two trees for forest

We always say that you will be born after death, just like fate pushes you from the clouds to the abyss, and the gap is the motivation to inspire you to reborn.And if he is a blunt knife without a sharp edge, cutting you day by day, it is like pushing you from the clouds to the top of the mountain, from the top of the mountain to the flat ground, and from the flat ground to the abyss, the pain gradually disappears, Calluses also grow on the scars, and you will be in a trance. Is the cloud just something you imagined?You slowly succumb to fate, and slowly feel that this is the normal state of life.

You were thrown into death, but you no longer have the courage to go to the next life.

Lin Jian didn't know what kind of joke God was playing with him, every time he fought with great enthusiasm, every time he gave him a fatal blow.

He leaned against the bed with his legs crossed and thought: Did I do something wrong?Do I still have the courage to fight against the water?

Lin Jian stood up and maintained a movement for a long time, and his whole legs and feet became numb.He staggered and hit the table.Lin Dongyu was startled, as if he wanted to come over, Lin Jian had no choice but to bear with his sore leg, sat on the side of the bed, and patted his son's back lightly.

Lin Dongyu gradually fell asleep, Lin Jian seemed to have been withdrawn from his thoughts, and patted his son's back mechanically with his hands, sitting like this for a whole night.

Early the next morning, Lin Jian called Lu Ziyu to tell him not to look for him anymore, and asked Lu Ziyu to help him borrow money.

Lu Ziyu was relieved and teased him: "Finally, you don't have to go into a corner? It would be better if it was earlier. Although it is not enough for all the students' tuition fees, we really don't blame us for this matter. It's okay to ask the police to help you say a few words, and if you don't, you can call IOUs, it doesn’t mean we won’t pay them back.”

Lin Jian replied lazily, "Yeah." He added again worriedly, "Don't go to see Master, I'll go by myself."

"Okay, I wish you could go, I don't know how the teacher will scold me if I go? I don't do my job for a day, do I deserve it?"

Lin Jian didn't talk to Lu Ziyu, and Lu Ziyu didn't feel that he had scolded Lin Jian too. This person has a brain, he is naturally optimistic, and sometimes even a nerve can be used as a rope.

"Okay, then I won't go to you today, remember to call me if you need anything."

Lin Jian agreed and hung up the phone.

At this time, Lin Dongyu also woke up, Lin Jian squeezed out a smile, "Baby, Dad has something to do this morning, can I take you to Grandma Liu first?"

Lin Dongyu rubbed his sleepy eyes and nodded slowly.

When it was delivered to the toy store, Liu Yuling was startled when she saw Dongyu's wrapped arm, "What's wrong, why is Dongyu injured?"

Lin Jian remembered that when he called yesterday, he just told Aunt Liu that he was taking Dongyu home, so he told her about the matter. Grandma Liu burst into tears, blaming himself for not taking good care of Dongyu.

Lin Jiandao: "It's none of your business, it's my fault. Don't blame yourself, it makes me feel ashamed to put Dongyu here again."

Liu Yuling hurriedly said no, no need, took Dong Yu back to the store, and asked casually, "Then, have you father and son eaten?"

Lin Jian was in a hurry to leave, and said casually: "No, please help Dongyu make something casually, and I will buy something to eat on the way."

"Father." Lin Dongyu knew Lin Jian well, knew that he was just an excuse, and was reluctant to buy it at all.He grabbed Lin Jian's sleeve, "Let's go after eating, it won't take long."

"Be good, baby, don't be self-willed." He pinched his son's little ears, "Go and eat, Dad won't be hungry."

Lin Dongyu found that he couldn't hold back Lin Jian at all, so he reluctantly watched him leave.

Lin Jian went to the Sixth Design Institute to look for his master. He felt too busy to speak, so he called the office to ask the master out.

Wang Jie was a little surprised when he received the call from his young apprentice. Knowing that the apprentice was in the restaurant opposite, he left work and left the design institute without saying a word.

"What's the matter, do you want to find Master?" Wang Jie walked quickly, sweating a little, and asked Lin Jian while taking off his coat and putting it on the back of the chair.

Lin Jian stood up and said seriously: "Master, can you lend me 10 yuan." He said that I also felt that my words were a bit unreasonable, "I can write an IOU, and I will return the money to you immediately."

Wang Jie was stunned for a moment, "No, it's not a matter of money or not. Why do you want so much?"

"I feel that I don't have the energy and ability to support my son. I...I want to send him back to the orphanage and leave 10 yuan for him to go to school later. I know I'm such a scumbag, but...but." Lin Jianlow Nodding his head, he whispered, "I don't want him to suffer with me."

Wang Jie didn't know what happened to Lin Jian, "He... wants to go back by himself?"

"No, he is very sensible. It's my problem, I..."

Wang Jie interrupted him with a wave of his hand, "Then what about you? Where are you going?"

Lin Jian didn't want to tell Master to make him worry, so he shook his head, "I don't know, let's take it one step at a time."

"Little bastard! Do you mean to waste such a good talent, and just take a step?" Wang Jie sat down on the seat angrily, "I tell you, get out of here when it's over, or— - Or I will expel you from the teacher's school."

Although it is not a restaurant at the moment, there are still people in the dining room. The guest waiters frequently looked over, but neither of them paid attention. One was criticizing wholeheartedly, while the other listened seriously.

Lin Jian bowed his head for a while, no one knew what he was thinking, and he said after a while: "Okay. Master, I'll listen to you." He pushed the menu in front of Wang Jie, "Then you order, we eat some ?”

"What to eat, whether it is sooner or later, you are full of anger. At the beginning, I told you not to leave, don't leave, you must listen. If you don't listen to the old man, you will suffer?!" Wang Jie supported his head and lived alone. After getting angry for a while, I still feel sorry for this little apprentice, "Pack up your things and follow me to get the money."

Lin Jian followed his master back home to get the passbook, but Lin Jian insisted on writing an IOU, but Wang Jie couldn't resist him and had to let him go.He thought that with Lin Jian's talent and skills, as long as he settled down and worked hard for three or four years without arrogance or rashness, it would be more than enough to pay back his 10 yuan.

It was already noon after the two of them withdrew the money. Lin Jian hadn't eaten since morning, and his stomach was so hungry that he lost consciousness, but he was in a hurry to leave, so he declined Master's kindness.

"The day after tomorrow, I'll give you one day tomorrow to deal with your private affairs, and the day after tomorrow, you'll come to the Design Institute!"

After bidding farewell to Master, Lin Jian rushed to the toy store to pick up Dongyu.At this time, school was over at noon, and there were many children who came to buy things, and Dongyu and Grandma Liu hadn't eaten yet.Lin Jian had no choice but to let go of his own affairs, buy vegetables and cook, and had lunch with his son.

When tidying up, Dongyu sat outside obediently and read his book, and Liu Yuling came in to look for Lin Jian after playing with him for a while.

She lowered her voice, "Lin Jian, have you encountered any difficulties recently? Is the company okay?"

Lin Jian was stunned for a moment, and then smiled subtly, "Something happened, I can solve it."

"Oh, you said that the house leaked because of the continuous night rain." Liu Yuling saw Dongyu's injury this morning, even she, who had only been a grandmother for a few months, felt distressed, let alone his father who raised him?

An accident happened in the company, and her son was also injured. She didn't know how heavy the burden was on the child's shoulders. "If you have any difficulties, you must tell auntie. Auntie's shop has been open for some years. I can't spend much for an old lady. Even if there are no hundreds of thousands, 10,000+ is still available."

After Lin Jian finished washing the dishes, he was wiping them one by one, "It's okay, Auntie, I can handle it myself."

Liu Yuling couldn't say anything more, she shook her head and went to chat with Dong Yu.

She missed her child, no matter how much she can make up for in other people's children, other people's children will never be owned by her.

The tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop, the child wants to support but the relatives don't wait.Although it is not appropriate to say this, the truth is the same.By the time you figure it out, things have already changed.

According to the original plan, Lin Jian went to the orphanage with the 10 yuan in cash and Dongyu from his master in the afternoon.

But it just so happened that a child in the hospital had a congenital heart attack, and the dean rushed him to the hospital.

Lin Jian didn't know whether it was regret or happiness, he sighed with complicated emotions.

Lin Dongyu noticed his expression and felt a little uneasy, "Father, what are we doing here today?"

Lin Jian adjusted his expression, smiled and patted his head, "I'll bring you back to play, my little friend who hasn't seen you for so long, don't you want to?"

"I kind of think about it, but I don't want to if I have my father by my side." Lin Dongyu hurriedly expressed his loyalty.

After a while, he timidly asked out the uneasiness in his heart: "Dad, do you want me anymore?"

He anxiously said: "I... I am easy to take care of, I can help you with housework, I can make money, and I don't have to go to school. As long as... you don't abandon me. "

Lin Jian's eyes were red in an instant, he felt as if someone was holding his heart tightly with his hands, which hurt and suffocated.He should have thought about it earlier, this decision cannot be hidden from Dong Yu, he is so smart and so sensitive.

Lin Jian knelt down halfway, held Dongyu's hand and pulled it to his left chest, feeling the rapid throbbing there, "Baby, Dad is uncomfortable here, don't force Dad, okay?"

Lin Dongyu stared at him blankly, and just let Lin Jian hold his hand, as if he was frightened, and remained motionless.

Lin Jian hugged his son into his arms, choked up and said, "Dad didn't want you, I'm sorry son, but Dad still lied to you, Dad just has something to deal with, so it's inconvenient to take you with you. Don't worry, Dad has dealt with this matter." One thing... If there is a chance, I will pick you up as soon as possible, Dad promises!"

Lin Dongyu slowly put his arms around Lin Jian's shoulders. He went through all the memories in his little head, and found that everything related to Lin Jian was warm.He thought that even if his father didn't come, he could survive his barren childhood with these memories.And when he grows up, when he has the ability to control his own destiny.

At the ends of the earth, he can also find his father.

"Okay. I trust you, Dad."

Because the dean never came back, Lin Jian also knew that this was most likely the last time he and his son got together.Lin Dongyu wanted to stay, but he was also reluctant to leave, the two of them tacitly pushed and pushed until night fell.

The staff of the orphanage had seen Lin Jian and knew the relationship between his mother and the dean, so they vacated a bed for the father and son to rest.

The condition of the orphanage was simple, and the vacated bed was a single bed. No matter how small Lin Dongyu was, the two of them were still extremely crowded.Lin Jian lay on his side, rubbing his son into his arms.Lin Dongyu grabbed Lin Jian's clothes and begged in a low voice, "Dad, don't leave while I'm asleep. I want to watch you go."

Lin Jian patted his son on the back and told him to sleep quickly, which was a tacit consent to this small request.

Early the next morning, Lin Jian got up, took some paper and sat down beside Dongyu to write.

Lin Dongyu actually woke up a long time ago, he just didn't want to face Lin Jian's departure, so he pretended to be asleep, and it was only for a while.Lin Jian didn't finish writing, so he let him go.

At ten o'clock in the morning, Lin Jian really had no time to procrastinate. He woke up his son who was pretending to be asleep, and gently washed his face and brushed his teeth.Then I asked the staff for an envelope, put the written letter in with the letter, sealed it, and handed it to Dongyu.

"Baby, I met the dean's grandma, the first thing to do is to give this to her. Remember?"

Lin Dongyu didn't speak, just nodded.Lin Jian knelt down and kissed his son's forehead, "Then dad is gone, goodbye."

Lin Dongyu sent Lin Jian to the door all the way, watching him slowly disappear from sight without looking back.

He wiped away his tears and thought: I am two years older, and I can live on my own.

Lin Jian, who hadn't turned his head all this time, suddenly vomited while clutching his stomach at the next corner.He thought: It turns out that the pain was so deep that it was so disgusting that he wanted to vomit out all his internal organs.

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