deep in the first part

i'm on the edge of a cliff

wait for you to save me

only you can save me

but you

but can't make it

afterlife

I'm still waiting for you

good or not

"Yuan Xiang, I can't forget him." Ning Ruibai raised his head and looked at Yuan Xiang directly, never before.

"Rui Bai, no one will love you as much as I do." Yuan Xiang's voice trembled, but he didn't know how to keep this person.

"Yes." Ning Ruibai endured the discomfort in his body and said, "Long Zhe."

Yuan Xiang was stunned. He hadn't seen such a Ning Ruibai with such a pure gaze for a long time.That is a kind of pride, like the pride of declaring a lover to the whole world.

"The phone is in your pocket, right?" Yuan Xiang sat down beside Ning Ruibai.

"You..." Ning Ruibai thought he had forgotten.

"Call him and ask him to pick you up, and I won't take you away." Yuan Xiang didn't look at Ning Ruibai, and his tone was still pampering as usual.But only he himself knew how bloody and painful the heart that was cut open was.

Ning Ruibai stared blankly at Yuan Xiang for a while, his eyes were full of doubts, didn't he never let go, why did he figure it out today.

"Rui Bai, I don't regret it." Yuan Xiang stood up and walked out.He didn't want to look at him, fearing that he would lose control of his heart and imprison him again.

Only Ning Ruibai was left in the cave, and Ning Ruibai's hand holding the phone began to tremble. The torment in his heart was also a physical torment.What Yuan Xiang gave Ning Ruibai was a mobile phone with satellite signals, and it could be dialed even in the cave. Ning Ruibai pressed the number that he knew by heart, and his heart ached.

"Beep...beep..."

"Long Zhe, Long Zhe, answer the phone quickly." Ning Ruibai muttered unconsciously.Excited to meet.

"Beep...beep..."

"Long Zhe, where are you, help me quickly." Ning Ruibai started to have a headache and felt cold all over.It was that feeling again, reminding myself time and time again that he is no longer just that Ning Ruibai.

"Beep...beep..."

"Long Zhe, save me..." Ning Ruibai's body began to tremble unconsciously, his nose flowed down uncontrollably, and his mind began to spin slower and slower.The need for something in the body became more and more clear, and even began to erode his consciousness.

Ning Ruibai's consciousness became confused, and he couldn't tell what was reality and what was imagination.Long Zhe doesn't love himself anymore, because he is dirty, because of his decay, and because of his uncleanness.He is not the Ning Ruibai he used to be, and he is no longer that simple Xiaobai.Ning Ruibai was even a little thankful that he wasn't there when he was most embarrassed.His departure may be their best destination.

"Long Zhe, why didn't you come and save me." Ning Ruibai couldn't say whether he was resentful or helpless, but the sadness in his heart was getting deeper and deeper, so deep that he couldn't help himself.

"If I die, will it be good for everyone?" Ning Ruibai picked up a sharp stone from his side and stabbed it at his wound.Blood dripped down the clothes, and the red liquid smelled of despair.

"Wait for me, in the next life, will you still love me?"

Long Zhe was awakened by a piercing pain, and his frantically beating heart kept warning his master that he was still in his body, but he was not well and not happy.Long Zhe got up abruptly, only to find himself lying on the bed.Why, are those sad pasts just a dream.Long Zhe supported his head, slowly thinking whether his Xiaobai was still by his side.But those thrilling and unknown dangers spewed out from the depths of his memory, telling him over and over again that those had become facts of the past.

Where is Ning Ruibai, the person he regards as a treasure?

Where is Ning Ruibai?

Long Zhe jumped up violently and rushed towards the door, but the door couldn't be opened no matter what.He was locked up, why.

It seems that because he overestimated his capabilities, he wanted to save Ning Ruibai alone.

All the strength in his body seemed to be pulled away instantly, and Long Zhe could not support his sliding body even with his back against the gate.After all, he sat at the door, in a daze, thinking.

Why is he not strong.

Why can't he protect his lover.

But at this moment, what he said was of no avail.He can't do anything and can't do anything.He is not as good as Chief Li, there is a military region behind him, he is not good at Ning's father, he has a powerful consortium, he is not as good as Xiao Suifeng in protecting others.Whoever he is, he is just a cowardly president, without a prosperous age, he is nothing.

Long Zhe buried his face between his knees, something warm came down from top to bottom, and he couldn't control it.If we only meet each other for the first time in life, maybe I can escape this disaster if I don't love you.

He once watched his parents leave, watched his relatives snatch everything that belonged to him, watched the seemingly friendly and fake family relationship in the orphanage, and watched those people take Ning Ruibai away from him.

"Xiaobai, don't leave me."

It is difficult for Longzhe to accept the departure of friends and relatives, let alone lovers.He reminded himself over and over again to be strong and to save Ning Ruibai.But the distress of losing a loved one pierced Long Zhe's already battered heart time and time again.He couldn't do it, couldn't think calmly.Reason told him that he couldn't lose himself in grief, there was someone waiting for him.

Long Zhe did a lot of mental construction before he calmed down his turbulent heart slightly.The mobile phone on the table was beating rhythmically, but Long Zhe didn't want to get up at all.What can he do, except to cause trouble for others, he can't do anything.

Slowly Long Zhe began to calm down, and his instinctive rationality gradually returned.He shouldn't, shouldn't be so decadent, shouldn't give up, if even he falls down, what will Ning Ruibai do.

The phone was still ringing, Long Zhe gently slid the screen away.

"Long Zhe, save me..."

The sudden voice, the familiar tone, the sad and painful monotony, all of these beat Long Zhe's heart mercilessly. When he picked up the trembling mobile phone, there was no more sound from the mobile phone.

Xiaobai is his Xiaobai.

Where are you, Xiaobai?

Xiaobai, I'm going to save you.