Little mortals' dreams come true

After meeting Li Kang, Han Sheng felt as if he had a fishbone stuck in his throat. He couldn't swallow it, couldn't spit it out, and felt unspeakably uncomfortable. They all faded away.

However, he still moved without hesitation.

It was already evening when we arrived in Liyuan City, Han Sheng didn't care about his hungry stomach, he dragged his suitcase as soon as he got out of the car, took a taxi and walked around the streets, and went straight to the community where he was addressing.

It wasn't until standing in front of the somewhat old iron gate of the community, looking at a row of densely packed old-style apartment buildings through the railing, that Han Sheng's heartbeat that had been accelerating since getting in the car calmed down little by little.

This neighborhood looks like it has been around for a while. The buildings are either in a retro European style, or they are the most conservative apartment buildings. They are very crowded, crooked alleys criss-cross, poor lighting, and some are piled up with debris. .

Compared with Mingchuan City, Liyuan City's economy is much more developed, especially in the East District, which is very similar to City A in style, full of feasting, bustling and bustling.And the place where Li Fan rented was like a small piece of barren land in the middle of a dense forest, curled up abruptly and quietly, the silence was a bit out of place.

Han Sheng wasn't sure if it was an illusion, he found that Li Fan always seemed to prefer tight corners.

Before coming here, Han Sheng thought that he would rush straight to Li Fan's rented apartment regardless of everything, put his arms around the figure he had imagined thousands of times in his mind, buried his head on the side of his neck, and told him, I'm sorry , It's all my own fault.Just thinking about such a scene makes the blood in the body hot, as if it is about to spurt out of the veins.

The iron gate was open, and there was no one on duty, and there was no obstruction.

But Han Sheng stood there, holding the handle of the suitcase in one hand, unable to move for a long time.

This kind of old-fashioned community always exudes a unique atmosphere of life. It is dinner time, and the aroma of fried ginger and garlic comes from nowhere. With enough strength, there was a burst of joy and excitement.If you distinguish more carefully, you can hear the movement of another family chopping vegetables from the sound.There are also the crying of children, the crisp sound of chess falling, the conversations of men, women and children...

Audible and inaudible, many small voices seem to be floating, both lively and quiet, all covered in this small place, like a paradise, with its own time and tranquility.

While Han Sheng was dragging his suitcase, he suddenly felt like a foreigner who had strayed in. If he stepped in, he would be a disturbance.

He thought, maybe it was a bit abrupt for him to break in like this, after all, Li Fan said he would not see him, and he dragged his suitcase and barged in hurriedly, no matter what he seemed to be forcing.I came here to apologize, so I should show some decent attitude.

So, he clenched his palms, gritted his teeth and turned around, and decided to find a nearby hotel to clean up, tidy up his mood, calm down, and then ask someone out and apologize.

Because this area is an old city, there are not many tourists, and the hotel is not easy to find, and the nearest one has to walk for more than ten minutes.After Han Sheng checked in, he ate his stomach in the restaurant downstairs, then went back to his room, took a hot bath, and fell asleep early.

He got up very early the next day, and he couldn't reach Li Fan through his mobile phone. The previous number had become empty. He didn't know if Li Fan would go out, so he could only go there as soon as possible and wait.

It should have rained a little at night, the air in the morning was very fresh, and the leaves on the roadside were all wet.

Han Sheng pushed open the rusty iron door and walked in. Unlike yesterday's bustle filled with fireworks, the densely packed apartment buildings seemed to be still asleep, very quiet, only occasionally a few sparrows jumped up from the treetops, Chirp a few times.

Although the apartment buildings were densely arranged, they were very regular. Han Sheng found the one in Li Fan's address without much effort.

The entrance of the unit door is a bit short, almost touching the top of Han Sheng's head.As soon as you walk in, the surrounding walls move closer together, enveloping you in the center.Han Sheng always liked spacious and empty spaces, but at this moment, the feeling of being surrounded by slightly damp walls gave him an inexplicable sense of security.

When he was about to lift his legs to go upstairs, a cardboard box in the corner suddenly moved. Han Sheng poked his head over and took a look, only to see a kitten with patterns like a cow curled up sleeping inside.Old clothes were stuffed in the cardboard box, and the sleeves of one of the knitted coats were turned out a little, and were loosely placed on the kitten's forehead.

Han Sheng withdrew his gaze, turned around and planned to continue upstairs, but stopped after taking two steps.He turned and retreated to the corner of the stairs, leaned closer, and took a closer look at the coat again.

Not sure, but he always felt that this suit was very similar to the one worn by Li Fan.

I also looked at the cat food bowl next to the carton, and there were still some residues left, which seemed to be fed last night.If this kitten was really raised by Li Fan downstairs, and he hasn't been fed in the morning, then he probably hasn't woken up yet.

Han Sheng was stunned for a while, then looked at his phone again, it was indeed too early, he didn't want to wake up Li Fan, so he turned around and walked out of the low unit door, deciding to wander around downstairs first.After walking a few steps, he was worried that Li Fan would not see him when he went out, so he stood under a loquat tree that was not too tall and not too short diagonally opposite the unit door, staring blankly at the empty door.

He waited carefully, handling every detail carefully, and he didn't want to make any mistakes.

People came out of the building one after another, a young girl carrying a satchel, an old man holding his granddaughter, and a middle-aged couple...

Han Sheng stretched his ankle, and when he looked up again, he saw Li Fan coming downstairs in a baggy T-shirt, with a bag of trash in his hand.He seemed to have just woken up, and while yawning, he threw the rubbish into the trash bin on the side of the unit door, then looked up at the sky, thought for a while, then turned his head to look at the Go inside the building.

Han Sheng didn't stand very far away. For a moment, as long as Li Fan tilted his head slightly, he could see him clearly. He was so nervous that his heart jumped into his throat, but Li Fan didn't realize it at all, and dragged his somewhat lazy steps towards him. Go to the corner of the stairs, squat in front of the cardboard box and look at the kitten sleeping inside.

After the tension dissipated, there was a dense pain in the heart.

Standing under the tree, he watched Li Fan stretch out his hand to straighten the edge of the cardboard box, then took out the canned cat food from the side, removed the lid, poured it into the cat food bowl, and sniffed it like a child.

This kind of feeling of standing aside and quietly watching someone's life is not good, as if that person has everything in the world in his eyes, except you.Han Sheng felt the pain in his chest carefully like masochistic, and he suddenly remembered, has Li Fan been like this for so many years, quietly staying not far away and looking at him?

He suddenly changed his mind, he forcibly suppressed the urge to rush up, he wanted to punish himself for staying in the dark, and take a good look at what Li Fan is like, where he usually goes, what he likes to do, and whether he has communicated with him. To a new friend... He wants to get back all the details that he had neglected before, and he wants to taste how bitter it is to be ignored.

So, for the next few days, Han Sheng got up very early every day, and then stood silently under the loquat tree, hiding his figure behind the tree, waiting for Li Fan to come downstairs.

Sometimes Li Fan is very homely, except when he goes downstairs in the morning to throw out the trash, and feeds the cat when he eats, he just stays in his room and doesn't go out.Han Sheng could only nibble on a sandwich and stare at a window for a long time, sometimes all afternoon, only to see a fleeting figure.

But most of the time, Li Fan would go out for a walk, the bustling city center, remote alleys, crowded squares, deserted old houses...the destination is not determined, just wandering aimlessly.I also go to the local museum to see the exhibition, and then browse a picture book in a bookstore.When I meet a restaurant I am interested in, I will go in and try it, but most of the time it is light dishes...

Han Sheng followed from a distance, walking through the streets through the passing crowd, only seeing the slender figure in front of him.

Watching Li Fan throw away the finished ice cream box, he hesitated for a moment, and couldn't help but went to the cold drink shop to buy another box that was exactly the same. When he removed the lid, his face showed a little childlike satisfaction, and Han Sheng's heart beat After a sudden pause, he thought, so this person has so many cute little hobbies, which are always revealed inadvertently...how come he didn't notice any of them before.

However, he could feel that apart from those details that he hadn't noticed before, there was something different about Li Fan.

He couldn't tell what was different, he just felt uncomfortable.

The weather was bad that day, and he was groggy in the morning. When Han Sheng woke up, it was almost past Li Fan's usual time to go downstairs.He panicked, washed up in a hurry, and ran towards the direction of the community quickly. When he was about to round the corner, he suddenly stopped, and quickly shrank back. Li Fan was just coming out of the iron gate with a bag.

Fortunately, caught up.

Han Sheng followed while breathing slowly.Today Li Fan seems to have a definite destination. I don't know if he has an appointment with someone. He walks in a hurry, and he will take out his phone to check the time from time to time.

After walking for about 10 minutes, Li Fan walked through a deserted small park and entered a building behind the park that looked a bit new.Han Sheng stood at the corner of the street for a while, and after Li Fan's figure completely disappeared, he rushed over quickly.

The moment he saw the signboard on the front of the building, Han Sheng's hands suddenly trembled uncontrollably—it was a private psychological clinic.

Li Fan came to see a psychiatrist.

Han Sheng stared at the words on the signboard, his feet lost strength, he almost escaped from the building, retreated to the corner of the street, leaned against a dirty wall at the entrance of the alley, and gasped for breath.

He suddenly understood what was different about Li Fan, these days, he had never seen Li Fan smile once.

The smiling face that always had crooked eyebrows was gone.

He thought of the piece of paper that Li Kang gave him, thought of those words full of despair, thought of the abyss where Song Dongdong's life ended, the valley that could not be seen without end, and the part where Song Dongdong had just left. For a long time, he went to see it alone many times. Even if he was stopped around and could only look at it from a distance, he still felt scared.

Now, that fear came back, even deeper.He was so scared, if Li Fan also chose to fly into the abyss like that, what would happen to him... He didn't even dare to imagine.

He was stuck in fear all the time, he didn't know how long he stood there, and he didn't know what happened around him, so when Li Fan came out of the clinic and was about to turn the corner of the street, he suddenly realized that he was still standing on the side of the road , had no choice but to rush sideways into the alley in a panic, barely hiding himself with a pile of messy debris.

Because he was too flustered, he didn't pay attention to his feet, and kicked a metal pipe. There was a crisp bang, and the echo could be heard throughout the alley.Han Sheng lifted it to his throat.

However, Li Fan didn't seem to notice at all, and left at a faster pace.

In fact, Han Sheng has always been very clumsy with people. After all, he is inexperienced and has a skeleton that will stand out in the crowd, so he is easy to see through.Several times, even Han Sheng himself felt that he had been exposed, and he was mentally prepared to be discovered. He wondered if Li Fan was too sloppy, and let him slip by every time.

He had been thinking this way until he followed all the way in the rain, returned to the gate of the community, and saw Li Fan put down his umbrella and squatted on the ground pretending to tie his shoelaces.

Li Fan went upstairs, but the umbrella stayed where it was.

Han Sheng looked at the sky, as if it was still going to rain.Then he knew that Li Fan had discovered him a long time ago.

He picked up the umbrella and stood under the loquat tree for a long time as usual, until the kitten who was out to play ran into the flower bed, he moved his stiff ankle and walked towards the low unit door.

Finally, he was going to see him.