Conformity

"The old thing has a good name. It's called Yuan Chusheng. Hey, a beast with the surname Yuan."

Chang Yuan's eyes widened immediately, he was surprised by Lao Yuan's words and the indifference in his tone when he talked about his father, as if he was a dirty beggar who didn't even bother to give him hatred.

"I'm not trying to program how miserable I am, but when I was a kid..."

Lao Yuan smiled at the other end, and did not speak for a few seconds. There was only a slight heavy breathing sound, like the feeling of a cigarette being sucked into the lungs and then spit out, and then he said: "It's really been It's quite difficult."

Chang Yuan turned over on the bed. He always felt that the following words could not be easily listened to as a story, so he kicked off his slippers and sat up straight.

At this time, he still felt that it was wrong for Shao Bowen to ask Lao Yuan to enlighten him. Even though the scar would no longer hurt, it was an indelible mark that represented injury. The selfish confinement in nature, I hope to see the pain of others, and then extract a kind of herd feeling of "no big deal, he is the same" from it to hug and warm up.

Lao Yuan didn't know the shame in his heart, he just talked calmly to the other side, and experienced a lot of pain, but Chang Yuan felt that he had already abandoned those, so there was no violent ups and downs in his voice, but a bit of contempt on the sidelines.

"My old lady was born with Yuan Chu. She has fertility problems and has never had children. In our small place the size of a palm, this is a topic that can be discussed for many years. It makes people look down. At that time, the level of medical care was not so high. It is also difficult for township hospitals to find out anything, and our women have no status, so it is rumored that my mother is infertile."

"But no one questioned his masculine dignity, the old stuff is over, because he has a sick heart, and he knows that it is his prostate that is not up to date."

"Before I was born, he was working outside, cheating on my wife behind his back. It is said that he only picks up women with big buttocks, and he pays extra money not to allow others to wear condoms. He promises to marry when he is pregnant. Those old men who work together will help him I used it as a cover, because I thought he was unlucky and married a wife whose womb was just for display, but since this matter is done, there will always be times when it will be exposed."

"Then the young lady changed several times but still didn't get pregnant. He almost knew it. He was distorted when he felt inferior. Slowly, technology developed. It was true after a check. The survival rate of sperm was low, and he was angry when he went home. He was too lazy to do anything. In a few years, I became addicted."

"My mother was 36 when I was born, and my sister and I were still twins. It's a great thing, but it came too late."

"That old thing has long lost his human appearance. He drinks, gambles, and beats people. Afterwards, he always kneels down for a long time with regret, crying bitterly, as if he wished to die with regret, and continued to drink after the tears dried up."

"However, he is a bit awesome, that is, he is so drunk that he can't tell the direction, and he knows that he prefers boys to girls. When he hits me, as long as he has a dick in his hand, he never goes to my crotch, for fear of breaking the seed, but my sister Without a penis to protect her body, her womb was trampled, and she ended up marrying a lame who is also infertile and sells stewed vegetables."

Lao Yuan stopped here, and the lighter rang, probably lighting another cigarette.

On the one hand, Chang Yuan was shocked that there is a father who can be so vicious, and on the other hand, he suddenly felt that comparison is really a measure of happiness index. Compared with Lao Yuan and those who have experienced the same experience as him, he himself was restrained by Chi Mei. It was like moaning for nothing, which made him feel that he couldn't bear Lao Yuan's enlightenment.

So he apologized to Lao Yuan: "I'm sorry, neither Shao Bowen nor I should have asked you to talk about these past events with me. Let's change the topic."

Old Yuan chuckled, with a warm and powerful voice, he said, "No, brother wants to give you a hand, if you want to come up."

For a moment, Chang Yuan felt that Shao Bowen had invited a god to assist him, otherwise, how could he hit Chi Mei's rebellious thought that Chi Mei was a swamp tiankeng to him?

That's why Shao Bowen couldn't persuade him. That man may know a lot of truths and can foresee many endings, but he has no hatred for his parents. I can't say a bad word about Chi Mei, so I can't calm down my distorted love-hate relationship.

But Lao Yuan is different. This person puts his experience in front of you, and the courage to cut bones and sell flesh can make you kneel.

Lao Yuan said again: "I don't usually tell people this. I'm Wang Jianlin in the catering industry. I get cramps when counting money. How can I have the time to mention these stupid things as a life mentor? But Shao Bowen is a fool who doesn't even want money. , I knew he wouldn’t have come to me if he hadn’t been really out of luck, and you, this old… um… man, man? Fuck, why are you so awkward screaming!”

As he persuaded people to end sooner or later, the emphasis was on the Pacific Ocean, but Chang Yuan still smiled, and didn't understand that he was speaking human words, why he still seemed a little sweet in his heart, he said: "Call the object."

Lao Yuan thought that he was a good match, and he sounded and said it could be indisputable, and then his tone was full of gloating: "Your partner is quite arrogant, just like that, a poor big guy, a thief! If I want to send him some capital, I have to beg him, so when he called today, I thought, hahaha, you owe me a favor even if you scratch your skin."

Chang Yuan immediately gave Lao Yuan a strong label in his mind: funny comparison.

However, Doubi changed the topic, and suddenly became vicissitudes again. Chang Yuan heard him say slowly in a deep voice: "But when he tells me something about you, he will have nothing to do. I want to talk to you." You talk. Let’s feel sorry for each other. As a person who has experienced it, I must give you something! Encouragement and support are of course the best, or you can treat me as a positive example.”

Chang Yuan's throat was sore, and there seemed to be a yellow lotus on his tongue, but the unresolved depression flowed into his heart, and he was moved away a little. A true friend dares to face his teammates and dig a hole for you if they don't agree with each other. Thanks to Teacher Shao, he doesn't feel very miserable now.

In order to repay Lao Yuan's kindness, Chang Yuan let go of his embarrassment and defense, he laughed and said, "Thank you, Brother Yuan."

"Hey," Lao Yuan sighed, and said curiously, "Why are you so polite? Isn't Shao Bowen a hooligan? He's more capable of pretending. Did you guys just talk about it?"

This brother's ability to interrupt is first-rate, and Chang Yuan feels that he can lose his memory and forget what they were talking about after a few more visits, but this is just right, his attention has been disturbed, and he will not be so focused on Chi Mei, maybe Lao Yuan is a man of great wisdom and foolishness.

In order to live up to the expert's advice, Chang Yuan took a joke. He excused Shao Bowen: "No, I have been in love with him for more than ten years. I, I am also a hooligan, more polite."

"Fucking perseverance, it's okay!" Old Yuan said in shock, and then burst out laughing, very hearty, with a chic and open-minded feeling in it, "Hahaha, polite rascal? I can't imagine what it is like, If you have time, come to City C to treat you to a drink, now let’s get down to business."

Chang Yuan waited for a few seconds, but there was no movement on the other side. He thought that Lao Yuan was busy with something. After all, he was the father of the catering industry, so he didn't rush.

Unexpectedly, a few seconds later, Lao Yuan suddenly laughed on the other side, and said angrily, "Day! I forgot what I just said."

This is really a foreign aid that does not take an unusual path. Chang Yuan gradually got used to it, and he reminded him friendly: "Speaking of your sister getting married."

"Ah yes!" Lao Yuan cured Alzheimer's in a second, and then said: "Don't feel sorry for my sister, my brother-in-law is not bad, although I don't have children, but the young couple has a beautiful life, the only one worthy of my family. The poor man is my old lady."

"Actually, it's okay to be beaten. After I came out to play around, I realized that there are too many such rotten people in the world. Many children were simply beaten to death."

"But as long as you don't get beaten to death, you will become more and more used to that kind of violence. You will figure out how to protect yourself, know how to pose, take the least damage, and know what expression to show so that the bastard can beat you to his heart's content. What really makes me feel unbearable is that I want to beat him in my heart, but I dare not. I am taller than him, but I still dare not. I swear this time it will either be his death or mine, and then go down I'm still swearing that oath this time."

"At that time, I kept thinking, but I still didn't understand, he was aging so fast, shrinking and getting shorter, why the hell didn't I dare to beat him?"

A sympathy resonated in Chang Yuan’s heart. He understood that feeling too well. The name of childbirth can give parents a kind of justice for everything. you.

"My old mother is even more pathetic. She was the one who was beaten the worst, but she said all the excuses, such as 'Your father beat you because you were disobedient', 'He didn't want to, he was just in a bad mood', ' No matter what, he’s your father’, ‘others will say you’re not filial’… and so on.”

"Just to be filial to her, I copied bricks and moved into Yuan Chusheng's house when I was 9 years old, but I didn't smash his head against the wall until I was 18 years old. He took my college money and lost it. I also owed a loan shark, and I collapsed at that time, I just felt that the only way to get away from this... these people was cut off, and my life was over."

"I slammed his head against the wall and his head was like a deep-fried watermelon, bang, and then he started rolling his eyes and bleeding, and I'll never forget that feeling as long as you live, you can guess, How do I feel?"

Chang Yuan knew that feeling. Yesterday when Chi Mei told him to go away and said he didn't want to see him again, that emotion was running in his heart, but now it has disappeared, and Chang Yuan said sadly: "Relief."

Lao Yuan snapped his fingers and said, "That's right! But it only took a few seconds, and I panicked after a few seconds."

Chang Yuan closed his eyes, thinking that that was himself yesterday, his firmness was like farting, just for a moment, and then it disappeared immediately.

"I'm afraid that if he dies, I'll have to go to the juvenile detention center. I'm afraid that he'll beat me up again when he wakes up. I'm so scared that I've got a lot of gray hairs in one night. How much pressure can a person put on himself? In the end, I couldn’t take it anymore, and while he was lying in the hospital and didn’t come back, I stole some money from my mother’s private house, and climbed into the oil tank truck, thinking that even if I die, I will die outside.”

"Later, I was outside, worked as a porter, made smelly leather shoes, was beaten and cheated, slept on bridges, starved, and was lying on the train track once, ready to die. But it was me When I wanted to die, I never thought about going back."

"I came out, and jumping on the tank truck became the most correct decision in my life, but if I couldn't hold back at that time and jumped not so far from home, then I can't call you this now Phone, I don’t know what kind of life I can live, I think about heaven and hell, it’s true.”

"Stop dreaming, thinking about communicating well after your mother recovers, it's all a sloppy eye shot by a doctor and a liar, you have already been able to communicate, you can't live and die for so long."

"Chang Yuan, if you don't want to follow the path your mother arranged for you, you have to prove that your path is feasible. How can you prove it? Don't look back!"

"Fucking fairness, fucking filial piety, really, you can't envy them, some people are blessed, and their parents are better than ours when they are born."

"This month, I saw a couple like you in the 307 hospital here. There is a man lying on the bed, and the man who comes to see him every morning and evening is also a man, not sticky, but I know they are not brothers, not so brothers. , I don’t care if the visiting patients can sleep a little longer. There are two women left, they should be their own mothers, one is in charge of meals and the other is in charge of chatting, and the chattering one is really enlightened. Unexpectedly, there is such a good mother in the world."

"You can't compare this with others. You were born to lose, but you also have things that others don't have in your life. As for me, one is my sister, who picks up junk and sends me money secretly, and the other is your partner. He Saved my life, I would have died on that railroad track without him, think about it."

Chang Yuan didn't say a word, he didn't have to think that there were candidates, one was his father, and the other was also his partner.

"I know it's difficult for you now, but it's not difficult. How do you start again? You can't break or build, brother, you think that freedom is picked up, carry it, don't be cowardly. I put the words here, you feel uncomfortable, come to me at any time Chatting is fine, but..."

Lao Yuan's tone suddenly became very serious, for some reason he lowered his voice, but the warning was still obvious, he said: "I advise you, don't lose sight of the other, just think about your mother, hurt my brother, I I don't know you, it's up to you whether you go back or not, but I still understand him, he won't."

Chang Yuan's scalp exploded, and he really felt a threat coming from the bottom of his heart. Shao Bowen has a very good temper, and sometimes he will give you the illusion that he can tolerate everything, but Lao Yuan is right, he is not too Personally, if you are scolded, you will get angry, and if you are left out, you will be silent.

Then, someone yelled on the phone, why the invoice for the boss has not been issued yet, and the balance is only half of the consumption, but someone is in a hurry to ask for it. ", asked him to open half of it first, and went to the national tax to get the invoice another day, wouldn't it be over for him to replenish it.

But he had been absent from work for too long, and someone came to respond to the problem. Lao Yuan was so angry that he even planned to switch to a video at the end of this voice call to see what Shao Bowen's taste looks like. He hung up the call hastily, and must talk next time.

The plot of Lao Yuan’s dialogue about billing passed through Chang Yuan’s ears, and it was not until he went to work the next day that there were turmoil, and it became an inspiration to prevent a large truck from hitting people.

At this time, he was holding his mobile phone, just wanting to check his presence in front of Mr. Shao, and he lost sight of the other, which is really something he would do if he didn't pay attention.

Huzi slept in a bold and unrestrained posture, and had almost rolled into a "卍" shape. Shao Bowen re-tucked the quilt for him, and when he returned to the living room, he found that the door of the bedroom could not stop Lao Yuan's devilish "hahaha", he followed Smiling, he just wanted to toast his brother in the middle of the night, he didn't expect Lao Yuan to persuade him to come up with a flower, he just thought that this man was open-minded and optimistic, talking nonsense with him could change his mood.

Shao Bowen got up and went to the refrigerator, and found that there was no beer in it, only an open bottle of Erguotou, which Chang Yuan bought to add vinegar to dumplings.Regret floated in his mind, it was very light, and it would dissipate soon. Shao Bowen sighed, Chi Mei has been in frequent outbreaks, he can understand it, and he is used to it. Since he has already taken a bath, Erguotou is fine.

But who knew that a rush of air rushed over from behind, an arm first circled around his waist from the side, and one was wrapped around his neck, and the rest was the force from the back, and then often Like a sloth, it hangs on him and doesn't move.

This posture is very intimate, Shao Bowen felt that he seemed to be better, the door of the refrigerator was windy, not suitable for winter nights, it was a bit difficult for him to back up with Chang Yuan on his back, because the other party's legs would trip him, so Shao Bowen patted his legs , indicating to him to give himself some strength and not to paddle on the ground, and then he asked: "Is it over? How is my foreign aid?"

Chang Yuan didn't try hard, imitating Lao Yuan's Northeast accent and said: "The thief is powerful."

He didn't cooperate, so Shao Bowen had no choice but to bend down a little, put his hands on his thighs, and suddenly lifted him up. He smiled sinisterly and said, "How powerful is it?"

Chang Yuan was taken aback, and quickly loosened the hand around Shao Bowen's waist. He cursed "grass" in surprise, then grabbed the man's shoulder with his hands, and then thought about Teacher Yuan's teachings when he was in the air. His mind was also a bit empty, he only remembered one swear word and the phrase "don't look back". He put his head on the other's neck and immediately saw the wine in the refrigerator.

When he came, Shao Bowen's face was facing this direction.

Chang Yuan felt a pain in his heart, as if he had been pricked by a scorpion's tail. While saying in his heart that I would not turn back, he settled down on Shao Bowen's back, rubbed his face against the skin on the side of the man's neck, and said flatteringly, "That's right. Great, but still a bit inferior to Teacher Shao."

Shao Bowen slammed the refrigerator door shut with his shoulder, with an expression of "there is a hole here". Although it is not light to carry Chang Yuan on his back, the atmosphere and the tone of the other party made him feel relaxed psychologically. I'm a little flustered."

"Don't panic," Chang Yuan said nonsense with his eyes open, "Be knowledgeable and knowledgeable, learn a lot, read all the chicken soup, and speak well."

Shao Bowen was shocked by the slogan first, and then felt that something was wrong. He turned Chang Yuan upside down and said, "Did Lao Yuan tell you something?"

"Well," Chang Yuan said in a very obedient tone, "He praised you, saying that you are awesome, arrogant, and a poor man, and then I suddenly realized that I rarely praise you."

Shao Bowen raised half of his eyebrows, and said with a smile, "Just a few compliments, no rewards or anything?"

Chang Yuan was quiet for two seconds, and then said, "Come on, let me kiss you twice."

Shao Bowen made an inch of it: "Can I kiss?"

There's nothing wrong with that, Chang Yuan thought to himself, no matter what I say, I'm also a polite hooligan.