Conformity

It is said that the best feeling in the world is when the person you have a crush on happens to also have a crush on you.

But Chang Yuan didn't feel this way, his mind was shaken, and to describe it in one word, it was five thunderbolts.

The surrounding noises gradually faded away, and his subconsciousness isolated him from the world. He instinctively put his hand under the table into his pocket, and the phone was still there.

If wishes were compared to pies, he should be smashed to the point that he could use them as pies by now.Waiting and waiting, the dream came true, but he felt unbelievable, it felt like the prison door had been broken, and the prisoner who had been in the shackles for a long time did not dare to take a step rashly.

Chang Yuan sat there with a pale face, feeling an urge in his heart that he couldn't vent if he didn't do something, but the hysteria had already been overdrawn, and the last thing he wanted to experience in this life was losing control, that kind of fear was worse than ten Shao Bowen scolding him together Also terrible.

Without Shao Bowen, he would still be Chang Yuan, but if he lost his mind, he would be no different from a lunatic.

At this moment, his desire to see Xu Huilai was stronger than staying here. He wanted to leave here and find someone to talk to, but his body couldn't help it.

Probably no one would be as cowardly as he, who was so frightened by the confession of his crush.

Chang Yuan held the phone desperately, as if it was a reassurance. Fortunately, he was not a superman, and the phone was intact. Instead, the pain made him concentrate. He couldn't see the blood in his hand, but his eyes gradually became clear. focal length.

Love and hate have inertia, and the aftertaste is long, he can't let go of it immediately, think about it in an instant, his mind is still as chaotic as a battlefield, but at least he has refined a clear thought.

Maybe there is only this chance in this life. They can sit down and talk to each other. If they are not calm, it is not useless. At least he can rely on his momentary mood, put aside his scruples and shame, and dare to say anything.

He will show his trump card, his restraint, fear, hatred, grievance and doubt, and he also wants to hear from Shao Bowen.

In the air filled with the fragrance of spices, there is a depressing feeling like a gel.

Shao Bowen was in fear, Chang Yuan was behaving abnormally, none of the expected ecstasy and ecstasy happened, he didn't even say a word, he just sat across from him in a daze, his back slightly hunched.

Time passed by every minute and every second. On this face that had faded from greenness, Shao Bowen once again saw the bottomless endurance. The same was true for the memory impairment back then. Chang Yuan was reviewing day and night while falling down. Come here, pretend to be calm and comfort Chi Mei.

If you have to say a reason for your heart, then Shao Bowen's answer is very simple, distressed.

He loves that little boy so much, so he wants to be nice to him. People who are sensible or tolerant are always hurt by others and no one finds out, because he won't show his hurt side. Since Shao Bowen found out, it's like being poisoned The same cannot be ignored.

The silence made Shao Bowen a little restless, but he just sat there, waiting for Chang Yuan to recover himself.

The two were preoccupied with each other. After an unknown amount of time, Chang Yuan suddenly looked at Shao Bowen and asked as if he didn't understand: "Who is he?"

Shao Bowen's heart skipped a beat, as if he had regressed into a stunned young man who was about to confess his love. He sighed and stammered, "It's...it's you."

His eyes are deep, and complex vortexes are raging in them, an indescribable weight weighs on Chang Yuan's heart, he can clearly feel that Shao Bowen is not teasing him, but it is really because of this, that is even more pathetic .

He could blame his illness for not being able to remember things, but his "thinking" turned out to be wrong. His self-pity and hostility towards Shao Bowen lasted for ten years and then he suddenly counterattacked, turning into a self-directed and self-acted farce. His resistance It turned out to be a disappointment, which is too confusing.

Chang Yuan couldn't even smooth out his voice, and asked restrainedly, "Say it again."

Shao Bowen stared at him with calm and gentle eyes, and he was very relaxed after speaking his mind. He said, "His surname is Chang, and his name is Chang Yuan."

Chang Yuan's mind was full of echoes. He never knew that his name sounded so sad. He quickly raised his left hand to hold his forehead, and said with a choked voice, "Fuck you, I don't believe it."

After all, gravity was one step faster than him, and the water mark crawled out from between his fingers like a snail, stabbing Shao Bowen's heart like a knife. He really wanted to go and hug him, but he stopped before he moved, and he didn't say anything. Open, Chang Yuan is also excited, he shouldn't stimulate him.

So he sat without moving, and coaxed in a gentle tone like a wangpo selling melons: "Believe it, I'm telling the truth."

Chang Yuan, covering his face, wanted to say "Get out", but the tears seemed to be free of money, and they poured into them as soon as he opened his mouth. This kind of surging flow surprised him. He felt very miraculous. Sad feeling, but instinct is one step ahead of consciousness, finding a source for the suppressed emotions for so many years in advance.

Even without Shao Bowen, his life has not been easy these years.

Chang Yuan quickly lay down on the table without taking his eyes off his hands, as if he couldn't drink enough, and the people around him were so drunk that no one would pay attention to whether his shoulders were shaking.

Shao Bowen moved the iron plate containing the skewers aside, knowing that he couldn't resist at the moment, so he put his hand on Chang Yuan's head, touching it repeatedly.

The night breeze is gentle, carrying the sweltering heat of midsummer. Moisture is the most unstoppable thing. A profiteer such as Shao Bowen knows that after confessing and being lenient, he has to pretend to be pitiful while the iron is hot in order to gain favorability.

"Xiaoyuan, have you noticed that the private number I gave you is the area number of Tongcheng. This number was opened by me ten years ago. It was last numbered on May 5, and the last number is 15. It's your year of birth. Lunar birthday."

He was laughing, he was in a hurry to leave, he chose a number at random, and later he separated and found out that there was such a relationship, maybe it was these messy connections that made him feel that they could meet again.

Chang Yuan, who was lying on his stomach, suddenly grabbed his hand!He couldn't get up because of his face, but the veined back of his hand revealed his grudges for him.

Chang Yuan didn't remember May 2006, 5, but he remembered May 15, which was the date Shao Bowen left his hometown after he woke up and learned from Shao Lecheng.

Applying for a card before leaving can be interpreted as a convenience for contacting family members, and it can also be said that it is a coincidence that it is his birthday phone number. What does not make sense is why this matter is suddenly brought up in today's situation?

According to Shao Bowen's suggestion, if he had come to look for him before he left, the only person he had contact with was...

Chang Yuan suddenly remembered that day when Shao Bowen asked him if he had ever looked for him. At that time, he thought of Shao Lecheng. When he contacted him now, Shao Bowen's "find" may be more biased towards the current meaning.

Once it comes to Chi Mei, he can always acquire a kind of disobedient calmness. Chang Yuan picked up the hem of his shirt and wiped his face, then sat up quickly, his eye circles were obviously red, but his eyes and question were very direct: "You Did you leave me the contact information, I was still in a coma at the time, so I gave it to my mother?"

He is still very smart without memory, Shao Bowen nodded, taking into account the face of his elders, he didn't mention a word about the hardship and disappointment of finding a needle in a haystack all these years.

Chang Yuan didn't know his difficulties, but he told his own without any concealment. Anyway, the secret had been exposed, and he firmly held his determination to fight it out.

"I don't know," Chang Yuan shook his head, his eyes a little self-deprecating: "It's not that I forgot, but I really don't know. When I woke up, I wished I could find you desperately. If I had your phone number, I would have killed you. Don't wait until long ago."

"Now," Shao Bowen said, "do you still hate me?"

Chang Yuan was silent for a long time before saying in a hoarse voice: "...Don't dare, I'm just a frog sitting in the well. I don't know many things, and what I know is wrong."

"Don't be like this, Xiao Yuan," Shao Bowen felt a little distressed, but he couldn't say anything wrong with Chi Mei in front of Chang Yuan, so he said, "You can ask me if you want to know anything in the future, I promise I know, you You must know too."

Chang Yuan was stunned for a second, feeling a little moved in his heart. He turned his head to look at the traffic on the road, his eyes were brightly illuminated by the lights: "No need, even if you tell me, I can't remember."

He smiled, as if he had finally decided to let go, and casually said with a little comfort: "Shao Bowen, I used to like you very much, and I still like you a little bit now. You scolded me, and I beat you up, so let's even Yes. Thank you for dinner tonight, I'm glad I know something."

"My mother intervened in your family affairs, causing you to suffer a lot outside. Although the apology has no real effect, it is a proper attitude. I apologize to you on her behalf. I'm sorry."

"As for starting again, it's wrong. We haven't started it. My illness is lifelong. You've seen it before. What you just said to me, don't write it down in the notebook. I'll forget it in a few days. , I am not suitable to be tied up with people."

Shao Bowen was not in a hurry to refute. From the moment he was splashed with red wine, he had expected Chang Yuan's reaction in this way. Forgetting cast a heavy shadow on him, but he would come out one day.

"I used to be scared off by the way you got sick, and then I regretted it for ten years." Shao Bowen smiled: "I know that memory impairment is difficult to cure, but I don't want to live that kind of regretful life again. Is it suitable? You have to try it once before you know. I won’t force you, and you don’t need to be pressured. We just let nature take its course. When friends are comfortable, we will be friends. Say it?"

Chang Yuan wanted to refuse when he made a conditional launch, but Shao Bowen, who can live hundreds of episodes in the TV series, said: "If you don't talk, then you agree, you go back to sleep today, and I will start chasing you tomorrow. "

Chang Yuan: ... Chasing farts!

He was speechless for a while, and cursed "crazy".

Half an hour later, the two parted ways on the road in the community. Shao Bowen said that he was right, and he really started chasing him "tomorrow", and he didn't mention sending him home at all.

That night, the forced demolition news on the hot search list, with its huge number of clicks and reposts, disappeared overnight.