[Complete] Sibyl the Immortal

"What book is the unknown lady reading?"

Shi Shu Duoduo looked at the book in the girl's hand curiously, and she answered him softly after turning a page.

"The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera."

In this book, Teresa is absolutely weak compared to Thomas, no matter in terms of gender, strength, status, intelligence, thought...etc., she is.For Thomas, she was like "a child who was floated down the river in a resin-coated basket"-yet, Thomas was controlled by Teresa all his life, controlled by her pain and tears, Her fear and despair, the former let him marry her, and the latter let him live in seclusion in the countryside with her. 【1】

It is the tyranny of the weak over the strong.As Wilde said, this is "the only tyranny that endures". 【2】

In the eyes of Kusanagi Izumo and Tosuta Tara, the girl is a quiet, gentle, kind and weak child.Yes, she will always be a child in their eyes.They didn't realize when that helpless child grew into a woman, with forbearing eyes, hopeless thirst, and a little greed secretly.

greedy.

This is how she positions her feelings.

Love shouldn't be like this, wanting to change the other person, wanting to contain the other person, not wanting him to leave, not wanting to see him out of her sight in place - the last thing she wants is that he gets hurt where she can't see it.The mood that arises from this is the desire to be imprisoned.

— But why shouldn’t love be like this?

She was overwhelmed by such feelings.

This is such a strange emotion in her life, intense and turbulent, it overwhelms her in an instant, and before it controls the person she loves, she is the one controlled by it first.

They still regarded her as an ignorant child, and only the man knew that she had gradually transformed into a woman.They are so close, sharing each other's body temperature for countless nights.

So Zhou Fangzun knew better than anyone else when this child became a woman.

The difference between women and children is that children only know how to cry to attract attention, but women know how to use tears to achieve their goals.

The more you care, the more painful it will be.

Zhou Fangzun must have noticed this too, so recently he always looks at her with that expression like watching from afar.

He was waiting, and so was she.

Perhaps both are waiting for the moment when the other will let go.

The girl knew better than anyone how much her pain weighed on Zhou Fangzun.

Those were Zhou Fangzun's chains, which made him unable to be unscrupulous and wanton in battle.Because any wound on his body would cause her to feel great pain.every step he takes.

The final result is either that the chain breaks, or the beast is trapped in a cage.

But the only thing that is certain is that both of them will be exhausted.

Her pain is his burden, and his burden is not her pain?

The girl touched her face with her hands, and thought with a smile, hey, she obviously wants to live for him, but has this kind of work become his biggest burden?

He was obviously smiling, but his eyes were dead.like burnt ashes.

It's not that she doesn't understand that Zhou Fangzun is a man born for fighting.

Lions are born to run and hunt on grasslands.But she wants to trap the lion around her, blocking his most primitive impulse, because she doesn't want him to get hurt, so she doesn't want him to run.

Love is like a thorn.

She gained hope because of love, but she also gave birth to desire because of love.

But that shouldn't be.

She thought coldly.

If you go back in time, back to a time she will never remember.Then the girl should understand why she had such an idea.

Heredity is a formidable force.

Whether it is her father or her mother, the love that is believed in is sacrifice.

self sacrifice.

This kind of emotion made Jesus willing to be crucified, made her father work hard, and made her mother die.The daughter who inherited their blood naturally also has such qualities.What's more, her mother's example was too good and too profound.

Self-sacrifice in a sense means extreme self-exclusion.

The girl has not realized this yet.Whether Zhou Fangzun noticed it or not, no one knows.

Let it go.

She said to herself again and again.

But when looking at Zhou Fangzun, she always felt that no matter what kind of pain she could endure, as long as she could stay by his side for a while longer.

If you don't want to, just lock him up.

You clearly know that as long as you cry, there is nothing he can do, and as long as you let him know your pain, he will be bound.He is that kind of man.

A strong yet gentle man.

...But, it can't be done.

So, there is only one way.

No, in the beginning, there was only one way.

The girl laughed softly in the room where she was alone.Laughing and laughing, tears fell down.

The numbness suddenly climbed from the calf to the knee, and after losing the suppression of spiritual power, the backlash seemed to come very quickly.The pain in her internal organs gradually became more intense. She pinched her unconscious calf and laughed until she had almost no energy left.

……So be it.

She was already very tired, so tired that she didn't want to keep going.

***

Zhou Fangzun was injured again and came back.

The girl bandaged him in silence. Recently, she spoke less and less, and only read the book over and over again.The unbearable lightness of being.Watched it over and over again.

The same is true today.

After bandaging Zhou Fangzun, the girl washed her hands, sat quietly and continued to read the book.

"Read a paragraph."

Maybe he wanted to break the cold silence, he suddenly said to her.

"It is a selfless love, because Teresa asks nothing from Karenin. She doesn't even ask for love... If we are incapable of love, perhaps it is precisely because we always desire love from others, that is to say, we always want To get something (love) from another person, rather than throwing oneself into his arms unconditionally and only needing his existence."

The girl's voice was soft and soft, from Zhou Fangzun's perspective, he could just see her bloodless lips, the whole face was pale and transparent, and the blue blood vessels under the skin could be seen faintly.

I don't know when she has been so thin.

"...Teresa accepted Karenin as she was, she never managed to change it in her own image, she recognized in advance that dogs also have a world, so she didn't want to keep it for herself, and she didn't want to be jealous of Karenin Lenin's secret obsession. She raised it not to change it (and men always want to change women, women also want to change men), but just to teach it a basic language so that it can understand each other with humans and live together. "

How ridiculous.The love that cannot be accomplished between humans and humans is realized between humans and animals.Between Teresa and Thomas, they love each other, but they put each other in hell.

The girl thought, sooner or later they will do the same.

Not incomprehensible, just incomprehensible.

So at least, before she dragged him down even more heavily...

Putting one hand on her head, Zhou Fangzun's voice was helpless.

"Are you thinking about it again?"

"Eh?"

The girl looked over blankly, Zhou Fangzun sighed, took the book in her hand, and threw it aside.

"Love is something, although I don't know what it is, it's not something that is light and fluffy."

"As for the burden, just leave it to a man, your weight can't crush me."

"Love is a matter between two people, don't bear it all by yourself."

Zhou Fangzun pressed the girl's head with his hand, probably wanting to touch her head, but he was never familiar with this kind of intimate action, so he could only grab the head stiffly and turn it around.

He was never as much as she thought.

Love has never been that kind of beautiful, light and light, without any shadow of reality, only romantic and tender things - love itself is a heavy burden, and at the moment of falling in love, you have to bear the weight of the other person's heart.

Zhou Fangzun knew about such things a long time ago.

How troublesome this man he loved was, he knew better than anyone from the start.

and so--

"trust me."

Whether it is anxiety, fear, pain, greed, imprisonment, or possessiveness.

Leave it all to me.I'll work it out with you.

***

In the dream, the person smiled and said to 'her', my little girl, you never trusted anyone.

I believe you.

'She' wanted to say that to that person.

No, you don't believe me either.

The man leaned over and lifted her face with a smile.

What is it to believe, do you understand?That is, you believe that no matter what you are, the other party will not hate you.

Don't you understand, my little girl, you never ask anything of me.Instead, you give me whatever you want.

What are you afraid of, my little girl.

I'm not going to get mad at you for this little thing.A little request, I will still fulfill it for you.

Because you are my miko.Only my miko.

But you don't belong to me.

'She' thought about it, but still didn't say it.

Yes, you do not belong to me.

The girl opened her eyes in the darkness, and subconsciously clenched Zhou Fangzun's hand.

Every night, she always had to hold his hand to fall asleep.

In the dim moonlight, she quietly looked at his face.

This person belongs to me and can be trusted.

So, trust him a little more.

Believe that your own pain will not crush this person, and will not become this person's cage.

The burden of love is the weight of two people. I can't bear it, and he can't do it alone, but no one can take it off.

Then, with two people, they can probably bear it, right?

Two people together.

The author has something to say: 【1】

All content in this chapter about Milan Kundera's "The Unbearable Lightness of Being" is based on the version of Shanghai Translation Publishing House, translated by Xu Jun.

【2】

Quoted from Oscar Wilde's "From the Deep".

Xiyang originally wanted to die.But Brother Zun is awesome.

I thought for a long time how Xiyang should be blackened, but after I started writing, I realized that no matter how blackened she is, she has no other choice but to give up her own life.

She was such a gentle child.

And, I think, if you fall in love with Brother Zun, this kind of conflict is inevitable.

Wang's woman is not so easy to be.

When Brother Zun was beaten outside, as a lover, he would definitely worry about him and hope that he would not go again.But can't stop it.

Such a situation is almost inevitable.

PS: I don't know if you can see it... In fact, Xi Yang and Brother Zun have already slept...

I'm really good at pulling lights√

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