moon illusion

After chatting with Qi Fengyao for a while, Mo Xun terminated this fruitless script with the excuse of "don't bother my mother to make money".

After finishing the main battlefield, Qi Fengyao put his energy back on the dialog box on Yun Zaye's side.

Fingers stayed on the keyboard for a while, and Qi Fengyao sent a few lines to Yun Zaiye——

"If you haven't heard her story, then she probably doesn't trust you yet. If she still looks for you next time, you can persuade her more. In fact, it's not easy for her."

Not long after it was sent, Yun Zaiye's message came back——

"Okay, I'll try my best. Go to bed early, good night."

After putting the phone aside, Yun Zaye turned on the computer and continued editing the previously saved plans and strategies.Some small changes have taken place, and some details still need to be revised and improved.

When the computer was turned off, the hour hand had unceremoniously pointed to a position close to three o'clock.Yun Zaiye stretched, lit a cigarette and walked to the window with his mobile phone.

After editing an "action guide", Yun Zaiye sent this message to the crowd under a label called "Special Operations Team".After a pause, Yun Zaiye opened the chat interface of Little Sun alone——

"... Three days, help me prepare all the equipment, and send me the process one day in advance."

After doing all this, Yun Zaiye lay on the bed and gradually fell asleep.The moon in the sky casts a clear light, and there may really be Chang'e on it, holding the jade rabbit and watching the world with cold eyes.

The next day, as soon as Yun Zaiye entered the gate of the office building, he saw a familiar figure standing beside the punch card machine, arguing with the security personnel at the gate.

Standing aside and watching for a while, Yun Zaiye finally couldn't bear to let the security personnel suffer such grievances, so he quickly stepped forward and pulled the person back, explaining seriously to the security personnel.

After successfully entering the counseling center, Mo Xun was still chattering about the security personnel downstairs who "didn't know how to adapt".Yun Zaiye didn't speak to stop him, let alone agree with him, he just walked towards the office in silence.

Pushing open the door, Mo Xun invited himself in unceremoniously, then sat on the sofa beside him carelessly and looked at Yun Zaye, "Doctor Yun, I want coffee, Blue Mountain with milk and no sugar."

Hearing this confusing taste, Yun Zaiye opened his mouth, but he still didn't say anything.Not long after, Yun Zaiye put a cup of coffee in front of Mo Xun.

"Only Nestle instant, no milk and no sugar, just let it go!"

Mo Xun pouted his lips with disgust on his face, but the next second he picked up the coffee in front of him very sincerely.

As soon as the coffee bottomed out, before Yun Zaiye could speak, Mo Xun immediately interrupted him, "Doctor Yun, I want to eat chocolate and snowflake crisps."

???

Yun Zaiye looked bewildered, and looked up at Mo Xun who was sitting across from him like a gentleman, "Are you serious?"

"Of course I'm serious!"

"Do you know where this is? What are you here for?"

"I'm here to solve the problem, but I'm in a bad mood now. I can only feel happy after eating sweets, and I can tell you my feelings when I'm in a happy mood..."

Yun Zaiye, who had lost his temper by Mo Xun, waved his hand, interrupting Mo Xun's chattering fallacies, got up and walked out the door.Ten minutes later, Yun Zaye came up carrying the shopping bags from the convenience store downstairs, with a deadpan expression on his face that could not tell whether he was in a good or bad mood.

Seeing Mo Xun eating happily with a box of chocolates in his arms, Yun Zaiye shook his head helplessly, and was about to write some information on the computer.

Unexpectedly, as soon as he got up, Mo Xun hurriedly put down the half-eaten chocolate in his hand, and waved vigorously at him, "Doctor Yun, play Beethoven's "Symphony of Destiny" for me, thank you!"

Yun Jae-ye, who was suddenly called and arranged affairs, froze for a moment, and froze in place while maintaining his standing up.

Two minutes later, the magnificent melody of "Symphony of Destiny" echoed throughout the consulting room.

After finally waiting for Mo Xun to eat, drink and feel happy, Yun Zaiye has been tossed so hard that he has no idea of ​​consulting at all.Looking at Yun Zaiye who was sitting in front of the desk like ashes, Mo Xun put away the indecent smile on his face which was rare.

"Doctor Yun, thank you for your tolerance. We are now friends. As for your plan, I will try my best to help you in return..."

An hour later, Mo Xun was sent out of the counseling center again by Yun Zaiye.However, the difference from the previous day was that Mo Xun was no longer dragged out by pushing and pulling, but walked out side by side with Yun Zaye.

After watching Mo Xun leave, Yun Zaiye turned and went upstairs to the consulting room.

He had barely spoken in the last hour.Without any guidance or hints, Mo Xun was able to describe a complete story unfolding in front of him.

So far, he finally felt a long-lost familiarity in Mo Xun.It's not the familiarity of seeing her again after many years, but the familiarity of being able to think of Qi Fengyao when seeing her.

A loved one left him, out of this world, and both of them were there when the accident happened and witnessed the tragedy... They are really alike, no wonder they can be friends.

Leaning on the back of the chair, Yun Zaiye carefully checked the consultation records that he had just sorted out, and occasionally picked up a pen to draw a few outlines in the blank space.

Probably because Mo Xun is more mature than Qi Fengyao after all, and the identities of the deceased relatives are different.According to the consultation record in his hand and the previous test results, Mo Xun's mental state is much more optimistic than Qi Fengyao's original situation.

There is no self-blame, no regrets, no lost hope, and no suicidal thoughts or tendencies.From this point of view, Mo Xun's state of mind is almost that of a normal person, and there is no problem that requires intervention.

But after digging deeper, the only problem with Mo Xun's existence is that she will no longer be attracted to anyone.

In Mo Xun's own words at the time - "My heart is no longer in my body."

When he heard this sentence, Yun Zaiye was taken aback, because expressions similar to this sentence often appear in a type of patients who are called "depersonalization" by psychology majors.

Depersonalization is a primary mental disorder whose cause is unknown.It can occur in isolation in otherwise normal people, or it can be accompanied by fatigue or strong emotional reactions, and it is more common in depression and anxiety disorders.Also seen in schizophrenia or temporal lobe epilepsy.

Among all kinds of complex and painful subjective experiences, it is difficult to express in words, and the more prominent ones are the experience of body changes, compulsive self-examination, and lack of emotional response.Within the personality, it manifests as psychological disorders, emotional disturbances, or suicide attempts; in society, it manifests as antisocial behavior.Feelings of a change in oneself or the outside world, with a sense of strangeness and unreality.

For example, feeling that the environment has changed and is not real (disintegration of reality); feeling that the ability to experience is lost, as if unable to cry or love (emotional disintegration); feeling that a part of the body has become larger, smaller, separated, and empty (disintegration of the body)...

These words recorded in the books have left a complete imprint in Yun Zaiye's mind with a solid foundation, so that when Yun Zaiye just heard Mo Xun's description, he subconsciously began to search for relevant information in the database. psychological test scale.

But fortunately, Mo Xun was not so unfortunate.She will not appear in this very painful group of patients.Her situation was just because she had witnessed the scene of her beloved's death, and after being stimulated by the relevant scene, she subconsciously began to avoid the occurrence and establishment of all intimate relationships.

It's not that she can't love people anymore, she just doesn't want to love people anymore.The subconscious mind has built a fortress for her self-protection. The thick wall shuts out all the love from the outside world, and likewise, locks herself tightly inside the fortress.

Because I have lost it, I am unwilling to face the loss again; because I am afraid of ending, I simply choose not to start.This is Mo Xun's most real psychological reaction at this moment, and it is also the cage and shackles that trap her.

He had to help her, whether it was because of his status as a consultant or out of concern among friends, this was something he should do.

While thinking hard, the phone on the table vibrated.Yun Zaiye opened the WeChat interface, and it was Little Sun's reply——

"It's all ready for you. The process will be sent to you tomorrow night. Remember to reimburse me."

After seeing the message, Yun Zaiye was stunned for a moment, and then a smile appeared on his face.That's right, this time is an excellent opportunity!

That night, Yun Zaiye refused Qi Fengyao's request to have dinner with him or accompany him to work overtime under the pretext of working overtime to discuss the case, and went to the private room on the second floor of Mo Xun Bar alone.

Pushing open the door, there were already a few scattered people sitting inside. Seeing him coming, everyone got up and said hello.

They were not strangers, they were all familiar faces - Bai Lang, Mu Ran, Ye Zixuan, Ye Zilan, Chen Chen, Meng Yuan, and the proprietress of this bar, Mo Xun.

After a while of pleasantries, the atmosphere gradually calmed down.Yun Zaiye took out his mobile phone and sent the next few transfer flights to the group chat of the "Special Operations Team", and then recorded everyone's height and weight in his memo...

After everything was arranged properly, Yun Zaiye picked up the red wine that Mo Xun had just brought in, and raised his glass to express his thanks to everyone.

After the people in the box left in twos and threes, Yun Zaiye greeted Mo Xun and was the last to leave.As soon as he got into the car, Yun Zaiye's phone vibrated a series of times, and he didn't know what was going on...