Raiders of Bai Yueguang actor

Since it was a cameo, the total number of scenes was only a few 10 minutes, and the filming was concentrated. Su Jingci only stayed on the crew for more than a week before wrapping up.

He didn't take any dramas during this period, Gao Fengyi only arranged some odd jobs for him, such as magazine shooting, endorsement commercial shooting, and interviews. Gao Fengyi refused on the grounds that he didn't like the way the variety show was filmed, so he didn't force it.

He used to be Su Jingci's manager, and occasionally put pressure on him to take some jobs that he didn't like but were necessary. Basically don't care about anything.

Su Jingci didn't like to be followed by people, he didn't even give him an assistant, Gao Fengyi occasionally teased himself as the most insignificant agent in the world, the only one who was very cautious in managing public opinion and public image, He didn't want Su Jingci to repeat the mistakes of the past and be hurt by these unnecessary things.

At the same time, under the guidance of Tang Miao, Su Jingci began to gradually reduce the use of antidepressant drugs, step by step until she stopped taking them completely.

After Su Jingci finished filming, Wen Zhengyan continued to film for more than ten days, and the entire crew also wrapped up. He was called back by Mrs. Wen just after work, and went to Lin City to visit his sick aunt. Si porridge, put it in a thermos and drove to Su Jingci's place.

As soon as he arrived at Su Jingci's house, he saw a pile of scattered cup fragments on the ground, and Su Jingci was picking up the fragments one by one and putting them in his palm.

Wen Zhengyan hurriedly put down the things, walked over and pulled his hand away, carefully removed all the glass shards in his hand and threw them away, saying, "You are so stupid? Why are you still picking it up with your hands?"

He asked Su Jingci to sit down, cleaned up the debris with a broom, and then poured a glass of water for Su Jingci, "What's wrong?"

Su Jingci shook her head, "It's okay, it's just a miss."

Wen Zhengyan noticed the few pills scattered on the table, and said in a deep voice, "You tell me the truth."

Su Jingci pressed her eyebrows wearily, "I just couldn't help but want to find some medicine, but I was so angry that I dropped the cup."

Wen Zhengyan consulted a psychological counselor before and found out that people who take antidepressant drugs for a long time will experience withdrawal reactions within a period of time after stopping the drugs, such as insomnia, anxiety, nervousness, or can’t help but go back to taking drugs due to mood swings , but it usually resolves on its own within a week or two.

This is the second day after Su Jingci stopped taking the medicine completely. It is normal to have these reactions. Wen Zheng put the pills back into the box and threw them in the corner calmly. He opened the thermos and took two A bowl filled with porridge, then fed it to his mouth with a spoon, and coaxed: "What kind of medicine are you taking? The medicine is so unpalatable. Let's drink porridge. I specially asked someone to make it for you. I will drink it with you." .”

Su Jingci forced a smile, took the spoon, "I'll do it myself."

Wen Zhengyan looked at him smiling, feeling uncomfortable in his heart, he sighed, "If you don't want to laugh, then don't laugh, I don't have to see you smile," he pinched Su Jingci's face, "And do you smile or not?" They all look good."

Su Jingci glanced at him, and finished the porridge silently, Wen Zhengyan was relieved. For the next day, he paid close attention to Su Jingci almost all the time, for fear that something might happen to him, even at night. Even in sleep, she dreamed that Su Jingci committed suicide again, and then suddenly woke up.

Wen Zhengyan was frightened into a cold sweat by the nightmare, got up hastily, and opened the door of Su Jingci's room, but there was no one on the bed.

His heart sank violently, and he ran to the bathroom again. Seeing that there was no one in there, when he walked quickly to the living room, he suddenly saw Su Jingci sitting barefoot on the ground near the balcony with her knees hugged, leaning up slightly. head on.

The curtains in the living room were not closed, and the moonlight came in from the window and fell on him. Su Jingci's thin back looked extremely fragile, as if it would melt into the moonlight at any time, leaving no trace.

Wen Zhengyan's heart slowly returned to its original position, followed by a faint pain.

Instead of making Su Jingci stand up, he sat beside him and asked softly, "What are you thinking? Don't hide your worries from your boyfriend."

Su Jingci turned her head around, saw that it was him, smiled, then turned her head away again.

The air was silent for half a minute, and Su Jingci's voice sounded slowly, he said, "Zhengyan, do you know what I've been thinking about during the past few years of illness?"

"what?"

Su Jingci's voice was still as sweet as spring water, "I've been thinking, why is it me?"

"I'm gay, but am I really doing something wrong?"

"Xiao Nan is my friend for four years in college. I have never done anything wrong to him, but he showed the media a photo of me and Ji Chen. Ji Chen was my boyfriend at the time, but he could have done it when something happened. I didn’t hesitate to give up on me when I was acting for so long, I thought that I have never failed a role, and I have never been ashamed of an audience, but they can wantonly accuse me when they don’t know the truth, even my parents, "

He paused, his voice choked up, but he continued, "They don't want me anymore."

Wen Zhengyan remained silent, but his heart ached like being cut by a blunt knife.

Even after he knew about his illness, Su Jingci never said these things to him, never complained to anyone, but faced with such a thing, she obviously did nothing wrong, but fell into the Betrayed by friends, abandoned by lovers, ruined career, rejected by family members, who can really have no resentment?

He held Su Jingci in his arms, and lightly kissed him between his brows. He paused every word, and said with absolute certainty: "No, you are not wrong."

"But just because you've done nothing wrong, you can't punish yourself with these things."

Su Jingci calmed down for a while, and then said: "So I always dig into the horns and ask myself this question over and over again. At that time, I drank a lot, smoked, and was drunk every day, because as long as I was awake, I would fall into this problem. I couldn’t get out of it, so that I thought later, it’s better not to be alive, and if I die, I don’t have to face these anymore. Anyway, what I miss the most in this world has left me.”

"But now I understand that these are not questions of right or wrong. Not everything in the world has a reason. He just happened, and when it happened, he had to get over it. Just like my illness, I had to take medicine when I got sick. And treatment, but if I still have a little reconciliation and want to move forward, I have to take this step, as long as I work harder, just step forward, and leave those past behind, I can still go on.”

The corners of Wen Zhengyan's eyes were already wet, and he kissed Su Jingci's hair over and over again, "Yes, you have stepped over, you have come over, Su Jingci, you did a good job, those things have been left behind In the past, they won't follow you anymore."

"Won't follow me anymore..."

Su Jingci clenched his skirt tightly, and suddenly smiled, "You're right, I won them, and I'm here."

After a while, he shook his head in Wen Zhengyan's arms, "Zhengyan, originally, I was the last thing you wanted to let you see me like this."

Wen Zhengyan touched his face, "No, if I can't even share your saddest moments, what's the point of us being together? Su Jingci, you have to know that there will be countless ups and downs in our lives in the future. It won't be so easy for us to go smoothly all the time, but in the future, I will go through with you every time there is a bumpy road, and I will not let you go alone."

Su Jingci nodded slightly, and said, "I will be with you too, Zhengyan, I will be with you too."

Wen Zhengyan picked him up, put him gently on the bed, then lay down beside him, covered him with the quilt, hugged him in his arms, and whispered in his ear: "Go to sleep, there will be no nightmares. gone."

Su Jingci closed her eyes in his arms and had a dreamless sleep all night.

Every night after that, Wen Zhengyan would hug him to sleep. Su Jingci used to sleep very lightly. It should be difficult for him to fall asleep when someone is around him, but for some reason, he fell asleep very quickly when he was next to Wen Zhengyan. I don't have nightmares, and I feel at ease every day.

Su Jingci's withdrawal reaction lasted for more than a week and she recovered completely. During the process, Wen Zhengyan was always by his side. It happened that after half a month, Tang Miao came back from abroad to deal with some family matters. I met in a friend's consulting room.

At this time, Wen Zhengyan has already joined the new film crew, he is the male lead of the commercial film that he had negotiated before, but the filming location of this film is in Rongcheng and its surrounding areas, so whenever he has time, he will drive to Su Jingci's house, When she learned from Su Jingci that he was going to see Tang Miao, she originally wanted to ask for leave and come with him, but was stopped by Su Jingci, saying that she was fine, so don't delay work because of this.

After finishing the consultation, Tang Miao sent him out. It was four o'clock in the afternoon, and the golden sunlight shone on the white corridor. After Tang Miao said goodbye, she called him back again, and then hugged him gently. , she patted Su Jingci on the back and said with a smile, "You must be happy."

Su Jingci also smiled, "I will work hard."

She watched Su Jingci's figure disappear at the end of the corridor, covered with a touch of sunlight.

A few days later, Tang Miao received a call from Wen Zhengyan, saying that she hoped to meet and chat with him. The person on the phone couldn't help but smile bitterly, saying that Su Jingci stopped her from seeing her, and she asked for it from Meng Xiaochun. The call came secretly.

Tang Miao has always been very curious about this man, Su Jingci's boyfriend. Of course, she has known about this popular actor on TV or the Internet-in fact, she can't see it even if she wants to. In the most conspicuous location of the city.

But she was full of curiosity about the Wen Zhengyan that Su Jingci said, and wanted to know what kind of person Su Jingci could like so much.

For convenience, the two made an appointment to meet at the literary bar opened by Wen Zhengyan's friend. During the day, there were almost no people there. Tang Miao arrived a few minutes first, and after a while, he saw a man come in from the outside, sitting opposite her and apologized saying today There are some traffic jams in the urban area, and you shouldn't let the lady wait for you.

Tang Miao sized him up for a while, and said affirmatively, "Your real person is the same as what Jingci said."

"What did he say about me?" Wen Zheng raised his eyebrows.

"Very handsome." Tang Miao said.

Wen Zhengyan smiled, it was the first time he heard Su Jingci's evaluation of himself from others.

Tang Miao didn't drink, and Wen Zhengyan still had to work for a while, so the two of them drank lemonade and chatted strangely in the bar.

As soon as Tang Miao came up, she said bluntly: "First of all, according to our professional code, we can't disclose the privacy of patients. I can only tell you some general information."

Wen Zhengyan nodded, "I understand, I just want to know if he... is he okay now."

Tang Miao affirmed: "Jingci's medicine has been stopped, and we usually give such advice when the patient's condition improves significantly, so you don't have to worry, and his mood is also very stable recently, if you maintain the current The situation will be cured soon.”

Wen Zhengyan asked: "Then, will there be a relapse in the future?"

Tang Miao shook her head, "None of us can say for sure, maybe it will, maybe it won't, no one can say for sure."

Seeing Zhengyan's worried expression, she couldn't help saying: "But I still have great confidence in Jingci, especially after he is with you, the progress of his illness is very gratifying."

She lowered her head and smiled, "You have to know that Su Jingci used to be the most troublesome patient in the nursing home."

"Many depressed patients have social barriers, and some are accompanied by anxiety and irritability, but he is not. He is very calm, very polite to people, and he is very considerate in dealing with others. He is so considerate that he can hardly be seen as a The patient, however, is such a person, who committed suicide three times during his recuperation."

Wen Zhengyan's hands trembled violently, Tang Miao looked at his expression and said, "What's the matter? Neither he nor Mr. Meng have ever told you about this?"

Wen Zhengyan shook his head with pale lips, "No."

Tang Miao sighed, "Actually, they don't need to hide it from you, especially since you are such an important person to Su Jingci."

When he was in the nursing home, Su Jingci, as Tang Miao said, was a very calm patient. He used this calmness to confuse everyone around him, and then silently looked for every possible opportunity to kill himself.

He threw himself into the lake while taking the nurse away. He bypassed the nurse at night and climbed to the top floor intending to jump. Fortunately, he was found by the inspector before he was carried down. The last time, he obeyed the medicine he received from other patients. One hundred sleeping pills came, and then he was sent for gastric lavage. That was the closest he was to death, and it took a long time to rescue him.

As Meng Xiaochun said, at that time, he really didn't want to live anymore, he gave up resentment, gave up struggling, and just tried his best to seek a relief for himself.

However, after this time, he suddenly stopped looking for death, and later he told Tang Miao that he was only on the edge of death, and suddenly felt a little bit of unwillingness, and it was this bit of unwillingness that pulled him back.

It was also after that time that Su Jingci began to really cooperate with the treatment.

Wen Zhengyan felt a surge of fear, he subconsciously touched the cigarette in his pocket with trembling hands, and when he was about to light it, he realized that there was a lady sitting opposite him. Just as he was about to put it back, Tang Miao shook her head slightly, "It's okay, I don't mind, I understand how you feel."

Wen Zhengyan lit a cigarette, took a deep breath, and Tang Miao said: "But you will take care of Jingci in the future, don't let him smoke, because what he did to himself before, his health is very bad now. , need more attention."

Wen Zhengyan nodded, still looking out of control. Seeing his appearance, Tang Miao suddenly said, "Actually, you don't have to be too scared, because after seeing you today, I suddenly feel that Jingci should not I will never do such extreme things again.”

Seeing the puzzled look in the other party's eyes, Tang Miao smiled and explained: "His dependence and trust in you is beyond my expectation."

"It is difficult for ordinary people to trust someone after suffering setbacks in love, so we usually help the patient rebuild his confidence in intimate relationships in the treatment of depression, but Su Jingci is different. After that, I can still love you wholeheartedly, dedicate myself without reservation, and leave no way out."

She joked: "So you must not let him down!"

Wen Zhengyan said slowly: "No, I won't."

Tang Miao was just joking. As soon as she saw Zhengyan, she knew that this person would never hurt Su Jingci, but was too nervous about Su Jingci. From this perspective, the two were a perfect match.

She looked down at her watch, "I have other things, let's stop here today, if there is anything wrong with Jingci in the future, you can also contact me."

I stuck out my tongue again, "Actually, I said a lot of things I shouldn't have said today, but I think this should be good for him, just treat me as just his friend today."

When the two got up to say goodbye, Wen Zhengyan suddenly held her hand tightly and said, "Thank you, Dr. Tang, if you need my help with anything in the future, please don't hesitate to ask me. As long as I can do it, I will definitely accept it." .”

Tang Miao looked at him and smiled, "This is what I should do, and sometimes, I even feel that you are the one who cured my patients, which really makes me feel a little unfulfilled."

Wen Zhengyan smiled, sent Tang Miao away, then immediately called Su Jingci, and after learning that he was shooting a magazine, he rushed over without stopping.

When he arrived, Su Jingci was taking the last group of photos, wearing a beige sweater and white trousers, standing in front of a cooking table, lowering her head and sniffing the orange flowers in front of her.

This Su Jingci looks so warm and soft that it is unbelievable. Anyone who looks at the person in front of him should never think that he was so determined to erase himself from this world.

Su Jingci had already seen him, and made a gesture for him to sit by himself during the shooting, and then continued to work. After the work was over, she gave Wen Zhengyan a look, and then walked to the dressing room.

Wen Zhengyan followed behind him without saying a word, and Su Jingci noticed that Wen Zhengyan seemed to have something to say to her, so she dismissed the staff.

When he arrived at the dressing room, he closed and locked the door, and when he turned around, Wen Zhengyan hugged him.

Wen Zhengyan's force was so strong that he seemed to want to rub the person into her arms, Su Jingci stroked his back and asked softly: "What's wrong?"

Wen Zhengyan gritted his teeth next to his ear, and said word by word: "You can't, you can't leave me."

Just as Su Jingci was about to say something, she heard him say, "I went to see Dr. Tang today."

Su Jingci was stunned for a moment, then he understood in his heart, he hugged Wen Zhengyan back, and said softly but firmly: "I promise you, I won't hurt myself again in the future."

"Don't lie to me." Wen Zhengyan emphasized.

"I kid you not."

Wen Zhengyan still refused to let go of him, as if he wanted to use this method to pull back Su Jingci who had been lingering behind the gate of hell for a long time, and stay by his side thoroughly and forever.

Su Jingci smiled, and then said: "Do you think I'm willing to let you go?"

He said slowly: "I told you that day, at the beginning, I didn't understand why those things happened to me. In fact, I haven't figured it out completely now, but I think, if all this is Met with you, with you, then I don't care, I don't think about anything, I let myself go, about those pasts, "

He paused, as if he let out a long sigh of relief from his clenched teeth.

"I forgive everything."