. It made me very boring after class, and I didn’t dare to talk to you, and I didn’t dare to talk to the students in the front and back rows.”

Qi Fengyao smiled, "I'm really not very good at communicating with people I don't know well."

"Until you won the first prize in the National Physics Competition, I thought you would be in a good mood, so I wanted to take this opportunity to chat with you. But when you returned to the classroom, you still had a straight face. I had the courage to ask you Why is the first prize still not happy? You answered me 'because I am No.2 in N City'. I was shocked at the time, because I didn't expect a boy of my age to have goals and pursuits far higher than mine I asked you later why you didn’t talk to your classmates more, and even after class you had to read books and do quizzes, do you remember what you said?”

"I don't remember very clearly." Qi Fengyao raised his head slightly, "You don't remember it, do you?"

"Of course I remember, and after that time, I felt that I must become friends with you, keep getting closer to you, and become an excellent person like you." Meng Yuan smiled, "You didn't say anything, just Opened your notebook and showed me a paragraph written on it. You wrote, "I am not afraid of my own alienation and silence, I am only afraid. Like many people, I am most addicted to resentment and carnival. If you don't read, don't To think, I can't learn to listen and tolerate, so that one day, when the precious opportunity came, I found myself empty-handed. I was worn down by boredom and sadness, and I couldn't give anything decent to dedicate to the tearful Life.'"

"But I found that the reality is not like this." Qi Fengyao shook his head, "In reality, each of us is not a completely independent individual. We have countless social relationships, and therefore have countless emotions and bonds, but When a person has that, it's hard to just think about making some decisions on their own."

"No, that's not the case. Fengyao, each of us is an independent individual, and all external emotions and fetters are just the icing on the cake in our lives, to make our lives more grand and rich. But these will one day They will leave you in various forms, and in the end, you are the only one who can accompany you. So you must be responsible for your choice, even if everything in this world abandons you one day, you will not Regret the decision I made."

Back home, Qi Fengyao felt unprecedentedly relaxed.After Meng Yuan left just now, he sat in Bear for a long time. He thought a lot and denied it one after another. Finally, he turned on the computer and filled in Nanchuan University as his first choice.

"Xiaoyao, come here, Mom and Dad have something to say to you." The mother stood at the stairs, looking a little embarrassed.

"Okay, I'll go upstairs and change my clothes before I come down."

A few minutes later, the three sat in the living room.

"Fengyao, my aunt visited me and your mother yesterday. After coming back at night, your mother and I also thought about it. If you really don't want to go abroad, you can also develop in China."

Qi Fengyao suddenly raised his head, his eyes were full of shock.

"Yeah, Xiaoyao, you grew up with your grandparents. We never bothered much about life and study. Thinking about it, we didn't fulfill our responsibilities as parents. I'm sorry for you. But even so, Xiaoyao You still took care of yourself when you were little, and became what everyone is raving about. So we thought, why not trust the choices you made? You must know better than us what you want What, you can find the path that suits you better."

"Dad, Mom..."

"Okay, it's okay." The mother walked over and patted the boy on the back, "Don't you want to go to Nanchuan? We'll just fill in our volunteers in Nanchuan, and your grades will definitely be fine!"

"Fengyao, tell Dad if there is any gift you want? Just take it as... Mom and Dad's compensation for not taking care of you all these years."

"Gift? Can anything be ok?" For a moment, Qi Fengyao returned to the freshness he should have at this age, back to the time when he was a child looking forward to his parents coming to visit him.

"Well, anything is fine, Dad will definitely satisfy you."

"Then our family... shall we go on a trip together?"

It has been 18 years, and in Qi Fengyao's 18 years of life, he has very few memories of sitting at the dining table with his parents and eating a meal, let alone traveling as a family.

"Okay, is there anywhere Xiaoyao wants to go?" asked the mother.

Qi Fengyao thought of the snow-capped mountains and the Gobi desert that he had seen in magazines, "Shall we go to the northwest?"

Since parents need to go to the company to arrange related work in the past few days, they can adjust a period of rest.So things like booking a hotel, looking at routes, and purchasing supplies are all arranged by Qi Fengyao.

He yearned for the Great Northwest, and felt that the world there was extremely vast - the pure and eye-catching Chaka Salt Lake, the colorful Zhangye Danxia, ​​the snow-capped Gongga Snow Peak, the exquisite Dunhuang murals...the snow-capped Gobi all made him Longing for.

Affected by the terrain, the northwest region has inconvenient transportation.So after discussing with my parents, this trip was changed to a self-driving tour.

"Mom, what are you doing tonight?"

"Nothing, what's the matter?"

"Let's go to the supermarket to buy something for the road."

When pushing a shopping cart in the supermarket with his mother, Qi Fengyao was still not used to it.He has been alone for so many years, and he has gotten used to it from the first time he felt uncomfortable when he went to the supermarket by himself to the later feeling that he should take it for granted.Now that I suddenly have my family by my side, I feel a little uncomfortable instead.

However, you have to get used to it slowly, after all, in the rest of the days, you will seldom be alone again.Parents and friends, he has it all.The dream in the distance... shouldn't be very far away from me!

Go upstairs, open your notebook, take out the cut newspaper, and write a paragraph next to it: I don't know what kind of person I will meet in the future, but I am sure that no matter what kind of person the other person is, he is equally eager I am excellent, so I don't need to spend a lot of time recalling the past and imagining the future, I just need to use all the waiting time to improve myself.Just so that when I meet you one day, I can confidently say, I know you are good, but I am not bad either.

Yun Zaiye, did you hear that?