Little mortals' dreams come true

Just when he thought he was going to waste his youth silently by such a person, Li Fan received a call from his middle school dance teacher.

In the first year of junior high school, because of his slender body and good flexibility, Li Fan was selected by the school teacher in charge of cultural and sports activities to perform a classical dance.At the beginning, Li Fan was forced to join because he didn't know how to refuse. After practicing a few times, he found that his heart was slowly opened.He didn't know that he could dance such an elegant and beautiful dance after struggling in the mud.God seems to have mistakenly given him this ugly duckling a talent, many difficult movements, he practiced a few times, and he was able to do them more easily than others.

Not long after, Li Fan was transferred from the last row to the front, and was even recommended to learn a solo dance.The classmates who were picked together with him were extremely envious, but Li Fan didn't feel much about it.He didn't care about those chances to show off, he just suddenly found a gap to express his emotions.

When he stretched his arms and leaped lightly, he could feel the emotions accumulated in his heart flowing along the blood vessels to every corner of his body, and then he was thrown into the air with his jump, disappearing in the soft hem of his clothes. in the wind.

Later, because of that solo dance, Li Fan turned from a little transparent to a star in an instant at school.Although the popularity didn't last long, Li Fan made a few friends as a result.After the rehearsal was over, the style teacher took him to the dance studio founded by his wife Lin Ke. After seeing Li Fan's figure display, Lin Ke refused to let him go without saying anything, and clamored to accept him as a disciple.

Li Fan was frightened by Lin Ke's enthusiasm, but at the same time he couldn't stop being moved from the bottom of his heart. This was the first time he felt such warm approval.Although he didn't really learn from a teacher, Li Fan would practice with Lin Ke whenever he had time.Although Lin Ke has a careless temper like a child, he is unequivocal when practicing kung fu.Because of her strictness, Li Fan has made great progress, and her interest in classical dance has also become stronger.

During those days, Li Fan really felt the feeling of being alive for the first time.Almost, Li Fan thought he could live like this forever.

Li Fan has always been uncertain about his own sexual orientation.Because he is used to being alone, Li Fan is indifferent to the people around him, and even when he makes friends later, it is also in a state of indifferent friendship between gentlemen.Li Fan once thought that he just didn't like to communicate with others, and that's why he didn't develop a good impression of beautiful girls like other boys at the age when he should be in love.

Until later, Li Fan inadvertently watched a slightly larger-scale homosexual movie. When the two men's intertwined gasps broke into his ears, Li Fan felt as if he had been hit in the head suddenly. Something in the innermost layer suddenly exploded, occupying every inch of the body in an instant.

It should have been a secret forever.

Li Fan carefully hid it.

After entering high school, he couldn't practice with Lin Ke for a long time. In order to keep his body soft, Li Fan insisted on doing some basic exercises every day before going to bed.Sometimes when he is tired of studying and stretching, he habitually makes a gesture commonly used in classical dance on his fingertips to move his stiff fingertips.

When the rumor broke out suddenly, Li Fan had no idea.By the time he found out, those rumors had spread to every corner.At first, he stretched halfway and found several heads in front of him staring straight at him, then turned back the moment he met his gaze, and then gradually got together again, muttering about something.Li Fan is not stupid, he knows what they mean, he just doesn't bother to pay attention.But gradually, those speculations behind the scenes turned into conclusions, and then sarcasm without concealment in front of them.

"Look at that, that's the one. I heard that I practice orchid fingers alone from time to time, tsk tsk tsk..."

"Hey, it can't be gay, it's disgusting."

"It must be, look at his waist, he is more attractive than girls, tsk tsk."

"..."

It doesn't matter, they don't understand, and Li Fan doesn't care if they understand or not.

These words somehow reached the ears of Li Fan's homeroom teacher. Teacher Huang, the homeroom teacher, is a rigid feudal person, so he couldn't bear these words, so he immediately called Li Fan's mother.

No matter how powerful the rumors are, they are only rumors after all.As long as Li Fan insists on denying it, the matter is still inconclusive.But at that time, Li Fan hated his mother's cowardice to the extreme. When he saw her humiliated expression in the office, Li Fan's heart was suddenly covered with vines with poisonous thorns.

"Yeah, they're right, I just like guys, I'm gay."

Li Fan finished speaking calmly, no matter how much his mother insulted and threatened him, he lowered his head and didn't say a word.Li Fan bit his lip, his eyes were scarlet.He didn't listen to a word of his mother's insults, he just repeated a thought from beginning to end.

Yes, that's right, I'm the stain you can never wash off.

From then on, the way his mother looked at him was filled with disgust besides indifference.

Li Fan no longer expects to have the warmth of a mother's love, he has learned to resist indifference with indifference.But he didn't expect that his mother would go to Teacher Lin and use Uncle Li's influence to force Teacher Lin to close the dance studio.When Li Fan knew about this, Mr. Lin's family had already left the area without even saying goodbye to him.

Fortunately, there was no goodbye, Li Fan hugged himself under the quilt, how could he have the face to say a word to the teacher with a gentle smile.

Just like that, the little light that Li Fan found with great difficulty went out.

He never heard from Teacher Lin again, and he didn't have the face to practice classical dance anymore.

After receiving the call, Li Fan felt as if someone had scratched his pocket full of memories with a knife. In an instant, the dust was flying and the memories were surging.He stood alone under the streetlight for a long time, watching the moths fly towards the orange light with determination.And he, because he has been hiding in the dark for too long, has not dared to approach the light that once guided him.

However, when he saw Mr. Lin sitting in the cafe with one hand lightly resting on his protruding belly, all the turbulent emotions in Li Fan's heart suddenly calmed down.

Li Fan sat across from him, looking at Teacher Lin's familiar gentle smile, he couldn't recover.Finally, Lin Ke spoke first:

"Xiaofan, you have grown a lot taller."

"Ah, is that right? Mr. Lin, you haven't changed much, um, no, that..."

Looking at Li Fan who was stuttering because of nervousness, Lin Ke smiled and pointed to his stomach, saying:

"It's changed a lot. Look, isn't it obvious?"

"That's right, congratulations!"

Li Fan looked at Lin Ke's appearance of being wrapped in the light of happiness because he was about to become a mother, and his tension eased a lot.The two looked at each other, maybe at the same time they remembered Lin Ke's bluffing in the past, and laughed together.This smile instantly filled the gap between them for several years.

"Mr. Lin, at that time..."

Before Li Fan could finish speaking, he was interrupted.

"Xiao Fan, what happened at that time was not your fault. You were brave, really. Although it has been so long, I still want to tell you that loving someone has nothing to do with gender, and I hope you can find someone you really love , and be happy forever."

Li Fan's eye sockets were a little hot, and his hand on the coffee cup was tightened.

"But your studio, really, I'm sorry..."

"Actually, my studio shouldn't have continued at that time. At that time, there were some funding problems, and it was barely maintained. It's just that my husband saw that I liked it, so he couldn't bear to ask me to close it, but it caused him a lot. At that time, I was so focused on dancing that I never cared about his ideas. So the studio was closed, not all because of that incident. In fact, it’s okay to close it, I found a lot of things that I ignored important things. Otherwise, I wouldn't have Xiaobao either."

Lin Ke moved his hand on his lower abdomen, his eyes were full of tenderness.The tears in the corners of Li Fan's eyes finally couldn't help falling down, the tears seemed to weigh a thousand catties, and as soon as they left the eye sockets, most of the weight on Li Fan's heart disappeared immediately.

"By the way, it's important to see you this time."

As he spoke, Lin Ke took out the tablet in his bag, clicked on a video and handed it to Li Fan.

The video is an ancient style dance, which seems to have been recorded a long time ago, and the background is still the studio that has been closed.

"Do you like this dance?"

"It's beautiful, I like it very much."

"This is a dance I choreographed when I first started the studio. Because of this dance, I caught up with my husband, who is your junior high school style teacher, hehe. At the end of next month, there will be a charity performance in the city, and he is also One of the person in charge. I heard that it will be held in the auditorium of your university this year. I really want to dance for him again, but you can see that I can’t dance in my current state. I’ve thought about it for a long time, but I feel that if you can dance this dance for me, the two of us will be very touched."

Seeing Mr. Lin's expectant eyes, Li Fan was caught off guard and flustered.Thinking of his current state, he lowered his head.

"Well, but, I haven't danced for a long time, and now I don't dance anymore."

"It's okay, there are no difficult moves in this dance. If it were you, you would definitely be able to dance very well. Xiaofan, can you do me this favor?"

"But……"

Li Fan wanted to say something else, but Lin Ke reached out to shake Li Fan's hand, and looked at him with a smile.Li Fan hesitated for a while, but finally couldn't bear to live up to this gentle expectation, and nodded in agreement.

He knew in his heart that this was helping Teacher Lin, and even more so, helping himself.

Back at school, Li Fan immediately started preparing for practice.Mr. Lin is right, this dance is not very technically difficult, but more of a catharsis of emotion.But in order to live up to Teacher Lin's expectations, he still dare not slack off in practice.