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Friday, August 2018, 9

This Friday, there will be a lot of idle things and it will delay some time. For example, after get off work in the afternoon, I drove directly to Ruan Xinhe's mother to pick up people and go home, and I was kept for dinner.

His mother made pork rib soup, fried a fish and braised beef brisket in red at night. I was depressed at the dinner table. His mother probably thought that this person lived with me and was hungry, so he made it for others in different ways. something to eat.

His mother really doesn't like me very much. If I hadn't been around when Ruan Xinhe came out with his mother, his mother might have hacked me to death with a knife on the spot. It has gotten better in recent years, and Ruan Xinhe is not very good. Always make me meet the fuck.

After his grandfather passed away, the visits between the two families during the Chinese New Year did not go away very much. In recent years, he and I have been going back to each other’s homes during the Chinese New Year. I don’t want to take him back to my house to meet my family or to be curious. Or any random look, I think that's fine.

After the meal, his mother insisted that I take home the unfinished dishes. She said that she usually couldn’t eat so much at home alone, and it would be a waste to leave it alone. She also said that Ruan Xinhe and I must be too lazy to cook at home on weekends. Meal, eating takeaway is not as good as hot and ready-to-eat dishes.

Ruan Xinhe's father and his mother divorced when he was in college, and his father has re-established a family. His mother has been alone for so many years. I sat in the living room and peeked at his mother who was busy in the kitchen alone. Carefully tidying up the mess we just ate, watching me suddenly feel lonely for my mother.

After Ruan Xinhe finished packing, he stretched out his legs and slumped into the sofa. I poked him and said, "Go and wash the dishes with your mother and tidy up your things."

He was lowering his head to play mobile games, and took a look in his busy schedule: "My mother won't let me wash the dishes, it's a waste of time."

I turned my head to see that he was "eating chicken" and looked at my watch. It was only past eight o'clock: "Why don't you stay at home for a few more days?"

"Huh?" He put down his phone and looked at me.

I said, "It just so happens that I'm going home to stay for a few days."

He put the phone aside: "What do you mean?"

I pointed to the kitchen: "Your mother is at home alone, please stay with me."

He glanced at the kitchen, opened his voice and shouted: "Mom, don't be so busy, just sit and rest for a while, let me and Dou Cheng clean up."

His mother also pulled her voice back: "What will you two pack?"

He stuffed the phone into my hand, stood up from the sofa and walked towards the kitchen. He is used to coaxing people. I faintly heard him say some good things there again. I lowered my head and played games for him for a while, and then quickly I was killed by a single shot. After exiting the game, I put his phone on the coffee table, stood up and walked to the kitchen, stood at the door and watched Ruan Xinhe sticking to his mother and acting like a baby, I coughed: "Auntie, I forgot tonight If my mother needs me, I will leave first."

His mother turned around and looked at me: "Is there nothing wrong?"

I said: "No, no, maybe I haven't gone back to see her for a long time, let me go back."

His mother said oh, and then began to point at his son: "Why don't you pack up your things and get out?"

Seeing Ruan Xinhe's frowning look, I felt happy and stopped him: "No, no, I'll stay at home for two days, let him stay with you for a while."

His mother frowned bitterly: "He's in trouble, hurry up and stop."

Ruan Xinhe called out to his mother very aggrieved.

In the end, I returned home with Ruan Xinhe, some unfinished dishes, and a few jars of fucking special chili sauce for dinner.

Ruan Xinhe went home and stuffed things into the refrigerator, then got into the bathroom to take a shower, and when he came out, he weighed himself on purpose: "Damn it, my mother gained four catties in a week when I went home."

I leaned over to look at the scale, and nodded: "Go and take a shit, see if you can pull out three catties."

He threw himself on the bed: "I've fucking pulled it over."

I couldn't help laughing twice, he lifted his pajamas and looked down: "Are your abdominal muscles gone?"

On the way to [-], the metabolism slowed down significantly. When I was studying with Ruan Xinhe, I always told each other that the other party was a telephone pole. No matter how much we ate, we would not grow a piece of meat. Now we have to be vigilant about our weight problems. up.

I pressed his belly: "Did you ever have that fucking thing?"

Ruan Xinhe rolled around on the bed, turned his head to look at me, and groaned twice: "***."

I ignored him and turned to go to the wardrobe to get clothes and go to the bathroom to take a shower.

I came out of the shower and sat at the desk to turn on the computer and prepare to write a diary. Ruan Xinhe was lying on the bed while playing games and asked me what I was doing. I said I was writing a diary, and he asked what to write.

I said to keep a diary, and I said that you suggested that I keep a diary.

He lay on the bed and laughed: "Then did you write anything about me?"

I said, "I wrote that the one you love and the one I love will die or live. I can't drive you away."

He fucked up: "Can something like a diary be fabricated? Dou Cheng didn't expect that you would even lie to yourself. After all, who loves who so much that you can't drive him away?"

I can't be bothered to talk to him.

He probably doesn't care about me anymore.

It stands to reason that today's writing should be finished here, but when I was just about to close the document, he hummed twice in the back: "Okay, okay, I love you so much that I can't drive you away, right? "

I just glanced back at him. He was leaning on the bedside and fiddling with his mobile phone with his eyes lowered. He was in the same mental state as he used to for many days.

When I looked away, I somehow remembered the incident when I was seven or eight years old when my school organized a trip to watch a movie about maternal love in a movie theater near my home and got lost.

At that time, my mother was just 30 years old, and she probably hadn't changed from the role of a girl to the identity of a mother. Of course, neither did my father.They work hard all day during the day, and the rest time at night is completely their own for them and should not be dominated by anyone.

They have the right to do what they love in their free time.

For a long time in my primary school, my mother was sleeping on her mahjong table and I was lying on her lap.

When I was seven or eight years old, I got lost when I came out of the movie theater. No one knew about it except me, and even I almost forgot about such a small thing.

Let’s not talk about how that movie was, and let’s not talk about how it made some people who may not even be able to write their own names, including my brother Zhang Han and Ruan Xinhe, cry so much that they can’t help themselves.

I left the movie theater at the end of the show, said goodbye to my classmates and teachers, and went home.

The distance from the school to my home is about 5 minutes, and the distance from the cinema to the school is about 3 minutes.

I walked in the opposite direction for more than 20 minutes, thinking for a long time-why the alley to go home has not arrived yet, and where is the alley to go home.

The sun was about to set, and the sunset was hanging out. I walked to a very wide avenue. There were no cars on our road in the past [-] years. A man on a tricycle slipped past me. feel strange.

At this moment, I still remember the feeling of being eroded by the strangeness, which caused me to walk more and more slowly. I looked back at the way I came from countless times, and turned suddenly in the direction of the intersection.

I just mentioned to Ruan Xinhe that I seemed to get lost when I was young, on a sunny evening when the school organized a movie watching.

Ruan Xinhe said casually on the bed: "Then how did you find your way home in the end?"

I said: "I walked for a long time and found that the surroundings were very strange, and then I turned around and walked back."

Ruan Xinhe said: "Then you get lost when you go out in the future, I will go to the billboard tens of meters high in the building in the green space near us to advertise for you - Dou Cheng remember to go home."

"..."

The more he spoke, the more vigorously he said: "I still put up a sign for you at the gate of our house, writing about Dou Cheng's house, and the kind that will emit colorful lights at night, and hang banners and vertical banners for you from the roof of our house— — Warmly welcome Comrade Dou Cheng who lost his way home.”

"Stupid."

"I also want to write that someone is waiting for you at home."

"..."

"No, what if you don't even know the words?"

……

He said: "Then you must remember to hold my hand when you go out in the future."

As usual, I would definitely call him a "stupid", the words came to the edge of my mouth, Ruan Xinhe swiped his phone with his eyes downcast, and said casually: "Actually, you can just stand still."

"I'll come to you," he said.

"I will definitely find you, Dou Cheng."

He snorted after saying two words with such certainty, and moved his eyes from the phone screen to my face: "Which time was I not looking for you?"

I don't know if anyone will suddenly have this kind of feeling. When you suddenly feel loved at a certain moment, you will become a little dazed at that moment, and even become a little unable to control yourself, becoming lethargic. You don't feel quite like your normal self.

Become like a fragile child that you don't want to admit, and the other person will suddenly be like a soft mother and a mature father, filling in some missing moments in your life.